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♏️♉️♑️♋️♐️ sid///24///oly queer garbage with a shadow. I walk accompanied by ghosts. My love is fierce and full of teeth. Anxious & Dirty. /// Weird & Damp. qtpoc///all pronouns///no pronouns ptsd///gad///bpd

[theamericanswastika]

[vulturehooligan]

   Another photo of the Navajos banning the swastika.

The document they are signing starts off: “Because the above ornament, which has been a sign of friendship among our forefathers for many centuries has been desecrated recently by another nation of peoples.”

[14kgoldupgraded]

[second paragraph] “Therefore it is resolved that henceforth from this date on and forever more our tribes renounce the use of the emblem commonly known today as the swastika or fylfot on our blankets, baskets, art objects, sandpaintings and clothing.”

[cruxifucked-deactivated20180320]

[jell-o-shot]

I wanted to cheer myself up and what better way than to watch Amy Poehler fuck up on a constant loop, so I made this. I guarantee you will be smiling the entire way through. Enjoy, beautiful people <3

[slytherin-stud-deactivated20151]

Even when she’s fucking up, she’s flawless

[floralfilth]

I'm learning guitar and loving children.

[floralfilth]

I had a dream that I was sitting in a wooden chair in the middle of a semi-busy street, shaving my head in the moonlight.

[floralfilth]

Take yr friend to work day (at Camp Solomon Schechter)

[floralfilth]

My loves! Ember is two months pregnant!!!!!

[giflounge]

The orbit of Jupiter protects the Earth from asteroids.

[tsunamiwavesurfing]

a silent guardian, a watchful protector

[funnylime]

lol look at mercury go that wild bastard

[floralfilth]

Wow ty

[floralfilth]

[floralfilth]

Nerrrrrd//when the power goes out, there’s only so much to do in the darkness

[floralfilth]

Feeling very small and urgent. Please know that I'm here for you to talk to or cry on or come with you on errands or send cute pictures to you or come over and make food or give rides or send you letters or whatever etc I love you. I'm holding this space for dear ones, close friends and distant acquaintances alike, so please hmu if you need anything at all. 💕

[jellomold]

no no no no no

[floralfilth]

I can't

[theneurotypicals]

i only understand sarcasm when it’s not directed towards me personally. when it’s about me there’s a voice in my head that says that it’s true and that people actually hate me

[floralfilth]

Lately my panics come way easier than normal and usually when my partner makes sarcastic/teasing jokes, I'm right there with the banter. Recently though, these jokes send me into a teary spiral of self doubt so he has started saying "pinwheel" and holding up an imaginary pinwheel to let me know for sure it's a joke. "Nah I would never eat pizza with you." And I'm like "wh-whaaa?" And then "pinwheel!" And it's really chill and also hilarious.

[floralfilth]

I used to have a lot of internet friends on here. My presence definitely trickled out over the years and my infrequent posts rarely get notes anymore. I've been thinking about what it felt like to have that kind of support and missing it. I've been thinking a lot about social capital and reputation. Race. Neurodivergence. Geography. I am having a rough time. I keep on starting and deleting this post. It's all disorganized in my head and I'm in a place where I'm afraid anything I do or say will be added to a list of reasons to see me as too needy to be worth friendship. So many people I know have died this year. Wreck. Suicide. Fire. My folx are hurting and tired. I've moved 12 times in the past two years. My partner diagnosed with leuk. My dad cutting me off. My mom coming back into my life after a childhood of abuse and a seven year silence. The worst anxiety I've felt in years. Homelessness. Injury. My partner being warned not to be with me because I'm too much. When I asked him if he sees things I should work on to be more emotionally responsible and less needy, he said no and elaborated that I'm the kindest most giving person he knows. My feelings are big, I know. Lots of people's feelings are big. What makes mine Too Much? What makes me the one not deserving of community support? I am trying to learn. This process has mostly looked like me being afraid to reach out to people at all. But I'm not doing well. And don't friends support each other when things are hard? I see so many posts of people urging each other to love openly and hold each other close. Why is it that I see and feel brushed off when I'm feeling fucked up? Is it in my head? But I know some of it is real. I have heard the things people say about me. But a lot of that is just in this town. Will it be better when I move? What have I done to people here? How much is neurodivergence responsible? My diagnoses say that social interaction and relationships are hard for me. But how do I hold people accountable for something so subtle. I imagine from their perspective they each see totally valid reasons to avoid getting close to me and assume I'm fine and just will make other friends. But from here it looks like lots of people disliking me. It's making me hate myself in a manner more real than ever. I see people talking about protecting each other and being there for each other. Understanding mortality and urgency to help each other. But I say I'm not doing well and am not met with community and I don't know what else to do. Am I doomed to chronically feel unsupported? I'm not sleeping and I always have a headache.

[floralfilth]

I've been isolating a lot cos I'm afraid of being too needy and of course that's just making things worse. I'm scared. I'm lonely and I'm scared. I'm so tired of living in a small town so insular and rumor driven.

[floralfilth]

You’d think it would be easier to find cancer support on this here website but it is not. Having a partner with it is really difficult and complicated, not just because it is scary but because i have to learn how to be okay with them not having energy for me. I have some mental health stuff that’s making that so so hard to do. I’m trying to reach out and have some supports set up for the times when he really just can’t be there for me.

[asideofbpd]

google search: how to politely ask someone if they are actually getting tired of you & hate you now without being manipulative and attention-seeking

[floralfilth]

🤔🤔🤔