I’ve been feeling terrible since last week. Probably since Mercury is in retrograde. Or maybe because my body needs a break. Whatever it is, it gets me worked up especially for someone who desperately needs to be productive 24/7. 😂 (Says the yogi lol)
Because of this, I end up sitting with my thoughts, overthinking nonstop. Small things unnecessarily blow up to big things in my head and consume me. To the point that I can’t get out of bed. I hate that feeling of being weighed down by my emotions.
I think the biggest thing stressing me out right now is being judged or hated by people I know. It’s like I’m back to high school again.
Because of the person I am, my self esteem issues and my anxiety up to this day make me crave for validation and acceptance in unhealthy ways. Add the lovely social media world, it’s just disaster. I am unhappy that I am the way I am, but this is who I am and there’s only so much I can do at this point to help myself.
I hate that the opinions of others bother me so much. The mere fact that I even care about it gets on my nerves. In another world, I would have no fucks to give, but I am not in that world. 😔
All I’ve been doing to help myself get through this phase is remembering a few quotes which I hope can help you too.
・”Small minds talk about people. Big minds talk about events. Great minds talk about ideas.” - The reason why I share this is because there are times I want to be accepted into groups even when it goes against my values. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t kind of feeling. That’s why when this quote popped in my head recently, it was perfect. I felt slightly relieved to know that my intuition was right and it’s better to continue on my own path and avoid toxic situations.
・”Hurt people, hurt people.”- This quote helps me replace feelings of anger with compassion knowing that there is always a reason behind people’s actions and words.
・”Be the change you wish to see in the world.”- Always a favorite of mine. This reminds me that my actions, words, and thoughts should always remain kind and loving. Treat everyone how I wish to be treated.
・”Work smart, not hard.”- Helps me feel better to not be working 24/7. I can take breaks and rest every now and then and it’s okay.
・”In 5 years, it won’t even matter to you. You might even forget about it.”- This is another big one. In 5 years, I might not even remember this person. I might not even care about this situation anymore. When you’re in any crisis, just ask yourself, in 5 years, will you still feel the same way about it? If not, then just let it go.
Lastly, just reminding myself to trust the universe and what it has in store for me. Sometimes these events unfold out of my control. The best thing I can do is to process what I’m going through right now and I’m pretty sure in a few weeks, I’ll be feeling brand new again.
“Once you learn how to be happy, you won’t tolerate being around people who make you feel anything less.”
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