.ᐟ summary: you and gerard get caught in the rain walking back from an awards show.
.ᐟ tags: yearning, hurt/comfort, confessions, friends to lovers, fluff and smut, shower sex, gerard is a little clueless at first, fem reader.
.ᐟ a/n: wanted to write something sappy and sweet for 2008 gerard. wc: 4,188.
“Hold still.”
Gerard is restless, fingers fidgeting with the hem of his suit coat as your hands struggle to adjust his tie. Outside of the hotel, dark clouds gather across the city sky, heavy with the promise of unpredictable spring weather.
“Can’t help it,” he mumbles. “Nerves must be gettin’ to me.”
“Nerves?” You reply haphazardly, eyes locked on his collar, working the knot of the tie between your fingers, intent on getting it right. “What for?”
“It’s just… different,” he pauses, swallowing thickly. “Feels strange without the guys.”
You tug the tie a little tighter, smoothing the fabric of his waistcoat down to match.
“Well,” you say lightly, “They’re not that far away. And I remember you handling much worse.”
He huffs out a thin laugh, hands hovering against the mattress like he doesn’t know where to put them.
“You say that like it’s easy.”
You pause, finally looking up at him, meeting his eyes for the first time in what feels like an hour. The worry on his face is obvious now, drawn tight in the crease between his eyebrows and the way his jaw flexes every few seconds. Without thinking, you reach your hand up, tucking a stray strand of hair from his face. He leans into your palm slightly, the action subtle but fragile, just enough you can see the tension in his muscles release.
You let your thumb drift along his jaw, tracing the line carefully as if mapping the worry away. Gerard lets out a soft sigh, leaning a fraction closer, trusting the comfort without words.
“You’re thinking too much,” you murmur before pulling your hand back, stepping back to admire your handiwork. His tie sits perfectly, collar straight, the knot just so. “You’ll be perfect. And… I— your editors will be right there with you the entire night.”
Gerard blinks, processing the reassurance, shoulders easing a fraction under the tightness of the suit. There’s still that nervous edge, the restless energy coiled tight, but your words seem to anchor him just enough to the moment.
“I… yeah,” he murmurs, voice low, hesitant, before that signature grin of his slowly spreads across his face. “What would I do without you?”
Your chest tightens at the trust in his tone and the way his eyes flick to yours, completely unaware of the gravity he holds over your heart. After all, Gerard is one of your oldest friends, someone who’s been with you through years of ups and downs, the demands of your wildly different careers keeping you apart more often than not. Yet somehow, despite the distance and schedules that rarely align, he’s asked you to be his plus one for the night, and you can’t help the small thrill that courses through you at the thought.
You’ve mastered hiding it over the years, folding it neatly into the quiet corners of yourself, a soft ache that settles through your chest whenever you’re near him.
You shrug off your answer, keeping it causal, but your fingers twitch at the thought, powerless against your own restraint.
“You’d survive,” you laugh, voice soft, letting the tension ease between you just a little. “Let’s go. We don’t want to be late.”
The walk there is brisk, your steps quick against the pavement as the venue draws closer and closer with every block. You fall into step beside him, watching the way his hands come alive as he talks, every detail explained with that same spontaneous energy that’s never dimmed in the years of knowing him. He rambles on about everything: funny tales from tour, lyrics to the bridge of that one song he could never figure out, a plot device he’s not sure is clever or completely ridiculous; anything to keep his mind off of things.
You take the distraction as an opportunity to really study him, letting your eyes trace the familiar curve of his face and the effortless way the custom-tailored suit hugs his frame. The dark fabric clings to his broad shoulders and narrows at the waist, sculpting him in a way that seems almost unfair in the evening streetlights. And yet, underneath this pristine exterior, you can’t help but feel that Gerard’s the same person he’s always been.
He seems to notice your staring, pausing mid-sentence to turn fully towards you.
“What?” he grins, voice light, teasing, yet laced with an edge of genuine curiosity, as if he can sense the thoughts you’re struggling to hide.
You shake your head, forcing a casual smile that doesn’t quite reach your eyes, but your heart betrays you with every wild thrum in your chest.
“Nothing.”
But it’s not nothing.
It’s everything, caught in the weight of his gaze, the heat of the moment between you, and all the words left unspoken. You’re no stranger to the way the world keeps residual tabs on Gerard’s “love life,” every inch of it analyzed and dissected, endlessly spun in tabloids and headlines. You don’t want to put him in a position that invites more scrutiny, more speculation, more stories. And somehow… you’re okay with that.
Because… this unguarded connection, the one where he leans towards you, talking too fast and laughing too easily, is yours alone.
You arrive at the venue, the night stretching out before you, alive with chatter and the faint clink of glasses. You bury yourself in the crowd, weaving seamlessly between groups, laughing at stories you’ve never heard before, offering smiles that feel effortless until it’s time for the ceremony to start.
The show starts promptly after, lights dimming and music swelling around you, both of you squeezed in among a sea of hundreds of others. You’re pressed so close together that your thighs brush every time someone in the row shifts, the contact brief but constant, and you’re quietly thankful he can’t see the flush creeping across your cheeks every time it happens.
And then the comments start.
Little remarks tossed back and forth like harmless observations. About Gerard. His looks. How he carries himself nowadays. At first, they’re quiet, half whispered between the people sitting in front of you, barely audible beneath the swell of music and applause. But once you notice, they’re impossible to ignore.
The person on the left snorts softly, droning on about how fame opens doors for people who “don’t really belong in the industry.” The other person chimes in, laughing under their breath about how his work is “surface level at best.”
The comments don’t stop there, growing sharper as the night goes on. You catch one of them scoffing, muttering something about how he “can’t keep a girlfriend,” before adding with a low laugh that he must have “hired someone for the night just to look the part.”
Your stomach twists.
As subtly as you can, you glance over at Gerard.
And your heart sinks.
He’s heard them.
The change in his posture is subtle but unmistakable, replaced by something sensitive and more fragile. Gerard’s shoulders sit just a little lower, his gaze fixed forward but unfocused, the spark that usually lives in his expression completely dimmed. For a moment, he looks smaller somehow, swallowed by the crowd and the noise.
You reach out without thinking, giving his knee a gentle squeeze beneath the dim wash of the lights. For a moment, your hand lingers there, the contact steady and comforting. Gerard shifts slightly under your touch, his attention flicking down for a brief second before his eyes lift to yours. The look he gives you is heavy with something unspoken, a mix of weariness and gratitude that tightens something in your chest.
He places his hand on top of yours, as if reassuring both you and himself, before pulling back. You manage to make it through the rest of the show, side by side but mostly silent, leaving the venue without many words exchanged in passing, the music and the crowd fading behind you.
Outside, the pavement glistens under the dim streetlights, slick with the earthy smell of rain that hangs in the air. You walk close together, letting the quiet of the night wrap around you, thoughts broken only by the sounds of traffic and the soft splash of tires through puddles.
Gerard is the first to break the silence.
“Are you cold?”
“I’m okay,” you manage, though the chill in the air has begun to creep into your bones. He ignores you, reaching his arm around you to drape his coat over your shoulders. The fabric settles warmly against you, the weight of it comforting in the heat and scent that is Gerard.
“Thanks for inviting me out tonight,” you finally muster, voice trembling slightly with the weight of everything you’re holding back. He looks down at you, the grin you haven’t seen since the beginning of the night resurfacing slowly, warm and just a little shy.
“I’m glad you came,” he says quietly, his tone regulated, matching the careful honesty in yours. You continue to walk, the rhythm of your steps echoing softly along the pavement. “I’m sorry… you had to listen to that,” he mumbles, voice low and edged with guilt. “The entire night.”
You can’t help the small, unguarded laugh that escapes you. “You’re apologizing… to me?” The sound of your laughter seems to lift something in him, and he lets out a quiet breath, a faint smile tugging at his lips once more.
“Yeah,” he admits after a long pause, eyes locking with yours, lingering with a vulnerability he rarely allows himself to show. “I’m used to it,” he shrugs, “But… I hate that it reached you, too.”
You hesitate, the words settling heavy between you. “I’m just happy you’re okay,” you hesitate, letting the streetlights catch the furrow of his brow, before adding, “Besides, none of that stuff they said can be true.”
“Why’s that?” he asks softly, voice low and curious, a faint edge of uncertainty threading through the question. Gerard’s eyes search yours, waiting, almost daring you to say what you’ve been holding back.
You take a deep breath, the night air filling your lungs, letting your fingers find and brush his in the dark. “Because… I know you,” you murmur, “I’ve known you long enough to see who you really are. You’re talented, passionate, kind… one of the most hardworking people I’ve ever met. All the rest… it’s just noise.”
The true weight of your words dawn on Gerard, stopping him clean in his tracks. This isn’t just you reassuring him; this is a confession, stripped raw and laid bare before him. He turns to you, completely dumbfounded, noticing the affection in your eyes, and for the first time, he sees it.
Love.
Pure, unconditional love, woven through years of memories, laughs, and moments he’s never quite understood. It’s in the way you’ve always been present, the little gestures he’d taken for granted, the warmth behind your eyes that he’s never truly noticed until now.
Slowly, he brings his hand up to your face, fingertips grazing your cheek as if you’re made of the most delicate glass. Gerard leans in carefully, eyes searching yours for permission, tipping your chin up to meet his. His lips brush against yours in a featherlight touch: gentle, tender, a question hanging in the space between you. You respond earnestly, arms wrapping around his neck as you deepen the kiss. His lips move against yours with equal fervor, completely surrendering to your touch, pulling your closer as if to erase the distance of the years before.
It’s everything you’ve ever dreamed, effortless in the way he holds you, the warmth of his body against yours, the steady press of his hands along your waist. You feel so at ease, letting your inhibitions melt away with each desperate breath. Gerard pulls back slightly, parting for a brief breath of air before claiming your lips once more.
While desire is present, neither of you are willing to take the lead, savoring the sweetness and the steady build of something deeper. Parting once more, Gerard realizes, as the chill of the night seeps between you, that the street would be the worst place to continue this, especially with the dark clouds circling ominously ahead. He glances up, the tension in his chest tightening. There isn’t a chance it’s going to rain again, is there…?
His thoughts are interrupted by a thunderous crack in the sky, a fine sprinkle of rain dusting the pavement, dotting your hair and shoulders. The world around you sharpens, the downpour growing heavier with every passing second. Gerard pulls you into his side, pressing you close enough you can feel the hardness of his chest.
“Let’s get out of here,” he laughs, tugging you along until you both break into a run, water splashing beneath your feet and clothes. You make it back to the hotel in one piece, drenched, a little breathless, but nevertheless exhilarated. Gerard takes your hand, guiding you through the lobby and toward the elevator, completely unbothered by the heads turning and murmurs rippling through the space. His attention is entirely on you, on the warmth of your hand in his, the way your laughter from the rain lingers in the air.
The second the elevator doors close, his lips are on yours again, sloppy, desperate, and a little too anxious for his own good. Gerard’s hands find your waist, pulling your body into his, swallowing your soft moans and sighs whole. It almost feels as if you’re kissing like teenagers, clumsy and sweet, caught up in the rush of finally crossing a line you’ve danced around for years.
Gerard continues his assault on your lips all the way down the hallway and to his room, stealing kisses between breathless laughs as you stumble forward together. The door nearly escapes his grasp twice before he manages to get the keycard in, his focus waning the more you tease.
“H-hold on… Hold on…,” he scrambles against your lips, trying and failing to concentrate until the lock finally clicks. The door swings open and you both tumble inside, tangled up in the smell of the rain and each other. For a moment, both of you linger in the doorway, catching your breath while the emotion settles.
Gerard brushes a damp strand of hair from your forehead, eyes warm and a little awed.
“Jesus,” he croaks, voice horse and lips smudged with your lipstick, “You’re freezing.”
You laugh, smearing your thumb over the remnants of the smudge. “And what are you gonna do about that?”
Gerard swallows thickly, chest rising and falling faster than before, a smirk curling at the corner of his lips. “I think…” he pauses, leaning in to kiss you once more, “I need to warm you up…”
You cut off his kiss with your hand, laughing at the surprised whine that escapes his lips at the rejection.
“Shower.”
He tries again, lips seeking yours with slow insistence, but your fingers guide him back just enough to prevent him from reaching you fully. He takes the opportunity to rest his forehead against yours, breath warm and wet against your palm. “So cruel,” he pouts, trailing behind you to the bathroom.
You turn on the water, steam swirling and thickening, fogging up the mirror. Without a second thought, you begin to undress yourself, reaching at the fabric to pull the dress down your shoulders before turning around. The sight in front of you stops you dead in your tracks.
Gerard’s dress shirt is soaked though, the translucent material clinging against the curves of his chest and arms. He’s filled out a lot over the past tour and it shows, his biceps flexing subtly as he readjusts his stance. For a moment, you take him in fully, watching the steady rise and fall of his chest under the material, a deep flush settling in your cheeks. He notices your gaze, an all-too knowing smile tugging at his lips as he unhooks the last button and removes the shirt.
“You need help with that?” he teases, eyes mischievous. You nod wordlessly, letting his sturdy hands glide over your skin, a shiver running straight up your spine at the contact. Gerard’s fingers trace slow paths across your shoulders and down your back, helping you out of the soggy fabric.
You remove the last of your dress, stepping into the shower and letting the rush of water and steam soften the edges around you. Gerard steps in behind you, arms wrapping around your waist instinctively, coaxing an unconscious squeak out of you at the contact. His hands skate along your sides, turning you around to face him.
And what a sight it is, the droplets sliding off of his chin, following the curves of his chest before vanishing into the steady spray of water below. He’s beautiful, the contours of his body drawing your gaze every which way, each detail more mesmerizing than the last.
You’re so absorbed in him that you don’t notice his hand reaching up, fingers brushing lightly against your jaw and cupping the side of your face delicately. “You’re gonna make me blush, staring like that,” he murmurs, a crooked smile tugging at the corner of his lips.
You reach out to him mindlessly, hands skating over the hardness of his chest before threading behind his neck, fingers tangling in the soaked strands of his hair. “I can’t help it,” you smile against his lips, breath hitching slightly as he leans in, seizing the chance to kiss you once more. His kisses are like fire, frantic, all-consuming, igniting something deep inside of you.
Gerard backs you against the wall, the cool tiles of the shower a sharp contrast to the warmth radiating between you. His hands roam you freely, tracing the gentle curves of your body, committing every detail to memory. Your back arches into him instinctively, leaning into him as his lips suck a thick bruise onto the skin of your neck. He can feel you melt into his mouth, the warmth of his lips making your thoughts go hazy, tilting your head to give him better access.
He obliges, licking and sucking from your chin to your collarbone, letting his hands trail lower, kneading the flesh of your hips. You part your legs for him, letting your forehead rest against his as his fingers inch closer and closer to where you need him most. He works you open with delicate precision, working you open in slow strokes to your slit, fingers circling your clit in quick reverence.
“Fuck,” he groans, eyes lifting to meet yours. “You’re soaked. All this from a little kissing?” He lilts, voice low with hunger and amusement.
“Y-you’re one to talk,” you stutter between breaths, feeling his hardness poking against your thigh. Even only half-hard, Gerard’s statue is impressive, tip flushed and red, leaking spurts of pre cum against his thighs. He’s bigger than average, thick at the base and riddled with veins, the sight alone making your blood boil in lust at the thought of him inside of you, loving you so completely. “I need you, Gerard,” you whimper softly, hands stroking along his shoulders. “More than anything.”
“I’m right here, baby,” he groans, lips parting slightly as his eyes lock on yours, the raw need there making your stomach flutter in anticipation. “You sure about this?”
“I need all of you, Gee,” you whine, the effect on him immediate with how quickly his hand drops to his cock, giving himself a few strokes. “Need you inside of me.”
Gerard’s hands grasp your thighs, hoisting your legs effortlessly off the ground while keeping your back pinned to the wall. The strength in his grip sends a jolt straight up your spine, causing you to wrap your legs around him. Gerard doesn’t waste another second, lining himself up at your entrance, pushing in slowly, your cunt sucking him in with ease from how wet you are.
The noise that escapes you is pitiful, nails digging into his skin at the feeling of being stretched to the brim. Gerard pauses, gauging your face carefully for a reaction, before sliding you further up the wall until your face is level with his. He goes in a little deeper, letting you adjust inch by inch, squeezing your ass in an effort to keep himself controlled. He wants to keep this slow, contained, but the heavenly warmth of your insides makes it damn near impossible to focus, to think straight. Fuck, He could just lose himself so deep inside of you, his control slipping by the wayside with every passing second.
“Look at you, beautiful” he groans, leaning into to nip at the shell of your ear. “Taking me so well.”
“F-fuck,” you whine, arms looped tight around his neck, feeling him bottom out with a final snap of his hips. “Too much, Gerard. It’s too much.”
“Too much?” He grunts, picking up the pace slightly, fucking you deeply and passionately into the tiles. It’s too much, the feeling of being wrapped up in him, loved so completely by the person you’ve been wanting for what feels like an eternity. You tighten your arms around him, letting your hands wander the expanse of his back, loving the way his muscles flex with every snap of his hips. He’s so strong, so powerful in his own right, a quiet kind of strength that answers in the movement of his hips against you’re.
Meanwhile, Gerard is completely blissed out, jaw tightening as a low, frustrated grunt escapes him. How could he have missed this, never really seen you until now? He chastises himself, the thought twisting in his chest as his grip on you tightens just slightly, not out of possession, but of regret.
You scramble for purchase against the wall, clinging to his desperately, eyes rolling the more he seems to take, the tip of his cock catching against your g spot with every trust. His entire body is flushed, the heat of the steam almost burning his skin from standing under the stream for so long, but none of it compares to the way your bodies cling together, pressed so impossibly close.
“Beautiful,” Gerard stutters between desperate moans of his own, pulling back just enough he can watch your adorable, fucked-out expressions. “Just beautiful.” He leans in carefully, lips brushing your cheek as he kisses and licks away the tears falling in a steady stream, angling his hips up to penetrate you deeper.
“It’s all for you, Gerard,” you cry, voice hoarse and wrecked with every fuck of his hips. “Been dreaming about this,” you admit shamelessly, letting the words spill out between wild, uneven gasps. His gaze sharpens, pupils blown wide at your admission, a desperate moan escaping his lips as if he can’t hold himself back anymore.
“Fuck, baby,” he whines, voice rough and thick with emotion. “All this time…” he murmurs, resting his forehead against yours in disbelief. “I’ll never make you wait again,” he chokes, the words low and certain, pressing desperate kisses to your puffy lips. “Let’s get there together, yeah?”
“Oh fuck,” you moan, hands grabbing and scratching anywhere you can reach. “More, more, please!”
You’re inconsolable, the knot tangling inside of you dangerously close to snapping. His grip behind your knees tightens, pushing your legs back a little further. “Cum for me, baby,” he manages between gasps. “Show me how good it feels.”
Your fingers find his hair, frantically yanking him closer until his lips meet yours in a final, searing kiss. It’s never been so hot, never felt so good, clamping down on his length so tight it’s hard for him to move. Several more powerful thrusts and Gerard’s spilling deep inside of you, snapping your hips down to meet his. He quickly catches you as your legs give out, clutching you against the wall as the last of his cum streams inside of you, hot and sticky as it pools.
The words stumble out before you can catch them, barely louder than a whisper but nevertheless echoing around you both.
“I love you.”
Gerard’s hands freeze at your sides, fingers digging into your skin as he pulls you as close as possible. “I love you too,” he rasps, voice rough and breathless, leaning in to press a sweet kiss to your forehead. He eases out of you slowly, holding you upright and moving you directly under the water. The water’s gone lukewarm by now, the heat between your bodies lingering as he begins to wash you and himself with the utmost care.
It’s perfect, both of you falling into a comfortable silence, Gerard mumbling apologies when he brushes too close between your legs. He shuts the water off, wrapping you both in fluffy towels and scooping you up into his arms, carrying you into the bedroom.
He settles beside you on the bed, wrapping the towels more securely around you, pulling you close until your chest rests against his. You nuzzle against him, breathing in the faint scent of soap and him, feeling the steady rise and fall of his chest beneath your fingertips.
You press a little closer, letting the towels slip slightly, just enough to feel the heat of his body wrapped around yours. Gerard’s arms tighten, holding you as if you’re made of the most delicate glass, the weight of longing and desire melting into nothing but the soft rhythm of the rain against the window.
.ᐟ summary: you rent a room from a stranger off of craigslist. seems harmless enough, right?
.ᐟ tags: obsession, perversion, slight corruption kink, masturbation, oral sex (f receiving), rough sex, fem reader.
.ᐟ a/n: sorry this one took so long, felt like i must’ve rewritten it like five times. wc: 4,390.
Gerard prides himself on being good.
A good brother. A good artist. A good person, focused and reliable, the kind of man people count on without so much of a second thought. Above all else, he keeps his heart disciplined, free of waste and distraction.
Which is why it hits him so hard when you come into his life.
He had listed his spare room on Craigslist, and within the hour his inbox was already filling up. Your message stood out immediately: no profile photo, no personal details, just a brief, polite inquiry about the listing. No context or explanation. He couldn’t help but wonder whether finding your message was a coincidence or something closer to fate.
He practically did a double take when you arrived at his door for a tour of his place. Pretty eyes, dewy lips, even the way your hair fell just so, all spoke of careful thought and intention; a kind of beauty that couldn’t be bought, demanding attention whether you wanted it to or not.
Gerard didn’t expect the silence that followed your introduction. No rambling backstory, no nervous oversharing, just your name offered plainly, like it was enough. It unsettled him in a way he couldn’t quite place. Most people he met nowadays tried to talk louder, make themselves larger, fill up space. You, on the other hand, seemed content to take up exactly the amount of space you needed. No more, no less.
Gerard became painfully aware of himself in that moment. The tightness of his shoulders, the sweat building in his palms, the awkward length of time he spent perfectly still as he rambled on about god knows what. He wondered if his expression had given anything away, if his attention had been visible in the same way yours seemed controlled and contained.
You moved in about a week later, and it didn’t take long for him to piece together little fragments of your life. You were a student, working full-time to push your way through a degree that seemed to demand every spare hour you had.
He’d come home from rehearsal long after midnight, exhausted, keys soft in the lock, and still find you awake, the soft glow of your desk lamp spilling through the crack in your door.
And then there were the days you were barely at home at all, rapid footsteps down the hall, a bag slung over your shoulder. You moved through the apartment like a passing current, present just long enough to prove you lived there before vanishing back into the world that constantly called you elsewhere.
He’d try little things to coax you out, casual invitations slipped into brief conversations, an extra coffee left on the counter, a spare ticket to his show down the road. Most of the time, you turned him down, a quiet excuse slipping from your lips like it was second nature. Always polite, always respectful, leaving no room for misunderstanding: you shared the apartment and nothing else.
You’re so pretty, but always so alone, politely declining advances from anyone who tries to get close to you. You never bring anyone over, never go out, never let anyone linger long enough to get comfortable. It’s a front, the way you keep people at an arm’s length: warm enough to draw them in, distant enough to make them ache for more.
It’s wasteful, the walls you build around yourself, the way you push people away before they can reach you.
You’re a moon without a sun, and he wants to know why.
The idea starts innocently enough, a shadow at the edge of his mind. Gerard lingers outside of your bedroom door, quietly willing himself to step inside while you aren’t home. He rests his hand on the doorknob, frozen in place as he listens to the faint hum of the apartment.
Every rational part of him tells him to stop, to turn away, banish these feelings back into the deepest parts of him. But something stronger chains him in place, his breath caught between guilt and anticipation.
He nudges you door one just a crack, slipping inside without a further thought. The room feels warm, lived-in, a stark contrast to the chilling exterior you wear outside of these walls. He takes everything in slowly: books left open, notes scribbled in the margins, CD’s scattered across the floor, posters lining your walls.
Gerard lowers himself down onto your mattress, heart hammering in his chest as he runs his fingers through your sheets. He presses his face into your pillows, inhaling deeply, the lingering scent of you completely invading his senses.
Gerard’s mind spirals, each thought of you sharp and all-consuming as he ruts his hips into the mattress.
God, it’s almost too much, imagining the image of you splayed out before him, his face buried between your creamy thighs. Your eyes, hazy and lost, begging him to touch you, love you, fuck you.
He’s cumming into his jeans before he even fully realizes it, cock straining against the denim.
Fuck, he’s made a mess, an embarrassingly large wet spot darkening the fabric where you lay. Gerard exhales shakily, glancing at the clock on your bedside table, still hours before you would be home. Moving quickly, he strips the bed, tugging the sheets and pillowcases free. He gathers the damp fabric in his arms, scrambling out into the hallway and tossing everything into the wash as if it was routine.
There.
It’s as if nothing happened.
That doesn’t stop him from slipping a pair of your panties in his pocket on the way back out of your room.
You don’t seem to notice anything off when you get home, offering him a small nod in greeting, keys jangling softly in your hand, expression as composed as ever. No suspicion. No pause.
Then you disappear down the hall, shutting yourself into your room with a light slam of the door.
Gerard watches you for a second too long, pulse thudding in his ears, half-expecting you to reemerge, to do something, say something, look back at him in disgust.
But nothing happens.
The apartment settles into its usual rhythm, and your door stays closed.
Another night, it happens again. Gerard, getting back late from rehearsal, bones weary with exhaustion, trudging down the hall and into his room. He collapses onto his bed, shoes half kicked off, eyes heavy.
But even in that haze, even on the edge of unconsciousness, there’s you, sharp and vivid, slipping in uninvited. And just like that, sleep doesn’t come as easily as it should.
The hours crawl by, thick and restless as he tosses and turns. His room is too cold, too quiet.
His mouth is also painfully dry.
With a frustrated exhale, he forces himself up and out of his room to get a glass of water, eyes heavy, mind foggy.
No.
Oh fuck.
The sounds of wetness hit him like a physical blow, teasing and beckoning him over to your door. Every nerve in his body tightens, adrenaline coursing through his veins as he leans in closer. Just like that, his mouth is no longer dry, tacky with drool and desire clawing straight through him.
It’s almost as if he’s in a lucid state, completely entranced by the soft and breathy moans echoing through the thin walls. He palms mindlessly at the bulge in his shorts, pressing his forehead to your door.
Gerard wants so badly to go in, to show you how it feels to have someone who really sees you, someone who cares, who wants all of you completely. The desire isn’t just physical, no. It’s deeper than that, an incessant ache of wanting to be in your life, to matter to you. He means it with such conviction, even as he’s spitting into his hand and pulling his boxers down to stroke himself in time with your moans.
He sighs to himself, panting softly against the doorframe, his other hand curling into the wood as he lets the fantasies of you run filthy and free.
Your soft lips, tenderly wrapping around the head of his cock, suckling happily, taking him deep down your throat. The positions he could take you in, the speeds; devastatingly cruel, the way you command his affections, keeping him shackled to you.
A soft cry escapes from the inside of your door, the noise dripping with intensity.
“Fuck yeah.”
Gerard bites back a needy moan, eyes rolling to the back of his head at the thought of your cunt clenching and pulsing around him. The very thought has him shooting ropes into his palm, pumping himself relentlessly to coax every last drop out. The scent of your arousal lingers faintly in the air, and damn, you smell sweet. How he’d love to taste you…
He sighs, staring down at the load he just blew. He’s despicable, and he knows it.
The next morning, Gerard forces himself to keep last night’s memories at bay, waking up early to cook breakfast for the two of you.
He smiles as he hears your door creak open, drawn out by the delicious smells drifting through the apartment. You pad into the kitchen, hair tousled, dark circles under your eyes, looking every bit as exhausted as he feels. The unguarded sight of you makes his chest tighten, thoughts of last night gnawing at the edges of his composure. He swallows hard, readjusting, forcing his signature smile.
“Morning,” you murmur, rubbing at your eyes.
“Good morning,” he replies, keeping his tone light, sliding a plate across the counter toward you. “Coffee?”
You nod, sliding into a chair. “Thanks… you didn’t have to do all of this.”
“I wanted to,” he says, forcing a casual shrug, though his fingers twitch as he sets your mug down, betraying the calm he’s trying to hold. “Besides, when was the last time someone cooked for you?”
You pause, a faint flicker of surprise crossing your face. “I… can’t even remember,” you admit softly, eyes downcast as you stir your coffee. “I’ve been so busy studying for midterms that I haven’t had a moment to think about anything else…”
Gerard nods, his expression soft and full of understanding. “I’m sure you’re doing great,” he says, voice steady and reassuring, offering a quiet confidence meant to ease some of the weight he can see pressing on you.
You shrug, a tired edge to your movements. “It’s the same old stuff. Honestly, I just want to finish my degree and get my own place as soon as possible.”
He leans back slightly, nodding again, though a subtle panic creeps in. He doesn’t want you to leave and get your own place, the thought twisting uncomfortably in his chest. Silence stretches between you, thick and expectant, and in the quiet, an idea begins to form in the back of Gerard’s mind.
“We should watch a movie tonight. Get your mind off of things for a little.”
You tilt your head, eyes locking with his, uncertainty flickering across your face before you retreat back into that familiar, stoic composure. The softness vanishes as quickly as it appeared, replaced by the careful restraint you always wear.
He notices immediately. “C’mon,” he says, soft and insistent, leaning a little closer. “You deserve a little break, don’t you think?”
Gerard catches the faintest trace of a smile tugging at your lips, fragile, but nevertheless a crack in your carefully constructed armor.
“Yeah, I guess.”
Night comes sooner than expected.
Gerard picks the movie, a random slasher flick he’s seen dozens of times, loud and familiar enough to blur into the background. It’s not like he’s really watching anyway; his attention locked entirely on you, though he’s an expert in not showing it.
You settle onto the couch beside him, close enough your knees almost touch. Almost. The opening credits roll, synthy music swelling, screams slicing through the room. He pretends to focus, nodding along like this is all normal, like his body isn’t painfully aware of every shift you make.
“Have you seen this one?” you ask.
“Yeah,” he says. A beat passes. “Couple times.”
There’s something in the way he says it that makes you glance at him. His eyes are fixed on the screen, jaw tight, the cold flashes of the movie casting long shadows across his face. When you look away, his gaze slides to you instead, hungry and expectant.
A shrill sound cuts through the movie and you flinch, your arm instinctively brushing against his.
Gerard doesn’t flinch.
Doesn’t move.
Doesn’t breathe.
“Sorry,” you murmur, not pulling away right away.
“It’s fine,” he says. Too calm. Too collected.
You laugh at a cheesy line of dialogue, unaware. Comfortable. Safe.
He notices your shifting, the way you can’t seem to sit still, knees drawing in and then stretching out again relentlessly.
“Are you cold?” Gerard asks, voice casual, almost gentle.
You glance at him, surprised. “A little.”
“C’mere,” he says softly. “I run warm.”
You hesitate, the pause stretching long enough for him to know that your guard is on high alert. Slowly, almost reluctantly, you scooch closer, the faintest brush of your shoulder against his sending a jolt he doesn’t try to hide.
Without warning, Gerard’s arm snakes around you, drawing you fully into his side, the heat radiating from him immediate and inescapable.
“There,” he murmurs, voice low and satisfied. “That’s better.”
You can feel the steady rise and fall of his chest as the movie drones on, blood splattering across the screen, screams echoing. He shifts again, hands on your waist, pulling you fully into his lap. His arms wrap around you, not tight, not entirely gentle either, just enough to hold you there.
“You’ll be more comfortable like this,” he murmurs.
The movie keeps playing, screams and strings swelling in the background, but it’s clear his attention is no longer on the screen. You can feel it in the way his body stills, the subtle quickening of his breath, the slow, absentminded circles his fingers trace on your hips. When you don’t pull away, his hands drift lower, settling on your upper thigh, the same deliberate, teasing rhythm continuing as if testing the space between you.
It’s subtle enough to almost pass for comfort. Gerard’s thumb brushes close enough to make your breath hitch, retreating slowly before returning again, testing, measuring. He doesn’t rush it. He never does. If anything, his grip on you only tightens, anchoring you there, as if afraid you might realize what’s happening and slip free.
You’re well aware of the game at play, shifting around slightly in his lap, the softest grunt escaping him as your cunt brushes the ridge of his hardening cock.
You take it as a sign to push further, hands grazing his chest, playing with the hem of his shirt.
Gerard’s heart is pounding, the feeling of you so impossibly close making his mind spiral. He’s enjoying this too much, hands sliding to rest on the small of your back.
You reach up slowly, brushing the bangs from his face, your fingertips trailing over his temple. You’re fully straddling him at this point, hips flush against his as he shifts around uncomfortably.
There isn’t a need for words between you two, not as you’re grinding down on the bulge in his pants. The sound that escapes him is pitiful, strained, air completely escaping his lungs. You can see it in his eyes, the devotion, the quiet desperation to please. He’ll do anything you want, give anything you want, whatever it takes for you to open up to him, let him be a part of your life, be a part of you.
Your lips brush the corner of his, the tension boiling over, hips slotting against his in another cruel, unforgiving roll. “I’m trying,” he rasps. “Trying so hard to be good for you.”
He leans in so your foreheads touch, eyes boring straight into yours. “Anything. I’ll give you anything you want.”
“Anything?” You tease. He doesn’t waste another second, lips crashing into yours, urgent and claiming.
To his delight, you accept, tongue dancing with his, hands sliding into his greasy hair. Finally, just his like in his dreams, you reciprocate, eagerly at that, moaning into his mouth as he grinds you down onto him. He wanted you to be enthusiastic, but this… this is heaven.
Gerard swallows all of your noises whole, fingers tugging at your shirt. “Get this thing off,” he grunts against your lips. The chill of the room hits your skin in an instant, goosebumps rising along your arms and down your spine, electrifying every nerve.
“Fuck, baby,” he says in quick reverence, leaning foreard to suck one of your nipples into his mouth. “You’re so beautiful.”
Gerard’s hands are rough, calloused, hoisting you out of his lap and onto the couch cushions in one swift motion. He’s back on top of you in an instant, the weight of him warm and heavy, working his lips against the delicate skin of your neck.
“You gonna let me take care of you?” He grunts against your skin, hands palming the swell of your breasts. You nod, head thrown back from the intensity of him, his mouth frantic along your jaw, pulse, anywhere he can reach. His fingers trail lower, hooking on your waistband, helping you kick off your jeans.
Without wasting another second, you grab a tuft of his hair, yanking his face straight into your clothed core. Gerard doesn’t hesitate, greedily lapping at you through the fabric of your panties, his hands snaking around your thighs to keep you spread.
He dips in slowly, his nose brushing up against your clit with every swirl and flick of his tongue. He’s always been proud of the way he eats pussy, and tonight is no exception. Gerard can feel the impatience wafting off of you in waves, but he’s a patient man, kissing and nipping at your folds just enough keep you needy and wanting.
You huff, desperate for more heat, more friction, panties completely soaked through in a mixture of Gerard’s tacky spit and your own slick. You tug at his hair again, unsuccessfully attempting to grind on his face, Gerard’s arms keeping you pinned to the couch cushions, looking up at you devilishly. He stops completely, a wicked grin spreading across his face.
“What is it?” He teases. “Use your words, baby.”
“God, please,” you whine, his lips moving back onto your folds. “N-need your tongue, Gee.”
He hums in approval, the use of his nickname not lost to him, finger hooking on the seam of your panties to pull them down. You’re embarrassingly wet, eyes rolling to the back of your head as his tongue extends a long, flat lick against your slit.
You’re a mess underneath him, lewd curses escaping your lips as he drinks from you like honey, sucking and swirling his tongue with even pressure, devouring in every sense of the word. He moans deeply from the taste of you, head swimming with every candied cry he coaxes from you.
It’s humiliating, the way he works you so well, the speed at which you’re unraveling under his touch. Sure, you’ve received head a couple times in the past, but never like this. Gerard seems to know this, a smug grin on his lips while his eyes connect with yours. One of his hands leaves your thighs, fisting at the bulge straining against his pants.
Gerard lifts his hips just enough to pull himself free, his cock springing against the cushions in an obscene slap. Pre cum leaks steadily from his tip, seeping out all over his clothes and skin. He wraps his hand around the base of his painfully hard cock, pumping himself in time with the rhythm of his tongue inside of you.
You’re rapidly approaching the edge, vision blurring with every brush of his nose, every curl of his tongue. Gerard is utterly blissed out, every part of his lungs protesting as he refuses to pull back for air.
He doesn’t need it.
He is a singer after all, trained in breath control for months and months now.
“Please,” your voice wavers shakily. “M-make me cum, Gerard.”
Your body nearly double over in pleasure, sinking deeper and deeper into the intensity that is him. Gerard squeezes his palm around the base of his cock to stop himself from cumming, letting his cock twitch against the cushions in anticipation of being inside of you. One look into his eyes is all it takes, juices squirting all over his face, cunt clenching around nothing as you writhe in his arms.
Gerard pushes you through it, keeping his face buried between your thighs until he’s fully satisfied. He slips up from between your legs, crawling over you to kiss you once more. You can taste yourself on him, the flavor salty and incredibly erotic. He wraps you in his arms, hoisting you up and off of the couch, your arms clinging to him in your post-orgasmic high.
He carries you down the hall to your bedroom with ease, not bothering to turn on the lights, lowering you gently onto the bed. Your hands help him fiddle with his belt buckle, the rest of his clothes flying off by the wayside.
Gerard is fast and sure with his movements, his fingers gripping your hips in a vice as he eases himself inside of you. Your cunt sucks him in easily, the filthy noises escaping you pure music to his ears. He gives you time to adjust before moving again, feeling your walls clench and unclench around him.
It’s taking everything he has not to just slam into you, going deeper and deeper with steadfast rolls of his hips. Gerard leans down to capture your lips in a sloppy kiss, bottoming out with a final push. He’s just of a mess as you are, moaning shamelessly into your mouth at the feeling of being buried so deep inside of you.
“F-fuck,” he whines, “Been wanting this for so long.”
Gerard sets a steady pace, canting his hips over and over and over into your gummy core, grunting and nipping at the shell of you ear. You bite down on his shoulder to silence yourself, tilting your head up to suck a thick bruise onto his pulse. His reaction is immediate, his entire body pressing into the warmth of your lips.
“More,” you cry out, nails digging into his shoulder blades. “Need more of you, Gerard.”
“You’re such a fucking tease,” he grunts, picking up the pace with a harsh snap of his hips. “Tasting so good, feeling so good. If I had known you’d behave so well for me I would’ve fucked you last night.”
“Y-you heard that?” You hiss. Gerard digs his fingers into the meat of your thigh, wrapping your leg around his hips to angle you deeper. His other hand clutches the headboard, the bed frame rattling with every fuck of his hips.
“Of course I did,” he coos. “Heard you moaning and begging so sweetly like the desperate little slut you are.”
Gerard’s slamming into you now, one of his hands snaking down and rubbing messy circles onto your clit. His cock touches everything inside of you, the wetness of your cunt a paradise, obsession and devotion clawing its way to the surface as he worships and praises you. Even in the darkness, he can see his length sliding in and out of you, just barely, but the thought has him keening, pressing his hand down to feel himself. Fuck, he’s inside of you, pleasing you so thoroughly you can hardly speak, desperate whimpers grating past your throat.
“You gonna cum?” He moans. “Gonna come from just my cock inside of you?”
Your hands find him in the dark, pulling him down to kiss you as your release rips through you deep and slow. Gerard forces you through it, your helpless cries egging him on, grunting so loudly he’s sure the neighbors will hear. His is fast approaching, cock twitching inside of you with every creamy push.
“No more shutting the door on me, yeah? You gonna let me have you whenever I want?”
“Yes, promise, promise,” you sob, too fucked out to form a coherent sentence at this point.
“Good girl.”
Gerard can feel it coming, and fuck it, he’ll dump his load inside of you, several more intense powerful thrusts and he’s snapping your hips flush against his, shooting straight against your cervix. You whine as he continues shallowly thrusting, prolonging his pleasure, arching your back into him completely at the feeling of him using you. He collapses on top of you, completely spent, and you press close, listening to his heartbeat settle against yours. After a few minutes of heavy panting, he slips out of you with a sigh, streaks of cum coating your thighs from such a heavy load.
Gerard falls to the mattress beside you wordlessly, still catching his breath. You loop one of your legs around his, drawing him closer, pressing your lips softly against his sticky chest.
“I meant what I said, you know,” he mumbles, blowing his bangs out of his face. “This isn’t a one time thing.”
You laugh, voice low and horse, leaning up to kiss him sweetly.
“Anytime you want me to take care of you, I’m here.”
“Mmhmm. I promise, Gee.”
And you keep it.
Little by little, he slips further into your life, until he’s everywhere. You start showing up to his shows, laughing at his jokes, leaving the door to your room wide open so he can come and go as he pleases.
He wanted this once, dreamed about it in quieter moments.
And now that he has it, now that he’s finally in your world in all the ways he once imagined, he’s never letting you go.
.ᐟ a/n: work has lowkey been kicking my ass lately but my desire to write mcr smut prevails. this can honestly be read as a standalone one shot or after the events of part 1. finishing the pervy bullets gerard x roommate reader next. wc: 3,506.
It’s fifteen minutes until places, the cast and crew rushing through final checks and cues in a flurry of anticipation. Every corner of the stadium is alive with energy, the buzz of the crowd echoing through the walls backstage.
Although not entirely new, the first show of the new year promises a series of new twists and turns that will set the tone for the rest of the tour.
Gerard’s greenroom is stuffy, the humid air drifting through the vents clinging to your skin in a sheen layer of sweat. It’s a rare moment of silence for you two, a brief pause amidst the chaos of opening night.
Your head rests against Gerard’s thigh, one of his hands rubbing slow circles across your hip. The other clutches his notes from soundcheck a few hours ago, fingers casually flipping through them.
Distracted, you take a moment to study him. He’s in his makeup and costume, leather suspenders tight against his chest, in-ear monitors dangling from his neck, gloves on his hands, the marching band jacket draped casually over a chair nearby.
It’s moments like these you cherish the most, the times you can simply be near him, feel the weight of his presence, the warmth of his touch, hear the steady rhythm of his breathing. You haven’t exactly defined your relationship yet, but the quiet understanding between you two speak louder than any label ever could.
That’s not to say there aren’t any signs. He’s always near you, lingering just a little longer than necessary, even if you can’t be seen together in public. Your hands brushing against each other’s backstage. The hickeys scattered across your neck and slight limp in your step as you move hurriedly through the wings.
Observant eyes can fill in the gaps, notice the tension between you, but no one dares to ask. The connection between you and Gerard is unspoken yet undeniable, and you’re both happy to lay low. For now, at least.
Sweat soaks your clothes, making every movement feel heavier than it should, but it’s not just the humidity making you fidget, oh no. Your muscles ache from the position he had you in this morning, the lingering soreness forcing you to constantly readjust in his lap.
Even worse, you can feel his cum from earlier sticking to your upper thighs, most of it pooling in your panties with every slight shift.
“Something wrong?” Gerard smirks, his eyes glinting with that signature mischief of his.
He’s terrible.
He knows exactly what’s wrong; after all, he’s the one who left you like this on purpose, not cleaning you up, forcing you to feel his cum inside of you all day.
“Ah… nothing,” you stammer, a faint flush spreading across your cheeks. It’s starting to get to you and he knows it, his gaze sharpening as he enjoys your squirming.
You inch closer until your nose brushes against his thigh. He exhales softly, setting the papers aside so his full attention is on you, the teasing glint in his eyes softening just enough to make your pulse skip.
“Are you sure?”
You take a deep breath, too flustered to think straight, not backing down. “I’m fine.”
Gerard isn’t satisfied with this, pulling his hands down to lift you fully in his lap. He wraps you into his chest, the sudden closeness making your pulse spike.
“I should really tell you no, you know,” he mumbles into your ear, his lips brushing a spot beneath the lobe. “We have a show in ten minutes.”
“Can’t help it,” you grin, hands sliding up his chest and around his neck.
“Guess we’ll just have to be quick, won’t we?” He grins, hands settling on your waist as if challenged. He doesn’t give you a second to respond, gently pressing his thigh flush against your core.
His hands hold you in place, grinding you down onto the meat of his quad. You squirm in his grasp, already overwhelmed from the friction against the seam of your jeans. He begins to bounce his thigh beneath you, the pressure increasing tenfold as you inhale sharply. He’s so… creative, always trying something new, always pushing your boundaries little by little.
“How does that feel?” Gerard asks, voice low and husky, eyes gauging your reactions.
“S-so good,” you breathe, your words barely audible, electricity sparking between your legs with every forward grind. He can feel your wetness soaking through the fabric, and fuck, the way it slicks to his skin is addicting.
He continues his steady pace, unrelenting in his movements as you cling and scratch at him. It doesn’t do much, the rush of heat causing you to double over in his lap. Gerard’s hands hold you firmly in place, your soft whimpers music to his ears with every grind.
“Look at you,” he grunts, pushing you down harder, the leather from his gloves digging into your hips. “Such a fucking tease. Always so needy, always so willing. I guess three minutes is all it takes to fall apart on my thigh.”
He reaches up to brush a sweaty strand of hair from your face, his touch surprisingly gentle in comparison to the almost forceful movements beneath you. You wrap your arms around his neck once more, leaning in to press a kiss to his neck, but he stops you.
“Nuh uh,” he murmurs, a quiet warning laced with amusement. “Did I say you could?”
Your face flushes again at his words, heat rushing up your neck as you press your lips to the seam of his shirt instead. You shift against him, your fingertips tightening slightly in the fabric as you try to steady your breathing.
Gerard exhales sharply through his nose, a sound that betrays just how much he’s enjoying this as well, how aware he is of every small movement.
“G-gerard… please,” you whine, voice strained and scratchy. “Need it…”
“Need what?” He repeats slowly, the words drawn out with a teasing lilt.
“Tell me.”
You sigh, desperation outweighing reason at this point. “Need to come…”
“Need to come?” He hums, dragging the words out. “Hmmm… I don’t know…” He brings his hand up to your face, tracing your cheek with his thumb.
“Do you think you deserve it?”
You nod immediately, a little too eager for your own good, too dazed to hide it, your expression hazy and unfocused as you look up at him.
“Please,” you pant. “I need this… I need you.”
Gerard doesn’t answer, a slow smirk gracing his lips as he watches you claw your way closer and closer to the edge. He can feel it, the way your cunt pulses around his thigh, the way you scratch at him, the hazy look in your eyes… and just as you’re about to cross over the threshold… he stops, ceasing his movements completely.
The lack of contact catches you off guard, disbelief flickering across your face as the friction between your legs disappears all at once. For a moment, you don’t even fully register it, your eyes locking with his in shock.
“What the fuck?” You hiss, exasperated. “You can’t just do that! I was right there…”
Gerard grins, silencing your protests with a kiss. It’s soft, his lips molding to yours sweetly before pulling back. He cups your face, thumb brushing lightly over your cheek in an apology.
“Patience, baby,” he murmurs, pressing a tender kiss to your forehead. “After.”
“After?” you groan. “You’re just going to leave me like this?”
He chuckles softly, carefully guiding you off of him as he stands up. He reaches for his jacket, slipping it on and readjusting before saying goodbye and slipping out the door.
The first show back goes off without a hitch, every entrance sharp, every cue precise, the reimagined bloody end to Act 1 electrifying to watch from the wings. The cast is truly something special, pouring so much emotion onstage it almost feels larger than the show. Even after the previous months on tour, the show still feels fresh and is easily one of the coolest touring productions you’ve ever seen.
Several hours later, backstage is buzzing with the remnants of the opening night energy. Cast and crew members drift about, drinks in hand, spirits high from the adrenaline of the show.
The crowd thins slowly, the majority of the cast and crew heading back to the hotel for the night, exhaustion and early flights outweighing the need to celebrate any longer. You choose to stay, lingering with the few who remain, laughter loose, drinks flowing.
You end up talking with a random guy from lighting. It’s easy, causal, nothing more than small talk used to fill the emptiness backstage. It’s nice, meeting people outside of your expertise, so much so you end up talking for at least an hour, completely lost in the conversation.
You don’t notice the pair of eyes locked on you from across the wings, watching every change in your expression, every easy smile, every laugh.
The guy laughs and shifts a little closer, his shoulder brushing yours as he loops an arm around you absentmindedly. You freeze under his touch, your body unable to shrug him off for some reason.
And then you feel it: a chilling pressure against your back, sharp and unmistakable.
Gerard is there, still in his clothes from Act 2, hair damp with sweat and fake blood. His palm rests on the small of your back, mouth curving into something that almost passes for a smile.
Almost, but not quite.
He isn’t looking at you, no. His gaze is fixed on the hand now resting on your hip, his eyes flicking between you and the guy beside you. You can sense his irritation, the tight set of his shoulders and twitch of his jaw scarily telling.
“Getting a little late, don’t you think?” Gerard says to you, his voice still hoarse from the show.
“Yeah, sorry. We were just talking about…”
“Talking,” Gerard cuts you off, flat and uninterested, each syllable clipped. “That’s nice.” The words hang in the air, heavy with something unspoken, his gaze still lingering on the contact between you and the guy.
You brush out of the guy’s grasp, trying to keep your posture relaxed. The guy glances at you, then back to Gerard, a question on the tip of his tongue, but you don’t register it.
Gerard doesn’t move closer, doesn’t need to, the tension alone making it clear who’s in control of the moment.
Finally, he lets out a soft sigh, the edge in his voice softening slightly. “Well,” he says, still flat, “I’d like your help with something before heading out, please.”
You let him lead you toward the backstage exit, the noise of the party fading behind you with each step. Once you’re both outside, he takes your hand in his, gripping so tight you can feel his nails digging into your knuckles. His hand is practically ice cold, dragging you along out of the lights and out of sight.
The drive back to the hotel passes in pure silence, the city lights sliding past the windows in a flurry. His fingers stay laced with yours in the backseat the entire time.
Gerard gets quiet when he’s upset, distant, lost somewhere deep in thought. There’s no raised voice, no sharp words, just a heavy stillness that fills the space around him and settles into your chest with equal weight. You can feel the tension simmering anyway, contained but unmistakable, the way he’s holding something in by sheer force of will.
He doesn’t let go when you step out of the car, guiding you through the lobby unconcerned with who might see.
The elevator ride is silent, his thumb brushing slightly against your knuckles, an absent motion that somehow feels more intimate than words. You’re the first to break the silence, your voice low and careful.
“Are you… okay?”
He doesn’t answer right away, his shoulders stiffening just a fraction. For a long moment, he just looks forward, silent, letting the hum of the elevator fill the space between you. He nods once, barely perceptible, and guides you toward his door.
The second the lock clicks, his lips are on yours, frantic and urgent. It’s rough, abrasive, his stubble scraping against your chin as you struggle to catch a breath. His hands find your waist, pulling you flush against him as if he can’t bear the slightest space between you. The air is thick with the heat of him, his sweat, the rawness of something he’s been holding back finally surfacing.
Gerard shuffles you to the foot of the bed, guiding you back one step at a time until you’re sitting on the edge of the mattress. He leans over you, bracing his arms on either side of you, caging you in without touching.
His presence is overwhelming this close; the way he towers over you, the intensity in his eyes, the harshness of his touch. His hands push you forward, tipping you back into the bed. Gerard’s lips are on your neck in an instant, licking and sucking on the spot he knows you love. He knees your legs apart, hands trailing up your body to remove your clothes.
Your breath falters and your thoughts blur, senses struggling to catch up with the sheer intensity of the moment.
Without thinking, your hand fists the fabric of his shirt, fingers tightening in a silent request for him to slow down.
“Gerard,” you mewl as his fingers hook on the waistband of your pants. “Wait…”
He ignores you, tugging them down in one swift motion. “I’m done waiting,” he says plainly, chest rising and falling in a rapid rhythm that mirrors your own. The certainty in his voice isn’t calm. It’s tight, strained, the patience he’s been clinging to all night finally snapping.
“So tell me if it gets too much.”
His hands are back on you, tugging your jeans down by the wayside. Gerard’s been wound up all day, frustration simmering beneath his skin. It isn’t directed at you, not really, but at the situation, the circumstances he can’t control, the thoughts he can’t quite silence.
He isn’t a stranger to the looks people give him on the rare occasions you are seen together. He knows exactly what they’re thinking, that he must be some creep preying on someone younger, brighter, using you as some toy to satisfy his sick desires.
The thought slips his mind more often than he’d like, a dull ache he tries not to dwell on, one he can’t allow himself to think about, especially not now. Not with how perfect you look underneath him, the soft haze in your eyes, the flush of your cheeks, the warmth radiating off you that makes it impossible to focus on anything else.
He shuffles between your legs, fingertips brushing your thighs as he pulls your panties down. His hands fiddle with his buckle, frantic, impatient, giving him just enough room to free himself.
Gerard hoists your legs around his waist, placing one hand on your hip and the other on his cock. He guides himself to your entrance, making several passes between your folds as you squirm in his grasp.
“Stay still,” he murmurs, the words barely leaving his lips before his hand shifts to hold you more securely, pressing your hips into the mattress.
He’s been waiting for this all night, every thought during the show circling back to you, your eyes, your laugh.
He doesn’t need to draw this part out, every passing second feeling like wasted time he could be spending inside of you, keeping you stuffed and sated throughout the night.
One final look into your eyes and he pushes himself inside, your walls fluttering around him. He bottoms with one swift snap of his hips, his eyes rolling as your cunt sucks him in.
“Fuck,” he moans aloud, doing everything he can to resist fucking into you like an animal. “Nice and tight for me. Just the way I like it.”
Finally, he’s inside of you again, picking up the pace with every thrust as his hands clutch your knees, bending your legs back. He’s addicted to you, consumed by you, his eyes fluttering closed as he takes it all in. Your wetness is so warm, so inviting, he could just lose himself inside of you.
The heat builds as he picks up the pace with deep strokes, his tip catching the spongy tissue of your cervix with every push. It’s electrifying, euphoric, the feeling of him inside of you always so intimate even with how rough he gets.
Gerard brings you back to the present with a slap on your ass, a deep-set frown on his face. “Tell me something,” he mutters, voice low and sharp. “Do you think that boy at the party would fuck you like this?”His jaw tightens, pressing his hand down on the bulge of your stomach where his cock is nestled.
“Love you like this?”
He smacks your ass again, the sting burning your skin.
“Answer me.”
You take a deep breath, his hips snapping against yours hard enough to bruise.
“N-no,” you cry, voice trembling with desperation. “It’s you, Gerard. Only you.” Your chest rises and falls rapidly, eyes searching his for any sign of reprieve.
Gerard slings you legs into his shoulders, hands digging into the skin of your thighs as he tips you both forward into a breeding press.
You’re instantly overwhelmed, obscene noises slipping from your lips as you writhe under the weight of him. “F-fuck, Gerard… It’s too much,” you whine, your body spread uncomfortably. “God, I… can’t…”
“You can take it,” he grunts, thrusts sliding so deep inside of you it feels as if it’s knocking into your throat. It feels like heaven, your nerves flooding with fire as heat shoots through your veins. Your sweat mixes with Gerard’s, the remaining blood from the show dripping out of his hair onto your chest.
He’s fucking insatiable, the energy he still has after nearly three hours of performing absurd.
Gerard’s grip moves to several different spots on your waist and hips, bruising your skin in pictures of blues and purples. The sheer abuse of your insides has your muscles tensing up, flexing and burning from being nearly folded in half.
“C-choke me, Gerard,” you whimper, body tensing with every rough slam of his hips.
“You’re so dirty, baby.” he grunts, one of his hands moving from your hip and pressing on the sides of your throat.
It’s almost predatory the way his gaze locks onto you, his eyes boring into your soul with every fuck of his hips. “Tell me how much you love this cock.”
Your words come out raspy, the pressure on your throat keeping your words stuck. He can tell you’re close, feel it, your hands clawing at the sheets as tears trickle down your cheeks. Filthy moans escape your lips, turning into cries with every passing second. Fuck, he’s stimulated you just right, your cunt clenching down on him as you become lost in the white hot bliss.
Gerard releases your legs, clutching you beneath him, burying his face in the crook of your neck as he fucks you through your orgasm. His is fast approaching, cock twitching inside of you as he kisses all over your chest, the blood in his hair smearing across your neck.
You can feel his hips stutter, filthy praises ringing from his lips as he releases deep inside of you with a final slam of his hips. He continues to pump his cum into you, moaning deeply as your cunt clenches instinctively around him, milking every last drop.
It takes a moment for Gerard to catch his breath, releasing your legs and pulling out of you slowly.
Fuck, he knows he pushed you too hard, panic flickering across his face as he takes in your pained expression. For a moment, he freezes, holding himself back, waiting to see if you’ll push him away. The tension in the room hangs thick, every second stretched tight with unspoken worry.
Hesitantly, your hand reaches up, guiding him down to you, your lips pressing against his in a soft kiss. It’s gentle, grounding, reassurance that you’re still here, still present, and his panic melts into relief.
“Shit, I’m so sorry,” he mumbles against your lips. You reach out your hand to him and he takes it, lifting it to his lips to kiss your knuckles. “I lost control there at the end. Are you okay?”
You nod, hand brushing the side of his face tenderly.
Gerard goes to the bathroom, fetching you some water and a warm towel. He wipes you down carefully, methodically, as if you’re made of the most delicate glass, pressing an occasional kiss to the bruises on your skin. A drop of cum tries to escape you, but he pushes it back inside with his finger, mumbling apologies as you over-sensitively gasp.
“I can’t get enough of you, you know,” he says softly, voice carrying a sweetness that makes your chest tighten.
“And I don’t think I ever will,” he adds, letting the weight of it hang between you.
.ᐟ summary: you’re a crew member helping choreograph the 2026 shows of the long live the black parade tour.
.ᐟ tags: age gap, tension, fake blood, dirty talk, praise, fingering, mirror sex, fem reader, gerard is a sweetheart!
.ᐟ a/n: best believe i had been WAITING to write a lltbp gerard fic and rannnn to my latop the second i saw this clip. wc: 3,138.
“Try getting on top of her, Gerard.”
You’ve been reworking the final number of Act I for two hours now, the heat hanging heavy across the soundstage as every attempt falls short. The crew’s patience is stretched thin, tension boiling around Gerard’s indecisive movements.
Naturally, the band wanted to re-choreograph the entire show for the new year, keeping the anticipation and excitement as fresh as possible. You quickly learned that this meant standing in for the regular cast members as an extra, nothing more than a placeholder while the changes were worked out.
In true Black Parade fashion, you’re on top of a gurney in the position that will eventually belong to Charlie Saxton. Since it’s still in the early stages of blocking, it makes sense for you to fill in for him for the time being.
Gerard glances at you, uncertain, then shifts his gaze back to the choreographer. “Excuse me?”
“You heard me. Just try it.”
Gerard hesitates a moment longer, gripping the prop that will soon become the signature dagger. He eases to the edge of the bed, the awkwardness of his movements impossible to miss, before looking back at the choreographer.
“It’ll look better if you’re on top,” The choreographer sighs.
He hoists himself onto the bed, moving slowly until he settles between your legs.
“Now stab,” the choreographer instructs.
Gerard stares back at you, shifting so he’s hovering completely over your chest. His gaze drops to yours, hazel eyes sharp and focused, intent on getting this right. You silently pray he can't hear the way your breath quickens, or the wild hammering of your heart against your chest.
“You okay with this, sweetheart?”
Sweetheart.
You know he means it causally, an endearment tossed off without a second thought, but it only makes your cheeks flush hotter. He notices, tucking a stray strand of hair from your face as you take a deep breath.
“Y-yeah,” you stutter out. “All good with me.”
“Try stabbing sporadically across the chest,” the choreographer directs.
Gerard turns his attention back to you, the intensity of his gaze almost too much to bear. He’s close enough that you can smell him, the sweat on his skin mixing with something warm and woody.
It’s undeniably attractive on him, the way it floods your senses and makes everything else fall away. In hindsight, this entire thing was absurd, you blushing over a man nearly twice your age, separated by years and entirely different lives. You tell yourself it’s normal, forcing the thoughts aside as you snap back into character.
Keep it professional, you idiot.
He brings his hand down swiftly, miming the motion as he “stabs” your chest again and again, careful and precise.
“Perfect.” The choreographer claps, satisfaction evident. “We’ll pick this up again tomorrow.”
Gerard lifts himself off of you carefully, concern flickering across his face. “Was that too rough?”
“Not at all,” you stammer, still completely flushed. “I-I thought it was perfect, actually. I’m excited to see it with you and Charlie.”
A small smile graces his lips, the corners of his eyes wrinkling ever so slightly. “Well, I appreciate you being here to help figure this out.”
The next few nights are exhausting, the two of you growing more familiar as the rough edges of the movement are smoothed out. You usually reach this scene at the very end of the day, the rest of the cast choosing to head home, leaving the soundstage quiet and empty.
Tonight, the choreographer brings in the blood packs and the actual props. It was Gerard’s idea to add entrails; always one to stick to his love of gore.
He’s early, two coffees in hand for the inevitably long night. You smile at him, moving to set your bag down before he stops you.
“For you,” he winks. “Can’t have you falling asleep on me.”
You thank him graciously, your fingertips brushing his as you take the cup.
“Oh please,” you smirk. “It’s hard to fall asleep with you on top of m— “ you catch yourself, clearing your throat. “… This.”
Gerard grins, a teasing glint in his eyes. “Tell me if it ever gets too much,” he says, pausing just long enough to let the words linger. “I can get… intense at times.”His tone is careful, measured, every bit the professional, yet there’s an undeniable playfulness woven through it.
“I think it’s perfect for your character,” you smile back.
“Let’s try it with the music today,” the choreographer interrupts. “Try the eight count like we practiced, Gerard.”
One: He steps onto the stage from downstage right.
Two: He prances around the bed.
Three: He settles at the foot of the bed.
Four: He climbs up.
Five: He crawls over to you.
Six: He clutches the dagger.
Seven: He raises the dagger.
Eight: He stabs.
It’s perfect, fake blood spraying every which way as he continues to stab, each movement precise and dramatic. The shock is exactly what he wants, the way it grabs attention and holds it.
The blood soaks your clothes through the vest as he continues to stab aggressively, carrying the scene through to the end of the song. Gerard leans down, lips brushing over your forehead ever so slightly.
“How are you holding up?” he whispers, his hand brushing yours on the side of the bed.
“Fine,” you reply, keeping your voice steady, your heart racing under the weight of his attention.
“Good.” He whispers, pressing his lips against your temple before getting up.
The next day is a fully costumed rehearsal, a chance to run through the first act from top to bottom. Everyone is in full gear, props in hand, and the energy is different, more electric and urgent as the cast moves through the setlist.
It’s exhilarating, the energy completely renewed, coursing through the soundstage. It’s your final night covering the role, and you can’t wait to watch everything come to life.
Gerard is there, front and center.
He’s stunning, absolutely radiant, commanding attention and owning every inch of the stage.
You watch him from stage right, utterly entranced, his costume layered with more intricacies than before. The buttons, the pins, the emblems… even the lining on his jacket is flawless, catching the light with every little movement.
Your eyes follow him as he moves gracefully around the, completely in character, every gesture and expression perfectly in sync.
The crew pulls you offstage for the final song, leaving you a moment to rehearse it in your head, running through each movement and cue with careful precision. You slip the blood packs into place under your costume.
You step out during the interlude, settling onto the gurney exactly as rehearsed. A few seconds later, Gerard returns to the stage, the eight-count kicking in as he moves to you effortlessly. He climbs up onto the bed, settling directly on top of your legs.
Gerard raises his gloved hand, pausing for a beat before slamming the dagger into your chest. You can feel the bags puncture, the air getting knocked out of your lungs as blood shoots everywhere, hitting you clean in the eye. He continues to stab you, laughing manically, climbing off the bed and tugging at your entrails.
He gets back up onto the bed, forcing the dagger into your chest again and again and again. Blood splatters across your skin, your hair, both of your costumes, carrying the song to the end.
For a moment, there’s silence, broken only by the sounds of your and his heavy breathing before the crew erupts in cheers. You can tell he’s still in character, eyes wild and uneven from the adrenaline of the scene.
You look at him wearily, your exhaustion mingling with a sense of relief.
“Thats a wrap!” The director cheers, snapping you both out of the intensity of the scene. “Great job, everyone! Let’s get things set up for tomorrow.”
You rise to get up, pushing Gerard off of you.
“I’m gonna… clean myself up,” you say awkwardly, scurrying past him to the nearest restroom.
“Wait—” you hear him call behind you, but you don’t give him another second.
You reach the bathroom, taking a slow breath and staring at yourself in the mirror. You’re soaked in the blood, the droplets dripping down your forehead and clothes onto the floor. You try your best to clean up using paper towels, but the blood won’t fully come off, leaving streaks and stains across your skin.
You move to wipe your face, reaching to grab more towels before a quiet knock on the door interrupts you. Gerard’s there, costume still on, blood dripping off of his jacket. “Are you alright?”
You nod, stepping back to give him enough room to enter the tight space.
“Jesus, it looks like some of it got in your eye,” Gerard huffs. “C’mere.” He guides you to the sink, turning the faucet on so you can rinse it out.
An awkward silence settles between you two before he speaks up again.
“Fuck… I’m so sorry,” He mutters. I’ll be more gentle next time, promise.”
“No need,” you say softly. “Besides, Charlie’s put-in is tomorrow.”
“Ah…” he pauses. “Right.” An awkward silence hangs between you for a moment before he clears his throat. “Well, if there’s anything else I can do…”
“Gerard,” You interrupt. “Thank you. For all of this… for everything.”
His expression lightens, a touch of warmth in his eyes. You continue. “It’s been a pleasure working with you. I’ve learned so much, and it’s truly been an honor over the past few weeks. I can’t wait to follow the tour along and…”
Gerard cuts you off, stepping forward and trailing his hand up your neck. He settles on your chin, tilting your face up to his ever so slowly before he leans in, pressing his lips against yours.
Your eyes widen as the reality of the situation kicks in, your heart racing uncontrollably as you shakily return the kiss. Little by little, the surprise melts away, Gerard’s lips moulding to yours perfectly.
He deepens the kiss, hand sliding to cup your cheek as the other rests lightly on your waist, pulling you closer. You wrap your arms around him instinctively, losing yourself in his warm scent.
Gerard is gentle with you, moving you backwards until your hips press against the counter. He hoists you up, sliding you until your back is flush against the mirror.
He finally pulls back a little, breaking for air, his forehead resting lightly against yours.
“Tell me,” he purrs, his voice low and warm against your lips. “How long have you been thinking about this?”
“I—” You hesitate, the words catching in your throat as you swallow thickly. “For… longer than I can remember. Before… all of this…”
Your admission lies heavy between you, thick and heavy with meaning.
“I’ve… wanted you so badly I can’t think about anyone else,” you continue with baited breath. “I’ve tried to talk myself out of it, bury the feelings, be professional…” You pause. “But… nothing works.”
Gerard goes quiet for a moment, studying you, your glassy eyes, flushed cheeks.
“Yeah,” he says softly. “I know.”
There’s not a single ounce of arrogance in his tone, just honesty, stripped bare and laid out in front of you. “I feel it too,” he pauses, a small smile tugging at his lips. “Turns out I’m not very good at pretending either.”
He leans in again, capturing your lips as he leans closer, hand reaching to slip off his jacket.
“Wait…” you murmur, blushing, your fingers pressing lightly against his chest to stop him. “C-can you… keep it on?”
He pauses, pulling back just enough to look at you, a flicker of surprise crossing his face before it softens into something amused.
“It’s just…” You start hesitantly. “I had a little… crush… on you back in the day and…”
Gerard cuts you off again.
“You don’t have to explain yourself, sweetheart.” He pauses, his thumb tracing gentle circles on your arm as his gaze lingers on yours.
Gerard drops to your neck, his nose brushing the sensitive skin of your pulse before trailing lower. He presses his lips against your collarbone, sucking a tender bruise onto the skin before moving back up. He kisses a slow path back to your jaw, lingering and sucking with every bite
His hands gingerly part your thighs, settling on the waistband of your jeans in a silent ask. You reach a hand up, gently pushing the damp strands of hair from his face, your thumb lingering at his temple.
Gerard eases your pants down, the chill of the bathroom raising goosebumps along your skin. He grins, a playful glint in his eyes.
“Look at this,” he teases, swiping a finger over the embarrassingly large wet spot on your panties.
“Soaked through,” he pauses, the playful lilt to his tone making it all the more embarrassing. “Have you no shame?”
Your cheeks burn at his words, never expecting him to have such a dirty mouth. You turn your head to look away, his hand catching your face and guiding it back to look at him.
“Nuh uh. None of that.”
“Gerard— please,” you whine as his fingers pin your hips down onto the bathroom counter to hold you still.
“Patience, baby. I’m taking my time with you.” He moves one of his hands, fingertips brushing your puffy clit through the thin fabric. You squirm at the sensation, hips struggling against his weight.
“Oh?” He teases. “Does that feel good?”
Gerard begins to rub circles against the fabric, testing what’s best for you through your little reactions. He builds a steady pace, fingers working against you perfectly as you whine.
“What about…” he pauses, slipping the fabric to the side. “Here?” His middle finger circles your entrance carefully, dipping insight effortlessly from how wet you are.
“Tell me,” he says softly. “Just like we do in rehearsals.”
“F-fuck yeah,” you whine as he goes in a little deeper, parting your gummy walls with intense precision. He slips another finger inside of you, the texture of the leather absolutely electrifying, stroking a spongy spot that has you shaking.
Gerard’s breath is borderline husky, dark eyes locked on the way his fingers disappear inside of you, his palm grinding against your clit with every stroke with every push.
“How about this?” He continues to tease. “Like the way the leather stretches you?”
You whimper, nodding frantically as your eyes roll to the back of your head.
Gerard grins smugly, entranced by the sight of you getting lost in the pleasure he brings you. His pace never falters, hooking and scissoring his fingers as you unravel beneath him. He slides his other hand up to the hem of your shirt, tugging gently.
You catch the hint, lifting the cotton over your head as a rush of anticipation runs through you. Beneath your clothes, your skin is streaked and stained with the blood from earlier, a vivid reminder of the intensity of rehearsal.
Gerard shifts down to lather your chest, his tongue swirling over the exposed skin in an attempt to lick the blood off. He latches onto your breasts, warm spit coating the skin with every swirl of his tongue.
You thread your fingers through his sweaty hair, pulling him up to kiss you again. It’s sloppy, urgent, teeth clacking as your tongues wrestle for dominance.
He keeps his rhythm steady, matching your intensity as your breathing becomes shallow.
“Gerard,” you whine against his lips. “M’close.”
“I know you are,” he pants, voice rough and scratchy. “Doing so, so good. Let go for me, pretty girl.”
You whine softly as the pleasure peaks, your cunt clenching around his fingers. Gerard doesn’t slow down, working you with the same laser focus as before. The sensations eventually taper off, leaving you squirming in his grasp as discomfort begins to build.
He withdraws his fingers slowly, bringing them to his mouth as you watch. He wraps his lips around them all too innocently, sucking and swirling with the same motions he graced your skin with. The action has you doubling over, a fire lighting within your core once more.
“You taste delicious,” he teases, licking his glove clean.
You grab the lapel of his jacket without warning, slamming his body into yours to taste yourself on his tongue. Gerard inhales sharply, a low growl escaping his throat as he responds to your sudden confidence.
“I need it now, Gerard,” you hiss. “I’m done waiting.” He smiles, roughly hoisting you into the air and flipping your body around to face the mirror. He manhandles you over the counter, hands groping and shoving until your face is inches from the mirror.
You gasp at the sight, heart pounding at your reflection. You’re ridiculously flushed at this point, hair completely disheveled as the remainder of the blood drips down your body.
Gerard settles behind you, hands lightly pressing down against your lower back to steady you.
“Okay?” He asks, eyes flicking between you and your reflection in the mirror.
You nod, pushing back against his trousers ever so slightly. You watch him fiddle with his trousers, impatience wafting off of him in waves. He untucks himself, spitting on his hand and lathering his cock in a few strokes before lining it up with your entrance.
Holding your gaze in the mirror, he pushes himself inside of you, bottoming out with a gentle snap of his hips.
“Look at you,” he moans. “Beautiful.”
You can feel the buttons of his jacket pressing into your skin, the cool metal making you shiver with every thrust.
You’re already overwhelmed, your walls clenching and unclenching around him instinctively. The stretch of him is sharp yet pleasurable, a delicious ache that sends a jolt of heat up your spine.
Gerard leans down, hovering over your back to press soft kisses into your shoulder blades. Your fingers clutch the counter for support as his hands find yours and wrap around them.
You can see the muscles of his back flexing in the mirror, the sight making your breath hitch. It’s incredibly erotic watching him move, each thrust controlled and powerful.
“So fucking tight,” he growls into your ear, filthy praises spilling from his lips as he pounds you into the counter. “For me, right? All for me?”
You arch your back to take him deeper, the wet slaps of skin intensifying tenfold as you nod over and over again. He threads one of his hands through your hair, jerking your head back by the roots and forcing you to meet his gaze in the mirror.
“Eyes up here, baby. I thought you wanted to see me,” he pants. “Don’t you want to see yourself make a mess around my cock?”
You nod, eyes rolling to the back of your head as he tugs your scalp harder. It’s obscene, the wet slaps and squelches of skin ringing out amongst the moans.
You feel so weak against him, so used by his sturdy hands and body, your cunt plant around him with every push of his cock. Gerard can feel the power in his thighs as he slams into you, his cock buried so deep inside of you it feels as if he’s fucking up into your throat.
“Fucking filthy,” he snarls, doubling down on the pace. Your legs nearly crumple from the weight of him behind you, the force of you practically slamming your face into the mirror.
He releases your hair, hand snaking around your body to rub messy circles around your clit.
“C’mon, sweetheart,” he pants, voice absolutely shot. “Let’s get there together. You can do that for me, can’t you, pretty girl?”
You scream, biting down onto his fingers harshly as you crash over the edge. The room narrows as you scream his name over and over again, the milking compression of your cunt enough to have him bursting against you.
“Fuck— where do you…” he moans desperately.
“Inside, G-Gerard. God… I need to feel it inside.”
It takes several more intense slams before he’s coming undone inside of you, hot spurts of cum painting your tight cunt. You collapse onto the counter, completely spent as the last of it pools inside of you.
After a few moments of shameless staring, Gerard pulls out of you with a hefty sigh, your combined fluids slicking all over your thighs. You whine as you finally get to release your own legs, body stiff from being curled against his.
He turns you around, watching your face carefully as you come back to yourself. Your breathing is still uneven, tears slipping free as he presses a gentle kiss to your forehead.
You chase his lips, not ready to part from him. The kiss that you share is soft, quiet, more comforting than anything. Gerard stays there with you, giving you the space you need while the moment softens into something tender and real.
“Let me do this,” he pants, still a little out of breath. “Properly…”
“If you’ll have me,” he adds quietly, almost shy, his thumb brushing your temple as if bracing for your answer.
Your eyes lock with his, pulse racing.
“Of course,” you murmur, heat rising to your cheeks once again. “I’ve always wanted to be with someone like you.”
.ᐟ summary: your tour bus breaks down during the last few weeks of pro rev summer. looks like you’ll have to find somewhere else to spend the night…
.ᐟ tags: pwp, lots of teasing, werewolf elements, unexpected rut, pheromones, dry humping, lowkey a pity fuck, handjobs, breeding kink, knotting, switch frank, mean fem reader.
.ᐟ a/n: trying out some new aesthetics for my page. wc: 3,351.
Frank was insufferable.
You hated the way he pranced around onstage, nothing but cheap swagger and noise he mistook for talent every night. Offstage, he was even worse: joking, sneering, always finding new ways to laugh at your expense.
He would hover over you whenever he got the chance, crowding your space and acting like your attention was something he deserved.
Tens of thousands of fans screamed his name every night, camping outside of venues just to catch a glimpse of him slipping backstage. They clawed over one another for a look, a sign, anything that might convince them they were special, that they stood a tiny chance of being different from the rest.
It was pathetic, the constant fixation, the endless adoration; it was no wonder Frank had the most obnoxious, repulsive personality to match. Your band had been trapped in his orbit for years now, booked on the same festivals, locked into the same tours, and repeatedly forced to open for his band. The fact that anyone thought to group your bands together was unfathomable, the comparisons often diminishing your band entirely.
It didn’t help that you saw him everywhere you looked, strutting down red carpets at awards shows, laughing like a spoiled brat in every “band in town” interview, posing ridiculously for Kerrang magazine shoots; It truly never ended.
Frank’s signature smirk would greet you each time, smug and untouchable as you scowled back at him. Nonsensical tattoos sprawled across almost every inch of his skin, and he made a point of randomly showing you the newest ones whenever your paths crossed. Worst of all were his eyes: bright, piercing, boring into your soul with every glance.
He was infuriating, revolting in his arrogance and charm, a walking storm that demanded attention, yet no amount of hatred in your chest could erase how absurdly, maddeningly attractive he was. Somehow, that made it even worse.
It was night three of five somewhere in the Southwest, the sweltering summer heat clinging to your skin and eating the festival grounds alive. Sweat ran down your temples as your band scraped through the final notes of the encore. You were exhausted, every muscle screaming from months of non-stop touring, and it showed. The crowd didn’t care, cheering anyways, louder because you were the act right before his band.
The lights and heat made your head spin as you staggered into the wings completely spent. The crew members were scattered, tied up in the chaos of a malfunctioning sound system to give a damn about you and your heatstroke. Your ears were ringing, body trembling as you pushed your way backstage towards your trailer. Outside, a full moon shone brightly, the cold light stark against the lingering heat of the night. You followed its glow to your trailer, crew members scattered around the bus when you approached.
“Wetbay’s flooded, miss. We’ll need to call a maintenance company to fix it. Bus is out of commission for now.”
Your manager was livid. Someone had left the sink running before your set, and everything from your gear to your bags, even your shoes were soaked through. “Great. Looks like the entire team will have to find somewhere else to crash until the bus is fixed. Every hotel within fifty miles is booked until at least the end of the week.”
The crew shuffled around nervously, murmuring apologies to you and your bandmates, but you didn’t have the energy to care. Every muscle ached, your mind fogging up with fatigue as you stumbled to the nearest trailer. You yanked the door open, collapsing onto the nearest bunk and letting the world fade around you without much of a second thought.
Oh well. Whoever slept here probably wouldn’t mind.
You were woken by the sound of shuffling, low laughter drifting through the space as the trailer lights flickered on behind the curtain. For a moment, your mind struggled to catch up, groggy and disoriented from your heat-induced haze. You tried to place where you were, whose bus this might be, but before you could fully make sense of it, the curtain was yanked open. A shadow fills the entrance, smug and unmistakable as your pulse jumps.
There’s no way…
Frank is drenched in sweat from head to toe, hair sticking to his forehead as he begins to pull off one of his “homemade” muscle tanks. He stops immediately as the realization hits.
“Oh shit… ”
You glare up at him, voice sharp. “Go away.”
“Should I even ask what you’re doing here?”Frank smirks, kicking his shoes off under the bunk.
“No.” You roll onto your side, eyes pointed anywhere but him.
“Fine with me. Guess we’ll have to share then, sweetheart.”
“No. And don’t call me that, you animal.”
“You love it,” he chuckles. “Besides, our bus is full. Are you gonna let me in, or am I gonna have to crash on the couch?”
“Crash on the couch,” you mutter, trying to sound firm but failing to hide the shakiness in your voice.
“Someone’s more irritated than usual…” Frank mumbles under his breath. “Must be the heat. Now make room.”
You grumble, sliding over as Frank slips beside you. He’s warm, heat radiating from his body as his shoulder brushes yours. You stiffen, glaring daggers into him, but your pulse has a mind of its own. He smirks, shifting slightly to get comfortable.
“You’re impossible,” you mutter, voice tight.
“And yet, here I am,” he whispers, close enough that the words tickle your ear.
Eventually, the tension gives way to exhaustion, both of you drifting off to the steady hum of the portable fan he keeps on in his bunk. The small space presses around you, the side of his body practically pressed into yours as the scent of sweat lingers in the air.
You wake up turned away from Frank, dragged from the edge of a dream by movement besides you. Soft, almost hesitant pants echo through the dark trailer, mingling with the snores drifting in from just outside of the curtain.
You turn around slowly.
Frank’s eyes are closed, drool seeping out of the corner his mouth onto the pillow. From what you can see in the darkness, his face is flushed, breathing coming in heavy and uneven as he presses into you. He looks almost sickly, most likely a result of the heat and exhaustion catching up to him. The stench hits you before anything else: sweat and grime mixed with a sour, unrecognizable tang that makes your stomach twist.
“You look like shit,” you mutter, voice escaping a little harsher than you intended.
His eyes flutter open, half-lidded, confusion flickering before he lets out a weak groan.
“What’s wrong?”
Frank doesn’t respond, burying his face into the pillow.
“Are you sick?”
He shakes his head.
You reach down, pressing your palm to his forehead. “Shit, you’re burning up. You’re sick… Let me get you some medicine. I think I have some in my bag…”
Before you can slip past him, a strong arm shoots out, grabbing you and pulling you flush against his chest.
“What the hell?” you hiss, blinking up at him, your words lost somewhere between shock and the heat radiating off him.
“Don’t go… please.” He whimpers into your neck, his spit tracking against your skin.
“What are you doing?” you snap, a mix of irritation and disbelief lacing your voice.
“… Need help,” he whimpers, pressing closer, ragged breath warm against your skin.
“Help? Huh?”
Before you can react, Frank grabs your hand roughly, forcing it between his thighs. The movement is sudden, shocking, leaving no room for hesitation as you gasp in disgust.
“What the fuck?” you hiss, trying to jerk your hand back to no avail. Frank holds your hand there, pressing your palm up against the bulge in his jeans. Your pulse spikes, heat surging through you in a mix of anger and mortification
“Let go. Now.”
Frank is panting openly, grip tightening on your hand just enough to keep you from moving away.
“P-please…” he whines, voice desperate and strained, rutting his hips into your hand as you struggle against him.
You freeze in his hold, chest pounding, caught between disgust and morbid curiosity. “What the hell is wrong with you?” you snap, yanking back harder unsuccessfully.
Frank’s whines deepen into low, urgent growls as his hips press harder into your hand. You grit your teeth, finally twisting your hand free as you groan in disgust. Your mind is reeling with a messy mix of irritation, disbelief, and something you’re not ready to name.
“Fuck this, I’m leaving.”
You shove against him, trying to untangle yourself, but his arms snap around you in an iron grip, far stronger than what you were expecting. “Hey!” you hiss, writhing against his chest, heart hammering in your ears. Frank doesn’t budge; if anything, his grip tightens, nails digging painfully into your sides. The heat radiating off him makes it impossible to think, every breath shared, every movement magnified as you stare at him in disbelief.
“Is this a joke?”
He shakes his head, tongue lolling uselessly out of his mouth as a bead of sweat rolls off of his chin.
You almost laugh, almost shove Frank away, spit something cruel in his face before walking out, but the look in his eyes stops you cold. There’s no smugness. No mischief there. Not even a signature smirk. Just hunger.
Pure, unadulterated hunger, stripped bare and frighteningly sincere.
You swallow abruptly.
“Fine,” you mutter. “But you’re going to owe me. Big time. And if I get sick because of this, you’re gonna owe me double.”
“Please… please… shut up and fuckin’ touch me… please.”
You roll your eyes, pissed that he’d have the audacity to beg, but something inside of you softens. You shift slightly, rolling your hips as best as you can, his bulge slotting right up against the seam of your jeans.
Your bodies are pressed together in the cramped space, impossibly close as you grind down on him. You can feel slickness building between you, Frank’s soft whines echoing through the bunk as he presses clumsy, open-mouthed kisses along your neck.
He begins rolling his hips into yours, the heat making your head spin as he grinds his hardness against you. The friction is electrifying, the rough denim of your jeans rubbing perfectly against your clit. A little gasp escapes you, hands planting on Frank’s chest to brace yourself.
Frank is blissed out, eyes squeezed shut as sweat drips off of him onto the sheets. Somehow, it intensifies the smell of him tenfold, the air thickening until the scent clings to everything around you. He’s bucking his hips up into yours now, grunting loudly as the pleasure becomes too much to contain.
You wrinkle your nose, breaths shallow, feeling a little dizzy with how intense the smell is hitting you. Your thoughts scatter, trapped somewhere between the friction between you two and the sheer absurdity of the situation.
Maybe this is all a dream, something fueled by the summer heat, the closeness, by the way air itself seems too heavy to breathe. It’s strange, intense, too disconnected from any form of logic. And yet, your body doesn’t cares about reason, not with how perfectly he’s moving against you, begging you, choking on his own spit.
“Open your mouth for me,” you whisper, words barely louder than a breath.
As smooth as you can, you slide out of your shirt, balling it up and slipping it into his mouth.
“Stay quiet for me. You don’t want the others to hear, right?” You grin. “Or maybe you do, pervert.”
Frank whimpers at your words, jaw tightening as he swallows hard behind the fabric and does his his best to follow your lead. You shift downwards, hands fiddling with his belt buckle until the clasp unlocks, helping him shift out of his jeans just enough you can slip his boxers down and…
Jesus.
He’s massive, cock springing out against his stomach with a wet slap. It’s thick, so fucking thick, tip spurting bouts of pre cum all over his sweat-slicked skin. It almost looks swollen, veins jutting up and down the sides, an untamed mess of dark hairs at the base…
You try to wrap your hand around it, giving him a few messy pumps as Frank sighs in relief. He thrusts lightly into your palm, wetness coating your fingertips as you build a steady rhythm, thumb swiping over his tip with every pass. Desperation rolls off of him in heavy waves, the air thick with tension as his body pleads for more.
Still pumping him, you peel yourself out of the rest of your clothes, shoving them to the other side of the bunk as Frank grows more and more impatient. He whines as you press down onto his chest, fisting at his shirt as you wrangle it off of his head. As expected, his torso is covered in tattoos, dark hair curling and spreading across every inch of him. Frank’s fingers scratch at you, a little too eager for his own good, as he pulls the gag from his mouth.
“Easy now,” you tease, lining yourself over him, tip catching your entrance.
“Fuckin’ need this…” he pants, hips jerking upwards to spread his pre all over your folds. “Need you…”
“Ask nicely.”
“Goddamnit—“
Without warning, Frank shoves you off of him, flipping you onto your side as he shuffles in place behind you. You’ve had him wound-up, frustrated, begging for you this entire night, and he’s fucking pissed. He guides his cock towards your entrance, lining himself up and forcing his way inside.
It hurts, the stretch more painful than pleasant, but you don’t have another second to adjust as he starts slamming into you, sloppy and uncoordinated.
“S-slow down, asshole.” You hiss, teeth gritting together as his fingers latch onto your hips, nails digging into your skin. Frank sets a brutal pace, each thrust knocking the wind out of you as pain swallows you whole. It’s aggressive, detached, and you can feel the irritation building in your veins.
You’re being used, completely at his mercy as his hips snap against yours so hard you know they’ll bruise. Frank is snarling into your hair, drool dripping down your neck as he loses himself inside of your tight warmth.
You can’t take it anymore, beyond frustrated and annoyed, elbowing him so hard in the chest you hear the air get knocked out of his lungs.
“I said slow down!” you growl as he whines, stilling inside of you. He obeys, easing the pace just enough you can finally take steady breaths.
“Good boy.”
Frank leans his head down again, pressing open-mouthed kisses against the back of your neck, leaving little bites anywhere he can reach. His hands wander your body, one hand settling on your chest while the other snakes down between you. He parts your folds with a surprising grace, fingers rubbing your clit in time with his thrusts. The rough callouses on his fingertips only add to the sensations as you pant.
The sounds of wetness fill the air, the fan doing little to muffle the obscene slaps and squelches echoing around you. You arch your back to take Frank in deeper, feeling him tense up as he begins fucking you harder. You bite down on your lips in an attempt to silence yourself, needy moans slipping as his nails dig into your hips so hard you can feel the skin breaking.
Frank is slamming his entire body into you, using the leverage to pull your body back onto his with every forward thrust. He presses his nose along your neck, nipping at the oversensitive flesh, almost like he’s trying to mark you. It’s strange, animalistic, but you don’t seem to care, not with how good he’s making you feel. He goes lower, pressing his teeth against your neck, razor sharp, in an attempt to hold you in place.
“M-more…” You moan, completely drained, but the sensations are too intoxicating to resist. Your whimpers and cries only encourage Frank as he continues to drive into you relentlessly. You don’t know whether it’s the heat between you or something else that’s driving you crazy, pushing you into a trancelike state as you instinctively clench around him.
He whines, hand frantic on your clit, his heavy panting music to your ears as your eyes roll to the back of your head. The pressure peaks, wrapping around every one of your nerves so tight it pushes you over the edge. Your body trembles as you ride it out, loud moans escaping your lips as you clench onto him. The feeling is better than anything you’ve ever felt, completely overwhelming your senses as you writhe in his arms.
Is it because of the heat?
Or because of him?
You don’t have time to think about it, Frank pounding you through it with ragged breaths. The thought of you, swollen and round, carrying his pups is too much to bear. You would make such an amazing mother, an amazing mate, always keeping him in line, always taking care of him even when he doesn’t deserve it.
The thoughts spiral, obsessive and consuming as he imagines the perfect life you would share together. Frank grabs your chest, pulling you as close as possible as his cock catches inside of you, his knot locking into place as he spills into you. You scratch at him weakly, struggling to escape his grasp, but he doesn’t relent, focused on nothing but filling you to the brim.
Your cries for him to get off fall on deaf ears, Frank absolutely spent, tongue lolling out of the side of his mouth as his cum pools inside of you, hot and sticky. You grimace at the feeling, body slumping against his as you shift awkwardly to get comfortable. When Frank finally comes to, he brushes the hair from your face, looking into your eyes almost lovingly as he admires your sleepy form.
He sighs dreamily, pressing a sweet kiss to your forehead as he wishes more than anything for his thoughts to become a reality. You slump against him, eyes fluttering shut as you drift off to sleep.
Frank would allow it. Your first knotting and you had taken it so well! His heart swells, pride and admiration warming his chest as he curls your body against his, still buried deep inside of you. It would be a while before his knot went down, and you had definitely earned your rest.
After all, you were going to need it. The night was still young.
Hours later, you wake to a steady pounding in your head and the feeling of achingly stiff muscles. Frank is snoring beside you, clutching you loosely into his chest as he mumbles into your hair. You untangle yourself from his grasp and slip out of the bunk, every inch of your body protesting as you make your way to the bathroom.
You don’t remember much from the previous night, only hazy fragments that slip away the harder you try to hold onto them. The boys are sipping coffee, Ray and Gerard sitting on the couch as you shuffle by. They steal glances, Gerard looking you up mischievously.
“Rough night?” Gerard asks, a coy smile tugging at his lips.
Your neck is covered in bites, blues and purples blooming across your skin, your eyes bloodshot and heavy, hair wild and untamed.
“Mmhm,” you croak, voice completely gone. “It was too hot.”
“Yeah,” Ray says dryly. “Bet it was especially hot in Frank’s bunk.”
You move to the counter, pouring yourself the last of the coffee when a pair of arms wrap around you, making you stiffen. Frank is there, miraculously not looking as terrible as you do in the moment. He grabs the mug from your hands, sipping the coffee and flashing you that familiar, idiotic grin.
“She helped me out last night,” he says casually, like it’s the most obvious thing in the world, pressing a kiss to a bruise on the back of your neck. “Thanks, baby,” he whistles, strolling off with the mug like nothing happened.
summary: you turn to an old friend for bass lessons. maybe he’ll teach you a little more than you were expecting.
tags: friends to lovers, tension, first time, fingering, gentle sex, riding, inexperienced afab reader.
a/n: my first mikey fic!! imagining him in the black parade era for this. wc: 5,738.
“C’mon, finger on the E string.”
It’s been nearly forty five minutes of an endless back and forth with Mikey, his instructions snapping at your nerves as you struggle to keep up.
Your timing keeps slipping, tabs blurring on the pages as your fingers refusing to land where they’re supposed to. It’s exhausting and humiliating, every note sounding wrong the second you play it as if the bass itself is turning against you.
You huff, pulling your hands away. “This is exhausting. How the hell am I supposed to learn all of this by Friday?”
Mikey sighs, long and patient. “Adjust the angle of your hand. Like this.” Before you can argue, he steps closer and reaches his hand out. His palm wraps around yours, fingers dancing over yours as he adjusts your grip, nudging your thumb and wrist into place.
“Pluck like this,” he says quietly, breath brushing lightly against your ear. Mikey shifts behind you, close enough that his chest brushes your back with every small movement. “Don’t fight it,” he murmurs. “Your fingers are too tense.”
You try again. The string vibrates under your touch, still clumsy, but closer this time. He hums softly, a low, approving sound that sends a shiver down your spine.
“You’re thinking too much. Just let the strings do the work.”
The room feels smaller, warmer, every scrape of your finger against the frets too aggressive. You groan in frustration as you miss the note again, Mikey’s palm steadying yours, warm hand lingering on yours.
“Hey,” he murmurs softly, close enough that you can feel the warmth radiating off of his chest. “You’re not bad. You’re just… learning.”
You pluck again, cleaner this time, glancing up to see Mikey’s eyes meeting yours. His hand drifts away slowly, lingering at your wrist a heartbeat longer before retreating.
“There,” he says. “See? Again.”
Mikey watches your hands instead of your face now, eyes tracking every movement like he’s measuring something invisible. “Again,” he murmurs, softer this time, and the warmth of his attention makes your pulse flutter.
You pluck the string, the sound much cleaner this time, though not perfect. “There,” he murmurs, voice soft, almost too close. “That’s it.”
You try again. And again. And again. Mikey’s presence bores into you, heavier now but not quite touching.
“I don’t understand how you do this for hours,” you admit, voice unsteady as you shake out your wrist. Mikey exhales behind you, warm breath tickling your neck as he chuckles softly.
“It's focus,” he murmurs. “And patience. Mostly patience.”
Your fingers hover over the strings again, and for a moment, you’re completely frozen at the absurdity of the situation before you. Mikey notices your hesitation.
“You’re way too uptight,” he whispers, hands sliding to your shoulders. “Relax your shoulders.”
You’re painfully aware of the way you’re standing there, trapped between his body and the bass as you try to focus on his teaching. Mikey’s hands are steady, grounding, thumbs pressingly lightly on the meat of your shoulders to ease the tension out of you.
Your breath stutters slightly before evening out, shoulders lowering under his touch. The closeness makes everything feel sharper, more exposed, the simple act of standing there suddenly charged with something that has nothing to do with the music on the pages.
Mikey taps your forehead playfully. “You’re overthinking again. What’s going on in there?”
You huff a quiet laugh, eyes flicking to the mirror. “Too many things,” you admit, a flush creeping up your neck.
“Mmhm,” he hums, amused. “I can tell. You get this look about you. Like you’re trying to solve ten problems at once.”
He shifts you slightly, guiding your line of sight up to the mirror across from you.
Your eyes meet the reflection, and suddenly you can see everything at once. Your hands on the instrument, your shoulders drawn tight, his body close behind you. Mikey’s gaze is on you again, intent and focused as if studying every move you make.
“See what you’re doing?” he says quietly, hands still lingering on you, “You’re bracing for it before you even touch the string.”
You swallow and adjust, watching yourself in the mirror. When you pluck again, the motion is smoother, more deliberate, coming out way cleaner.
“There,” Mikey says softly, the approval in his tone unmistakable. His eyes flick to yours in the mirror, holding the contact. “That’s better. Now try again.”
The lesson continues on for another half an hour, Mikey’s corrections gentle and unhurried, your fingers slowly learning where to land. By the time he finally steps back, your wrist aches and your head feels pleasantly fuzzy, like you’ve been holding your breath without realizing it.
“Let’s stop here for the night,” he says at last. “Before you start hating it.”
You don’t argue. You barely manage to set the bass aside before you flop onto the bed, exhaustion consuming your senses whole. “You’re so good at this,” you mutter. “This teaching thing.”
Mikey lingers in the doorway for a moment, something in his expression softening at your words. Surprise, maybe. Or the faintest hint of pride.
“You think so?” he asks, quieter now.
You nod into your pillow. “Yeah. Like it’s second nature to you.”
He steps closer, perching on the edge of your bed, mattress rippling slightly under his weight. “You’ll get it,” he says gently. “I was awful at first. Drove everyone insane.”
You let out a tired laugh. “I find that hard to believe.”
Mikey’s hand brushes your ankle lightly. “You did good today,” he says after a beat. “Really.” Another pause, softer still. “Better than you think.”
Your eyes drift closed, fatigue finally claiming you. The room is quiet now, the tension earlier dissipating. Mikey rises to leave, pausing in your doorway before murmuring, “We’ll try again tomorrow.”
Mikey had been away on tour for nearly a year at this point, never home for more than a couple days at a time. His visits were all too temporary, headed off to the airport again before he even got the chance to settle in. The constant motion, the late nights, and the attention all clung to him when he came back for the holidays, and you couldn’t ignore it. He had changed.
Not just in the obvious ways, though those were impossible to miss. Broader shoulders, a quiet confidence that drew people into him effortlessly, the kind of look that had heads turning nowadays. More subtly: his steady hands, wispy hair falling just around his face, and a kind of patience that made you notice him in a way you hadn’t before.
You were thrilled and more than a little surprised when he agreed to teach you before your audition, especially considering this was his only time off before heading back on the road for another six months. The idea that he would be willing to make time for you despite the changes in his lifestyle felt unreal.
The next day, you wake to the low hum of strings drifting down the hall, soft and exploratory. By the time you shuffle out, Mikey’s already in your living room, seated with your bass resting against his knee. He perks up immediately when he sees you, the attention not going unnoticed.
“Morning,” he says. “Thought we could start early.”
You lean against the doorframe, still half-asleep. “Someone’s eager.”
He chuckles, setting the bass aside. “Are you ready to try again?”
You nod and step closer, taking the instrument when he hands it to you. Your fingers settle on the strings more naturally this time, as if they remember something your brain hasn’t caught up to yet. There’s a flicker of hesitation, but it’s quieter than yesterday.
Mikey leans back slightly, arms crossed, watching you like a cat observing a mouse, letting you fumble through it just a little. When you finally hit the note clean and solid, his eyebrows lift, a smirk tugging at his face.
“See?” he says, voice low and teasing. “Told you it would stick.”
Mikey pulls the chair closer and taps the body of the bass with his finger. “Okay, now let’s get technical,” he says, though his mouth twitches in amusement.
He points. “E string. First position. Place your index finger here, middle on the second, ring on the third. Don’t hop around. Apply pressure evenly.”
“Keep your thumb here,” he guides you, nudging your thumb to the back of the neck. “You’re squeezing too hard.”
“There’s way too much buzzing,” you mutter.
“Buzzing means you’re close,” he replies. Mikey demonstrates, hand on yours as he plucks a clean and round note. “Hear that? That’s what you’re aiming for.”
You try again. The string buzzes anyway, and he leans in even closer, his gaze fixed on your fingers.
“Angle your wrist more,” he says immediately, voice low. “Just like that. Keep it loose.”
Mikey crouches slightly so he can see your right hand. “Now, plucking. Alternate your index and middle finger. Try not to rake.” He taps lightly against your knuckles to set the rhythm. “Rest your thumb on the pickup. Use that as your anchor.”
You nod, concentrating hard and pluck the notes. Index, middle. Index, middle. The strings vibrates under your fingers, deeper and steadier now.
“Good,” he says. “Now mute. When you move off the E string, your left hand will release just enough pressure to kill the note. Bass can get muddy if you let everything ring.”
You shift to the A string, accidentally letting the E hum underneath.
You try again. Cleaner.
“There we go,” he says, pleased. “Now let’s do a scale. G major. Two notes per string. Slow.”
“Index, then pinky,” Mikey adds. “Let your hand stretch. Trust it.”
The first few notes are hesitant, fingers landing a fraction too late. He doesn’t interrupt, watching you with his arms lightly crossed as you find the pocket on your own.
You adjust and replay the phrase. The note falls heavier this time, more controlled, each one stopping exactly when you tell it to. Mikey’s eyes flick to yours for a split second, a bright smile gracing his lips.
“There,” he murmurs. “That’s the sound.”
Your fingertips burn, a dull ache blooming where calluses will eventually form. You shake your hand out.
Mikey sits down across from you, tapping the bass lightly, not playing, just letting the room fill with the faint hum of strings and the quiet between notes.
“You’re improving fast,” he says, eyes flicking to yours, a teasing glint in them. “Makes me wonder if I need to go harder on you.”
“Ha,” you laugh, rolling your shoulders, still feeling the ache from your fingers. “I think I’d notice if you did.”
He leans back slightly, gaze sharp but warm, studying your movements and subtle reactions. “Maybe,” he says softly. “Or maybe I just like watching you struggle a little.”
You feel heat creep up your neck. “Struggle?” you echo, trying to keep your voice light.
“Yeah,” he replies, the corner of his mouth twitching. “But you’re doing so well, I almost don’t mind.” His eyes hold yours for a beat longer, and you can feel your breath catch in your throat.
“One more time. From the top.”
You’re as prepared as ever once Friday rolls around, Mikey teaching you everything he possibly can to get you comfortable with the bass. You’ve gone over it all: scales until your fingers ache, transitions, all the places where you tend to hesitate in the songs.
Mikey insists on driving you to your audition, saying he wants to be there with you even if all he can do is wait outside.
He keeps the radio off, one hand on the wheel, the other resting too close to yours in the console space between you. The city blurs past the windows, but all you can really focus on is the steady rhythm of his presence.
Mikey pulls into the lot and kills the engine, neither of you moving as the silence stretches heavy with intention.
“You know,” he says after a beat, turning toward you, “I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t believe in you.”
Your throat tightens. “You’ve been here this whole time.”
His gaze lingers on you, slow now, like he’s letting himself really see you. “Yeah,” he admits. “I have.”
His hand finds you, fingers threading gently between yours. Your pulse jumps, and he can feel it in the way your breath picks up just slightly. His thumb brushes your knuckles, grounding and intimate all at once.
“You’ve got this,” he murmurs. “You’re perfect.”
For a moment, it feels like the rest of the world has narrowed to the space between you, the unsaid things humming louder than any note you’ve ever played. It’s reluctant when he finally lets go, like it physically costs him something to pull back.
The audition goes off without a hitch, your fingers working the strings with a confidence you didn’t realize you had. Each note rings clean, every transition smooth, your charisma shining through.
The scales flow naturally, the grooves are tight, the songs you’ve practiced over and over landing just right. When it comes time to sight-read, your nerves spike but you settle into it quickly, letting your instincts take over.
When you finish, there’s a brief pause. Then nods. A couple exchanged glances. Someone smiles.
“Thank you,” they say. “That was solid.”
You step back, chest still racing, and for a moment you just breathe. The hallway feels lighter, shorter, like the hardest part is behind you. Relief and pride ripple through you, warm and sharp all at once.
Mikey’s exactly where he said he’d be, leaning against the car and pretending he hasn’t been watching the door the entire time. The second he sees you, his posture changes, attention snapping to you.
“Well?” he asks, trying and failing to sound casual.
You don’t even bother answering, closing the distance between you in three quick strides as you jump into his arms without warning. Mikey barely has time to react before your hands wrap around him, solid and sure. He reciprocates, pulling you into his chest.
You laugh, breathless and exhilarated. “I did it. I got a callback!”
Mikey clings to you, enjoying the feeling of you in his arms as the energy radiates in waves. He smirks, pressing a quick kiss to the top of your head.
“See?” he says, voice low, almost smug. “I knew you could do it.”
For a moment, neither of you move as you become suddenly aware of everything at once. Mikey’s arms around you, the way his chin rests briefly against your temple, the quiet steadiness of him after an entire week of anticipation. His grip on you tightens a little, not rushed, not demanding. Just real.
“I’m so proud of you,” he murmurs, low and sincere.
You pull back just enough to look at him, arms looping behind his neck. His eyes are warm, bright with something that goes beyond relief. Beyond a teacher. Beyond nerves.
“Thank you,” you say softly. “For everything.”
His thumbs brush along your sides. “Anytime,” he replies. Then, gentler, almost careful, “You earned this.”
You hesitate only a second before the words spill out, your voice quieter than before but steady all the same, carried by the closeness you haven’t let go of yet.
“They’re going to ask me to play more of their songs,” you say, still half caught in his arms. “Could we practice more… if you’re free?”
Mikey doesn’t hesitate, arms tightening around you.
“Of course,” he says quietly. “We’ve got time.”
Your shoulders drop in relief, excitement already pushing out the last of your nerves. “Really?”
Mikey smiles, all warmth and quiet confidence. “I wouldn’t miss it.” He taps your case lightly, the gesture familiar now. “Besides, we’re not done yet.”
You laugh, the sound coming easier than it has all week. “I was hoping you’d say that.”
“Let’s go home,” he says. “While everything’s still fresh.”
Mikey takes your hand again as he pulls back onto the road, his thumb brushing over your knuckles in a calming, reassuring rhythm. He talks you through what they might throw at you next: common progressions, how to listen for changes, when to keep it simple and when to lean in.
When you get back home, he drops his bag by the door and turns to face you. “Alright. Show me what you got.”
You pull out your bass, fingers buzzing with anticipation instead of nerves this time. Mikey watches closely with the same attention as always, but there’s something else threaded through it now. Pride, maybe. Or maybe something deeper.
“Same rules,” he says gently. “Slow. Clean. Together.”
Hours later, you finally give up, letting the bass slip from your hands as you fall back onto your bed with a groan. Your fingers throb, your head feels overstimulated, and the ceiling swims slightly as you stare up at it.
“I’m done,” you mutter. “I can’t hear another note.”
Mikey chuckles softly before closing the distance between you, plopping down onto the bed. The mattress dips under his weight, familiar and comforting as he props himself on one elbow, turning to face you.
“If I don’t get this,” you say quietly, frustration finally giving way to something more vulnerable, “I don’t know what I’ll do. Especially once you go back on the road.” Your voice trails off, eyes dropping to trace the fabric of your shirt.
The teasing eases from Mikey’s face. He shifts closer, not crowding you, just enough that your shoulders touch. “Hey,” he says gently. “You’re not going to suddenly forget everything the second I leave,” he continues. “You’ve already proven you can do this.” His hand finds yours on the bed, fingers threading through instinctively. “And… I’m not going away forever.”
His thumb strokes the back of your hand, slow and almost reverent. “You won’t be alone. Call me if you get stuck. Send me recordings. I’ll listen, even if it’s three in the morning and I’m on the other side of the world.”
A small laugh escapes you, feeling something loosening in your chest.
He shifts a little closer, foreheads nearly touching now. “This isn’t an ending,” he adds quietly. “It’s just… distance. Temporary.”
Your eyes meet his. The room feels impossibly still, charged with something you can’t fully name. You don’t move first, but you don’t pull away either, heart thudding in your chest as he leans closer and closer, tipping your chin up to meet his.
Mikey closes the distance completely, lips brushing yours, soft and tentative, testing, asking permission without words. You respond immediately, tilting your head and letting yourself melt into him completely.
His hand moves from your chin to the side of your face, thumb brushing over your jaw as he deepens the kiss. You’re thankful he’s willing to take the lead, you not having much experience with these kinds of things.
He tilts his head slightly, letting the kiss grow warmer, more confident. You follow his lead, fingers tangling in the back of his hair as his other hand rests at your waist, steadying and drawing you closer.
Mikey pulls back just enough to breathe, forehead resting against yours, evened dark and focused. “You’re amazing.”
Your chest rises and falls, still caught between the flutter of adrenaline and the calm of being held. “You… you really mean that?” you manage, voice barely above a whisper.
He smiles slowly, pressing kisses across your temple. “Every word.”
His lips trail down your face, lingering on your neck as he presses soft kisses into the skin.
“Mikey… hold on…” you manage, voice shaky. “I… I need to tell you something.”
Mikey stills instantly, pulling back slightly to see you. One hand comes up to your cheek, thumb warm where your skin is flushed, pulling you back into the moment.
“Hey,” he says softly. “Slow down.”
Your words tumble out in a rush, breath uneven. “I’ve never… I don’t really know how to…” You falter, embarrassment wrapping around your chest.
Understanding dawns in his expression, not surprise, not judgment. Just care.
“That’s okay,” he says immediately, voice steady and reassuring. “There’s nothing wrong with that.” His forehead rests against yours, noses brushing. “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.”
His thumb traces a small, soothing arc along your jaw. “And if we do… we take it slow. Together.”
A quiet beat passes before he adds, softer now, almost a promise, “I’ll teach you. Only if you want. No pressure.”
The tension in your chest eases, melting into something warm and safe. “I want to,” you admit softly, voice steady now, letting the words carry all the warmth and trust you feel.
Mikey nods, pressing another kiss to your lips before his hands move to the hem of your shirt. You lift slightly, letting him tug it off, and his eyes linger on you.
“Beautiful,” he murmurs, voice low and full of something unspoken. “Just beautiful.”
You blush as he lowers his mouth back to your neck, kisses warm and unhurried, lingering just long enough to make your breath hitch. His fingers trace slow patterns against your sides. His touch isn’t demanding in the slightest, just exploratory, like he’s learning you the same careful way he taught you music.
You let out a quiet exhale, shoulders relaxing as the closeness settles in comfortably. Mikey pauses, sensing it, and presses his lips briefly against your collarbone, grounding the moment before it tips too fast.
“Tell me if you want me to stop,” he murmurs.
You don’t pull away. Instead, you arch your body into his lips, the answer already clear in the way you stay.
Mikey’s fingers settle at your waistband, easing your pants down just enough to trace soothing circles at your hips. You squirm despite yourself, a soft breath slipping out as impatience flickers through you.
A quiet smile graces his lips as he doesn’t speed up, one hand slipping down to tease the fabric of your panties.
“Patience,” he murmurs, more comfort than a command. “Remember what I taught you?” His touch stays constant, fingers tugging at the hem as he slowly slides them off. Mikey’s breath hitches, lips parting just slightly as his focus completely sharpens on you. There’s a flicker of want there, unmistakable, quickly tempered by restraint.
Mikey shuffles on the bed, slipping between your legs as his hands massage your calves. He takes his time, lips soft, pressing a line of warm kisses up your thigh.
“P-please,” you whimper. “I need you.”
He pauses again, breath steadying as he lifts his head to meet your eyes. His hand slides back to your waist, holding you there.
“Hey,” he murmurs softly, voice soft. “I’m right here.”
Mikey’s fingers trail up your thighs, gently parting your folds open, the pressure just enough to make you gasp and arch towards the touch he keeps barely out of reach. You’re already a mess, eyes rolling every which way, breath stuttering as anticipating coils tight in your chest. He takes his time working you open, fingers brushing your clit and tracing slow semi-circles on the bundle of nerves.
Mikey builds a steady rhythm, fingers testing what feels best for you as your breaths grow faster. Little whimpers escape you with every touch of his fingertips, grinding onto his hand for more friction.
“How does that feel?” he murmurs, voice low and teasing.
“So good,” you moan, body trembling.
The calluses on his fingers add a rough texture that has you seeing stars, each stroke a reminder of the years he’s spent perfecting them on strings, unyielding and precise. He’s playing you like he does his bass, each movement coaxing shivers and gasps like he’s drawing music straight from your body.
Mikey’s fingers trail lower, grazing your entrance before slipping inside with the lightest pressure, gauging your face for a reaction. When you don’t show any signs of pain, he pushes his finger in slowly, watching your eyes flutter shut with each careful movement.
He goes in a little deeper, finger brushing a spot that has you trembling uncontrollably. “You’re so wet for me,” he grunts as he presses his hips into the mattress to alleviate the pressure building. The friction makes him growl as he rocks into the sheets in time with your moans.
Mikey’s desperate, so fucking desperate for you, but he’ll hold back, letting the tension coil just enough he can slip another finger inside of you. He begins scissoring you open, fingers parting your gummy walls with slow strokes.
“G-god, please…” you whine, voice shaking. “Need more.”
He moves his thumb to brush your clit, smirking as your eyes roll to the back of your head. He already knows how to work your body so well, gauging your reactions perfectly as he pushes you just enough to keep you teetering on the edge.
He leans closer, lips brushing your pelvis as he closes his eyes. “That’s it,” he murmurs, voice scratchy and rough. “Let go for me.”
Your body trembles, every nerve on fire as you clench around his fingers, waves of pleasure crashing through you so sharply it feels euphoric. Mikey doesn’t let up, his touch relentless, even as your wetness soaks the sheets beneath you. Every gasp, every choked shiver, every sob escapes under his careful control. Only when he’s fully satisfied does he slip his fingers free, bringing them to his mouth to suck them clean, eyes dark with hunger and triumph.
“That was…” you pant, voice ragged, words barely escaping as your body quivers from the aftershocks.
“Perfect,” he whispers, rising from your legs to press a peck to your lips.
You’re still shaking when he softens, the edge in him easing as he leans in closer. His hand slides up your side, slow and grounding, thumb brushing gently as if to steady you rather than push you further.
Mikey presses a kiss to your temple, then your cheek, lingering there. “Hey,” he murmurs quietly, breath warm. “You okay?”
You nod, still catching your breath, fingers tugging at his shirt.
“I want more,” you whisper.
He smiles softly at that, something warm and fond flickering in his eyes as he cups your face. “Yeah?” he murmurs, brushing his thumb along your cheek, stopping at your jaw.
He leans in to kiss you properly, slow and deep, like he has nowhere else to be. One hand slides back down your body, familiar and gentle, building that heat again in a way that makes your toes curl.
“Can I try something?” you murmur against his lips, voice soft and a little hoarse, fingers fidgeting as you meet his eyes.
“Tell me.”
“Can I… go on top?” you ask, heart racing as your fingers brush against his chest, searching his expression for permission.
Mikey nods, a sweet smile spreading across his features. “Of course,” he murmurs, voice low and steady. “Whatever you want.”
Encouraged, you shift closer, hands fiddling with his belt buckle. He gets the message, kicking off his jeans to resituating himself. You settle above him, hands on his chest to balance. Mikey watches you intently, one hand coming up to your waist while the other untucks himself.
He’s achingly hard, veins protruding from the sides, pre beading at the spongy tip. You stare, desire pooling low and heavy as your mouth waters. He’s beautiful, eyes hazy, the faintest blush creeping up his cheeks as he wraps his hand around his length to give it a few strokes.
You hesitate for a second, Mikey noticing immediately.
“Right here,” he encourages gently, guiding you with the lightest touch. “Whenever you’re ready.” You situate your legs, grasping his length as you line him up with your entrance. You take a slow breath to let the moment settle, sliding down just enough the tip can pop in.
You gasp at the new sensation, the closeness already making you feel deliciously full.
“So good to me,” he murmurs softly, pride and affection lacing his voice. You relax your lower muscles, easing into the feeling as you slide a little more. You’re not even halfway down, still so much more to take, but he doesn’t rush you. The discomfort is sharper than you expected, fading quickly into something that softens as you breathe through it.
Mikey’s hands grasp with yours, supporting you as he lets you adjust to his size at your own pace. The sharpness melts into a deep warmth that spreads through you, giving you just enough confidence to slide down the rest of the way. You cling to him instinctively, gasping out as your fingers tighten on his.
“Now, in circles,” he murmurs, guiding your movements with steady precision. You follow, slow at first, finding a rhythm of your own as the motions sends shocks of pleasure straight through you.
“That’s it,” he moans, voice low and rough, hands releasing yours to settle on your hips. “Doing amazing, baby.”
Baby.
The praise makes heat bloom inside of you that builds your confidence, riding him more confidently. Each thrust of your hips draws low, satisfied groans from him as he drinks you in. You plant your hands on his chest as you begin to rock up and down with renewed strength. Every moment sends jolts of electricity through your body, breath stuttering with each cant of your hips as you pick up the pace.
Mikey is moaning beneath you, nails digging into your hips as the pleasure builds steadily. He watches your body move gracefully, pride swelling in his chest at the thought of him teaching you. The tension in his arms and shoulders betray how much he’s holding back, his need for more as raw and consuming as your own.
“A little faster,” he groans, voice husky, hands tightening slightly on your hips. You obey, quickening the pace as you slam down onto him. Mikey arches into you with each movement, low groans spilling past his lips as his hands start pulling your body down onto him. You shriek, lost in the fire consuming both of you, every nerve ending alive, every motion amplifying the heat coiling tighter and tighter between your bodies.
Your breaths are ragged, mingling with the sound of his pleasure as you feel the tension building toward something inevitable. His eyes never leave yours, dark and wrecked as your sweat mixes.
Mikey plants his hips firmly into the mattress, bucking into you with a raw urgent rhythm that has your body entering a state of shock. You can feel every ridge and vein of his cock as he fucks you harder, fucks you deeper than you could’ve ever imagined.
“A-again,” you gasp, desperate and pleading.
He does it again, moving his body with you again, then again, the room narrowing between you two. You focus on the way he feels inside of you, how his body moves in tandem with yours, the unmistakable sounds of wetness and skin slapping so erotic.
You tip your head tips back as the sensations peaks, body locked in a rigid position as his hips slam into you. His fingers latch onto your clit, rubbing perfect sync with his thrusts. You cry out to him, nails digging into his chest so hard you can see red lines beading. “C’mon,” he grunts out, sweat dripping off of him onto the mattress. “Show me how good it feels.”
The words send shocks straight through your core, cunt clenching around him so hard no sound comes out of you at first. Mikey continues the pace, hips stuttering as his thrusts get sloppier. He hoists you off of him quickly, grunting out as he shoots all over your thighs. You wine softly at the sudden loss of contact, your body completely exhausted as you collapse on top of him. He catches you immediately, arms wrapping around you to pull you closer as the last of his cum streams into your skin.
For a moment, the room is silent, filled with nothing but the sounds of both of your uneven breathing. Mikey is the first to move, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. His hand moves slowly along your back, warm and steady, grounding you as you come down. You stay tucked against him, content in the comfort of being held.
“I’m going to miss you,” you whisper, voice soft and a little shaky.
He pulls you closer, resting his forehead against yours, warmth radiating from him. “I'm going to miss you too,” he murmurs, pulling you into a kiss. His eyes are filled with something tender, something that makes your chest ache in the best way.
“I’ll be back before you know it,” he whispers, voice soft against your lips. “And I meant what I said earlier.”
Mikey pulls back to look at you, thumb brushing your cheek affectionately. “You’re going to make it just fine,” he says gently, steady and sure.
summary: still trying to make sense of it all, gerard drags you to his cabin over winter break. you fall ill in the solitude. he’ll take care of you. he always does.
tags: age gap, dysfunctional relationship, power imbalance, obsession, manipulation, gerard is a creep, sickness, dub con, oral sex (f receiving), shower sex, sick sex, overstimulation, mind break, drugging, dddne!
a/n: oh 2022 gee how i love you. thanks for all the love on pt. 1! wc: 5,236.
You didn’t know what to think, still trying to piece together all of the missing pieces of the previous night. Gerard’s deceptively avoidant answers. Silky, charismatic charm. A smile that always lingers a second too long. Even after he had left your apartment, the thoughts kept circling, rising and sinking until you felt sick.
The following weeks were strange, the two of you moving in a pattern that looked like closeness from the outside but felt nothing like it. He kept a watchful eye on you through the final weeks of the semester, attentant, observant, always just within reach.
It wasn’t love. It was something darker, murkier, wrapped in gentleness that felt too careful to be innocent.
Gerard hadn’t touched you since that night, keeping his distance with careful precision, polite and controlled.
He had you. Not in the way he wanted. Not at the depth he craved. He needed his feelings reciprocated, clean and certain.
Instead, he felt your hesitation every time he tried to get close. The way your body would tense up whenever he was near. The way your breath shifted whenever his fingers brushed yours. You kept all of the conversations light, never lingering, never letting him in.
Gerard wasn’t blind to it. He was sensible enough to know your trust in him was frayed. Knew that you were moving cautiously, afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing.
But he wasn’t deterred.
He would win you back.
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Winter break rolled around, and Gerard invited you to his cabin upstate. You agreed without much hesitation, unsettled by the realization that refusal was most likely no longer an option.
The drive stretched on endlessly, a winding route that almost felt suspended from time. Snow softened the road into silence, muting everything but the faint hum of the engine. The trees closed in as the miles passed, a dense black corridor swallowing the last traces of towns, streetlights, and civilization.
Gerard drove with one hand steady on the wheel. The other lingered near your thigh, close enough to feel, close enough to make your skin crawl, but never quite touching. Never retreating either.
It wasn’t a gesture meant for comfort.
It was a reminder.
A quiet claim.
Inside, his place smelled like cedar and old smoke. He set your bag down for you, guided you through the rooms. A single bedroom. Living room with a fireplace. Kitchen stocked with food he must have planned days in advance.
You regarded it all, mildly, almost disinterested. The cabin, the fire, the awkward stretch of silence between you both. It was easier to pretend none of it meant anything, easier to keep your expression flat and unreadable.
Gerard noticed.
He always noticed.
Your lack of reaction didn’t discourage him. If anything, it sharpened his focus.
“You don’t like it?” he asked, voice calm, too calm, like he already knew the answer and just wanted to hear the way you would say it.
You shrugged, the easiest response, the safest.
“It’s fine.”
His eyes lingered on you for a second longer than necessary. You felt it, the silent assessment, the unspoken question buried under his steady gaze. He wanted something from you. Not affection. Not comfort. Something deeper. Something that required more of you.
“You’re distant tonight,” he said.
“I’m tired.” The lie came easy.
He didn’t argue. He just leaned back on the couch, hands folded loosely, posture relaxed in a way that didn’t fool you for a second.
Gerard was thinking. Calculating. You turned your attention toward the fire, pretending not to care, pretending you couldn’t feel his eyes tracking every small movement of your body. Pretending you didn’t feel the thick quiet pressing down on the room.
You told yourself you were disinterested. Detached. Unaffected.
But he sat there like a man studying a locked door, patient enough to wait, patient enough to find the exact pressure to make it open.
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The next morning, Gerard woke up to a beautiful sight. You were curled into his chest, seeking his warmth in your sleep. Your fingers rested lightly against his shirt, your breath soft against his collarbone with gentle puffs. You looked peaceful, almost trusting, and that thought settled over him like a quiet triumph.
He lay still, hardly daring to move, letting the weight of the moment sink into him. You had come to him on your own. Not consciously, not intentionally, but instinctively. Your body had chosen him while your mind still fought it.
This meant something.
Gerard brushed a single strand of hair away from your face. The gesture was gentle, almost reverent, but it carried a hunger that never quite surfaced. He imagined you waking up like this every morning, your drowsy eyes lifting toward him, leaning in because you wanted to, not because circumstances made it easier.
You shifted slightly, pressing closer, and he exhaled a slow, careful breath. He didn’t smile. He simply watched you, memorizing every part of the way you fit perfectly against him.
A small, unconscious whimper escaped your throat, and his fingers tightened on your waist before he caught himself, fingers easing as if nothing had happened.
You had no idea what you looked like at that moment. Fragile. Unaware. Dependent.
You woke up with a startle, hands pushing him away as you rolled onto the other side of the mattress. Your breathing came sharp and uneven, your body reacting faster than your thoughts could follow.
Gerard didn’t reach for you. He only watched, expression unreadable, body still turned to the space you had left behind.
“You were cold,” he said quietly. His voice held no accusation, no irritation, just a steady calm that made the moment feel even more suffocating.
You swallow, pulse hammering in your throat. “I didn’t mean to… fall asleep like that.”
He tilts his head slightly, studying you with that signature look of his.
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It felt like living inside a cage you couldn’t see. Every movement weighed, every breath measured. You were afraid to do too much, afraid to do too little, terrified of misstepping in a way that might set him off. Escape wasn’t an option you could realistically imagine. He was everywhere. In your space. In the quiet. In the way time itself bent around him.
The days dissolved into one another, indistinct and dull. Gerard making you breakfast. Sitting nearby while you read something. Making you lunch. Watching you draw without commenting. Cooking you dinner as though it were a ritual. At night, you lay beside each other in an uneasy sleep, your body never fully at rest, even when unconscious.
Maybe if you bored him enough he’d stop trying. Grow tired of waiting.
And then you could leave.
Or at least stop feeling like you were being kept.
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One morning, Gerard approached you with a small package wrapped in old brown paper.
He holds it out to you like it’s fragile, like you might shatter it. His eyes search your face with that unsettling mix of devotion and dread, the kind that makes your stomach twist.
“Go on,” he murmurs. “Open it.”
You hesitate, fingers twitching. His gaze doesn’t waver, steady, unblinking. You peel back the rough paper. Inside is a small sketchbook, the cover a soft leather, gold casing. It’s beautiful, pages blank, hot pressed paper perfect for charcoal, for everything really.
The very one you said you wanted, long ago.
Gerard doesn’t move. He doesn’t need to. His gaze presses from where he sits, still, unreadable, cataloging every flicker of expression that crosses your face. Every hesitation. Every twitch of your fingers.
“It’s… nice,” you murmur, almost too softly for him to hear. A slow, faint smile curls at the corner of his lips, not wide, not triumphant, just a ghost of satisfaction.
“Thanks.”
That was the first of many. He started leaving small things for you, each one carefully chosen, each one impossible to ignore.
Pens of the finest quality, the kind you’d always mentioned but never bought for yourself. Coffee grounds he knew you liked. Soaps in familiar scents, meant to soften the space. Anything to make you feel comfortable, more at home.
You regarded it all mildly.
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It’s late. Too late. The bedroom is pitch black as you untangle yourself from the sheets, careful not to make a sound. You don’t turn on the lights, feeling your way down the hall, fingertips brushing the wall until the kitchen opens up around you. You reach blindly for a glass, intent on getting water.
Your head is swimming. Heat flooding your limbs, a deep, aching burn settling in your arms and legs. The counter feels farther away than it should.
Your fingers slip around the glass and it shatters against the counter with a sharp, unforgiving crack.
The lights snap on instantly.
Gerard is in the doorway, eyes still hazy with sleep as he rushes beside you.
“What happened?”
You scowl, the sound lodged somewhere in your throat before your body betrays you. You fold in on yourself, hands flying to your chest as the dizziness spikes.
Gerard’s tone shifts immediately. “What’s wrong?”
His hand is on your forehead before you can step back, touch firm and assessing. You can feel the heat radiating off of yourself, the way your head throbs with the smallest movement.
“You poor thing,” he murmurs. “You’re burning up.”
You try to speak, but the room tilts, edges blurring.
“Don’t worry about this,” he says smoothly, already guiding you away from the counter. “I’ll take care of it.”
His arm wraps around you, steady, unyielding. There’s no space to protest, no room to pull away without stumbling.
“Let’s get you back into bed, sweetheart” he adds, softer now.
Gerard props you upright in bed, movements efficient as he flips down the comforter, tucking a thin sheet neatly over your chest.
“I think I have some medicine somewhere,” he says, already turning away.
He returns with more than that. Towels. Pills. A glass of water. He presses a cool cloth to your skin, wiping you down with slow, careful strokes. Your shirt is lifted then removed, his hands methodical as he wipes your back, your shoulders, the nape of your neck. Thorough. Gentle in a way that makes it worse.
“Have to make sure you’re taking care of yourself,” he murmurs, brushing his thumb along your jaw as if to soothe you, as if you’re fragile enough to break.
You’re still sick all the next day, violent and relentless pain coursing through you. You can barely make it to the sink or the bathroom before the nausea overtakes you.
Gerard’s there every time. Holding your hair back. Rubbing slow circles between your shoulders. Whispering soft encouragements that blur together in your fevered haze.
“Good girl. That’s it. Get it all out.”
You can’t keep anything down. Not water. Not crackers. Not the medicine. Your body feels hollowed out, emptied.
By evening, he brings you soup. Something bland. Something “easy” to digest. He sits close, lifting the spoon to your lips himself.
“Open,” he says gently, waiting until you swallow before offering another. “One at a time.”
You don’t have the strength to refuse.
“I’ll sleep on the couch tonight,” he says softly. “So you can rest properly.”
You don’t argue. You barely speak at all. Your fingers curl into his sleeve instead, clawing weakly at his arm until the message lands. Gerard stills, then nods like he’s been waiting for it. He understands immediately.
Of course he does.
He doesn’t say no. He never could. He tells himself you need him. Staying with you is the most logical thing after all.
Hours later, you jolt awake in the dark with a sharp gasp, body snapping upright as pain rips through you. Every muscle burns, seizing and knotting until it feels like fire under your skin. You choke on a sob, air refusing to fill your lungs no matter how hard you try.
Of course, he’s there.
Gerard’s arms close around you before you can even settle yourself, pulling you into him with practiced ease. His hands move methodically, kneading your calves, your thighs, your shoulders.
Your face presses into his chest, his heartbeat steady beneath your ear, grounding and suffocating all at once.
“It’s okay,” he murmurs. “I’ve got you.”
Once he’s done working your muscles, his hand moves in steady circles along your back, soothing and repetitive. He whispers reassurances into your hair, words blurring together until your breathing evens out.
You drift off against him, letting exhaustion pull you under.
Gerard doesn’t move when you go slack against him. Doesn’t loosen his hold. He just adjusts slightly, careful not to wake you, keeping you tucked against him like something precious. Like something fragile.
The next day, he asks if you’d like to take a shower.
You agree, letting him lead you to the bathroom as you reach for the handle. His hand shoots out, stopping you to turn it on himself.
Slowly, you peel off your clothes, one by one, until you’re left in nothing but your bra and panties, the faintest flush creeping up your cheeks as you hesitate.
Gerard notices, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
“No need to be shy, sweetheart,” he murmurs. “It’s just me.”
You slip the last piece off and step into the shower. He follows, fully clothed, oddly respectful, adjusting the temperature.
The water warms the small space quickly, steam curling around you like a fog. He stands close, too close, sleeves darkening as they soak through, fabric clinging to him.
Gerard moves carefully, washing away the snot, tears, and sweat clinging to your skin. His fingers skim your shoulders, your arms, your chest, always keeping a polite distance.
He massages shampoo through your hair with a gentleness that feels practiced, thumbs pressing lightly into your scalp. You close your eyes, not out of comfort, but because watching him feels worse.
The water masks the quiet sounds, but not the feeling of being handled. Of being tended to with the utmost grace. Utmost care.
Gerard tilts your face slightly so the water doesn't hit your face too hard, fingers firm under your jaw for just a second longer than necessary.
“See? You don’t have to worry.”
He kneels before you, hands moving slowly along your calves, tracing the gentle curves up toward your thighs as he carefully washes your legs.
Gerard looks up at you, calm, unflinching as your eyes dart anywhere but his. You press your legs together instinctively, heat rising as shame creeps through you. His hand catches your thigh, keeping you spread as he inches higher and higher.
“No need to be embarrassed.”
“I— don’t want you there.”
He cocks an eyebrow, eyes darkening as your scent drifts toward him, sharp and undeniable. His breath hitches, a low, quiet awareness building in him that tightens the space between you.
Gerard leans in slowly, eyes locked on yours, water dripping down his forehead, pressing his lips to your thigh.
You squeak, unprepared, and shove him back instinctively.
“Let me take care of you,” he murmurs softly.
“But…”
“There’s nothing to be ashamed of,” he continues, voice low and certain. “So perfect. So beautiful.”
He lingers over the words, letting them settle, watching the way they land on you. His fingers tighten on your calves, just enough to remind you you’re not moving anywhere without him knowing.
“This will help you feel better.”
“I —”
Gerard doesn’t let you finish, leaning forward slightly, lips brushing your entrance as he delivers a mind-numbing lick up your slit. An involuntary whimper escapes you, your body tensing against him before you realize it.
He dives back in, the contact electrifying as he laps at you, alternating between little licks and sucks that have you seeing stars.
Your hands curl instinctively, pressing against the cool tiles of the shower for support, thoughts slipping away as the softest whimpers escape you.
He presses in deeper, nose grinding against you as he works your clit, swirling and catching your slick with his tongue. Your taste is heavenly, syrupy sweet as he inhales your scent.
His hands trace along your thighs, pressing and massaging in slow, sensual shapes.
“F-fuck, baby. You taste incredible,” he murmurs, voice low and reverent, committing every detail to memory.
Gerard takes one of your hands and guides it to his hair. You grasp a handful at the root, using it as leverage to grind into his mouth as he moans, sounds muffled between your thighs.
You’re blissed out, head spinning from the heat, the fever, the intensity of his touch, caught somewhere between sickness and pleasure as the water cascades around you, lukewarm in comparison to the heat building in your core.
Your mind drifts, blurred by heat and exhaustion, every sensation amplified tenfold. The steam curls around you, warm and heavy, but it’s Gerard’s presence that presses in most of all. You can’t remember why you ever resisted him, his advances, not in the way he’s moving, the way he’s working you so perfectly, making your head spin and your body tremble.
One look down at him, his soaked hair, eyes half-lidded staring straight into yours, is enough to send you over the edge. You clench his hair, pulling hard as your body rides it out, moans echoing off the walls around you as the tension escapes you.
Gerard pushes you through it, mouth unrelenting, lips moving with precision as your chest heaves. You pull him away slowly as the pleasure tips into pain, eyes fixed on him as he presses soft kisses into your upper thighs. He rises slowly, closing the space between you, mouth finding yours as you wrap your arms around his neck to pull him closer.
“Better?” he whispers on your lips, voice husky, breathless as he wipes the tears falling from your cheeks. You nod, unable to find words, body pressed to his. His gaze lingers, studying every flicker of your expression, every small motion.
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Ever since that night, Gerard’s mouth finds itself on you over and over again, focused, relentless, leaving you so overwhelmed you can’t remember why you ever hesitated with him. He pleasures you so thoroughly; in the mornings, on the couch, before even thinking about cooking dinner, late under the sheets. The way he works your body is intoxicating, always focused on you, always giving without asking for anything in return.
Of course, Gerard had a feeling you’d come to love it. Your legs part for him instinctively every day, already anticipating him. Every motion, every small surrender is another step closer to what he wants.
A few nights later, you’re both in bed, towels strewn around from the shower he just pleasured you in. You lay against him, body completely pressed to his, his presence steady and warm as his fingers trace idle circles across your back. The heat of the water still clings to your skin, mingling with the warmth of him, making your head swim and leaving you dizzy, helpless under the weight of his attention.
You can’t help but feel that this uncertainty, this energy is wasted. Wasted on time you could be spending with him.
Have you… fallen for him?
The thought terrifies you. The way he watches over you, takes care of you, always kind, always gentle… It's too much. Too consuming. Too insistent. Yet, it tugs at something deep inside of you, something you don’t want to acknowledge.
You can’t stop yourself, the thought slipping out before you can catch it. “G-Gerard?” He hums into your hair, fingers still tracing lazy patterns across your skin.
“Can you… kiss me?”
His hands freeze as he looks down at you, searching your eyes for something you can’t place. “Of course,” he murmurs, clearing his throat.
The kiss you share is slow, lazy, sweet as you sigh into his mouth, completely melting into him. His hand cups your cheek, thumb swiping across your skin, grounding you while the other drifts down to rest on your neck, holding you close. You stay like that for a while, lips molding together perfectly as his tongue slips into your mouth, tangling with yours.
You pull back for air, chest heaving, and he’s already at your neck, breath pressing against your skin as if he can’t stand a single second without contact. The sensation makes your pulse spike, every nerve alight as he bites down lightly, then trails along the curve of your neck toward your collarbone.
Your hands clutch at him, tugging him closer.
“M-more,” you whisper, voice shaky as your body presses into his.
Gerard leans into you, forehead resting against yours, breath warm and steady.
“Tell me what you want, baby,” he murmurs.
Your pulse hammers, chest rising and falling against his, and for a moment, words fail you.
“I… I need you.”
He stills completely. Just for a moment. As if savoring it. As if committing the sound of it to memory.
His eyes soften, dark and intent, forehead still pressed to yours. “Truly?”
When you nod, his hands tighten slightly at your sides, grounding, possessive, careful.
“I’m all yours.”
He’s on you again, tongue trailing down your neck towards your chest, hands roaming your body with calculated precision. When he reaches your chest, he pauses, pressing soft kisses to your skin, nipping and sucking along the skin of your breasts. His hands drift lower, unhurried as his knee pushes your legs apart.
Gerard’s touch is light but commanding, measured, pressing into your skin in a way that makes your pulse spike under his gaze. Every brush, every movement is intentional, as if he’s reading your reactions, memorizing the smallest shivers or catch of your breath.
You can’t look away, can’t pull back. His mouth returns to your chest, lips wrapping around your nipples to bite and suck as his hand circles your entrance. The heat of him, the weight of his presence is all-consuming as he slips a finger inside of you, working you open gently.
“Relax, honey” he murmurs against your skin.
“Just feel.”
He stretches you open with careful movements, slipping another finger in to scissor you open. Your walls stretch around him, sucking his fingers in with little resistance. You’re soaked, every pump drawing wet squelches that echo in the space around you.
Gerard notices everything, the way your body reacts, the little noises you can’t hold back, and it only sharpens his focus, giving him just enough room to slip a third finger inside.
You moan at that, body clenching around his fingers so tight it’s not enough. Every movement, every shiver continues to feed him as he builds an unforgiving pace.
“M-more,” you stutter, breath hitching against him.
“What do you need?” he murmurs, not letting up for a second. “Say it for me.”
Your chest heaves, breath catching as your mind clears, every nerve on fire under the wight of his attention, his care.
“I… want it,” you squirm, his gaze piercing.
“Want what?”
“Your…”
“Hmmm?” he hums, voice low and teasing, eyes locked onto yours, letting the pause stretch just enough to draw out your hesitation, to make you give in completely.
“Your… cock,” you whisper, heat rushing to your cheeks in a mix of shame and want. Gerard smiles down at you, leaning down to capture your lips as he fiddles with his belt, pants falling as he untucks himself. He gives himself a few pumps, grunting as he smears his pre all over your folds.
Slowly, very slowly he slips the tip inside of you, eyes rolling to the back of his head at the fit. He recomposes himself, shifting slightly as he pushes in to your gummy core. The intensity of him smothers you as he bottoms out with one sharp snap of his hips.
Gerard doesn’t waste another second, setting a brutal pace with deep strokes, every motion measured as he slams into you. He grips your legs, wrapping them around his waist, the new angle enabling him to penetrate faster and deeper. Your body arches into him, every inch of you alive with the pressure and heat of his movements.
His hands dig into your hips, holding you firmly in place as he continues to pound into you relentlessly. He leans down to cage you in, hand grabbing a fistful of your hair to pull your head back. Your neck is completely exposed and he latches onto it, sucking dozens new marks into the skin.
“Look at me,” he grunts, voice low and commanding, fingers finding your jaw as he forces your eyes to meet his. “I want to see everything.”
Even as your mind spins, you can’t resist his touch, can’t hide anything in your face. You press your body flush against his, ankles locking at the base of his back. His hands roam freely, one on your hip, the other sliding up your back, holding you flush against him.
“So fucking tight,” he growls. “All mine.”
Your moans egg him on, feeding him, making him lean closer, lips grazing your chest in sloppy kisses. You scratch his back, moans spilling freely as he presses deeper, tip catching a spot inside of you that has your walls fluttering around him. Every touch, every kiss, every whispered word drives you higher, leaving no space for words, no space for thoughts.
Only him.
Gerard’s hand presses firmly against the bulge protruding from your lower stomach, fingers splaying across the skin as you gasp out.
“Feel how deep I am inside of you?”
You nod frantically, fingers clutching his back so tight you can feel the skin start to break under your nails. You pull him down, lips pressing and sucking any part of him you can reach, desperate for something solid to hold onto, to ground yourself in the overwhelming sensations he’s gracing you with.
“Gonna come,” you mumble into his hair.
He hums low against you, pace unfaltering as your eyes meet his, wide, flushed, helplessly lost in the heat between you. Gerard leans in, lips capturing yours again, tongue swallowing all of your pathetic noises.
The weight of him, the steady, relentless pace, the way he purrs into your ear is too much. You can feel yourself unraveling, pleasure crashing over you in waves so fierce it completely knocks the breath out of you.
You scream out, body taught against his, fingers clawing at him to hold onto something solid as the sensations consume you. He curses above you, pressing you tighter against him, hips slamming into yours as his rhythm falters.
Gerard doesn’t let up, pounding into you with merciless strokes as you struggle and fail to catch your breath. Every snap of his hips sends jolts of heat and pressure through your body, limbs trembling as you cling to him like your life depends on it.
His nails dig into your hips, to fuck your body back onto him with every thrust. You’re so fucked out, body exhausted as he uses you faster and harder than you’ve ever felt.
“You’re mine,” he growls again, voice rough. “Every part… every inch… mine.” “Tell me you’re mine.”
Your head falls back, mouth locked open, shivers wracking your body as the pain becomes too much. You’re lost, completely undone, and Gerard still doesn’t stop, eyes locked on yours.
“I’m yours, I’m yours, I’m yours.”
“You feel so good around me, sweetheart. I want to make you feel good forever, will you let me? Do you want that? Forever?”
“Yes… yes, forever,” you moan, heart hammering before your mind can even catch up.
You don’t fully realize what you just said, nor the weight of what you just promised him. To Gerard, your words might as well be a contract written in blood, fucking you both over the edge of oblivion together. He bites down onto your shoulder as he releases into you, hips snapping against yours so hard he’s sure not a drop will escape.
You feel it pooling inside of you, warm and sticky, and the satisfaction is strangely comforting.
Gerard grunts thunderously as he continues to fill you, breath escaping him in harsh pants as he kisses you.
His doubts are gone, erased completely. He feels it settle deep, solid and unquestionable.
You’re his.
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The next morning, Gerard finally gets to hold you with the certainty he’s been craving with your feelings reciprocated. Your body is soft and warm against his, limbs tangled in the sheets, bodies intertwined. You smile at him, bright and peaceful, burying yourself deeper into his chest.
“Any breakfast requests, angel?”
You nestle into further, voice light and sleepy.
“Mmm no, I’d be fine with whatever.”
He tips your chin up, studying your face with softened hazel eyes before guiding you into a kiss, slow and sweet. His touch is aching with the kind of passion you hadn’t realized you’d been missing. This is how it should have been from the very beginning. You sigh into his mouth, fingers tracing his jaw, memorizing the feel of him.
Eventually, Gerard carefully untangles himself from you, pressing one last kiss to your forehead before leaving the room with a wink. You try to get up, smiling at the soreness and stiff muscles, and drag yourself to the bathroom to clean up.
You search for an extra towel, rifling through drawers until your fingers catch on fabric tucked all the way in the back. As you pull them free, something slips loose and clatters onto the floor.
A bottle. Pills inside.
You crouch to pick it up, already planning to put it back, until the label catches your eye. Your eyes dart around.
200 mg.
Take two tablets a day with food daily.
Your breath catches, chest tightening.
May cause fever… vomiting… shortness of breath… nausea, muscle spasms…
Your pulse thunders. Your fingers tremble.
If symptoms develop, seek medical help.
And then you see it. Above the dosage instructions, typed unmistakably on the prescription:
Your name.
For a moment, the room tilts. The creak of the floorboards, hum of the pipes, and the distant wind swells until it’s too loud to think. Your thumb rubs at the ink as if it might smear, as if this could be a mix‑up, a reused bottle, a sick fucking joke, anything but what it is.
A memory surfaces, sharp and wrong: the meals Gerard insists on cooking himself, the way he’s been spoon feeding you for the past two weeks, watching until you finish, the gentle reminders when you say you’re not hungry.
Footsteps creak in the doorway behind you, and you close your hand around the bottle just as his reflection appears behind yours in the mirror.
summary: gerard’s been busy lately, shutting himself in his office and burying his nose in work. maybe you can find a way to distract him?
tags: kitty play, light exhibitionism, oral sex (m receiving), spanking, fingering, soft + rough sex, praise kink, cockwarming, fem reader.
a/n: lots of puppy play gee out there but hardly any kitty. wc: 3,284.
Gerard had been busy lately, spending long hours alone in his office, days softening into weeks without much notice. When he finally comes to bed, he’s usually exhausted, moving carefully, like he’s trying not to wake you. His arms always find you, settling around your waist and pulling you back against his chest before falling into a deep sleep.
Your schedules don’t line up the way they used to. You’re usually asleep when he comes in, and he’s gone by the time you wake up. It doesn’t feel dramatic or painful, just quietly different. Meals are eaten at different times, conversations picked up and set down again, stretched across days instead of hours.
Still, there are traces of Gerard everywhere.
A bowl rinsed and left to dry by the sink. One of his jackets draped over the back of a chair, faintly smelling like him. In the mornings, you find coffee waiting on your nightstand, poured into your favorite mug, sometimes still warm, sometimes not, but always there.
It makes you smile, every time.
Gerard is truly so passionate, so wonderful, always planning things in his head, storyboarding ideas on scraps of paper and the backs of envelopes scattered through his office. Creativity lives in him completely, threaded through everything he does. You see it in the way he talks with his hands, in how his eyes light up when something finally clicks, in the way he can lose hours chasing a single idea and come back drained but satisfied. It’s part of why you love him, this restless need to make something meaningful, even when it takes so much out of him.
You know he’s working hard, giving so much of himself to what he’s creating. You’re proud of him, every little thing he does sparking admiration in your chest. Even when the house feels a little quieter than usual, the loneliness never feels heavy. It’s more like a pause, something temporary, something you trust will pass.
Your best friend gave you the idea first, and you’d dismissed it right away, too embarrassed to even consider it seriously.
There’s no way he could be into that.
Right?
Sure, you know he’s fond of cats. Sure, he’s had a few over the years. Sure, you both have talked about adopting one together…
But pretending to be one…
For sex?
Completely insane.
And yet… you can’t help the small, reluctant part of you that wonders what it would look like, how it would feel.
You had tried your fair share of lingerie before, but this… this feels different. Almost too much as you slide the lacy collar around your neck, the little bell jingling softly, perching the cat ears atop your head, tugging the stockings into place.
It’s elaborate, more so than you expected, taking nearly an hour to get everything just right. Every piece seems designed to hug all the right places, accentuating curves you hadn’t realized could be highlighted so perfectly. As you add the final touches of makeup, smoothing out stray hairs and adjusting the ears one last time, you can’t help but pause for a moment, taking your reflection in the mirror.
Ridiculous.
Kind of hot.
Hesitantly, you knock on Gerard’s office door with a soft tap. No answer, as expected. You push it open slowly. He’s there, completely absorbed in the monitor screens on top of his desk, crouched low.
Carefully, you lower yourself onto all fours, the little bell on your collar jingling softly. You press a hand over it, trying to silence the ringing as you crawl under his desk. He hasn’t noticed you yet, and the thought of surprising him like this makes it impossible not to bite back a laugh at the absurdity of the situation.
Slowly, very slowly, you lean forward and nuzzle his crotch, the soft jingle of your collar bell making your heart skip a beat. You pause there, feeling the warmth of him through his clothes, savoring the moment as you extend your tongue, licking a long stripe up his clothed core. You press gently, letting your cheek and nose brush against him.
Gerard notices immediately, head snapping down to find you nestled between his thighs as you continue to lick at him.
“B-baby… what… what are you doing?”
You answer him with a teasing, soft “Meow?”
“I’m on a video call,” he says, voice tight with surprise.
You freeze, every inch of you regretting the decision, debating whether to run. You shouldn’t have done this, you’ve messed it all up. Just as you’re about to push yourself up and leave in a rush of embarrassment, his hand cups your cheek, warm and steady, stopping you in place.
You look up at him, confusion mirrored by something warmer in his eyes as he peers down at you. The wet spot on his jeans, the ears, the collar… Every detail speaks of your mischievous intentions, and he can tell what you need without a word.
A slow, almost teasing smile curls his lips as he leans just a little closer, fingers brushing through your hair as if daring you to stay exactly where you are. The room feels smaller, warmer, charged with a quiet, playful tension that makes your pulse race and your grin unavoidable.
Gerard scratches gently between your ears, fingers warm against your skin. You shiver under his touch, the small bell on your collar jingling softly as your hands press against the floor for balance. Encouraged by him, you gladly continue, leaning closer as you continue to mouth at him through the denim, taking your sweet time as the wetness begins to soak through the fabric.
He lets out a low sigh, tugging lightly on one of your ears, his touch firm but gentle, making your pulse quicken. You gladly continue, reaching to unzip his jeans and pull down his boxers just enough so his cock can spring out.
He’s already semi-hard, pre beading as you suckle the tip into your mouth, feeling him fully harden between your lips with a few gentle sucks. His fingers trail from your ears down the back of your neck, and you can feel the quiet heat between you building with each slow, deliberate touch.
You take that as your cue to start moving, taking him deeper into your mouth and hollowing out your cheeks in the way you know he loves. Gerard’s breath hitches, looking down at your oh so innocent eyes as you set a steady pace, each motion teasing, drawing out the playfulness of the moment.
You always love the taste of him, the heady feeling of his length sliding into your throat as you open up for him.
“Gerard, what did you think about that direction?”
His head snaps up in a panic, and for a brief second, the tension in his eyes betrays him. He quickly masks it with his professional demeanor, fumbling to unmute himself.
“I-I think that sounds… great,” he says, voice tight, letting out a startled grunt under his breath as you take him down to the base in one smooth motion.
“Are you alright?”
“I’m fine… !” he stutters through gritted teeth, voice tight.
“We can reschedule if you’re not feeling well.”
“No, no, please… continue— hahhh—” he blurts, voice betraying a mix of urgency and embarrassment, the unmistakable sounds of wetness cutting through the air.
You truly can’t help yourself, not when you see him like this, caught off guard, so undeniably flustered. The way he struggles to keep his composure, the slight hitch in his breath, the tension in his hands… it makes it impossible not to revel in the effect you have on him.
The soft jingling of your collar each time you shift makes your pulse quicken, excitement coursing through your veins as you focus on massaging with your lips, spare hand reaching up to fondle his balls.
“What’s that noise?”
“M-must be my… cat,” Gerard pants, a quick laugh escaping him. “She can be… a handful sometimes.”
You can’t help the quiet, teasing purr that slips out, soft and mischievous. One look down at you, your hooded eyes staring up at him, flushed cheeks, tail flicking behind you with every movement of your body, and he’s completely losing it, shooting deep into your throat with a silent moan as you slide to the tip, pumping him to milk every last drop.
But you’re not done.
After a few short breaths, you sink back down onto him. He tries to pull you off of him, tugging harshly at your hair, but you don’t stop, sucking him even as he starts to soften on your tongue.
Sure, you love seeing Gerard soft, all warmth and ease, but getting him worked up is entirely different. He’s mellowed out a lot over the years, calmer, more grounded, but the fire is still there, sparking every time you push just a little, tease just enough. The way he looks at you, the heat in his gaze, the tension in his hands… It makes it impossible not to grin, to lean in closer, to flirt and play, wondering exactly how far you can go before he loses control.
“Looks like that’s everything for today. Anything else, Gerard?”
“N-nope,” he grunts, voice a little shaky. “I’ll… see you soon.”
He clicks off the call, and for a moment the room is filled with the quiet hum of anticipation between you.
Gerard leans back in his chair, eyes closed, breathing slowly as he carefully pulls you off him by your hair. Drool and spit streak across his clothes, a messy hint of the heat that’s still lingering between you.
“What the hell was that?” he growls, each word sharp, his tone dripping with frustration.
“I thought…” you start, only to be cut off as he yanks you into his lap, lips crashing against yours in one desperate motion.
There’s no ceremony. No teasing. Just pure, unadulterated hunger as his lips part yours just enough to slip his tongue inside. The force of him sends shivers straight up your spine, responding instinctively but pressing against him, hands wrapping at the base of his neck. The warmth of his body, the scent of him, the slick, urgent motion of your mouths together all swirl around you, making it impossible to think, impossible to stop.
Gerard’s desperate, so fucking desperate, grasping and exploring every inch of you as you mewl into his mouth, struggling to pull back for air. He doesn’t let you, eyes raking over your body, lingering on the collar, the intricate outfit, every little detail.
“Look at you,” he whispers, his voice husky, rough with need. “All this for me, pretty kitty?”
You nod, blush blooming across your cheeks, as his hands rake down your body. You shiver under his touch, tail flicking instinctively, collar jingling softly with every tiny movement. His hands press into your hips, holding you in place just enough to make you ache for more, and you can’t help the soft, teasing mewl that slips past your lips.
“Such a bad kitty,” he murmurs, voice low and rough, brushing his nose against yours. “Distracting me. Tempting me… That’s very naughty of you.”
“I’ve been— haaa— good,” you whimper as he nips and sucks at the spot on your neck he knows you love. Your hands wander over his shoulders, gripping him lightly as you tilt your head to give him better access. Each movement sends jolts of electricity through your body, and you can’t help the quiet whimpers and breathy moans that escape your lips.
“I don’t think you have, baby.” he murmurs, voice low, fingers tightening slightly as he leans closer, claiming your attention fully.
“I think,” Gerard says quietly, thumb tilting your chin up so you have no choice but to meet his eyes, “I need to teach you a lesson.”
“Turn around for me, sweetheart.”
You have half a mind to tease him again, but the look in his eyes stops you cold. You bite your lip, heart racing, knowing he means every word as you turn around and bend over the desk.
Gerard’s palm comes down on your ass hard, the sound cracking through the room and pulling a surprised squeak from you. Heat blooms from the impact, the sensation lingering long after his hand lifts.
“Count for me,” he grunts, voice rough but measured.
“One…” you stutter, breath unsteady.
Another slap rings through the air, your body jolting forward, a soft gasp slipping out before you can catch it.
The pause that follows feels heavier than the pain itself, charged with his attention and the quiet authority in his voice.
“O-one… two… three…” you trail off, voice trembling.
At fifteen, he turns you around and settles you against him in the chair, heat fading into a dull warmth, cheeks flushed and eyes damp. The room grows quiet, broken only by the occasional shaky sniffle as you steady yourself in his lap.
He wraps his arms around you, grounding and warm. “You did so good for me, baby,” he murmurs softly. “So, so good.”
“Do you know why I did that, sweet kitty?”
You shake your head, embarrassed, eyes dropping to your hands.
“Need to make sure you’re on your best behavior,” he says softly. “Can’t have you causing trouble around the house.”
Gerard presses a kiss to your temple, steady and warm, reaching up to scratch your ears and hold you close until your breathing evens out again.
You whine, voice trembling, “It h-hurts…”
“Show me where,” he murmurs, soft but insistent.
Your fingers clutch his hand tightly, guiding it to where you need him most. Every touch, every movement is heavy with desperation, your body still raw and trembling from earlier. Your playful edge has melted away, just as he intended, leaving only the urgent need for his care, him to hold you close, soothe you, make everything feel better.
Gerard begins moving his hand, rubbing soft circles over the lacy fabric right where you need it most.
You’re panting, eyes hazy as you focus on the sensation, soft waves of pleasure washing over you with every lazy circle of your clit. Gerard’s fingers are heavenly, knowing just the right amount of pressure to apply to have your wetness soaking through the delicate fabric.
“Doin’ so good for me, sweet girl,” he murmurs, continuing the teasing motions as his fingers push the fabric aside just enough so his middle and ring finger can slip inside of you. He builds a steady rhythm, fingers curling a spot that has you shaking as the pleasure coils around you.
“You like this?” Gerard whispers, maintaining a steady pace. “Like the way my fingers stretch you?”
You nod slowly, already blissed out, teeth grazing his skin as you suck bruises up and down his neck, hands tangling in his hair, the softest little whimpers gracing his ears. He can feel every shiver, every tremble, every desperate movement of your body, and he knows how much you want more, but he needs to hear you say it.
“What is it, love?” he murmurs, voice low and husky.
Your lips part, voice trembling, hot and earnest. “N-need more.”
Gerard nods, removing his fingers to position your body over his, fabric still twisted to the side as he sinks you down onto his cock in one fluid motion, hips flush together as you both groan. It’s been a while, but your body welcomes the familiar stretch with an easy grace, shivering as you both take a moment to adjust.
You begin to move, hands wrapping around his back as his strong hands dig into your hips, guiding and holding you close. He fills you so completely, your bodies moving together in a heated rhythm, mewls slipping past your parted lips with every grind down onto him.
“Such a good kitty. So perfect for me. So pretty.”
You shiver under his praise, collar jingling softly with every movement. Your hands dig into his shoulders, pressing closer as you let out a soft, needy whine.
“That’s it, just like that,” Gerard murmurs, voice low and rough. “Doing amazing, pretty girl. All this… all for me.”
You arch your body against him, moving together in sync as his hands grip your hips, pulling you down faster, every touch and motion sending little shocks of electricity through your body. The room fills with your soft grunts and moans, each moment tighter, closer, more consuming than the last.
“Y-you feel so good around me, sweetheart. So warm. So wet.”
You whimper, pressing closer, forehead brushing his as you tug lightly at his hair, craving more of him. He matches you perfectly, hands exploring every inch of your body with care and intention, thumbs tracing over your most sensitive spots, holding you close, making sure every touch lingers.
“ F-fuck… i‘m… i’m close,” you whimper into his neck, tasting the salt, the sweat of his skin.
“That so?” Gerard grunts. “We’ll have to do something about that, won’t we?” he murmurs, hips bucking up to meet yours as his hand snakes down between your bodies, fingers rubbing and teasing your clit in a pattern that has you clenching around him.
He pulls back just enough to look at you: your flushed face, unfocused eyes, breasts bouncing, hands clutching onto him for dear life as you scramble for purchase.
“Let go for me, baby.” he murmurs, voice harsh and commanding, sending shivers straight down your spine.
You scream, cunt contracting around him so tight you can feel every ridge, every vein of him as he fucks you through it. Gerard hoists you both out of the chair with renewed strength, slamming your back down onto the desk to fuck you more throughly. He sets a brutal pace, gripping your hips so tightly bruises begin to form, paper and pens flying off his desk in waves around you.
The room spins with every snap of his body as you lose yourself in the pleasure, filthy, obscene noises slipping from your lips. Gerard is snarling into your hair, leaning down to paint marks across your chest as you wrap your legs around him, locking your ankles around the base of his back to pull him closer.
Gerard responds with a choked cry, eyes rolling to the back of his head as he continues his relentless pounding, fueled by your cries. “Look at you… such a dirty girl,” he grunts, voice abrasive and strained, holding on by a thread.
“Y-your dirty girl, Gerard,” you whimper, nails digging crescent-shaped marks into his shoulders, chest heaving as your sweat mixes with his.
“That’s right,” he coos, teeth grazing your collarbone, hands and hips moving faster, relentless, claiming every inch of you as your breaths collide.
“Mine,” Gerard snarls. “All mine.”
You catch a fault in his rhythm as his hips stutter, several devastating thrusts and he’s spilling deep inside of you. His grunts and groans are music to your ears, filling the room until his body stills on top of you.
You stay pressed against him, breathing heavy, feeling the warmth of him still inside you. His arms wrap around your back, pulling you close as he nuzzles into your neck.
After a few moments of steady, controlled panting, Gerard speaks up.
“You’re amazing,” he murmurs, voice rough but soft. “So beautiful.”
You smile, reaching up to press a soft kiss to his lips. His fingers thread through your hair, soothing and gentle, grounding you both in the afterglow.
“Stay with me,” he whispers, lips brushing your forehead as his hazel eyes catch the light from the window. “Just like this.”
Still buried inside of you, he settles you back onto his lap in the chair, both of you completely spent, the warmth of your combined fluids seeping out onto the chair. Gerard’s hands move gently over your body, grabbing tissues from the box on his desk to clean you up.
You nuzzle into his neck, fingers tracing idle shapes along his shoulders as he works, the occasional twitch of him inside of you sending little shivers through you. The room is quiet, except for the soft hum of his monitors and the faint jingling of your collar as you shift.
Gerard gets back to work, late hours of the afternoon flying by as you stay cuddled into his side, impossibly close.
Every so often, he leans down to press a gentle kiss to the top of your head, silent reassurance that he’s here. That he’s aware of you. That he loves you.
You squeeze a little closer, heart full, feeling completely at home in his arms.
summary: gerard is your biggest fan. he’s at every show, every meet and greet, eyes locked on you the entire time. one night, you finally snap.
tags: parasocial relationship, gerard is a creep, obsession, stalking, illegal videotaping, blackmail, degradation, handjobs, rough sex, sub gee, fem reader.
a/n: my take on basement gerard. happy holidays! wc: 4,432.
The lights were blinding, white-hot and punishing, burning down on the stage as your band tore through the opening tracks of your debut album. Ferocious riffs, perfected live over months of practice, shredded through the battered speakers as you leapt across the stage, voice sharp and raw, every note dripping with the chaos the crowds had come to love.
The venue stank of sweat and stale liquor, beer sloshing from raised cups into a writhing mass of bodies, drunken adults pressed shoulder to shoulder with scene kids who had waited hours in the freezing cold for entry. Outside, the Jersey winter gnawed at bare skin, sharp and unforgiving; but inside, the air was thick and suffocating.
The stage quaked beneath your boots. Stickiness and grime clung to your clothes. Every bass thrum vibrated through your bones.
The song slammed to a stop. You gulped water, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand before leaning into the mic.
“This next one…” You rasped, lungs still burning, “You better scream it like you mean it!”
The count hit. The kick drum exploded. The crowd went feral.
It was your song, the one everyone knew. Voices slammed back at you, raw and messy, lyrics shouted off-key and way too loud.
You’d spotted him early in the set. Pale, draped in black from head to toe, motionless except for the moments he nearly got swallowed by the thrashing kids at the barricade. Midway through the song, you prowled to the edge of the stage, boots pounding against the wood, crowd pressing in towards you. You crouched low, thrusting the mic into his face as the bridge tore in.
“Sing it for me.”
He froze, shock and hesitation flickering across his soft yet sharp features. For a moment, his hands twitched nervously as if unsure what to do. Then his hazel eyes locked with yours, wide and uncertain, before his thin, trembling voice cut through the chaos. As he began to sing, his voice and confidence grew stronger, the crowd surging around you both, hands clawing and grabbing at the moment.
You leaned down until your foreheads touched, breaths mingling, sweat slick against skin, while feedback shrieked and rattled through the room. Together, you screamed the final lines, raw and unrestrained.
When the last note slammed into silence, you pulled back with a grin and a wink, spinning upstage as the hall exploded behind you.
That was the first of many times you spotted him. After that night, he started appearing at every one of your shows, always pressed against the barricade in the exact same spot. Never moving, never singing along. Silent. Hazel eyes locked on you from the moment you stepped onstage until the lights dimmed and the venue emptied.
You didn’t know who he was or what he did for a living. But it was clear he had the resources and the determination to follow you on tour for months.
You told yourself he was just shy, probably more interested in the band than he was letting on. Nevertheless, something still felt a little off about him the more you thought about it.
He started showing up at your meet and greets. Always lingering at the back, never fully joining the line. Even after the crowds would thin, he never asked for photos or autographs. Never spoke a single word to you. He just stood there, close enough to feel. Eyes fixed on yours as if the shows weren’t enough anymore.
One night, you finally mustered up the courage to address him.
“What’s your name?”
He flinched as if the question hit him like a blow. His mouth opened, then closed. When he finally spoke, it came out in a stuttered whisper.
“G-Gerard.” He hesitated, eyes darting everywhere before locking onto yours. “I-I’m sure you get this a lot, but… I’m your biggest fan.”
The intensity in his gaze made your stomach twist. You masked it with your signature smile. “Well, it’s nice to meet you, Gerard,” you said, reaching out your hand, voice light, almost playful.
Another night after a show, you and your guitarist stumbled out into the cold, laughing and tripping over each other as you exited the back door, drunk on the energy from the crowd and cheap beer. One thing blurred into another, and you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him into a messy, spontaneous kiss.
You didn’t see Gerard standing across the parking lot.
Didn’t notice the way his eyes followed your every move.
Didn’t notice as he slipped a camcorder from his coat pocket, switching it on as you pulled your guitarist into your car, laughter rising, moans escaping, windows fogging up from your movements. All of it unfolding under his watch, every sound and motion captured, the red recording light winking faintly in the dark in a silent warning.
At the next meet and greet, Gerard finally got in line and asked for a picture.
Just with you.
No one else.
Strange.
You forced a smile as his arm yanked you against his side. You twisted away to end the photo quickly, but he lingered, presence heavy and suffocating. Even after the shutter snapped, he refused to let go. Instead, he leaned in, voice harsh and low, almost a growl.
“You have no idea,” he paused. “How long I’ve waited for this.”
A shiver ran down your spine, suddenly aware of how cold his grip felt despite the heat radiating from his body. Your pulse spiked. You took a sharp breath, instinctively stepping back to break his hold, brushing off his hand. His eyes held yours, unblinking, making it impossible to look away.
Sure, you had dealt with your fair share of overzealous fans chasing after you, but none quite as unsettling as this. There was something in the way he watched you: too focused, too intent, as if he could see straight through your soul.
At another meet and greet, he showed up with a bouquet of flowers. Red roses, wild and unruly, their thorns jutting out like barbs. You told him you couldn’t accept gifts from fans, reaching out to brush his arm in apology. A thorn caught your finger as you tried to pull away.
Blood splattered across the petals, dark and vivid, and you recoiled on instinct. Gerard didn’t release you. His fingers clamped around your wrist, nails digging into you as he pinned you in place, pressing down on the cut with calculated force.
“Let go,” you said, voice calm but sharp, locking eyes with him in silent resistance.
He refused. His grip clamped tighter, deliberate and chilling, a silent reminder of his control. "You’re bleeding," he murmured, voice thick with something unplaceable. His eyes flickered from your face to the wound and back, gaze violating.
Security moved in swiftly, hands firm as they pulled him away. Even as they led him off, you stood rigid, breath choppy, and your heart hammered in your chest. The sensation of his stare lingered, heavy and suffocating, as if he hadn’t left at all.
Christmas Eve rolled around. Darkness surrounded your apartment, the only light in the room coming from the soft glow of the TV as you cuddled with your guitarist on the couch. Snow fell thick outside, muting the world to a hush, but even in the warmth of each other, a faint tension lingered in the air. With only a short break from the tour, there was no time to spend the holidays with family this year.
Your guitarist got up, untangling himself from you to fetch more blankets from the closet. He passed the window, pausing as something outside caught his attention. He looked again, slower this time, peering through the glass and the snowfall.
“I think,” he said carefully, “There’s someone parked in your driveway.”
“What?” you whispered, sitting up slowly, heart tightening as your eyes followed his gaze
He didn’t answer right away. He moved closer to the window, pushing the curtain aside. Just enough to look again. The porch light glinted off the falling snow, illuminating the car at the end of the driveway. Engine off. Headlights dead. Waiting.
“There’s someone inside the car.”
Your stomach dropped. “What… what do we do?”
He didn’t take his eyes off the car. “Stay here,” he said, voice low and steady. “I’m going to check who it is.”
You yanked him back before he could move. “Don’t go out there!”
Knock.
Knock.
Knock.
Three taps at your door.
You turned to him, fear gripping your chest, eyes wide and trembling. “I’m calling the cops.”
“Hold on a sec,” he says, moving to the door slowly and peering through the peephole. “There’s no one there… Wait. It looks like something’s on your doorstep.”
He glances through the peephole again, opening the door quickly and pulling the object inside.
Red roses.
A note.
“Merry Christmas.
From, Your Number One Fan.”
You didn’t see him again until your New Year’s Eve show. You wouldn’t let him win, wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of having a hold over you, having any control whatsoever.
The crowd chanted down from ten… at five, you moved towards your guitarist, grabbing him by the cheek and pulling him into a kiss just as the clock struck midnight.
The crowd erupted in cheers.
You smiled on his lips, letting the moment play out for the crowd, but beneath it, your pulse spiked.
You knew Gerard was watching, and from the corner of your eye, you could see a vein protruding from his forehead, knuckles white as he gripped the barricade so tightly it seemed his hands might break.
Hopefully, he’d take this as a message.
You stepped into the parking lot long after the show ended, cold air slicing at your skin, snow crunching under your boots. The lot was nearly deserted, a few cars scattered, headlights glinting off the ice. You pulled your coat closer, trying to shake the dread crawling up your spine.
Your hand hovered over your car door, ready to slip inside, when a firm, gloved hand shot out and stopped you.
You froze, stomach knotting as you turned. Gerard towered behind you, face flushed, pale and unreadable, his eyes searing into yours with that same fierce, unblinking intensity.
“Gerard…” you breathed, trying to keep your voice steady. “What are you…”
Before you could finish, his lips were on yours, desperate, clammy, demanding, pressing into you with a force that made your stomach twist.
You tried to pull back, but his grip was relentless, hands locked on your shoulders, keeping you close. Panic surged through you, heart hammering, breath coming in short gasps as you tried to push him off of you.
“Stop!” you snapped against his lips, voice sharp, but he didn’t release you. His eyes flicked to yours, dark and unyielding, and a twisted smile ghosted his features.
You pushed back as much as you could, gasping for breath. “I just want to talk,” he said, voice low and controlled, but there was a dangerous edge under the calm.
“I don’t want to talk,” you snapped, heart hammering, stepping back, trying to put distance between you. “Leave me alone. Now.”
He tilts his head, eyes glinting in the dim lot, a faint, unnerving smile curling his lips. “Leave? You don’t get to tell me that. Not anymore.”
“Huh?”
He stepped closer, the faint crunch of snow under his boots echoing in the empty lot. “You don’t understand,” he said, voice low, deliberate. “I have a video.” Of you. Of everything.”
Your stomach dropped, irritation flooding your veins. “What… what the hell are you talking about?”
He let the words hang, watching your face closely, the weight of his gaze suffocating. “That night… what you did with him in the car,” he said slowly, pausing for effect. “I saw everything.”
Even in the dim light, the color drained from your face. “You… saw what?”
“Listen to me,” he said, voice low and deliberate, each word pressing down like ice. Your chest tightened, heart hammering as panic surged through you.
“I want you to get in the car.”
You let out a shaky laugh, more breath than sound. “I’m not going anywhere with you.”
His jaw tightened. For a split second, something dark flicked across his face, then it was gone, soothed over by a calm that unsettled you more than anger ever could.
“You don’t get it,” he said quietly. “This isn’t a request.”
You took a step back, the cold biting through the thin soles of your boots. “You think threatening me is going to get you what you want?” Your voice shook, but you forced the words out anyway.
“You think I won’t scream?”
A corner of Gerard’s mouth twitched. “Go ahead,” he said. “There’s no one left. Crew cleared out ten minutes ago. Security’s on the other side of the venue.”
Your breath fogged between you, the lot suddenly deafening with silence.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” he continued, almost gently. “I just want to talk. Somewhere private. Somewhere you won’t feel the need to perform.”
“Perform? Is this a game to you?” you asked, the words brittle in the cold air.
“Get in the car.”
The way he said it, flat, final, made your pulse spike. You glanced past him, gauging the distance to the street and the glow of a lone streetlamp at the far end of the lot.
Shakily, you slid into the passenger seat, the door slamming shut with a deafening echo. The seat was cold, stiff beneath you, the interior dim except for the faint glow of the dash.
“Keys,” he said.
Your fingers trembled as you dug them out, the metal biting into your palm before you dropped them into his waiting hand. He didn’t rush you. Just watched, patient in a way that made your skin crawl.
The doors locked with a sharp click.
Gerard remained silent as the car slowed, veering off the main road and into a quiet suburban street, finally stopping in front of an old, slightly weathered house with peeling paint.
“This is where you wanted to talk?” you asked, voice tight.
He didn’t answer. He simply got out, walked around, and opened your door.
He led you inside, hands brushing along the walls as he navigated the dark. At last, he reached a door and pushed it open, revealing stairs that plunged into pitch black.
“No way in hell am I going down there,” you snap, voice sharp and unwavering, planting your feet firmly at the top of the stairs.
He paused, a faint, unsettling smirk tugging at his lips. “Suit yourself,” he said smugly. “But everything you need to see… is down there. And like I said… I’m not going to hurt you.”
The darkness seemed to swallow the staircase, the air thick with dust and the faint, musty scent of something long forgotten. Your pulse hammered in your chest as you stared into the black void below.
“You first,” you challenged, voice steady despite the churn of fear and defiance inside you.
He didn’t hesitate. He stepped down into the darkness, each footfall echoing off the walls as you reluctantly followed. When he reached the bottom, he grabbed a pull chain. A single bare bulb flickered to life, swinging slightly, casting harsh, shifting light across the basement. Shadows stretched and quivered, and the space that had seemed small and empty now felt suffocatingly alive.
As the light steadied, your eyes were drawn to the walls. Hundreds of drawings covered every inch, pinned, taped, framed, and layered over one another. Pencil, ink, charcoal, every one meticulously rendered. Faces, poses, fleeting expressions…
Of you.
All of them of you.
Your stomach tightened, a cold knot forming in your throat as you took it in. Some sketches captured moments you didn’t even remember, tiny details no one else could have known.
“This… this is insane,” you whispered, taking a cautious step back.
Gerard didn’t answer. He simply stood behind you, letting you absorb the scope of it, the obsessive care in every line, the detail, the love. The faint, unsettling smirk on his face told you he knew exactly how powerless the sight made you feel.
Something inside you snapped, a mix of fear, disgust, and anger igniting into unrestrained fury. You reached up to the nearest sketch on the wall, crumpling it in your hands before casting it to the floor. The paper fluttered and landed with a sharp crack, startling in the stillness of the basement.
He took a step forward, eyes narrowing, but you didn’t back down. Your hands darted to another drawing, ripping it from the wall and tossing it aside. The sound of crumpling paper echoed around you.
For the first time, he blinked, caught off guard by your sudden, unrelenting rage.
He opened his mouth, maybe to explain, maybe to regain control.
And you didn’t let him.
You stepped into his space, forcing him to stop short, your presence undeniable. “Don’t,” you said, voice low and shaking with restrained anger. “Don’t try to justify this.”
His jaw tightened. “You don’t understand…”
“No,” you cut in sharply. “You don’t.”
You gestured at the walls, the hundreds of drawings staring back like witnesses. “You’re disgusting.”
He didn’t have time to respond.
You stepped into him, grabbing his coat and slamming him into the wall, the force enough to make the frames rattle and the papers rustle behind him. He sucked in a sharp breath, more startled than hurt, eyes snapping wide.
“Look at me.”
He does.
Your lips crash into his, sharp and unrestrained. Not pleading. Not soft. A choice you made with your whole body. Your hand stayed planted against the wall beside his head, holding the space, almost caging him in.
Gerard hesitates, then kisses you back, slower now, careful, like he was realizing a balance had shifted, and he hadn’t noticed when.
Your lips part just enough to let the words slip out, low and dangerous.
“Is this what you wanted?” you asked, letting your gaze pierce into his.
He blinks, caught off guard, the smugness he had worn all night faltering. For the first time, he looked uneasy.
Your chest pressed closer, heat radiating against him. Without giving him a moment to recover, you captured his lips again in a rough kiss, claiming the moment entirely. His eyes widen, caught between surprise and something else. Something he hadn’t expected.
You pulled back just slightly, letting the weight of your presence settle. “This isn’t about me anymore,” you whispered, voice low, husky. “This is about you. And you’re going to do exactly as I say.”
He nods, heat creeping up his cheeks, and before he could react further, you press your lips to his again. “You want me?” you growl, unbuckling his belt and shoving his pants down in one swift motion. “You need to be able to keep up.”
Gerard whimpers into your mouth as you bite down on his lower lip, untucking his already hard cock from his boxers to stroke it, his eyes squeezing shut at the contact.
“This is why no one wants to get near you,” you laugh, voice low and venomous, spitting onto your hand as you begin to pump him. “You’re a fucking creep.”
“I-I know,” he gasps out, glassy eyes meeting yours in a haze. “I’m s-sorry.”
“Sorry?” You scoff, the sound harsh and humorless. “You’re sorry?” You repeat again, frustration building in your chest.
You pump him faster, palm swiping over his leaking tip with every stroke, cruel and unforgiving, gliding down his length with ease.
You shake your head slowly, disbelief hardening into something colder. “No. Sorry, doesn’t even begin to cover it. Why the fuck are you showing up at my house? Sending me flowers? Writing me notes? Are you in love with me or something?”
He doesn’t answer, eyes rolling to the back of his head as you start squeezing along the base of his cock as his hips try to rut into your palm. Your knees keeps his body pinned against the wall.
“I thought,” he grunts, jaw locked as the pleasure builds steadily. “Y-you’d like it.”
“You thought I’d like it?” You repeat it back to him slowly, a wicked grin spreading across your features as your hand slaps his cheek.
“Look at me when I’m talking to you,” You demand, leaning forward to drag your mouth over his neck, sucking a thick bruise onto the skin.
“You’re pathetic.”
The harshness in your voice is all it takes to make his body stiffen, every nerve on edge as it hits him sharply. His chest rises and falls unevenly, and he swallows hard, sticky ropes shooting out all over your hand and onto the front of your coat.
“Ugh, Disgusting,” you scoff, but make no move to slow down, maintaining the same pace even as he starts to soften in your palm. You want him to feel it, want him to hurt as the pleasure becomes painful.
In one swift movement, you knock him down onto the couch, plaid cushions sinking beneath your combined weight as you straddle him, making quick work of your clothes.
“Get these off,” you hiss as he fumbles with his shirt, lifting it over his head to expose his pudgy body.
He’s embarrassingly hard again, rutting his flushed cock all over your thighs in an effort for more friction, more heat, more something.
You can’t wait to deny him.
“God, you’re so easy. One look from me and you’re spreading your legs like a desperate whore.” He’s panting as you dig your nails into his greasy scalp, yanking his head back to look at yours.
“Where is it?” You snark at him, your other hand brushing his jaw. “The camcorder?"
He whimpers, pointing to the top drawer on his desk. You leave him exasperated on the couch, hands shuffling through the piles of paper and trash to get to the device.
“Delete it. Now.”
Gerard takes a shaky breath, hands fiddling with the device until he reaches the video, wiping it from memory.
“Any copies?”
He shakes his head.
“Good boy.”
Gerard is shaking like a leaf, hands trembling and pulse racing, utterly unprepared for this. He never expected it to go this far, never thought you could be like this. Seeing you now leaves him stunned, caught somewhere between awe and fear.
You climb up onto his body again, parting your legs as you reach down to rub your clit. His hands linger, ghosting uncertainly down your body as you huff and slap them away.
“Don’t touch me.”
Without wasting another second, you line his length up with your entrance, sinking down on him in a single greedy glide. You set a brutal pace, hands wrapping around his neck for support, slamming down onto him.
Gerard’s already blissed out, eyes glazing over and rolling around every which way as he fights to stay grounded. His kiss-bitten lips are parted, drool slipping freely as his hands claw into the couch so hard the fabric starts to tear. The sounds spilling from him are filthy, desperate, and completely unrestrained as you slam down harder.
“Fuck I-I’m close.”
“Already?” You grunt into his neck, taking that as your cue to move faster, taking him up and down to the hilt effortlessly with how wet you are.
It’s almost humiliating how much this drives you wild, how turned on you are despite yourself, teeth digging into your lip so hard you taste blood.
“Hold it for me,” you whine as you suck bruises all over his neck and collarbones, blues and purples spreading over the skin like watercolor.
“I don’t think I can,” he whines, wetness pooling in his eyes at the speed you’re taking him. Exhaustion’s set in your legs at this point, thighs shaking from the efforts, but you don’t relent.
You’re using him, scratching deep lines into his back as you grip him hard enough to bruise. “B-beg me, and I might let you,” you grunt, pace faltering slightly as the pleasure becomes a little too much.
“Please… please,” Gerard sobs, hands shaking as if you’re the only thing keeping him upright. “I need it. I need you. I can’t—” His voice fractures completely. “I can’t do this without you. I can’t live without you.” Tears fall unchecked, dotting your chest as he presses closer, desperate for something solid.
There’s something in the way he’s looking at you, the raw, desperate honesty in his eyes, the devotion that feels too heavy to bear. It’s almost suffocating, pressing himself flush against your chest as you mewl out, scratching at him. He means no harm, yet the sheer weight of him twists your stomach and quickens your pulse.
These thoughts continue to spiral, twisting tighter in your mind with every heartbeat, every thrust of your hips as your vision blurs and you see stars.
Gerard can feel how close you are, his large hands gripping your waist as he slams you down against him. “P-please.” he chokes, breath breaking, spit flying. You’re the only thing keeping me alive,” his voice turns completely thin as he buries his face into your hair. “I-I can’t take it anymore.”
And that’s all it takes, vision going white as he shoots into you, cock flush against you so tight he’s sure not a drop will escape. You’re coming before you even realize it, mouth opening in shock as no sound comes out at first, pleasure coursing through your lower body in sharp waves. Your cunt clenches around him, milking his cock for all it’s worth, contracting as he cries out.
You’re still trembling in his hands as Gerard pulls you into his arms, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. When you don’t protest, he lingers. You pull away, unsteady, feeling his fluids trickle out of you as you reach for your clothes on the floor. The room feels airless. Too quiet.
You dress without looking at him. Keys in hand, you move for the stairs as you look back one last time.
“Stay away from me.”
Gerard doesn’t speak. His eyes follow you from where you left him, still and hollow, as though he’s already accepted what this moment means. A goodbye.
Almost a year later, your band had signed to a major label and was finishing its second album, killing time between sessions with a string of shows up and down the Northeast.
Your dressing room is sterile, cold, when a knock rattles the door. Your manager steps in, holding something carefully.
“Someone left this for you.”
It’s a rose. Dark. Thorny. Misshapen. Cut too short to survive. There’s no note. No name. You don’t need one.
You toss it into the trash, the petals crumpling under your fingers, and move toward the stage as you wait for places to be called.
You force the unease down, swallowing it like bitter medicine.
Deep down, you know this is something far from over.
summary: you’re a sound tech for the swarm tour. frank finds a dirty secret on your phone and decides to show gerard.
tags: age gap, power imbalance, tension, threesome, thigh riding, oral sex, facefucking, spitroasting, double penetration in one hole uhhhh, dom/sub elements, inexperienced fem reader.
a/n: neither are married in this story obv! i had sooo much fun writing this, lowkey got a little carried away. might have to make a part 2. wc: 7,438.
You were living the dream.
Fresh out of college and suddenly part of one of the most exciting tours of the year. With the band’s highly anticipated reunion finally happening, it all felt a little unreal, like you could wake up at any moment.
They’d been your favorite band since you were a kid, posters covering your walls, lyrics burned into memory, but you’d never seen them live.
Being a sound technician was something else entirely. Not just a background crew member moving silently in the wings, you became someone woven into the rhythm of the show night after night. With ease, you slipped in and out of dressing rooms; your hands, steady as you fitted in-ear monitors, made last-second adjustments while the low thrum of the crowd leaked through the walls.
Up close, the band felt different from how they did on posters and photo shoots. More human, a little worn around the edges, all nervous energy and muscle memory. You learned their preferences quickly, adjusting on instinct as you checked their in-ear mixes, swapped battery packs, and tightened cables. By the time the arena lights dimmed, your work was done. You would step back into the shadows, heart still racing as the first few notes rang out.
You learned how to move with them. Their pre-show routines, quirks and all, soon became familiar, etched in your memory like the back of your hand. Up close with all the band members, you still sometimes felt disbelief: these were the same people you’d once had quiet, so-called “celebrity” crushes on throughout your teenage years. A fact you would never admit out loud.
It was normal to have crushes on people you idolized. Back when it was harmless, distant, and parasocial, confined to grainy interviews on Youtube and late-night playlists. But now, standing backstage, it felt different. It wasn't just a memory anymore. It was real: sudden, alive, and impossible to ignore.
Gerard, of course, his quiet intensity, the way he slipped into silence before a show, tea in hand, patient, reserved. Always polite, always kind. Every careful movement he made towards professionalism made your chest tighten, as it always had, but now sharper. The way he absentmindedly tucked a stray strand of hair behind his ear. The faint crease of concentration between his brows as he watched you fiddle with his monitors. How he held the cup of tea just so, careful not to spill, a small ritual you couldn’t help but notice.
Then there was Frank. Restless, joking constantly, a teasing lilt to his voice whenever he talked. The way his smile tilted when he was talking to someone else, but his eyes found yours anyway. How he adjusted the cuff of his sleeves or ran a hand through his hair mid-laugh. The energy he carried was infectious, and you found yourself smiling wickedly when he did nothing more than nod your way.
These observations were truly harmless, buried deep beneath your professional exterior.
You were sure everyone in the crew felt this way about them. Their fleeting glances. Specific habits. Quiet quirks, just observations. Little things to admire from the edge of the room. If anything, you were just honored to be in their proximity, a quiet participant in the small, intimate rituals that made the band feel alive and just within reach.
As the tour progressed, you could swear the air had shifted. It wasn’t just in your head anymore. Their movements lingered a second longer. Small, deliberate gestures seemed aimed at you. Frank’s fingers brushing yours as he reached for a cable. Gerard’s head tilting whenever he caught your eye from across the stage.
Maybe it was wistful thinking, a trick your mind was playing, desperate for a little extra attention. And yet, the more you noticed, the harder it became to pretend it wasn’t real. Every shared look, every subtle interaction, built a current between you and them, electric and quiet, threading through the backstage chaos.
Once during soundcheck, you were adjusting the levels on Mikey’s monitor pack. Crouched low, focused on the dials, your foot caught the edge of a cable. You stumbled, heart leaping as you tried to regain balance.
Before you could fully topple over, Frank quickly reached out and grabbed your waist, steadying you and pulling you upright. His hands pressed firmly just long enough for you to regain balance. The warmth of his body and the pressure of his fingers wrapped around you made your pulse spike, leaving you dizzy and hyper-aware of the contact.
“Careful there.” He chuckles, voice, low and poised, the faint scent of him filling your senses.
He stepped back quickly, giving you just enough room to stand on your own. Your hands shook as you continued adjusting the monitor pack, but your eyes kept flicking toward Frank, noticing every glance in your direction, every subtle movement, every rapid heartbeat.
You were still catching your breath from Frank’s sudden grip when you felt it, the weight of Gerard’s gaze from in the wings. He was leaning against the edge of a table, arms crossed loosely, quiet as always, but his eyes were sharp, tracking the moment you and Frank had shared. Not accusatory, not glaring, just observant.
Your chest tightened. The brief glance he gave held something you couldn’t name. A flicker of curiosity, maybe amusement, maybe something deeper, and it made the flush in your cheeks crawl higher. Even from across the stage, his presence pressed in, quiet but unreadable.
You had to be imagining things.
There was no way they could be watching you so closely, noticing every little shift, every subtle movement you made. They were probably just keeping an eye on you, making sure one of their crew member’s didn’t get hurt. That was all it was. Nothing more.
Another time before a show, Gerard asked you to help with his stage makeup. It was unusual, given the makeup artists usually swarming backstage, but tonight it felt quieter, more contained. You helped him paint fake blood splotches onto his face, your hands steady even as your pulse betrayed you, aware of how easily this moment could slip into something else.
Gerard’s face was calm, unreadable, but he held perfectly still as you dabbed on makeup. Every small movement felt amplified. Your fingers brushed his skin more than once, pausing a fraction of a second longer. He didn't flinch or pull away, remaining steady, as if trusting you to continue. You became keenly aware of the lack of space, the warmth radiating from him, how your knees nearly touched, and how, simply by leaning in, you could close the gap entirely.
When you finished, he glanced at his reflection and reached out, catching your hand lightly before you could pull it back. His touch was brief but deliberate. “Missed a spot here,” he said, smiling. “Perfect.”
Before you could answer, he leaned in just slightly, tilting his head in that teasing way that reminded you of Frank. His voice dropped, softer now, meant only for you. “You know,” he murmured, “I might start expecting this every night.”
His eyes stayed on yours, steady and unhurried, daring you to say something, daring you not to. For a moment, neither of you moved, the air between you thick with tension.
The moment broke with the creak of the door.
Frank stepped inside without knocking, jacket slung over one shoulder, eyes already scanning the room as if he owned it. His gaze landed on the two of you standing too close, your hand still caught in Gerard’s. Something unreadable flickered across his face before it smoothed into something almost casual.
“Show’s in ten,” Frank said, voice easy, but his eyes didn’t leave you.
Gerard released your hand slowly, deliberately, as if he knew exactly who was watching. He turned just enough to face Frank, blocking you from view for half a second longer than necessary. “Yeah,” he replied. “We’re good.”
Frank’s mouth twitched. He stepped closer, close enough that you felt the shift in the air again, different now, charged in another direction. His attention finally flicked to Gerard’s makeup, then back to you. “Didn’t know you were on makeup duty now,” he said lightly.
“Special request,” Gerard answered, glancing back at you, his smile faint but knowing.
Frank hummed, noncommittal, then reached out, thumb brushing beneath Gerard’s jaw as if checking the work. It was casual on the surface, but his touch lingered just long enough to make the gesture feel deeper. Charged. “Looks convincing enough,” he said. “Very nice.”
Gerard didn’t move away. If anything, he leaned into it slightly, eyes never leaving Franks. “Told you she was good.”
Your pulse picked up again.
For a moment, the two of them just stared at each other, something unspoken passing between them. Then Frank stepped back, breaking the spell, finally looking at you fully. His expression softened, just a touch. “You coming out with us?” he asked. “Crowd’s waiting.”
You nodded, though your thoughts felt tangled, caught between the way Gerard watched you from behind Frank and the way Frank’s attention lingered, as if he were already planning something.
As you moved toward the door, Gerard leaned in close, his mouth near your ear. “Careful,” he murmured, barely audible. “He notices things.”
Ahead of you, Frank paused, just long enough to glance back over his shoulder. His eyes flicked between the two of you, sharp, knowing.
“Oh,” he said quietly, a smile playing at his mouth. “I already did.”
The door swung open, the roar of the crowd spilling in, but the tension followed you both onto the stage, unresolved and very much alive.
You lost it after that.
You couldn’t help yourself. Old habits truly do die hard, the ones that make you feel guilty even as you give in. Lying alone in your hotel room that night, you found yourself scrolling through old yet familiar pages of the same fics about the two of them, stories you had read countless times before years ago, the ones that seemed to know everything you could never say out loud.
Your thumb lingered over the screen as if you could draw the heat from the words into your skin, imagining Gerard leaning close enough that you could feel the warmth radiating off of him, hear his heartbeat even. Imagining Frank watching from just a step away, eyes deliberate and knowing, claiming attention in that slow, careful way that left you tense and achingly aware of where you were, what you wanted, and what you weren’t supposed to want.
Every paragraph made your chest tighten, every sentence made your pulse spike as the line between memory and fiction blurred. Words on the screen felt as immediate as a brush of fingers against your skin, and you found yourself imagining the three of you, close enough that the heat of proximity burned against your ribs, no words left unsaid or touches unmade. The quiet, almost cruel way desire hovered between them.
The next day, everyone could tell you were unrested, with dark circles under your eyes as you made the rounds between dressing rooms.
Your steps were slow, each movement heavy with the memory of the night before, your thoughts tangled and restless. The chatter and laughter of the crew and other performers seemed distant, almost muffled, as if you were moving through a haze.
Of course, Gerard noticed, possessing the same silent demeanor, as if he was looking right through you. His gaze followed you just long enough to make your pulse quicken, that quiet, reserved attention that never asked for permission but demanded it anyway. He knew something was up with you.
In Frank’s dressing room, he was quick to notice your unusual behavior. His sharp eyes didn’t miss the way your movements slowed, the way your fingers lingered on the items you were organizing, the subtle tension in your shoulders. He didn’t comment right away, just leaned slightly against the doorframe, calm and deliberate, letting you squirm under his quiet scrutiny.
“You seem… off,” he said finally, his voice low and steady, meant only for you. There was no accusation in it, only observation, and it made your pulse spike despite yourself.
You swallowed, trying to mask the lingering effects of the night before. “Just tired,” you murmured, though the words felt hollow even as you said them.
Frank’s gaze sharpened, studying you like he always did, noticing the small betrayals your body couldn’t hide: the quickened breath, the subtle flush on your neck, the way your eyes flicked toward the doorway every time you sensed movement. He took a deliberate step closer, the air between you thickening, charged with that quiet, almost unbearable tension you had learned to feel whenever he was near. “You sure you’re okay?
“Yeah,” you said, a little too quickly, the word coming out before you could soften it. “Anything else you need?”
“Nope.”
In your haze, you didn’t notice you had left your phone on Frank’s counter. Or the way he picked it up after you had left, casual at first, as if he were going to find the person who had left it behind. But then his eyes flicked to the screen, and he paused, catching sight of the tabs still open from last night.
Frank’s lips curved into a small, knowing smile, like he wasn’t sure whether to be amused or impressed. He scrolled through just enough to confirm what he already suspected: the proof of your restless thoughts, the stories you’d been reading, the way you had been thinking about him, and Gerard, long after the night had gone quiet.
He didn’t speak. He didn’t need to. Just holding the phone, the pause, the weight of his gaze, Frank slipped out of his dressing room and walked down the hall toward Gerard's. Each step was measured, quiet but heavy with intention, as if he were carrying a secret that would shift everything the moment it reached its destination.
By the time he reached Gerard’s door, Frank lingered for a beat, hand poised, like he was savoring the moment before crossing the threshold. The pause was deliberate, teasing, intimate even from afar, especially as he imagined how everything would play out.
The adrenaline from the show had woken you up a little bit, shaking off some of the haze that was weighing on you all day. Your movements were sharper now, your mind more alert, but the tension in your chest remained, a low, persistent hum that reminded you of last night and everything that had followed.
Towards the end of the show, the stage manager called you over and said that Gerard wanted to see you afterwards. Your pulse quickened, the energy from the performance running through your veins, but now mingled with a nervous tension that made your chest tight.
When you entered his dressing room, Gerard was leaning casually against the wall, arms crossed, calm and relaxed, but the quiet intensity in his eyes kept you rooted in place.
Turning to the other side of the room, you could feel your blood run cold as you saw Frank sitting on the couch, holding your phone casually between his legs.
You were terrified.
Not the kind that made you want to run, but the kind that froze you in place, rooted your feet to the floor as your pulse roared in your ears. Your breath felt shallow, uneven, every instinct screaming that something had shifted the moment you turned your head.
Gerard noticed immediately. His posture didn’t change, but his gaze sharpened, focused entirely on you. “Hey,” he said quietly, not unkind, but firm enough to pull your attention back. “Easy.”
“You left your phone in my room,” Frank said, his voice low and deliberate, casual on the surface but carrying a weight that made your chest tighten instantly. He held it up slightly, the screen glowing softly, and for a moment, you were acutely aware of how small the room felt, how close he was, how deliberate his attention had become.
You flushed, words catching in your throat. “I… must have,” you managed, trying to keep your voice steady, though your pulse betrayed you.
Gerard’s eyes flicked to the phone and then back to you, calm but unyielding, his presence pressing against you in a way that left no room to escape. “Seems like you’re forgetful tonight,” he said, a teasing note undercutting the quiet intensity in his gaze.
Frank’s lips curved into a faint, knowing smile. “Or distracted,” he added, holding the phone just a little longer than necessary, letting the moment stretch, letting every heartbeat and glance between the three of you thrum with tension.
You shifted slightly, your hands instinctively moving as if to reach for the phone, but they hovered midair, aware that every small movement was being watched, measured, and savored. The space between you, Frank, and Gerard felt impossibly charged, intimate in ways that made your skin tingle and your pulse spike.
Frank reached the phone out to you, but as your fingers hovered, he stopped you, holding it just out of reach. “Just one question,” he said, voice low, almost a purr, letting the words hang in the charged air between you.
You froze, breath catching, pulse hammering wildly in your ears. Every instinct told you to snatch the phone and run, but the way he held it, and Gerard’s steady gaze bore into you, made it impossible to move.
Frank’s smirk deepened, slow and knowing. “What were you thinking about last night?” His eyes searched yours, giving nothing away but promising everything.
Your hands hovered uselessly near the phone, every heartbeat stretching long and tense. The room felt impossibly small, the air thick, and the weight of their combined attention pressed in, intimate and unrelenting.
Frank leaned forward slightly, still holding the phone, letting the smallest fraction of space remain between your hands and it, teasing, deliberate. “Answer the question first,” he said softly. “Then you can have it back.”
You swallowed, heart hammering in your chest, fingers still hovering near the phone. Every instinct urged you to snatch it and escape the weight of their attention, but the deliberate closeness of Gerard and the quiet, teasing intensity of Frank held you in place.
“I… I was thinking about…,” you started, then faltered, shame flooding your cheeks as the words caught in your throat.
“Hmmm?” Frank prompted.
“Thinking about you,” you admitted, voice barely above a whisper. Your cheeks heated instantly, pulse spiking at the sound of your own words.
Frank’s smirk widened slightly, slow and knowing, as if your answer confirmed exactly what he had suspected. “Mhm,” he murmured, almost to himself, letting the word hang, tasting it.
Gerard’s eyes darkened, steady and unrelenting, his presence pressing closer, just enough that the warmth of him brushed your side. “Just him?” he asked softly, low, deliberate, letting the weight of the question hang like a promise.
You couldn’t answer. Your voice felt trapped in your chest, caught somewhere between fear and anticipation.
“Please,” you finally blurted, words tumbling over themselves, “Just give me my phone and you’ll never hear from me again. I… I apologize for being so… unprofessional.”
The room fell silent.
“You think we’re firing you?” Gerard said, glancing at Frank.
For a moment, neither of them gave anything away, their expressions unreadable, until a slow, almost wicked grin spread across Frank’s face, sharp with mischief and something far more deliberate.
Frank opened his mouth to say something else, some sharp remark aimed at Gerard, but Gerard cut him off with one look. Not annoyed. Not angry. Just quiet and loaded.
“You’re enjoying this too much,” Gerard scowled.
Frank huffed out a laugh.
Their eyes locked again, the bickering thinning into something electric. You barely had time to register the shift before Gerard stepped closer to Frank, grabbing him by his jacket collar.
“Drop it.”
Frank didn’t. Instead, he tilted his head, smile gone now, replaced with something intent. “Make me.”
For a heartbeat, nothing moved. Gerard’s hand stayed at Frank’s collar, not tightening, not pulling away either, the tension between them thick enough to taste before Gerard turned to you fully.
“Show me,” Gerard said, but the mockery softened, edged now with something more searching than commanding. “What I was doing to him in your stories.”
Frank glanced between the two of you, curiosity flickering across his face, then lifted his hands slightly in a wordless pause. “Only if you want to,” he adds quietly.
The room holds its breath.
Your pulse thunders in your ears, heat crawling up your spine. You didn’t move right away, but you didn’t step back either. Their attention stayed on you, steady, expectant, not pushing.
Frank tilted his head, watching you closely now. “You just gonna stand there?”
They both look at you, eyes sharp, reading the hesitation in your gaze. Frank’s smirk softened into a knowing grin, and he tilted his head just slightly, understanding instantly.
“Oh my god,” he murmured, mock disbelief threading through the words. “Have you even done any of the things you were reading about?”
Your cheeks burned, hot and heavy with shame, and you couldn’t stop the small, embarrassed laugh that escaped despite yourself.
Gerard’s lips twitched, trying and failing to hide a grin, the quiet intensity in his gaze flickering with amusement. “Not a single thing?” he asked, voice low, deliberate, letting the teasing hang.
Frank leaned back just slightly, phone still forgotten for the moment, eyes glinting with that sharp, mischievous light. “You’re adorable,” he said softly, letting the word brush against you like a touch, teasing and intimate all at once.
“Such a little pervert,” Frank murmured, a playful edge to his voice. He beckoned toward you, fingers curling slowly, deliberately, letting the invitation hang in the charged air. “Come here.”
Your pulse spiked, chest tightening as every instinct warned you to hesitate, but you didn’t. Something in the way he looked at you, the teasing glint in his eyes, made it impossible to resist.
You stepped closer, each movement careful, measured, aware of Gerard just behind you, his presence steady and pressing, watching every inch of the small space between you and Frank.
Frank’s smirk deepened as you neared, eyes flicking to yours with quiet amusement. “That’s it,” he murmured, voice low and intimate, “Just like that.”
Frank didn’t wait any longer. He leaned in, lips brushing yours in a deliberate, teasing kiss. It was soft at first, testing, hesitant, letting you respond on your own terms. Your chest tightened, pulse spiking, every nerve alert as the world narrowed to the press of his lips, the warmth of him, the quiet hush of the room.
He guided you onto the couch, keeping the kiss gentle but insistent, lips pressing just long enough to make your heart race, tongue swiping over your bottom lip in a question as you parted your lips just enough for him to slip inside.
Your chest tightened, pulse hammering, every nerve alert as you responded tentatively at first, then with more certainty, letting the kiss deepen slowly. His hands settled on your hips, warm and steady, grounding you while letting the tension grow.
Gerard shifted slightly behind you, the warmth of him brushing your back, steady, magnetic, and impossible to ignore. His gaze followed every motion, eyes dark and intent, a quiet, deliberate amusement flickering across his features.
Frank’s lips moved against yours with deliberate patience, teasing and unhurried, savoring the way you responded. “Relax,” he murmured softly, voice low and intimate, letting the charged silence stretch, leaving you in control even as the air around you throbbed with anticipation.
The space between the three of you felt impossibly small, thick with unspoken desire. Every heartbeat, every breath, every glance magnified, leaving you fully aware of the heat and closeness threading through the room.
All was good, the world narrowing to the press of Frank’s lips and the warmth of Gerard behind you.
Then Frank bounces his thigh.
You stare at him in shock as he builds a rhythm, light and and teasing, sending heat straight up your spine and into your core.
The movements become sharper, each shift pressing against the seam of your jeans like lightning. A new layer of warmth began spreading across your body, sharp and insistent as you looped your hands around his neck for support, moaning softly into his mouth.
You begin moving with him, grinding down on his knee until the wetness pooling in your panties becomes impossible to ignore.
Frank pulls back slightly, signature smirk tugging at his lips, eyes dark and amused. “You feeling that?” he murmured, voice low, letting the tension between you simmer as you nod, crimson blush flooding your cheeks.
Your breath catches, chest impossibly tight, aware of every glance as you look behind yourself at Gerard, seeking some reaction, some anchor.
“Don’t look at me,” Gerard says, almost disinterested as his eyes flick back to Frank’s. “Look at him.”
The weight of his gaze pressed against you, steady and magnetic, and your focus snapped back to Frank, who began grinding you on his thigh as you whimpered, head swimming in pleasure, in the heat. Every subtle moment, the press of Frank’s lips against yours, the warmth of Gerard behind you, the faint smirk on Frank’s face, pulls you deeper into the charged space between them, fast approaching the edge.
Frank pulls back just enough to let you catch your breath, eyes dark, intent, lips parted. “Let go for me, sweet girl,” he murmurs softly, one look into his eyes all it takes. Your chest heaves, pulse hammering, every nerve ablaze with anticipation as pleasure crashes over you in soft waves.
Gerard’s voice cuts through the charged silence, low and mocking. “Is that the best you’ve got, Frankie?”
Frank’s eyes snapped to him, dark and sharp, smile vanishing into something serious, precise. In an instant, he lunges forward, pinning Gerard firmly against the couch, hands pressing into his chest with controlled force.
Gerard freezes, a flicker of surprise and challenge in his eyes, but Frank doesn’t relent, letting his face hover close, every inch of him radiating intensity. “Say it again,” he hisses, voice low and lethal, each word wrapped in restraint.
“Aww, don’t be like that, Frankie. I guess you really can’t teach an old dog new tricks.”
“The fuck did you just call me?”
Before Frank can even take another breath, Gerard grabs him roughly by the hair, pulling him down onto his lips, teeth clacking, breaths hard and uneven as they wrestle for power, for control.
“Look at you,” Gerard growls against his lips, hand cupping the tent in Frank’s jeans.
“Haven’t changed one goddamn bit,” Gerard snaps, voice strained.
A loud slap rings through the room as Frank shoves Gerard back, the force enough to make the couch groan. Gerard doesn’t falter. A smug, dangerous smile plays across his lips, palm pressing the red mark beginning to form.
Frank’s breath comes out ragged, chest heaving, eyes hazy, pupils blown wide, tension radiating off him in waves that almost knock you back. Both of them swivel toward you, sharp, electric focus cutting through the haze, and suddenly the doorway feels impossibly far, impossibly small.
“I should… go,” you whisper, voice trembling, fear and fascination warring in your chest. Every instinct screams to run, to escape the raw, dangerous energy thrumming in the room. You were in way over your head at this point, yet some part of you couldn’t move, frozen by the intensity of their stares and the tension between them.
Frank stills immediately, pulling off of him and stepping closer to you. “Wait,” he says quietly, the edge in his voice now gone. “Just ignore this bastard.”
Gerard exhales sharply, rolling his eyes at Frank, looking back at you, softer now. “I’m sorry, baby. He just gets me so worked up.” A crooked, almost sheepish smile flickers across his face. “But you don’t owe us anything.”
The room holds its breath.
When you don’t step back, Frank’s hand finally settles at your back, warm and steady, grounding rather than pulling. “Come back,” he murmurs, gentle this time.
Gerard reaches out more cautiously, guiding you back down onto the couch only after you let him, his touch light, almost reverent. “We’ll be gentle,” Gerard says, voice low and sincere. “You deserve only the best, sweet thing.”
You stayed. Just barely, just long enough to let yourself sink back onto the couch, heart racing, aware of both of them hovering close. Every nerve in your body was on fire, but this time, it’s different.
Frank leans in first, calm and collected, lips brushing yours in a gentle kiss. It’s soft at first, testing, letting you respond on your own terms.
Your fingers twitch, hovering at his shoulders before tentatively sliding into his hair, drawing him closer, deepening the kiss. The heat between you two builds, slow and unrelenting.
Behind you, Gerard shifts closer, lips brushing your neck in slow, sensual patterns that make your head swim. His hands trace idle circles on your lower back, gentle yet deliberate, grounding you even as the sensations coil tighter through your body. When Frank finally leans back for air, Gerard chases your lips, stealing a smooth, sensual kiss, lips working against yours for a minute before settling close again.
Frank responds to the movement, returning back to you with a firmer, more insistent kiss. lips pressing harder, tongue teasing your mouth while his hands rest firmly on the front of your hips, anchoring you. The room feels impossibly small, charged with their presence, every brush of skin and glance magnified.
It’s almost too much to take in at once. “C-can you two slow down?” You manage to gasp out, voice trembling, breath ragged.
Immediately, both of them freeze, pulling back just enough to meet your gaze with puppy dog eyes. “I just need a second to… Aaah!” Frank doesn’t give you another second to breathe, shoving you into the cushions, lips working all over your neck, hands groping, touching, exploring.
“I’m sorry,” he murmurs, pressing quick, apologetic kisses to your collarbone. “I just can’t wait any longer.” His hands explore rapidly, sliding up and down your hips, tracing your curves with deliberate, teasing pressure.
“What the hell is wrong with you, Frank?” Gerard growls, voice low but laced with annoyance, clearly irritated by the scene unfolding before him. His fingers flex slightly along your lower back, a quiet counter to Frank's teasing, his presence firm, magnetic, and impossible to ignore.
Frank pauses for a heartbeat, lips hovering near your skin, smirk twitching despite Gerard’s glare. “You love it,” he murmurs, voice dark, edged with mischief, pressing closer again, hands relentless. “Bet I can make her come more than you.”
Gerard just smirks, dangerous and calm, eyes ablaze. “Is that a challenge, dear boy?”
“Don’t call me that,” Frank snaps, voice sharp, every ounce of his intensity focused on Gerard. His hands grip your hips a fraction tighter as he slides down your body in one smooth motion, settling between your legs.
Carefully, very carefully, Frank reaches for the button of your jeans, glancing back at you for a final confirmation that what he’s doing is okay. When he doesn’t see any hesitation in your eyes, he unbuckles your pants, pulling them down in one swift motion. Gerard makes quick work of your top, throwing it to the side of the room, fingers palming the swell of your breasts.
“So beautiful.”
Humiliatingly enough, your panties are soaked through, a shameful wet spot visible as frank smirks. “Cute.”
Frank’s impatient. You know he is, the way his eyes are glazed over in desperation. It’s been so long since he’s had it, had someone like you. Wasting no time for pleasantries, he slips your panties down between your legs, greedily lapping at the wetness collecting at your core. He doesn’t waste another moment, greedily mouthing at you as he builds a pattern alternating between licking and sucking. His ministrations have you seeing stars, back arching off the mattress as Gerard looks down at you, cradling your head in his lap.
The pleasure builds steadily, rocking your hips against his mouth as he eats you like a man starved, eyes completely lost as he takes breaks in between to nip at the inside of your thighs. You’re a moaning mess, hands traveling into Frank's hair for purchase as you grind against his face.
From above you, Gerard looks down with wild eyes, hunger seeping out of every pore. “Help me out, sweetheart?” He says as you eye the tent in his pants. He sees the uncertainty in your eyes, the questions as his eyes soften. “Don’t worry, baby. I’ll teach you,” unbuckling his belt with one hand and throwing it aside. “Why don’t you start by taking it out first?”
You slowly cup his bulge, pulling the waistband of his boxers down in a singular motion. His cock springs free, wetness seeping out of the tip onto the couch. And what a sight it is, long and thick, tip flushed, veins protruding from the sides. He could break you with this thing if he isn’t careful. The thought makes your blood boil in lust as you gather the wetness on his tip, pumping his cock to spread it down his length.
You want to please him, want him to always look at you like this, praise you. Beg you. Reaching your head out, you give the tip a kitten lick, hesitant, looking up into his eyes as he nods down at you, giving you just enough encouragement to take it all the way into your mouth. You build a rhythm, alternating between little sucks and licks with the underside of your tongue.
“F-fuck yeah, just like that. Open up your mouth up a little more.” Gerard grunts, eyes hazy and unfocused as you take him in deeper, being mindful of your teeth as you alternate up the sides between patterns.
The dressing room becomes a symphony of sounds, wetness ringing out in an obscene way as the three of you get lost in the pleasure, in the sensations.
Frank slips two fingers inside of you, easy, no resistance with how wet you are for him. Carefully, he scissors his fingers to stretch you open, rutting his hips into the cushions to alleviate some pressure.
You’re about halfway down Gerard’s cock, gaining more and more confidence with his breathy groans, when you're suddenly shoved down to the base with no warning. You panic, lips tightening as you try not to accidentally bite down, looking up at Gerard in alarm.
“Sorry, hun. I like things a bit rough.” You gag on his length, obscene sounds filling the room as you quickly learn to open up your throat. He tangles his fingers in your hair, pushing you down to the hilt with every stroke, tears slipping down your cheeks from the efforts of keeping him down.
“You’re such a good girl,” Gerard grunts out, eyes rolling to the back of his head with every push.
Seeing him in such a state puts you in a frenzy, tears slipping down your cheeks as the pleasure builds and builds. Frank is grinding you against his face at this point, tongue working magic down on the little bead as your climax hits you suddenly, sharply, loud moans gagged by Gerard’s length as your body releases the hot tension.
Gerard releases your hair, panting heavily, pulling you off of him as you try to catch your breath, gasping loudly for air.
Frank unbuckles his belt, coaxing his painfully hard length out and passing it through your folds to gather the wetness as you shiver into him. “Spread yourself open for me,” he grunts huskily, barely hanging on.
Still dazed, you spread your folds as he presses the tip in. It’s so much, all at once, thick, heavy. What a heady feeling. You don’t have much time to think about it, not as Frank bottoms out with a harsh thrust of his hips, groaning so loudly his eyes roll into the back of his head. He sets a brutal pace, thrusting erratically as he hooks your legs over his elbows to keep you open.
You struggle to adjust, and Gerard notices this. “Calm down, Frank,” Gerard growls. “Do you want to come before she can even enjoy it?”
Frank growls under his breath, leaning in, lips brushing against yours in a rough, sharp kiss that leaves sparks trailing across your skin. The tension between them, and around you, thickens, crackling like electricity.
“She can take it,” he snarls, sucking marks into the skin of your neck, pinching and squeezing your nipples as you’re utterly consumed by him, his hands, his warmth.
Looking back at Gerard, you take his length back into your mouth, sucking so eagerly he throws his head back in surprise.
Frank is furious. The way Gerard is always teasing him, sneering at him, always pulling focus away. The way your attention keeps drifting anywhere but where Frank wants it.
And the worst part is, a part of him deep down that he would never admit to himself, likes it. These thoughts snowball, and one look at your hooded eyes as you suck Gerard off has him tipping over the edge, pulling out of you in one swift motion and shooting hot white ropes all over your stomach.
He hasn’t even fully recovered before Gerard is on him, rough hands forcing him back, tearing him away from you. “Move,” he snaps. “It’s my turn.”
Gerard doesn’t waste another second, flipping you around on your hands and knees as he settles behind you, guiding his cock to your entrance with one hand as he pushes into you.
Fuck. You were even better than he could’ve ever imagined, gummy heat pulsing around him euphoric with every drag along your walls. So wet, so warm, cunt clenching around his length so tight he knows you can feel every inch of him, every ridge and vein.
He presses his hand down on your back, arching your body gently to take him deeper. Frank settles in front of you, cock hard and still throbbing as you begin jerking him off with both hands.
Frank’s happy to let you go at your own pace, taking him into your mouth with exploratory licks, hollowing out your cheeks to make it tighter as you look up at him, lashes lowered. He wasn’t going to last long, not like this.
“You’re a natural, baby. So beautiful. So good to us,” Frank grunts, fingers holding back your hair as you take him deeper. “Still a pervert though. You like the way we’re fucking you? Stuffing your greedy little holes to the brim?”
You’re utterly blissed out, already so fucked out as you’re coming again, body locked in a rigid state of shock as the heat washes over you. Clenching down on Gerard’s length is heavenly, pleasure prolonged as he pounds you straight through it, unrelenting, fingers wrapping around your body to rub at your clit.
“Doin’ so good for me,” Gerard snarls, fisting your hair by the roots as he hoists your body up. “You like my cock? Like the way it stretches you?”
Gerard’s close, but he’ll push himself off for now, holding off his orgasm to watch you squirm. You’re scrambling, nonsensical sounds slipping out of your lips as you claw your nails into the couch cushions. He knows you’re a little too full, it’s a little too much, but he couldn’t stop even if he tried. Not in the way he’s fucking you mindless, almost fucking you dumb, slamming you forward into Frank’s cock with every snap of his hips.
Frank notices the hazy look in Gerard’s eyes, brows creasing with perspiration as his rhythm falters. “Pull out.” Gerard ignores him, creeping closer and closer to the edge with every passing second. “Gerard, I said pull out.” His pleas fall on deaf ears as Gerard’s eyes roll back, shooting as deep as he can get inside of you. The feeling is euphoric, the heat, the way it pools, the stickiness, and you’re coming again before you even realize it, vision going white as you clam up.
“You asshole!" Frank snarls as Gerard hoists you up onto his lap, still buried deep inside of you as he starts bouncing you on him.
“Oh, please. She enjoyed that, didn’t you, sweetheart?” Gerard teases, voice low and amused.
You nod, breath shaky. “M-more…”
In your lust-filled haze, you see Frank's jaw tighten, a vein standing out on his forehead, knuckles white. He looks ready to explode.
“You don’t wanna play by the rules, fine. I’m comin’ in.” He spits on his palm, coating his cock with even more lubrication as he roughly kicks your and Gerard’s legs open with his knee.
“I-I’m sorry, Frank, I’ll get off!” You whimper as Frank shoves you back down onto Gerard with a choked slam. “Stay still,” he barks, predatory look in his eyes forcing you into submission.
You and Gerard freeze, both staring at him in shock. Both of you are stunned at his actions, shocked faces apparent as he lines his tip up with your entrance, pushing in as best as he can. You scream, clawing at him as Gerard watches in alarm.
“W-wait, Frank, she isn’t ready for this…” Gerard says, panic breaking through his tone. Frank cuts him off, thrusting himself in all the way with a strained growl. It’s so tight, it’s so full he can barely move, already slightly regretting the decision as he sees your face contort in pain.
You mewl out, clutching Frank’s arms as you attempt to adjust to the thickness. It’s too much, feeling almost as if you’re being split in two. Frank watches you with bated breath as tears slip down your cheeks, choked sobs escaping your lips as you scratch weakly at him to get off.
“Doin’ amazing, sweetheart. Breathe for me,” Frank murmurs, kissing you slowly, as if he could kiss the pain away.
For a long minute, the three of you remain completely still, the room filled with steady panting as you adjust to their sizes, relaxing your lower muscles as best as you can. Gerard presses gentle kisses along your neck, slow and reassuring, hands tracing soothing circles over your hips in an effort to comfort you. After a moment, you nod at Frank to keep going.
Frank keeps a slow, steady rhythm, forehead pressed to yours, every motion deliberate, controlled, as if he’s memorizing every shiver, every gasp. His breaths mingle with yours, deep and heavy, pulling you into the moment.
Gerard watches you both from behind, eyes glazed over, utterly lost in the heavenly friction wrapping around his cock. He shifts slightly, pressing closer to you, letting the heat of the room and of Frank wash over him. A low, breathy moan escapes him, betraying just how much he’s enjoying it.
You arch into his chest. instinctively, the sensation making Gerard’s chest tighten as he also begins thrusting into you, alternating his movements with Frank.
It’s a long process: taking a little, pausing. Taking a little, gasping out from the sensations. The pleasure building is unlike anything you’ve ever experienced before in your life, and both Frank and Gerard’s care, praise, and attention on you has your heart ready to explode out of your chest.
“Feel that?” Frank murmurs, pressing down on the bulge poking through your lower stomach. “How deep we are inside of you?”
You’re caught between them, every touch, every glance, every groan amplifying the heat coursing through you. And for a long moment, time feels suspended. You don’t fully register it yet, the wave of pleasure, until it’s crashing fully over you, sudden and overwhelming. You’re gasping, sucking a deep bruise on Frank’s shoulder in an attempt ground yourself as you ride it out, body trembling between them.
The feeling of you contracting around them so tightly sends them both over the edge. With a final devastating thrust, Frank releases into you, grunting and groaning so loud he’s sure anyone still at the venue can hear. Gerard’s not much better off, slamming into you, cum mixing with Frank's as he muffles his loud, loud moans of pleasure into your neck.
Everyone is exhausted, energy completely spent. You all lie there for a while, limbs tangled, bodies warm and heavy together. The room is quiet except for ragged breaths and the occasional soft sigh, Frank’s forehead resting against yours while Gerard lies in your hair, eyes half-lidded, a lazy, satisfied smile tugging at his lips. Even in the stillness, the tension lingers beneath the surface, a quiet hum of heat and anticipation. Slowly, they pull out of you one by one, combined fluids seeping out all over the couch.
After a long pause, Frank leans down, pressing a slow, deliberate kiss to your lips, soft but lingering, grounding you in the warmth of the moment. Almost simultaneously, Gerard pulls your face toward him, brushing his lips over your cheek and then onto yours. You melt into his kiss, lips molding perfectly to his as he nips your bottom lip. You’re caught perfectly between the two of them, hearts and breaths intertwining.
Gerard is the first to move, pulling Frank away from you and onto his knees, his hands firm and commanding, leaving you momentarily suspended between them as your heart races with anticipation.
“Clean me up.”
Without hesitation, Frank takes him down to the hilt with a practiced ease, nose grinding up against the hairs on Gerard’s pelvis as he maintains eye contact, lashes lowered slightly.
There’s no fanfare, no fight. Not even a single gag from Frank as Gerard roughly fucks into his mouth, fisting his hair as he pulling him down to the hilt with every rough push.
“T-that’s it, take it all.” Gerard grunts, control fraying by the wayside, lost in the heaven that is Frank’s mouth.
“I’ve missed this.” Gerard moans shamelessly, pulling Frank off of him slowly with a satisfied sigh.
“I’ve missed you.”
Frank groans softly, leaning back just enough to let Gerard take the lead, eyes dark and unreadable as he presses a slow kiss to his lips. Frank melts into it for a heartbeat, then deepens the kiss, hands brushing Gerard’s chest as it slides up his jaw. The tension between them is soft, intimate, and you watch, heart racing, caught in the swirl of heat and shared intimacy.
Smiling, you glance between them, reaching for your clothes, but Frank’s arm catches you, stopping your movement.
He looks over at Gerard, the look they share devious, smiles curling before their attention snaps back to you.
“You think we’re done?” Frank teases, voice low and playful, while Gerard smirks, eyes dark and mischievous.
summary: it’s the 2013 grammy awards, and your husband thinks you’re looking a little too good to be walking out of the door like that.
tags: fluff and smut, quickie, mirror sex, gagging, thigh job, light exhibitionism, fem reader, gerard is a tease!
a/n: ty for all the love on my recent fics, here’s a semi-fluffy one where we get manhandled over the bathroom counter! wc: 2,804.
You were running late. The Valentino dress hugged your frame perfectly, custom-made just for you nearly six months ago for the 2013 Grammy Awards.
Your band had been nominated for not three but four awards, an unprecedented sweep that everyone had been buzzing about. Still, as the singer, you knew all eyes would be on you the moment you stepped onto the carpet.
The car hummed outside, polished and waiting. Security lingered just beyond your hotel room door, ready to guide you through the chaos of cameras and screaming fans. In the bathroom, the soft glow of the vanity lights framed your reflection as you applied the final touches of your makeup. The quiet hiss of setting spray settled over you, the only sound in a room cluttered with brushes, palettes, and tubes strewn across the counter.
All that remained was your perfume.
Your gaze sweeps the vanity, once, twice, searching for the familiar bottle amid the chaos. Nothing. Not even a glint of its cap.
You pause, a slow smile tugging at your mouth.
Of course.
Of course he took it.
You smooth the fabric of your dress one last time, the thought of your husband making your pulse quicken. Always playful, always teasing, knowing exactly how to make the night electric. Even after a few years of marriage, he still had the power to make your stomach flip, your heartbeat stutter, and a smile grace your lips hard.
In the other room, Gerard lounged casually on the couch, your plus-one for the night, still with hours before he would need to be camera-ready. He was wearing that striped sweater you bought him two Christmases ago, always one to appreciate anything you gifted him. He sat on the couch, facing away from you, when you stepped into the light.
“I can’t seem to find my perfume. Any idea where it went?”
He didn’t turn immediately, letting the suspense build. “Maybe I borrowed it,” he said finally, voice low and teasing. “Figured I’d enjoy your scent a little longer before you left me.”
You arch an eyebrow, a sly smile tugging at your lips. “Borrowed, huh?”
He chuckles, finally turning to look at you, mischief leaving his eyes as he takes you in from head to toe, jaw absolutely dropping, pupils blown wide.
Gerard gets up slowly, eyes drinking in every inch of you, mouth going absolutely dry. His gaze lingers over the curve of your dress, the way it frames your body perfectly, the deep V-line back carving into an opening that hugs the curve of your hips down to your ass, the subtle shimmer of your makeup, the effortless fall of your hair around your shoulders. He swallows hard, clearly impressed, a low whistle escaping his lips.
“Baby… you… you look…” he starts, faltering for once, eyes wide with complete awe. “Absolutely stunning.”
A sly smile tugs at your lips as you lean slightly closer. “Careful. Keep staring like that, and I might make you regret it before we even leave this room.”
He laughs at that, still taking in every inch of you. “Come here so I can look at you better.”
You laugh, letting a mischievous spark ignite in your chest. Walking over, you take Gerard’s outstretched hand, letting him twirl you effortlessly, your dress swirling around you, laughter ringing throughout the room, soft and breathless.
“Wow,” he whistles, pulling you close, eyes darkening with desire. “Just wow. Even this close and you’re driving me crazy.” He pinches your ass playfully, grinning cheekily as you feel your cheeks flush.
Laughing again, he surprises you, pulling you down toward him and sneaks a quick peck on your cheek as you struggle playfully against him.
“Gee, you’re going to ruin my makeup! I need to leave!” you protest, swatting at his chest.
He grins, letting his strong, warm arms wrap around you, holding you close. “Just one kiss before you leave?” he pouts, looking up at you with those big, puppy-dog eyes.
You hesitate, letting your lips brush his for just a second, teasing him with a soft smile. “Just one,” you murmured, your pulse racing, pressing your lips against his.
Sighing, you feel his lips mold to yours perfectly, tangling his fingers in your hair to deepen the kiss. You pull back, breathless, your pulse racing.
“I… I have to go. Everyone’s waiting for me,” you say, leaning back slightly, trying to reclaim some control.
He grins, not letting you slip away so easily, hands settling on your hips. “Noooo, please. I don’t want to share you just yet,” he teases, his fingers moving up to brush your cheek, eyes dark with desire.
A shiver runs through you at the intensity of his gaze, and despite yourself, a small, mischievous smile tugs at your lips. You won’t let him have it this easily.
“Tell me how I look again,” you demand, combing your fingers through his dark hair.
His grin widens, eyes roaming over you with appreciation and softness. “You look… irresistible,” he murmurs, voice low and husky. “Absolutely breathtaking, and every time I see you, I still… I still can’t get enough.”
You smirk, brushing a strand of hair from your face. “Hmm. Going in the right direction…” You tease, letting your gaze linger on him, daring him to say more.
His lips drop to the curve of your neck, heat radiating off his sweater, voice dropping to a whisper. “In the right direction? Baby, I don’t think words can even do justice to how much I want you right now.”
A shiver runs down your spine at the intensity. “Then maybe you should show me instead,” you murmur, dragging a nail down his chest, lips brushing his shoulder, teasing him further. Gerard groans, shifting his hands up and down your body, as if he can’t decide what to touch, hold, or pull closer. You don’t give him another second to respond, blocking one of his kisses with your finger.
“After the ceremony.”
“After?” he pouts again, but loosens his grip enough for you to slip out.
“Let the people see me first. Then afterwards, I’m all yours.”
You slip out of his grasp with a teasing smile, pressing one last soft kiss to his lips before reaching for your perfume and heading toward the door. “I’ll see you in a bit, baby. Love you.”
You’re only a step away from the door when a pair of strong arms wrap around your waist, hauling you flush against his chest. He drags you into the bathroom, kicking the door shut behind you. Gerard’s hands are everywhere at once, frantic, needy, raking up and down your body like he can’t decide where to touch first.
“What… what are you doing?” you hiss, breath catching.
“Don’t leave me yet… please,” he whines into your hair, inhaling your scent like it’s something he’s starving for. “You just look so good and I can’t… I can’t wait.” His hands skim down your backside, guiding you forward until your hips press into the counter, forcing you to meet his reflection in the mirror.
His face is flushed, eyes wide, and pupils blown, chest rising and falling hard as he stares at you like you’re the only thing in the room.
“My outfit’s got you this riled up?” you tease.
“No…” he breathes, shaking his head slowly. “Not the outfit. Just you. It’s always you.”
His fingers tighten on your hips as he says it, like the truth physically pulls something out of him. Looking in the mirror, his gaze drags over your reflection with a kind of reverence that makes your pulse skip.
You swallow, heat crawling up your neck. “You’re supposed to be letting me go,” you remind him softly, though you make no move to pull away.
“I know,” he whispers, leaning in until his chest presses fully against your back. His lips brush the side of your throat, barely there. “I’m trying. I really am.” His hands slide up your waist, slow, deliberate, like he’s memorizing every inch. “But you walk by me looking like this, smelling like this… and then you tell me I have to wait?”
His breath is warm against your ear, sending a shiver straight down your spine.
“You’re killing me, sweetheart.”
You meet his eyes in the mirror, dark, desperate, undone. Your own breath stutters.
“You can wait,” you murmur, trying to sound steady, even as your body leans into a familiar bulge pressing against your lower back.
His thumb strokes your hip, lazy, teasing. “Maybe,” he admits. “But right now? I don’t want to.”
He dips his head, kissing that sensitive spot just beneath your jaw, and your grip tightens on the counter.
“You look too damn good,” he whispers. “And I’m losing my mind.” His lips trail soft, teasing kisses up and down your neck, each press a silent question, a plea without words.
You let out a quiet sigh and lift your gaze to meet his eyes, dark and searching in the reflection. “Don’t get my dress dirty,” you murmur, voice low, teasing, letting the weight of your closeness linger between you.
Slowly, you tilt your head to meet his, lips connecting in a soft, lingering kiss. It’s gentle but charged, a teasing brush that leaves a trail of warmth along your skin. In the mirror, you watch yourselves together, perfectly aligned, every subtle movement mirroring the unspoken desire passing between you.
You supposed the people could wait a little longer.
Without a spare moment, Gerard pulls back from you, unbuckling his belt with one hand in one swift motion, grabbing your dress and carefully bunching it up around your waist. “Hold this for me, baby,” he whispers in your hair, slipping his cock from his boxers. Groaning softly to himself as he strokes it, he guides it towards your glistening entrance, sliding it smoothly between your folds.
Gathering the wetness, he makes several passes, spongy tip catching on your clit with each pass as you shiver into his touch.
“Please… need you so bad, Gee,” The confession slips out before you can stop it, heat rising to your cheeks.
He lets out a low laugh, fingertips brushing your hips. “Who’s the desperate one now?”
But the look he gives you: hungry, aching, barely restrained, betrays him completely. He’s just as wanting, just as needy, maybe even more.
With a steady grace, you maintain eye contact with him as he slides into you in one smooth glide, bottoming out with a gentle snap of his hips. He rests his forehead against your shoulder, letting the quiet hum of your shared breath fill the space between you. Even after all these years, the way your body fits against his still feels electric, familiar yet endlessly thrilling.
He groans out, eyes rolling into the back of his head in the mirror as you take him in fully. You clench around him, adjusting to the familiar sensation as he starts moving, deep, quick strokes that have your legs shaking.
“You’re so good to me, baby,” he exhales into you, hands reaching in front of you to cup and tease your breasts. “S-so wet, so warm. Still so tight even after I’ve fucked you so much,” he grunts, the unmistakable sounds of wetness echoing through the room.
You’re already so lost in the pleasure, in the heat that is him, that you don’t notice the rapid banging on the door, or your manager yelling your name.
Gasping, your frantic eyes dart back to the mirror, meeting his devious ones. “Stay quiet for me, sweet girl,” he purrs, picking up the pace as he places a hand across your mouth.
“Is everything alright in there?” Your manager yells, irritation wafting off their tone in waves.
“E-Everything’s fine!” You stutter through clenched teeth, his hand muffling a needy moan.
“It better be. We’re already an hour late. I’m going down to the lobby to get a room key. If you’re not out by the time I get back, I’m coming in.”
The rapid knocking fades, replaced by the slow retreat of footsteps as they lead away from the door. Your chest heaves, pulse racing. Not fear, but from him. His eyes catch yours in the mirror, smoldering with satisfaction.
“I bet you want them to hear, don’t you? Want them to see too? Show the world what a slut you are?”
Gerard grabs your hips, hands holding your body in place on the counter, makeup crashing onto the floor from the force he’s rutting into you, knowing the exact spots to slam into you to make you scream.
Your moans are so loud now his hand can’t even hold them in, slipping free in a series of choked-back whimpers as your drool dribbles onto the counter. Gerard isn’t much better, groaning so loudly into the back of your hair as if he’s barely hanging on. His hands roam your back with a frantic, wild energy as he sucks a bite on the side of your neck without thinking.
He can feel how close you are, the fluttering of your walls, your lost, hazy eyes staring at him in the mirror, how your hands scramble for purchase on the counter as you push your body back to meet his with every fuck of his hips.
“Come on, baby,” he grunts. “Scream for me.”
He rips his hand from your mouth, sobs, and spit wringing free as you claw at the counter, gasping for air as pleasure washes around you in waves. It always hits you so hard, so intensely, this rush of euphoria you can never seem to get enough of, cunt pulsating around his length so hard you can feel every ridge, every vein.
Without giving you a second to breathe, Gerard pulls out of you in one swift motion, grabbing his length and slipping it between your thighs, slick sticking to your skin. He begins rocking back and forth, hands pressing your back down so your upper body’s flush with the counter.
“Keep them nice and clenched for me, baby.” He groans, eyelids fluttering shut at the sensation, the softness.
You’re a trembling mess, pinned to the counter as he uses your thighs, moaning so loud you’re sure anyone in the hallway can hear you. But you don’t care. Not with how well he’s using you, holding you, touching you in the exact way he knows will unravel you every single time.
“You’re such a good girl, baby. Love you so much.” He growls, rapidly picking up the pace as you feel his hips stutter, a father in his rhythm as he approaches the edge.
“I love you too,” you whimper. “P-please come for me.”
He smiles, catching your gaze in the mirror. “Yeah?” He grunts. “You gonna take it?”
You nod, frantic, desperate, glassy eyes connecting with his in the mirror.
“Take it all, baby.” With a final devastating thrust, Gerard pulls out of your legs and shoots all over your exposed back, groaning madly as he pumps his cock with his hand to get every last drop. You slump over the counter, completely spent.
He’s already there, hands gentle but insistent, dabbing a warm towel over your skin and straightening your dress as best as he can.
In the mirror, your makeup looks mostly intact, just a few touch-ups needed, but the bruised bite on your neck refuses to fade.
How the hell are you going to cover that up?!
There’s no time to think, not when your manager is pounding on the door again and yelling for you.
The lights are blinding, hundreds of cameras trained on you, their flashes catching every detail of you and your outfit as you glide up the red carpet. You pause mid-interview when the fans’ screams suddenly spike.
A hand slides onto your lower back.
You turn, breath catching. He’s here, perfect hair, suit, and tie impeccably in place, grin wild and knowing, like he planned this moment all along.
“Miss me?” Gerard murmurs under the roar of the crowd.
You try to keep your composure, smile tugging at your lips. “You’re early.”
He leans in, his thumb brushing your waist just enough for you to feel it. “Had to make an entrance.”
The crowd explodes again as the two of you stand together, cameras flashing like fireworks.
“You’re such a tease.”
“Only for you,” Gerard whispers in your ear, grin shameless, downright smug, fingers brushing your hip like he knows exactly what he’s doing. Like the mark on your neck won’t be seen by thousands of people around the world. He presses a quick, teasing kiss to the spot, just enough to make you shiver.
summary: you’ve caught the eye of your art history professor, who’s willing to go any length to get you into his arms. once he has you, he’s never letting go.
tags: age gap, obsession, stalking, delusion, fantasies, gerard is a creep, power imbalance, manipulation, dub con, oral sex (f receiving), drunk sex, dddne!
a/n: had 2022 gee in mind while writing this. i love him in this flannel. wc: 5,142.
It was fate.
It had to be.
From the very first moment you walked into his classroom, he knew. Bright eyes, easy smile, the little charms dangling from your bag, your skirt swaying just enough to tease him.
Gerard began watching you with careful precision. Noting the days you wore your hair up, the sweet floral perfume that always lingered, the pens you reached for when taking notes. The way you bit your lip oh so sweetly whenever you were lost in thought.
Every glance, every laugh, every soft exhale became his claim, a chain tightening around his throat until he could barely breathe.
But it wasn’t enough. His lectures, twice a week, weren’t enough. He needed more of you.
He began filling in the gaps himself. Harmless, really. Observing silently, following the quiet rhythm of your life. Watching as you scurried across campus, heading to class. Noticing your tired smile behind your apron and cap as you took orders at the campus cafe.
The endless hours you spent in the library, bent over your books, chasing your degree. Walking home alone afterwards. Wandering through cold, dark streets with earbuds in, utterly unaware of the danger lurking close enough to touch.
You lived a fifteen-minute walk from campus, ten if you hurried. Gerard knew the streets, the kinds of people out there. He had to make sure you were safe!
Your one-bedroom apartment was barely yours, or rather, you were hardly there, caught up in classes and work. Still, he had seen it all. The little touches of you scattered throughout the space, artwork pinned to the walls, supplies scattered across your desk and counters, the soft chaos that made it yours. You already had so much in common!
He’d watch you get home, milling around endlessly. Fingers eventually slipping past your waistband, head thrown back as you pleasured yourself late into the night.
That was always his favorite part of the day.
Sure enough, the visions started innocently enough. The warmth of your skin beneath his fingers, the soft shiver that would race through your body at the slightest touch. How he would trace the curve of your neck, feeling the quickening of your pulse beneath his lips. Biting down, painting your neck in a canvas of blue and purple as proof of his love, his devotion to you.
Desire and obsession grew into something deeper, something more dangerous. Leaving him consumed, haunted every waking moment by thoughts of you. You were his pretty little thing, the temptation he craved in silence, and the ache he could never soothe. The more he watched you, the deeper the feelings burrowed. The need. The hunger. The certainty that you were meant to be his, that you had to be his.
In his eyes, you’d accept his devotion without question, returning his affections with your eyes half-lidded, lips warm and wet as you suckled the head of his cock from under his desk. Gagging as you took him deeper down your throat, tears and spit pooling at the base as you took him down to the hilt, struggling to keep him down.
You’d moan his name so sweetly. Beg him to touch you, fuck you, do something. Your soft, breathy moans music to his ears. So soft, so pliant, always so willing to take anything he would give you, his pretty little thing. The love and adoration in your eyes as you rode him, beautiful breasts bouncing, hands intertwined with his for support.
Fantasies aside, you truly were an amazing student. Always participating in class discussions. Arriving early, slipping into a seat near the front of the lecture hall, where his gaze could easily fall on you. You’d ask about his weekend, laugh at his jokes.
Then Gerard noticed it. You, leaning towards the boy who sat next to you. Smiling over at him, catching his words. Laughing at things he whispered in your ear in the middle of a lecture, face flushing when you touched hands while doing an assignment.
Gerard told himself it didn’t matter. But the more you warmed up to the boy, the deeper his jealousy grew. It was almost insulting.
Why would you smile for another man when he was right here?
The irritation began budding in his chest, a restless tension that made it impossible to look away, impossible to ignore what you two were doing.
In the back of his mind, a plan began to form. It was for the best. The end of the semester was fast approaching, and normally, he would let his students choose their partners for the final project. For years, he had always done it that way.
Not this time.
He couldn’t stand the thought of you spending any more time with that boy. Laughing over study notes, learning closer to compare drafts, spending long, quiet hours together. Hours that should've belonged to him.
So he decided to change the rules. Quietly. Deliberately. When his next lecture rolled around, he assigned every pair of partners himself. His voice was calm, steady, controlled, even as his pulse raced with something much darker.
Your name was saved for the very end. And when the final list was read out, the room fell silent for a beat when it became clear that there were an odd number of students in the class.
You didn’t have a partner.
He watched your face intently, pushing down a sly smile, focus so sharp it bordered on hunger. The faint crease of your brows. The confusion building in your eyes. The way your lips parted just slightly, like you were about to say something but thought better of it.
That subtle tension, the uncertainty, was exactly what he wanted. He could already feel it starting to shift, the pull of you turning towards him, seeking his help. Seeking his guidance.
Seeking him.
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You hesitated outside his office door, clutching your sketchbook a little too close to your chest. You dreaded having to ask for help, but you knew you would have to do something to pass the class. The project was worth 50% of your grade after all.
Without much time for any thoughts, you raised your hand and knocked on the door, the sound echoing through the empty hallway.
“Come in!”
Opening the door, you were met with the overwhelming smell of acrylic paint, resin, mingling with the faint, musty scent of the old bookshelf lining his wall. Canvases leaned along the edges of the room, some half-finished, their colors vibrant and chaotic.
He looked up from his desk, calm and composed, the faintest trace of a smile gracing his lips. “Ah, I was hoping to see you,” he said, voice wary but warm.
“Y-you were?”
“I figured you’d need help with the final project. I’m truly sorry I couldn't match you with someone. It completely slipped my mind, you know, with midterm deadlines to grade and all.”
“It’s okay. I’m managing decently enough,” you admitted, glancing down at your sketchbook in hand.
He rose from his desk to move closer, leaning over you to see your notes, fingers accidentally brushing yours enough to fully draw your attention to his presence.
“Let me take a look,” he murmured softly. “Ah, I see exactly where you’re struggling. Don’t worry. I’ll guide you through it. You’re an exceptional student, and I’m confident you’ll submit an amazing project!”
You couldn’t help but blush a little at that, your eyes flicking up to meet his hazel eyes. Calm, attentive. But there was something else lingering beneath it all, vanishing almost as soon as you realized. An intensity that made your chest tighten and thoughts linger on him longer than they should.
He noticed the shift instantly, a small, knowing smile now tugging at his lips. “You’re doing really well,” he murmured softly. “Sometimes we need a little extra guidance to see our fullest potential.”
“May I?” he asked calmly. Still a little shaken, you nodded, and Gerard reached his hand over the desk and slid his palm over yours. He guided your hand lightly as you adjusted a line in your sketch. “See how a small change like this can change the entire composition?” His shoulder was brushing yours now, just enough to make you aware of the closeness, warmth radiating from him.
You nodded, heart racing, caught between your work and the intensity of his presence. Every movement, every word, subtly drew you in, closer and closer.
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You started showing up to his office hours regularly after that, slipping in during the short break you had between classes and work. What had begun as occasional questions about the project slowly became more personal, your visits stretching longer each time, the excuse of work barely holding up.
You discovered how much you had in common, liking similar artists and even sharing the same taste in music. Talking to him felt less like schoolwork and more like being pulled into a space only he could create. He was always kind, always attentive. If you squinted, it almost felt like a friendship blooming.
Gerard noticed how your attention shifted entirely to him, how your focus wavered whenever he leaned in. A quiet, possessive satisfaction bloomed when he realized that you were beginning to rely on him more than you realized, dropping your defenses and opening up to him with your trust.
You told him about your life, how you were working to pay your way through college. Your family lived out of state, and visits were impossible due to your packed schedule. Free time was a luxury you barely had these days.
One session, twenty minutes in, you found yourself unable to focus, wrapped up in him. Gerard was undeniably attractive: mousy brown hair falling to his shoulders, deep hazel eyes that lingered sometimes with an intensity that unsettled you. A small, crooked smile, one that made you ache to see it again. And his hands: strong, precise, correcting you when needed, brushing too close.
No ring.
Lingering just long enough over yours.
“It’s interesting,” he murmured one afternoon, tilting his head, voice low, careful, “how much of myself I see in you. You’re thoughtful. Careful. Passionate. Truly inspiring. I have no doubts that you’ll go far.”
Heat curled across your skin, your pulse skipping a beat. You wanted to linger, to be praised by him again.
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After that night, he gave you his cell phone number. “Just in case you need anything outside of office hours,” he said softly, gaze lingering on you for a fraction longer than necessary. “I’m always happy to help.”
You hesitated for a moment, feeling the weight of the gesture. It seemed innocent enough, a tool for getting help, but the darkness lingering in his eyes made your chest tighten. “Thank you so much, professor. For all of your help. I’d be lost without you.”
He smiled, escorting you out of the door and into the hallway. “It’s no problem at all, really. I’ll see you in class tomorrow!”
Gerard lingered in the hallway long after that, lost in thought. Savoring the quiet power he had over you. It wasn’t forced, it wasn’t overt, but it was absolute. Your attention, your trust, and your doubts were slowly starting to belong to him. Falling into his hands exactly as intended.
His fantasies became more and more vivid, slipping into his dreams like cracks in a glass, impossible to ignore.
You, pinned underneath him, cute panties pushed to the side to make way for his cock buried deep in your ass. Fucking into you until you were sobbing, crying out for more, clawing your nails so deep into his back you drew blood.
These thoughts consumed him night after night, pulling him from a restless sleep, hand pumping his cock relentlessly as he wished more than anything these fantasies would become real.
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It was near the end of a session when the topic of weekend plans came up, and you told him you were going on a date with that boy from class.
“Oh?” he said, tone perfectly even. “That sounds nice,” eyes not fully matching his voice. They lingered on you, thoughts building.
An awkward pause ensued. “It’s just drinks,” you added. “Nothing serious!”
“Of course. Nothing serious,” he said again. His jaw tightened slightly, and for a fraction of a second, it looked like he wanted to say something else, something pointed.
“I hope you have fun!”
Gerard forced himself to stay calm, to bury that sharp edge beneath a practiced exterior. But inside, his thoughts were already shifting, calculating how to make sure his original plan played out exactly as he wanted.
He thought you were past this. Above all, he had to make it seem like it was your choice, from start to finish.
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What a shitty day you’d had. Fired on the spot, all because some customer called in and made “egregious complaints” about you. They wanted someone to blame, someone easy to cut loose, and you were right there. By the time you got home, the weight of it all sat so heavy on your chest it almost hurt to breathe. And still, you had that date tonight.
You dressed anyway. Mechanically. Pulling together your favorite outfit with hands that felt too slow, too tired. You forced yourself through hair, makeup, through the motions of pretending you still cared. You had other things, bigger things, to worry about now. He’d texted earlier, confirming your meetup at the dive bar at 9:00pm.
But when 9:30 crawled past, a sick dread coiled in your stomach. The kind that made your skin feel tight. It didn’t make sense, not after his text, but the signs were there.
Fine, whatever. You weren’t going home yet. Not after the day you’d had. You could at least drink until the edges blurred. By 10 pm, the edges weren’t just blurred; they were gone. Several drinks in, your head felt heavy, your limbs warm and unreliable. It had been too long since you let yourself drink like this, and you’d forgotten how much of a lightweight you were.
Cursing your date under your breath, you slid off the barstool, vision lurching. You desperately needed air. Space. You needed to get out of that place before the room started spinning. But walking home in this state? Not happening. You reached for your phone, squinting at the screen, trying to think through the haze.
Who could you call?
Oh, Right.
Him.
Fifteen minutes later, Gerard was there, wearing his signature orange flannel, sleeves rolled up to his forearms. He didn’t bother parking. Just rolled up to the curb, engine idling, eyes fixed on you through the windshield.
When you pulled the passenger door open, he didn’t say anything at first. He only watched you. The way you steadied yourself on the frame, the wobble in your stance, the slip in your voice as you murmured his name. Something unreadable flickered across his face, sharp enough to make your stomach twist.
“You look… rough,” he said quietly, not unkind, but with something else under it. Something too attentive. Too interested. “Get in. I’ll take you home.”
You sank into the seat, the warmth of the car swallowing you whole. Your head felt heavier now, like the alcohol was finally catching up, dragging you down. You barely noticed how he leaned in, buckling your seatbelt for you even though you could’ve done it yourself. His fingers brushed your hip, lingering just a touch too long.
“What happened?” he asked as he pulled away from the curb, voice low, steady, controlled.
“Didn’t show up,” you slurred, staring out the window as the lights smeared into streaks. “Texted me hours ago and everything…”
A slow exhale from him, quiet but heavy. “People like that shouldn’t get near you.”
You blinked, not sure you heard that right.
“Huh?”
He didn’t look at you. Didn’t have to. His jaw was set too tight, shadows carving harsh lines across his face.
“You shouldn’t be left alone like that,” he said. “Drunk. Upset. Vulnerable.”
The word hung in the air, too sharp. Too knowing. You shifted in your seat, suddenly aware of just how small the car felt. Just how close he was. Just how intently he was watching the road.
His voice dipped, barely above a whisper.
“It’s good you called me.”
You were so out of it at this point that you didn’t question anything. The way the car hummed beneath you, the warm pull of exhaustion behind your eyes, the way your thoughts were starting to slip in and out of focus.
You didn’t notice how he didn’t ask for your address.
Didn’t need directions.
Didn’t hesitate at a single turn.
He just drove. Straight toward your place like he’d traced the route dozens of times.
Your gaze drifted toward him, slow and unfocused, and for a moment, something sharp cut through the haze. His hands on the wheel, knuckles pale, fingers tapping restlessly. The faint outline of something dark beneath his nails. At first, you thought it was grease, dirt, maybe something harmless. But as the streetlights flashed across him, you caught the color.
Red. Darker at the edges. Dried.
A small, tacky crust clinging to the cuticle of his thumb.
And there on the front of his flannel, two tiny drops, barely visible unless the light hit just right. You blinked at them, brow furrowing, but the moment your mind tried to make sense of it, the alcohol dragged you under again.
He didn’t seem to notice you staring. Or maybe he did, because his grip tightened just slightly, the tendons in his wrist standing out. His eyes, when they flicked toward you for half a second, were wild, bloodshot, blown wide, gleaming with something raw.
“You’re okay,” he murmured, though you hadn’t said a word. “I’ve got you, baby. Just relax.”
Gerard’s voice shook a little. Like adrenaline was still working its way through him.
You let your head fall back against the seat, too dizzy to fight the heaviness pulling you down. The world tilted softly, fading at the edges, and all you could cling to was the low rumble of the engine, the smoky, metallic scent of him.
The car slowed as he turned onto your street, tires creaking against the pavement. Your head lolled towards the window, eyelids heavy, vision smearing into obscure shapes.
You felt it before you saw it. The weight of his stare, the heat of it, like a hand pressed to your skin. The car rolled to a stop in front of your building, but he didn’t cut the engine. Didn’t move at all.
Just sat there. Breathing unevenly. Staring hard.
“Hey,” he said softly. Too softly. “Look at me.” You forced your eyes open, the world tilting as you turned your head toward him. His face was half-lit by the dashboard glow, all sharp shadows and trembling restraint. Those wild, bloodshot eyes fixed on you.
His hand came up slowly, fingers brushing your jaw. Gingerly at first, like he was afraid you’d shatter if he touched you wrong. Then firmer, his thumb stroking just beneath your jaw.
“You shouldn’t be alone.”
You didn’t fully understand what he meant. Not with your thoughts drifting in cloudy circles. But you felt the way he leaned in, slow, like he was trying not to startle you. Like he was granting you time to pull away.
You didn’t.
Maybe you couldn’t.
Maybe a part of you didn’t want to.
His forehead brushed yours first, warm and tense, his breath unsteady against your mouth. He hesitated, just for a fraction of a second, feeling his control unravel.
He kissed you.
It wasn’t gentle.
It was hungry, desperate, a shudder breaking through his breath as his lips met yours, like he’d been holding himself back for hours, days, longer. His hands slid to the back of your neck, fingers curling in your hair as he pulled you closer, deepening the kiss with a kind of need that shook straight through you.
He broke the kiss just long enough to murmur against your mouth, voice low, tight. “Let’s get you into bed.”
He unbuckled your seatbelt, pulling you out of the car before you could even try to stand, lifting you effortlessly. He unlocked your door in a single, practiced motion, crossing your apartment like he’d walked it hundreds of times in the dark.
By the time he set you on the edge of the bed, your body felt weighted, soft, pliant. You reached for him without thinking, your voice small, slurred.
“Stay?”
The word barely left your mouth before something in him snapped.
He exhaled sharply through his nose, the sound controlled, strained, like it took every piece of restraint he had left to not break apart right there. His hand pressed into the mattress beside your hip, the other curling around your knee, holding you in place without even trying.
“You have no idea,” he whispered, breath unsteady, “How long I’ve waited to hear you say that.”
And that was all it took, lips crashing into yours again. Abrasive, angry, frantic. It was too much, the sharp pressure in your jaw from the force, stubble scraping your chin.
Not giving you a second to breathe, he was on top of you, biting and sucking the skin across your neck, collarbones, and chest. Anywhere visible.
“W-wait, Mr. Way I —”
“Shhhh. Lay back, sweetheart,” he groaned, sliding down and settling between your thighs. You opened your mouth to speak, but he cut you off softly, decisively.
“Let me take care of you.”
The room felt smaller, air heavier as you relaxed into the mattress in a silent surrender. He was quick to give you something to focus on, warm breath trailing up your legs with gentle, teasing bites, soothed by his tongue.
The most unsettling part was how anxious you felt for him to reach his destination, the need, the desire twisting in your core, almost too much to stomach.
Without another spared moment, he mouths greedily at your clothed core, wetness pooling through the fabric as he works meticulously.
It was humiliating, how well he knew your body, knowing exactly where to bite and suck to keep you needy, keep you wanting more.
Impatiently, he tears the fabric of your tights off, slipping your panties to the side and licking a flat stripe from entrance to clit, settling over the small bundle of nerves. Alternating between gentle sucks and swirls of the tongue, he finds a rhythm that has you shaking, back arching off the mattress as you cry out.
Gerard, a little too impatient for his own good, eases a finger into you.
So wet, so warm, better than anything he’s ever dreamed, cunt clenching around the intrusion with every greedy push.
You were too drunk to fully feel, fully understand, but he didn’t mind that. Not when you were unraveling like this on his face, his fingers, his tongue. He could just spend hours nestled between your thighs, relishing in your sweet taste, cries, and begs slipping from your lips as you came, over and over and over again. Pleasure so intense it turns sharp, painful.
“Please.” You don’t even know what you’re asking at this point, clawing at him as he tucks your legs over his shoulders.
He picks up the pace at that, lips and tongue working around you so well you’re seeing stars, ankles locking behind his neck, nails digging into his scalp as you grind on his face. He inserts another finger into you, met with a delicious wet squelch as your pussy sucks him in tighter.
“What is it, love?” He groans out, dazed, with unfocused eyes staring straight into yours. “Need more of this? More of me?” You’re inconsolable at this point, head lolling around every which way as you search for something, anything to ground you. Maintaining that steady pace, Gerard slips another finger in and adds a third for good measure. You were going to need it for everything he had planned for you.
One look down at him, blissed out hazel eyes staring straight into yours, was all you needed, cunt contracting around his tongue, his face. You’re screaming out, pleasure washing over you in white, hot waves. Gerard doesn’t give you another second to breathe, unbuckling his pants in one swift motion to let his aching cock spring free, guiding it to your entrance.
“W-wait!”
He slides into you in one smooth thrust, bottoming out with one wet squelch as he rises to his knees, hooking your legs over his shoulders. Gerard sets a brutal pace, balls heavy, slapping against you with every delicious fuck of his hips. You wince at the position, legs spread at an awkward angle.
You were such a good girl, a pretty little thing, taking his cock so well. Already stretching and bending exactly the way he wanted. He would teach you to do that automatically, without his help, moving your body exactly the way he wanted. Night after night, on your hands and knees, as you presented yourself to him after a long day of work.
There was plenty of time for that, he thinks, spreading your legs even further to penetrate deeper. Something almost primal bubbles in his chest at how well you were taking him. The little bulge in your lower stomach, eyes squeezed shut, bruises covering every inch of your body, was too much. The desire to claim you, make it so you would feel him on you, inside of you, for weeks to come, was too much.
Gerard latched onto your collarbone, picking up the pace yet again to hear you scream. Every drag of his hips was met with a wet squelch of your oversensitive cunt sucking him back in, as if you never wanted him to leave. The sounds of your collective grunts, gasps, and moans fill the room, suffocating.
You were crossing the threshold into oversensitivity, and he loved how compliant you were being. His girl. Only his girl, to love and to fuck whenever he pleased. With this admission, he wrapped one of his calloused hands around the edges of your throat, forcing your mouth open to spit into the open space.
“Swallow,” he demands, gaze wild and uneven, scaring you into complying. Tears began pooling down your cheeks as you looked up at him, hands pawing weakly at his arms in an attempt to ground yourself. You were so fucked out at this point, you couldn’t even form a coherent sentence, nodding as your hands limply grab the mattress.
“You’re such a dirty girl, baby. Seducing me, seducing your professor, begging me to fuck you. Such a fucking slut. But you’re my slut. Right?”
He slips his fingers down your throat, holding down your tongue as you nod frantically up at him. You grip his wrist in an attempt to pull him out, but it only makes his hand slide deeper into your throat.
And that was all the absolution you needed to cross over the threshold of ecstasy, vision going white as you bit your lip so hard blood began pricking. The feeling of your walls clamping down around him so fervently sends shocks straight down his spine, pounding harder, hand releasing one of your legs to rub your clit. He begins rubbing frantically, ignoring your screams, pleading to let up a little.
“You’re all mine now, yeah?” he grunts, biting into your neck in a final claim, a final act of devotion as he felt the blood pricking. Lapping up the droplets, he felt your walls clench down on him again, the aftershocks of your previous orgasm sending you straight into another one, looking up at him weakly, dumbly. One glance at you, fucked out, covered head to toe in his essence, proof of his devotion to you, sends him straight over the edge, thrusting right against your cervix and releasing in hot, steady spurts.
He’s groaning into your hair, utterly blissed out from the feeling of you finally accepting him, needing him. You pull him to your lips for a hasty kiss, completely drunk on the love, the obsession, the power.
You were his now. Mind, Body, Soul. And he was never letting go.
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You woke to a dull, throbbing ache first. Not pain, more like the ghost of last night’s grip. A reminder of how desperately you’d clung to each other. Bruises bloomed around your hips and shoulders and neck, the kind that came from wanting too much.
Someone was moving around in your kitchen, coffee maker humming. Footsteps approached your room, and then Gerard appeared in the doorway, a glass of water in one hand, pain medicine in the other for your inevitable hangover.
He knew exactly where everything was: how you liked your curtains half-drawn in the morning, where the spare blanket was kept, thermostat set to the perfect temperature.
You shifted under the sheets, the soreness curling in your stomach.
His eyes dropped to the marks on your skin, and his jaw tightened, a low sound catching in his throat that he ignored, for now. He placed the glass on your nightstand. “Good, you’re awake. Drink this. You’re dehydrated.”
You brushed him off, too frazzled at the events of last night to fully process anything, grabbing your phone to check the time.
No calls.
No missed messages.
No outgoing calls either.
Your stomach dropped. You never called Mr. Way last night.
His gaze flicked to your phone before returning to your bruised skin. “I assume your date didn’t show.”
You swallowed. “I-I never called...” Voice hoarse, cut off by his hand cupping your face.
For a heartbeat, something slips in his expression. A flicker of satisfaction, almost soft.
“Of course you did,” he said gently, like you were confused, like this was a conversation you’d already had. “You sounded upset. And after everything with your job…” He let the words trail off, pretending to hesitate. “I wasn’t going to leave you alone.”
Your breath felt too thin. “How did you know about that?”
He shushed you, questions remaining unanswered as your heart pounded, terror curling into a heat you didn’t want to acknowledge. He smiled against your skin, lips brushing the bruises he had left only a few hours before.
“I took care of it,” he murmured, the words almost tender. His fingers traced your throat, slow, possessive, loving.
summary: your boyfriend’s having a little trouble sleeping. you decide to help him.
tags: age gap (reader in their 20’s), consensual somnophilia, spooning, riding, sub gee, light dacryphilia, cockwarming.
a/n: i <3 2019 gee. this is my first mcr fic and was so fun to write! wc: 1,343.
It all started innocently enough. A featherlight touch on your lower back. Then a deliberate press, slow and knowing, sending heat blooming up your spine.
You woke with a quiet gasp, eyes struggling through the dark, his arm tight around your waist as he pulled you closer. A faint glow lit the room, 1:45 am shining from the clock on the nightstand, far too late for the way your body was beginning to react.
The room was completely still, with gentle moonlight rays flickering through the cracks in the blinds. Careful not to stir the bed, you turned around slightly to face him, only to be met with a beautiful sight. His eyes were scrunched up, as if intensely focused, his lips slightly pursed with the smallest amount of drool pooling onto the pillow. The softest groans escaped as he continued his rocking motions, building a flush in your cheeks.
Your boyfriend was such a romantic, always sweet, always gentle, always taking his time with you. He liked to “make love,” as he called it, truly making sure you knew how much you meant to him. You had talked about exploring other things before, but never actually got around to it. Sure, the act was always great and fulfilling, but there was always a little desire left when it was all said and done. A small part of you always wanted to venture out. He told you he would always be open to exploring whatever you wanted to do.
Poor Gee. He truly couldn’t help himself, rutting his clothed cock all over the curve of your ass to no avail, gasps getting louder and needier by the second. His little whines, even in sleep, sent heat straight to your core, slipping your panties off and keeping them tangled at the bottom of your legs. As gently as you could, you pulled the waistband of his sweats down, freeing his aching cock and giving it a few strokes. Spreading yourself open, you guided it in between your folds and began grinding back and forth to relieve the pressure between your legs.
As if sensing this, Gerard picked up the pace again, tip catching on your oversensitive clit with every brush through. The friction was electrifying. He gripped your hip as if to steady himself, continuing the steady grinding. You gasped out, burying your face into the pillow and biting down hard to silence the whimpers building in your throat.
You needed more, grasping his length through your legs and slowly easing him into you. He stiffened up immediately, babbling nonsensical sounds as he began rocking into your gummy core, bottoming out in a single thrust. The sounds of wetness and skin slapping filled the air, and you arched into him to get a deeper angle. He set a brutal pace, thrusting at an intensity you’d never seen before.
The feeling of him using you while unconscious was the hottest thing he’d ever done, and you couldn’t muffle your mewls and cries any longer as his spongy tip caught your G-spot with every stroke.
He buried his face into the back of your hair, moaning out so loudly you were sure the neighbors would wake up.
It still wasn’t enough for you. You started bouncing back on him halfway, cock slamming so far into you you could see an imprint on your lower belly. You untangled your hand from under you and began rubbing your clit in fast, steady, semi-circles. Your sweat had soaked through the sheets at this point, absolutely wrecking any form of secrecy if he were to wake up.
More, more, you needed more, untangling his hand from your hip and placing it on top of the bulge inside of you. Closer and closer, you tiptoed to that starry edge, imagining all of the filthy things you wanted him to say to you, to do to you, once he woke up. Just the thought of one of your deepest fantasies coming to life was enough to send you over the edge, pleasure washing over you in steady waves.
The feeling of your warmth clenching around him so hard sent shocks straight to his core, snapping him rapidly out of his illusory slumber. He cried out, pulling completely out of you in one motion. You gasped at the sudden lack of contact, of heat. But what a beautiful sight he was: frizzled hair, body trembling, glassy eyes that hadn’t fully snapped out of his reverie.
He looked so lost, so confused, so fucked out. Quickly, you wrapped your arms around him in hopes of grounding him, pulling him into your chest. After a few moments of controlled panting, you piped up. “Having a sweet dream, baby?”
“You have no idea,” he groaned, wetness leaking out of his tip and pooling into the sheets.
“Can I do something about that?” You asked sweetly. He nodded slowly, shifting over onto his back to steady himself.
“Please, baby, I need you.”
That was all it took. Without wasting a spare moment, you straddled him, gliding his length under your entrance and sinking down in one smooth glide. You watched as Gerard’s eyes rolled into the back of his head, desperate whimpers escaping his lips, hands fisting sheets, looking for anywhere to brace himself. You set a controlled pace, alternating between grinds and rocking up and down.
Gerard was fast approaching his limit, squirming around erratically and trying to slide his hands somewhere, anywhere on your body. “Hands to yourself,” you groan, swatting his hands away.
His whines only got louder, and you took that as your cue to ride him faster. “T-too much,” he gasped out.
“You can take it. Be good for me, big boy. Open your mouth for me.” He slipped his lips open, giving you the space to slide two fingers into his mouth, into his throat, to muffle his noises. Without breaking eye contact, he swirled his tongue around them, pushing them deeper into his throat.
“You like being used like this? Like the way I’m fucking your fat cock?”
He nods, tears flowing rapidly down his cheeks into the pillows. You’re slamming down on him now, the slaps of skin and wetness electrifying as he squeezes his eyes shut.
“Answer me.” You demand, pulling your fingers out. “Y-yes yes, you’re so s-so beautiful, baby. Love how you take care of me. P-please let me come,” he cries out, so fucking wrecked.
“You think you deserve it?”
“Yes, yes, I’ve been good. I’ve been s-so good,” he’s hiccuping now, choking on his own spit and sobs. You had never pushed him this far before, genuinely impressed by his limits.
“Yeah, yes, you have, baby. You’re such a good boy. My good boy. Fill me up, please.” With two final devastating slams onto him, he’s coming hard, gripping your hips and pulling your body flush onto him. The feeling of him shooting into you so deep sets you off again, clenching down so tight you can feel every little ridge and vein of him.
For a long moment, the room was silent again, your labored breaths filling the gaps. You slowly sink off of him, lying on top of his sticky chest and waiting for him to recover. After a few moments of controlled, steady panting, he wraps his arms around you, laughing lightly and pressing kisses to the side of your temple, content.
“It’s chilly in here,” he laughs breathlessly.
“Is it?” You had hardly noticed, sweat clinging to your skin like a warm embrace.
“I’ll keep you warm, baby,” you yawned, sinking back down onto his softening cock. He groaned again, settling as he felt you cuddle into his arms.
A long pause stretched between you, comfortable and unspoken.
“I love you so much. Wake me up sooner next time,” he murmured, eyes fluttering shut.
You laughed. “We’ll see about that.” Another pause.
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