𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 : 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐
505’s debut film — finding yourself : the beginning , season one. released april 3 , 2020. total running time 4 hours , an hour each episode.
warning — blood , mentions of death , trama.
episode one — scene start, all you can hear is heavy rain. but a whisper takes over, the voice is familiar you just can't tell who it is. all you know that is has caught your attention. “ today is the day i promise ” the screen is now white and completely silent. nothing to listen to, it's almost scary. a boy appears dressed in what looks like hospital clothes. covered in blood?! your eyes widen, you know him but who is he? a train is coming you can hear a train but why isn't he running? he stops moving and spreads his arms. the train is now in sight. he looks over, “ remember this is your fault and you can't go back to fix it ” he smiles and the train hits him. blood splatters all over you and you scream, not because of the blood but because you remember. you remember who that is, doyum. your friend from high school who died in senior year. but before you can do anything else you wake up in your room sweating. was it really just a dream? or was he trying to tell me what happened before? you try and forget, why am i remembering this now, you try to lay back down only to realize that there is black ink on the wall forming the sentence, “ it's time to fix what you caused ”
ep 2 — you go to the full body mirror that has been sitting in your room since you got back from the hospital. you never noticed until now that there was a photo, with the boy from before. was his name doyum? but there's more, about three other boys you recognize just you can't remember how you know them. and you see yourself right in the middle with a card that says “ go back and find them ” no that can't be right. you close your eyes to see if it would change. it didn't but something else did. one of the boys is missing, the one that was right next to you. in the corner of your eye you notice that he's on your bed. his eyes are fully white, with tear stains on his face. they aren't clear but red. was he crying blood? you slowly drift towards the boy and but your hands on his face. you close your eyes and flashback. all the memories you have had with the boy come back. you were friends in high school. just like you and doyum but he's the same age as you. you snap out of your thought to screaming, the flashback isn't over? you can tell that it's you and the boy that is fighting and yelling at each other you just can't tell what you're saying to each other. your fighting with him but why? is it because of what you did? but that's the thing you don't know what you did. the screaming and fighting stops and your back in your room. still holding the boy's face. " go back to the park where we all met ” he mentioned before he fell back. you notice that he's holding a dead bittersweet flower in his hand.
ep 3 — your surrounded in flowers , they are all dead though. you can see the bottom half of your body it looks like you’re dressed in a suit. but why? you can hear loud sobs , lots of them. some seem fake while others are too real. “ where am i ” you ask yourself. you force your head up , your at a funeral but how. the people are in front of you. so does that mean that ... you are in the casket? you move you head frantically and finally look down at your hands. nothing you didn’t seem to notice before. or so you thought you took a good look at ‘ your ’ hand only to realize there was a scar on your middle finger. that can’t be right. you had one on your pointer finger but that’s right doyum had a scar on his middle finger. so does that mean im in his casket? right , right there has to be photos somewhere. you look around , you can see not one but five photos. each of the boys that were in that photo on the mirror. so this is their funeral? you look back into the crowd to see yourself , fresh out of high school with a star struck face and zoned out. you finally remember everything , what the boys were talking about when they said you did this. you remember this day , the day after the incident. you remember that one of their mom’s screamed and hit at you and blamed you just like they did. you couldn’t do anything back or say anything to her so you let her yell at you. the thing buoy remember most is what she said to you “ why did you kill my baby ? ” she said it as she fell to your feet , her teas were still falling out of her eyes. you wanted to tell her something so bad but your mouth wouldn’t open , instead of words one single tear fell out of your eye. your face was still the expressionless thing it was when you first saw it. you sayt there for hours , after everyone left and tried so hard to make up for what happened. remembering it now hurts , and makes what doyum said before more realistic. “ remember this is your fault and you can't go back to fix it ” the last words you ever heard from him , really the last words from all of them.
ep 4 ( the finale ) — you fall back into your casket , finally giving up. i know what they mean but how come i don’t know what to do? you thought that once you had figured out what you had been missing then everything would come together at once. guess you didn’t really think it through huh. you let your eyes close and wait until you wake up in your room once again. it’s time to take whatever this is into action. you open your eyes but only to see another message written in black ink. “ remember the voice ” what voice? the ink started to change “ the whisper ” the whisper , from the white room where i saw doyum. “ today is the day i promise ” that voice it was mine. i remember , the last day i would ever see the boys alive. you fall back on your bed and the camera cuts , a date appears on the screen. August 31 , 2016 you look into your mirror and fix you suit. it’s time to attend doyum’s graduation. the long awaited day , you were going to tell the boys that you were leaving for america the following week. you had been putting it back , but you couldn’t leave without telling them. so you had planned to take them out to the pier after doyum’s graduation. to break it to them. “ today is the day i promise ” you walked out and got into your car. you hadn’t been back to that school since you graduated last year nor did you really want to go back but it’s for doyum. you had flowers for him and you knew the other boys would have brought him things too. although nothing could top his favorite flowers , a bouquet of bittersweet flowers. time starts getting faster until you arrive to the graduation and see him in his cap and gown. he still looks the same since when you met him, he was a freshmen with black hair unlike his bleach blonde hair that he has now. the guys wave over to a seat that was just for you and before you could tell the graduation was over. you had given him his flowers and ren was driving everyone to the pier. where you were going to tell them that you are leaving. you didn’t want to ruin the fun but it had to be done or else they were never going to forgive you. “ guys listen up ” you got on the concrete wall by the water and continued “ besides be extra proud of doyum for graduating i have some news of my own ” but before you could finish you see a man in a cap. he has something in his hands and you try to get down to see it but before you could he shoots a bullet at you. time slows down wait this isn’t what is supposed to happen. the bullet finally reached you and you see blood fly everywhere. as well as four boys screaming , trying to catch you. the guy in the cap ... that’s — the screen goes black and cuts to credits. after the credits a short video plays and it says “ i have something i want to tell all viewers , it’s not what you think ” in a distorted voice they say “ try again ”
FLIM END —
THIS GAVE ME CHILLS
