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[floxyramblestoomuch]

*clock shows 4:22 am*

Well I really gotta go to bed now.

*closes sketchbook*

*turns on the nightlight and shuts the big light*

*gets in bed*

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*opens AO3*

[belzytheweepingbanshee]

artstyle guide (click for better quality)

Small part I wanted to add (i reccomend turning your volume up)

[satan-offical]

Imma fly

[satan-offical]

Buzz buzz buzzz

[sodasyrup]

bizarro ninja but they became women

[fl0xxx]

Shiny ahh ninja :0

[floxyramblestoomuch]

Do y'all remember when I had enough motivation to spend 4+ hours on a single sketchbook page? Uninterrupted? Peak.

[nagogi]

[killjoys-make-s0me-nois3]

[filthyfuckingcainestan]

omg wait people are not getting one crucial detail and im sorry but i need to talk about it

ONCE AGAIN. MAJOR SPOILERS. MAJOR. /MAJOR/

Also, word of warning to literally any post ever: Do not look at the comments section or reblogs of a spoiler "keep reading" post

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Calne getting rid of the Blue Orb WAS NOT:

Him getting rid of "the evil part of himself."

Him getting rid of AbeI, who was the mastermind of it all

Him getting rid of something that would make him better as a person and always nice permanently

CaIne was letting go of his ego, symbolically.

All he did was let the BlueAi finally roam free, thoughtless, just a roaming entity. Out wandering the void. I understand now that he was relying heavily on its ability to create to make everything he did. Now, his ability to create has been returned to his original self: imperfect and messy and not nearly as powerful as he was before.

He gave it autonomy. His first act of penance was the thing he was guilty for: devouring his sibling and using THEIR abilities as his own. Now... He just.

Lets go. He takes the first step by accepting his imperfect self is enough to find what he craves the most: love and belonging. He uses his imperfections to give the humans what they truly needed most.

and that's wonderful

edit: HE USES HIS IMPERFECTION, HIS ORIGINAL MESSY CREATION ABILITY, TO FINALLY MAKE THE FIRST RIGHT THING HE'S DONE FOR THE HUMANS THIS IS IMPORTANT

[lazuli-starlight]

See, I saw that something like that was the Intent. but the execution used for it was very uuuuuggggghhhhhhh accidental bad implications.

And like, yes media literacy. Trust me as a major Caine fan (and a minor Ragatha fan) I very much get it about people misreading things or only taking things at surface level value. Goodness knows I've found that frustrating when it comes to the broad fandom takes on some things regarding my favorite pair of Disaster Dentures

But I do genuinely think the way the "Blue Removal" scene was played out was... well it could have been done better. You have a guy act visibly emotionally erratic on screen, have him painfully remove something from his head, then he acts calmer/ more stable. I know it was far from the intent but what it brings to mind is something like a lobotomy.

Or that really annoying trope where the neurodivergent coded (usually robot) character seems immediately "fixed" and more understanding of humans and better regulated and better able to fit in the group by changing something in their "brain".

It does not help that Caine looked like he was arguing with another "personality" before it was removed. Not a great look for those who are Systems/ Plural.

Like I know none of that was the intent. But the way things were presented, that is very much what it immediately looked and felt like. Sort of just the way things were presented, and the order they were presented in created accidental Unfortunate Implications.

I do think the actual intent genuinely could have been communicated better. Not to have it spooned to us, of course. That is not what I'm asking for. But to have the actual intent of the scene communicated in a way that does not accidentally but strongly imply some rather nasty things about those who are Neurodivergent.

It's very very rare for me to outright say something in some else's work "should" be changed or rewritten. But this... yeah. This could have been executed better.

[floxyramblestoomuch]

I wasn't expecting my babyboy to call out my self destructing patterns but oh well here we are

[floxyramblestoomuch]

I love how cold my pillow is right now! All thanks to me!!! Bc of crying on that pillow for several hours!!!! The tears have made the pillow kinda damp and now it's so much colder!!!! Yay me!!!!

[floxyramblestoomuch]

Hardcore journaling bc of being absolutely terrified of being forgotten but at the same time knowing that I don't deserve to be in anyone's memory is not very good for the nervous system I suppose

[floxyramblestoomuch]

I'm actually a bit glad that my boyfriend and I don't live together bc he would absolutely fucking hate me and then I would kill myself, probably.

[floxyramblestoomuch]

It's official, I have finally circled back to the ditch I almost died in in middle school

[floxyramblestoomuch]

I can't fix myself.

[satan-offical]

sweet dreams? nah, have some salty dreams... bitch

[floxyramblestoomuch]

Instagram at night is such a piece of shit cuz my feed was fun until 9 pm why are u tryna trigger me into a violent crying session now

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