flatbushfag

the artist formerly known as greenptgay

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Body Language of Running The Tongue Over The Teeth or Lips - Nonverbal Body Language Dictionary

Body Language of Running The Tongue Over The Teeth or Lips Cue: Running The Tongue Over The Teeth or Lips. Synonym(s): Tongue To teeth, Lick

me af

[flatbushfag]

my body does not like when i treat it like this and spoiler alert i am *always* doing this on some level.

ok

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its almost 4 am and ill be at work and probably on my last 30mg of adderall left until I refill saturday. fuck that is so obtuse and typical junky joey but its the truth. I didn’t get on here just to get back on my bullshit. i wanted to put thia here to remind myself of shit i want to process at work. i need to get it out for my mental health and my (ungghhhh) soul. maybe just my conscience.

-what happened this weekend

-where im at with mom and jenn

-whats going on with work 

-whats going on with aby and me

-whats going on with my friends and like how many do i have left?

[flatbushfag]

typical junkie!

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just re downloaded the tumblr app bc i am officially a psycho and i cant just do a journal i need to come on here so my 1.5 followers might tune in.

literally just wanted to say i just sat at the toilet for 15 minutes knowing i was gonna throw up but not nauseous enough to and then did 2 thick pasta salad pukes so thick and gross i just ate that blerghhh

[flatbushfag]

life feels strange and sad but really its like same same but dif. l8r

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its almost 4 am and ill be at work and probably on my last 30mg of adderall left until I refill saturday. fuck that is so obtuse and typical junky joey but its the truth. I didn't get on here just to get back on my bullshit. i wanted to put thia here to remind myself of shit i want to process at work. i need to get it out for my mental health and my (ungghhhh) soul. maybe just my conscience.

-what happened this weekend

-where im at with mom and jenn

-whats going on with work 

-whats going on with aby and me

-whats going on with my friends and like how many do i have left?

[flatbushfag]

just fell down the stairs

at my job that are narrow af and slippery bc it's raining. I was holding an empty 6 pan (?) and I slipped backwards when I was walking down the stairs. I ended up on my back and I was trying hard to keep my head forward but in doing so slid pretty hard with my shirt up bare ass back on the stone stairs.

too lazy to get up and take a pic so that's what I can see from where I'm smoking rn. I fell like that at least once before at the subway station near here. there are a few ways I wouldn't be surprised if they were how I died and falling down stairs is pretty high on da list

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i almost killed myself on these stairs again two days ago..

idk i had so much to say but i guesss my main point is im still alive, life is still this bleak and keeping an honest testimony here is something i think i need to recommit to. god i hate myself with the pomp and fucking circumstance on my tumblr getting all verbose but not saying much because of fucking speed, exhaustion, ware n tear. TTY tomorrrow tumblr.

[flatbushfag]

just fell down the stairs

at my job that are narrow af and slippery bc it's raining. I was holding an empty 6 pan (?) and I slipped backwards when I was walking down the stairs. I ended up on my back and I was trying hard to keep my head forward but in doing so slid pretty hard with my shirt up bare ass back on the stone stairs.

too lazy to get up and take a pic so that's what I can see from where I'm smoking rn. I fell like that at least once before at the subway station near here. there are a few ways I wouldn't be surprised if they were how I died and falling down stairs is pretty high on da list

[flatbushfag]

my priorities are all fucked up

to say the very least

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“Rough sleeping”

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lol @work

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drug addict question of the day: do I take my Adderall next month or sell it. is it helping or is it triggering. idk lol

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took 40 mg of Adderall today to get thru work (which I was almost an hour late to after my roommate woke me up 30 mins before my shift. I just took my sleepy pills. look at my fucking pupils yeesh.

I want this Tumblr to be so many things like what livejournal used to be or even just like something public that I can write in and just expose myself (not my pp). like I want to treat this like my real journal but I'm not being completely transparent on every level with my roommates (who don't know but also haven't asked and aren't policing me) that I've been taking adderall regularly. I might start bridging the Gap by making private posts. ok

I was thinking about my mom on the subway home from work and I am again now and I miss her and wish I had something to show for my life for her to be proud of or a family or a man or a rich man or literally anything.

ok bye 4 now

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