I feel like this goes without saying but I think I wanna state this publicly
My account is a safe space for EVERYONE and I love everyone who follows me no matter what.
I do NOT accept any discrimination and if you are homophobic, transphobic or racist, please leave my blog as I dont think a bisexual, trans man is the kind of person you should follow if you feel that way.
lol I lied here it is. its a raven boys au I have no intention of finishing but here you go - the infamous drive scene from The Dream Thieves which set my standards for romance. Enjoy.
------------
Varian had had just about enough of everyone around him. He knew it was late, the sun in the distance painting the sky in an ombre of red and orange and yellow in the west, and the inky darkness of the east beginning to take over the sky, but he just needed to get out. It didn’t help that having Rapunzel, Cass, Eugene, Red, Lance and Catalina in the house made it feel as claustrophobic as ever. With a frown, he snuck downstairs, to the shared phone the house used and dialled the one number he never thought he would for a getaway.
“Goggles?” Hugo replied after a little yawn. Varian felt his breath catch in his throat, something in his chest tightening at the sound. Shit.
“Take me out?” He asked softly.
—------------------------
It only took Hugo ten minutes to get to Varian’s house, the other lacing up some boots and sneaking out the front door to slide into the passenger seat of Hugo’s 1968 Camaro, the car’s usual obnoxious green was subdued to a softer shade. Varian didn’t want to admit it out loud, but he loved the car. He loved the smell of the leather, the radio that only worked if you punched the dash three times, the air conditioning that weakly spluttered a lukewarm burst of air at your face every few minutes. Everything about the car was just so…Hugo. It made his heart slightly fuzzy to think about, a flush rising up his face. But if Hugo noticed, he didn’t say anything, simply keeping his eyes on the road and driving through the forest, up a winding hill to a better spot.
“So, any reason you lured me from my slumber to take you on a drive?” Hugo asked, his fingers drumming a rhythm on the steering wheel in tune to the music. It was some 80’s band - Hugo had told him before he ‘liked to keep his stuff vintage’, but Varian thought it added to the charm of the Camaro either way. “I mean, I was having a good sleep, but I don’t mind taking you out.”
“It was too crowded at home. I just needed time to think. And besides, my…he found out. About the kiss thing.” Varian kept his voice soft, trying to ignore the pity that clouded Hugo’s expression after he spoke. The whole situation was stressing him out - first of all, Rowan wasn’t technically his boyfriend. The two had barely spent enough time alone together to count as friends, let alone be romantically involved with each other. Secondly, Rowan was acting like a real asshole lately, so much so that Varian was 98% sure that there was no way Rowan could be his true love. Hence, the prophecy of “if you kiss your true love, he will die” not being any risk to Rowan. Didn’t stop him from getting frustrated, punching a hole through the wall before storming out of the house. So what if Varian didn’t want to kiss someone who would punch walls? So what if he preferred someone who would take him out on a late night drive in a 1968 Camaro and show him the most beautiful views in the world? So what if he wanted someone with a stupid grin and some big, obnoxious glasses framing his face but the most beautiful emerald eyes he’d ever seen?
Shit. He was in love with Hugo, of all people. Yet all he could think was Why couldn’t it be Rowan?
“Ah. Well, that's a problem.” Hugo simply said, keeping his voice soft, that fucking accent ringing into his voice that made Varian want to punch him and kiss him all at the same time. “So i’ll take it he didn’t take the news too well and now you want to be away from him?”
“Pretty much-Hey. Stop the car-” Varian said softly, Hugo obliging and bringing the car to a stop. After putting the handbrake on, his eyes followed Varian’s to gaze out at their hometown. And god, it was a sight. All that was visible from down below were a few flickering yellow and white lights from street lamps, illuminating roads, with the sky above a deep blue, stars dotted all over it like little freckles. From up here, on the side of a mountain, they felt like gods. Across to the east, more mountains cast an inky, dark shadow onto the earth below. Varian heard Hugo’s breath catch in his throat as he trained his eyes on the view. And for once, Varian saw Hugo as he was. Not some son of a rich woman, trained in etiquette and eloquence, someone constantly withholding a persona - he was just Hugo. Soft, gentle, kind Hugo. His brow furrowed ever so slightly as focused on Hugo’s expression, it looking almost…lost. “What are you thinking about?” He asked, keeping his voice low to not ruin the moment.
Hugo didn’t look back at him, taking a moment to gather his words, yet keeping his eyes on the view. “I’ve seen so many things. Been so many places, and yet…nowhere has felt quite like home. This place…it feels like I belong here. I crave to stay here and don’t want to leave when high school is over. I never want to leave. I just-I want to know why everything feels so right yet-”
“-Hurts so much.” Varian finished his sentence. Hugo’s head turned and Varian could swear his heart fluttered ever so slightly at the brightness, the glint in his eyes, though he put it up to the car’s light or the stars in the sky. “If you find out, will you tell me?”
“If you find out first, will you tell me?”
“Of course.”
“Fuck, V. In this light you…” Hugo began, clearing his throat. “You look…Jesus. This isn’t-fuck, I need to get my head straight. Now.” he declared, opening his door with a sudden shove, causing Varian to jump back in his seat, before slamming it behind him and leaving Varian alone in the Camaro.
After a few minutes of unbearable silence, Varian got out of the car to stand beside Hugo, leaning back against the Camaro’s back and closing his eyes. The two stood in silence - yet it wasn’t uncomfortable. It was the kind of silence that you wanted to prolong for good, to let it last, because all you felt was appreciated and loved. He glanced over at Hugo, taking in the sight of his face - the shadow of his jawline from the car’s rear headlights, the little furrow of his brow and frown on his face. God, he looked too handsome. This was going to hurt him so much.
And yet, he couldn’t stop himself as he raised his hand to rest against Hugo’s neck, his thumb trailing just below where the shave of the undercut began, and he could swear he felt Hugo’s pulse quicken ever so slightly under his touch. It wasn’t like this with Rowan. With Rowan, it was awkward and fumbling, with Hugo…this was natural. This was free and gentle and soft. He knew what to do with himself.
Hugo leant into his touch ever so slightly, letting Varian’s palm lay flat on the back of his neck, a sigh leaving his lips as a small gasp left Varian’s lips. Varian could swear his heart hammered against his chest as Hugo lifted his hand to his mouth, his heart skipping a beat. All he could think was don’t. Please don’t kiss me. Don’t let the prophecy happen-
“I wouldn’t do that to you.” Hugo whispered against Varian’s palm, lowering his hand and gazing at the other with those stupidly pretty eyes. “Oh Varian..” he muttered and looked at the other. “I wish you could be kissed, Goggles,” he said softly, his eyes trained on Varian. “Because I would beg for just one off you. Under all this. And then we could never say anything about it again and just…live.” He finished, waving a hand towards the stars before glancing at Varian.
Varian swallowed and looked at the other after his confession, stepping closer. He knew he shouldn’t. Hugo would die soon - he knew that. But he wanted. He craved for something more. Something significant. “We can pretend. Once. And never say anything about it.” He replied, watching as Hugo turned his head and smiled at him. God, he was an ever transforming person, each expression showing a different person - a different side of him that Varian wanted to document in a leather notebook and keep for himself.
Varian’s arms found their way around Hugo’s neck, the blond’s resting on the small of his back to bring him closer. He pressed their cheeks together, Varian’s face flushing a dark red as he felt Hugo’s breath, hot against his cheek, and his lips so so close, yet too far. He could feel the small amount of stubble Hugo had, his eyes closing. This was it. This was it-
Suddenly, Hugo pulled away, his hands moving to his sides. “And now, we never speak of that again.” He said hastily, heading back to the driver’s seat of the Camaro. Varian stood for a few moments in the moonlight, still processing in his mind what happened before joining the other in silence for the drive back.
Take care of yourselves everyone, it’s going to be a very rough couple of days. It’s going to be a very rough couple of months. It sucks. I’m so sorry to everyone in this community, to the CCs and his family. It’s such a rough hand he was dealt. Drink water, make sure to eat, reach out to friends if you need, try your best not to beat yourself up, I know Techno would want all of us to remember him at his best and be happy for the good times we got. I don’t know how we’re supposed to move on like this but we’ll get through it and always remember the amazing man he was. Technoblade never dies.
i’m so glad that we all just collectively dreamt about an episode called “king’s tide” and that none of these things actually happened in the show hahahahahahah lawl yeeaaa ^-^
so idk about all of you but ive had like. someone comment on all of my fics with stuff like this:
so just kinda wanna know if its happened to anyone else? I mean. its on all of my pics and I dont really know what to say
I think im kinda just done with this whole fandom and writing - it was fun while it lasted but all the stuff like this that keeps happening is just getting too much to handle.
its been fun. but I just dont wanna do it anymore if hate is all im going to encounter when all I want to do is express myself and write about something I love. I just. its a fictional pairing. fictional writing about a fictional pairing that would never happen anyway. I dont know what more to say but thank you to the majority for supporting me and im sorry.
now that my asks are (hopefully) open again I’m just gonna state this here
I am a minor. i do not feel comfortable writing NSFW pieces. this will most likely not change. please be respectful of that when sending questions / requests. i enjoy writing but my experience with anon has really put me off. just please be respectful of my boundaries.
So! Guess it’s time to officially announce the book I’m writing! It’s far from done but I’m excited and can’t wait to talk about it.
It’s called Tales of Esparia and it’s a fantasy/adventure book with a highly fleshed out magic system that I’ve been working on since I was thirteen. It has bits and pieces of Arthurian legend and lore! This is gonna be fun 👀
Naturally it wouldn’t be a Honey Post without some art so here we go!
Rynadel Estelar is our main protagonist! Cursed from birth with dark magic, he was given to a powerful wizard as an apprentice in hopes proper training would keep that darkness at bay. He doesn’t have many friends, but the ones he did find are in the crown prince of Esparia, Kaden, and an avian anape girl, Elavara. Once their adventure begins, they find two more friends in a boy named Virgil, and a pixie named Cera.
Prince Kaden Ettethi is young and inexperienced, preferring pranks and ditching his lessons with his father in favor of dragging his best friend Rynadel into mischief. Despite his playful and uncaring demeanor, he truly loves and cares for his friends and would do anything to protect them. He’s a great swordsman and a natural protector and he has the heart of a true leader. He’s going to be a great king one day.
Elavara Arili is a sarcastic but caring young woman who gets into just as much trouble as Kaden does. Best friends since childhood with the young prince, Kaden and Elavara are an inseparable duo who would do anything for eachother. As an anape (which is an original species I made for this world. They’re really cool), Elavara faces scrutiny from the people of Esparia. Her people are shape-shifters, seen as dishonest and untrustworthy tricksters who seek destruction. Kaden, never one to judge based on appearances, befriended her when they were young and they’ve been best friends ever since. Rynadel has the only brain cell among this friend group.
Virgil Amuri is an archer from an outlier village in Esparia. He joined the group when his village was destroyed and his family killed by the monster trying to destroy the world. He may not have magic, or be able to shape-shift, but he’s a keen shot. He’s sworn revenge on the sorcerer Orion and promises to avenge his family’s death.
Cera Istaric is a pixie who was tagging along with Virgil for some good old mischief and adventure. But when she met the others, she came to really and truly care for the group. She specializes in illusion magic, tricking her enemies into seeing things that aren’t really there.
And finally! Merlin the wizard. While appearing as a middle aged man, he’s actually thousands of years old. He took Rynadel in when he was young, seeing his potential for magic. While his home lies in Camelot, and his loyalties with Arthur, he’s staying in Esparia for an indeterminate amount of time as a favor for King Elrick. Over their years together as mentor and apprentice, Merlin came to care for Rynadel a great deal. Eventually he would need to charge the boy with a single mission on the day Orion attacked Esparia. Protecting Kaden with his life.
heya - because some people still can't respect the fact that I'm a minor, I've closed my asks and submissions
its just not exactly something I want to deal with when I've only just gotten back into writing and its a major deterrent for me. its uncomfortable for me and, once again, I am 17. I get Tumblr is one of those sites where this kinda thing is like...common and theres adults but when ive set my boundaries, I ask that people respect them.
I apologise for the inconvenience to everyone else - im just getting really sick of these asks as, like stated, I am a minor and have set ym boundaries that some people just aren't accepting. once again I am sorry.
Hey, Fletch Here @fletchphoenix - Tumblr Blog | Tumgag