lost boy

don't do that. don't tell me i'm not trying. i swam through twelve oceans and drowned in every single one of them but each time the water seeped into my lungs and the fish started swimming in my blood-stream i spat it all up and continued swimming. i am not a life raft. i will not pop in the middle of the ocean. i am a fucking ship and i promise you i will make it to shore alive.

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jackie.

it always came as a surprise when gold star would give origin some schedule’s that were not just group related. it brought a breath of fresh air, to see and meet his friends, as well as other idols. as patient and hardworking as jakyung was, he still enjoyed spending having some sort of downtime, even if it involved being at an animal shelter. 

“wish i could adopt some.“ the idea of having a pet was something he thought about often, but he was very aware that he couldn’t afford one. time was always precious and their company was making the most out of them. the thought actually made jakyung shake his head, to get it out of his system. however, when the other pointed out about the cats in the room, he couldn’t help but smile, fingers running through the fur of the one in his hands “this room is like heave if you asked me, wouldn’t mind staying here for days on end.“

while charm was still a group that did a majority of any schedules as a group, there were some members who had extended out to have some sort of solo career, including aidynn himself. it wasn’t wild to do non-charm related things but still he mostly spent time with the other twelve members of charm and not on his own somewhere.

honestly adopting his two cats was one of the best decisions that aidynn had made for himself. he had a good system set up with his sister and niece to take care of his cats when he couldn’t be home and he had the help of automated feeders as well, so taking care of lily and lilah wasn’t terribly hard for him. he knew not all idols felt like they had the time for pets, even if aidynn knew other origin members had pets of their own. “you’ll have to come back one to day adopt one when you can,” he suggested, petting a few of the cats surrounding them. “yeah i’d prefer this to anything.”

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jongho.

“are you a cat person?” jongho asked as he got settled down on the floor near the taller male, making kissing noises to catch a few of the kittens’ attention. he rubbed his hand against the top of the kitten in his arms’ head, smiling when it started purring at his action. aidynn was someone that jongho was actually familiar with. not only were the two of them label mates and he had seen him quite often over the past few years since aidynn had joined bc entertainment, but the two of them had become something similar to that of party buddies. he had to admit that the younger was good company to have. 

“do you already have kittens at home?” he was curious to know, especially because the cats that aidynn played with were obviously comfortable with him and he seemed to have a good dynamic with them already. “they seem to like you a lot. maybe they smell your other cats on you?” he glanced up at him for a second before his attention was given back to the kitten in his arms. “i don’t have any pets, unfortunately.. i want one. maybe i’ll end up adopting one from here today.” 

“yeah cats are cool,” aidynn responded, fingers scratching behind one of the cats ears to see if they appreciated the scratches, smiling some to himself as their hand moved as if trying to get closer to his hand and get more of the affection they wanted. “i like most animals in general,” he eventually tacked onto his previous statement. in his mind it’d always be animals over people, they were just better to have around if you were to ask him about it. 

aidynn once again was nodding in response, other hand reaching out to pet another near by cat. honestly he wanted to give them all some attention if he could. “yeah i have two at home...they’re like a year and a half old i think,” he explained to jongho. they didn’t do much talking about their personal lives when they hung out together. truly he wanted to also adopt more from the shelter but aidynn wasn’t sure how his cats would react to him bringing home another cat all of a sudden. “you should, it’d be nice. it’s nice having pets around when you’re home.”

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hyunsoo.

if there was anyone who hyunsoo could relate to the most in charm, it was probably aidynn. they both hadn’t really wanted the idol life but had no clue what else to do with themselves other than that, and now here they were, performing for crowds of screaming fans and doing all sorts of things that they probably would have never imagined for themselves. it could be worse, he guessed. “i definitely would have,” hyunsoo laughed. it was mostly hilarious because hyunsoo knew how unimpressed aidynn would be throughout his hypothetical rapping tree performance. he’d pay good money to see a stoic giant tree spitting bars. another laugh left hyunsoo’s lips at aidynn’s response, his hand moving to scratch under salem’s little chin before scooping him up into his arms like a baby and kissing the cat’s nose. “you’ve dealt with him for the past six years and beyond that, i know you’ve got it in you to sit next to yuanjun for three hours and watch me perform,” he smiled, “but besides, it wouldn’t be too bad. you’re not supposed to talk during musicals so at least you’ll get some peace and quiet to enjoy the show. after it’s finished is a different story though.”

when aidynn was younger he barely saw a future for himself, he didn’t expect to make it to his twenties, or let alone to live years into them at this point. yet here he was, an idol , doing everything in performing that he wanted to be doing the opposite of honestly. it paid the bills though an opened some doors as a result. he barely wanted to be an idol, let alone perform in a musical as a rapping tree. if that happened he might just have to actually to find a way out of his contract if it arose. “if you think yuanjun would follow full etiquette or whatever and not speak i think you are sadly mistaken and don’t know your boyfriend well.”

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andy.

“oh fuck off.” andy laid down on the floor, a foot still propped up, to welcome the introduction of this friendly cat into his space. “not my fault if they can sense i’m the better owner of the two of us. not everyone has the skills to be able to train cats like yours truly. they can sense it.” in actuality, he’d met this cat earlier in the day, and they were one of the much more friendly types overall, it seemed. nonetheless, he still took the extra precautions to wait with his hand near the cat, until the cat decided to rub themselves against his hand. only then could he take that as a sign it was okay to give the cat a good petting.

life wouldn’t be so painstakingly horrible if his daily life was just this. andy sighed. “selina’s gonna have a little bitch fit at me when i get back home.” smelling of dogs, she never had an issue, part of her daily life as it was anyway, but smelling of any other cats? you’d think she was abused for that hour she was being a pain in the ass.

aidynn didn’t hold back in the scoff that left his mouth as he rolled his eyes in reaction to andy’s words. “they can’t sense shit, i don’t wanna hear it,” he responded. really he didn’t care, the cat was getting the pets they deserved either way either way. he had made his rounds around the shelter, visiting a variety of pets, but he had a bit of a soft spot for cats in comparison to others.

it really didn’t take long for another cat to curiously wonder their way over to him, giving him the opportunity to give this cats pets instead. “yeah lily and lillah are gonna act like i committed a crime when i see them,” aidynn nodded, knowing the feeling of dramatic cats.

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hyunsoo.

hyunsoo could only let out a laugh in disbelief. sometimes he really wondered how his life ended up like this. he thought by now he’d be on a hockey team with at least one olympic experience under his belt, but instead he was here singing and dancing on stage. it wasn’t that he totally hated his life though - he had his sweet little pets, his friends, and idol life brought him yuanjun too, but he still sometimes wished he had the best of both worlds. he gently continued to pet salem too, who seemed to be loving the attention, and he laughed once again. “maybe they’ll cast you as a tree or something - you’d be great, you just have to stand there and be tall and maybe do the occasional rapping. i’d come and see it,” he smiled, the thought amusing. if there was a member of charm who was grumpier about everything than he was, it was aidynn. “i mean technically i do get married in the musical, but the story is less about romance and more about arthur anyway.” he shrugged. there was a kiss scene during one of the musical numbers, but nothing too crazy at least. “you’ll be front and center but you’ll probably be sitting with yuanjun - he’s insisted on coming to as many of the shows as he can.” 

there had been a long portion of aidynn’s life where he didn’t expect to live to see 20 years old, let alone surpass that many years on earth. it was the only plan he had for a long time until he stumbled into a bc audition one day and ended up an idol. before it was just finding things to pass the time and now he had a career technically and open doors for more opportunity. though he wasn’t entirely sure which life he would have preferred at that point. “a rapping tree, i’m sure people would fucking love it,” he shook his head, smiling slightly with amusement at the thought of himself as such a thing. honestly he’d never paid attention in history classes whenever he bothered to show up for school so he really didn’t know much about this arthur guy that hyunsoo was playing or what happened in his story, but he assumed he would have learned it in school at sometime. “i’m not surprised, i can deal with him for a night.”

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yuanjun.

things had changed over the years, surely, only reminding yuanjun how long it had been since he had first come to korea but overall, the establishment still had the same vibe to it as it had back in the day. “i’m not sure who took me here the first time honestly.” yuanjun admitted, turning to aidynn with a smile. “but i’m glad they did. i like coming here, and the place is pretty lowkey so there isn’t much to worry about in terms of exposure though i prefer to be a bit careful still.” an odd combination of words to leave yuanjun’s lips, he wasn’t exactly known for being cautious but he did value his privacy.

gaming was a fun way to pass the time, yuanjun had learned that pretty early on, and as an idol, it was an accessible pastime as well, no need to leave the house most of time and at times at schedules even his phone was enough to kill some time. “how could you possibly win! i’ve played this game so many times.” yuanjun protested, feeling properly challenged at this point and pressing play to start the game, lifting up the gun-shaped controller up to the scream. “lets see how good you are huh?” 

“seems like a nice enough place,” he commented, looking around. admittedly there was once a time where aidynn was one of the charm members who probably went out the most to places where he could easily be seen and recognized, but even with that information, he was one of the most notoriously private members of the group. where others were more forth coming and open about some bits of information he chose to dodge questions or give fake answers. for example, he didn’t talk about his niece to the public because aidynn didn’t want her to have to deal with the unwanted attention that could bring her way for whatever reason just because they’re related. so he kept quiet. 

aidynn had always loved video games, and it was a nice thing to have portable gaming devices as an idol to help fill in the gaps where you were being carted around from place to place having a stylist was working on making you look however the company wanted. “you say this like shooting zombies isn’t the mot basic game in the world,” the older chuckled some. usually he was competitive but right now it was fun to tease yuanjun a bit as they were pointed their gun-shaped controllers. “challenge on kid.”

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jackie.

all the plans that gold star had in store for them were really pilling up, but even so, jakyung was ready to enjoy as much of these random activities as possible. as much as he loved origin and their managers, he really appreciated the opportunity to be around other people and idols. even with the jam packed schedule, he planned on attending everything they could, and it would be a lie if he didn’t enjoy the animal shelter the most.

jakyung was a cat person. he loved animals, but cats had a soft spot in his heart. the idea of adopting one was always at the back of his head, but it was impossible. so the fact that he made his way to the cat room and claiming a place on the floor wasn’t a surprise. weirdly enough, it didn’t take that much for a cat to approach him, the word traitor capturing his attention as he looks at the person who said it. “aww, my bad dude.” the rapper says, apologetic smile tugging on his lips. the statement doesn’t stop him from reaching out to the cat, gently picking it up in his arms, scooting close to the other “i’ll be in close proximity if you want to pet it, quite the fluffy guy.” he adds, smile sill placed on his lips. 

it wasn’t a secret that aidynn hated a majority of schedules and events bc shipped him or charm members off to, but money talked and so did good publicity. if he was going to be “encouraged” to volunteer at least one of the days, the clear option was the animal shelter. old people weren’t his favorite people in the world when he barely liked others to begin with, and an orphanage would be just fine without him around honestly. the shelter would do just fine.

in hindsight with how busy charm was, adopting pets probably wasn’t the greatest idea but aidynn felt he was home enough and his own cats had a great home with his sister and niece when he wasn’t around to justify going to a different shelter and adopting two kittens over a year ago. though being back at one only tempted him to do so once again but he knew he wouldn’t. “yeah they’re pretty cute....” aidynn found himself admitting, something he would only ever say out loud about an animal honestly. “there’s some others for me to pet, it’s good,” it was only exemplified by another cat soon climbing onto his legs. 

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jongho.

jongho was definitely what one would consider to be an animal lover. ever since he was a little kid he had a strong appreciation for animals - the cute ones, that is. he didn’t like the creepy, crawly ones that bit people and were poisonous, or rodents of any kind. he liked dogs, cats, bunnies and other little furry creatures of the like, but he, like anyone else, had his limits when it came to other creatures. he was just glad that the particular animal shelter they had been assigned to volunteer at only had the cute animals and nothing that could possibly make his skin crawl. 

the dancer had arrived at the shelter a little bit behind schedule; he had slept through his first alarm that morning, sue him. but even though he was late, he was more than ready to get his interactions with the animals started. he was pointed in the direction of a random room by one of the employees there, and his expression practically melted when he saw that it was filled with cats and kittens. he immediately cooled, getting down on the ground without a second thought, almost not registering the other figure there before him. “sorry,” he chuckled, although the smile on his face as he petted the cat wasn’t apologetic in the slightest. “looks like the cat chose who they like best,” he teased.

ever since he was little aidynn had a preference for animals: both of the standard house pet variety like cats and dogs but also the creepy crawly ones like spiders and snakes. there had never been any sort of fear of getting hurt at the hands of an animal in his mind, even now as a grown adult who knew some things were poisonous or harmful in some way. still he loved them. though with his own cats at home, he clearly had a bit of a preference at the time.

when he had gotten directed to this room he had been very pleased, immediately sitting on the floor and letting the small and large furballs alike crawl around and to him. aidynn’s attention hadn’t really been directed towards any of the other people that came and went out of the romm admittedly until the one cat was moving towards someone else. “nah it’s alright,” he said as it really didn’t take long for other cats to move in his direction for him to pet and love. “clearly others still love me most.” 

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hyunsoo.

hyunsoo could only let out a sigh. aidynn was right - when was it ever not about money? it was obvious that after start again ended up being a hit, bc were pushing him more than ever to do solo stuff. now, after sweet home ended up being a hit too, he probably should have seen this coming. “yeah, fair point,” he replied, “money makes the world go around and all that.” hyunsoo couldn’t help but laugh at aidynn’s next point, though. there was no way he could imagine the elder boy singing and dancing in a musical. “well, i think they’d know not to put you in a musical, hyung,” he laughed in response, “but there’s other people who’d enjoy it more than me. at least they gave me a musical that was fun and not one of those cheesy lovey-dovey ones. i don’t think i’m made to act out romance.” it wasn’t that he couldn’t, it was more so that he just found it too cringy and awkward - half of the time it wasn’t very natural, and simply he also just much preferred action or horror instead. another smile appeared on hyunsoo’s face as he continued to pet salem in his lap. “thanks hyung, i’ll make sure you get a good seat when you come, then.” 

the sad fact of the idol world was that all of it revolved around money at the end of the day and was rarely about what the idols themselves wanted to do. the companies had a product to sell and they wanted to sell as much as poosible. “exactly, you’re catching on,” aidynn joked, reaching out to pet salem himself. the cat was sweet. “they better know not to, the directors or producers or whoever is in charge would be disappointed as fuck in my skills because i have none.” it was clearly that aidynn would never be the actor of charm truly, he’d leave that to some of the others in the group. there were 12 other options to fit that role. he’d stick to making music happily. “if you did i would not be watching, i don’t need to see you being gross with some stranger. i don’t want to see you with your actual boyfriend as is,” aidynn spoke honestly. “alright, good. i best be front and center.”

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what: volunteering at the animal shelter when: july 19, 2021 with: you if you’d like

out of the three volunteering days they had set up for the next few months the only one aidynn planned on attending was the one at the animal shelter. honestly he wasn’t the biggest fan of old people, and there was more than one occasion where they weren’t a fan of him either from when he was younger, and visiting the orphanage really wasn’t something he felt like attending. though he wouldn’t admit that it maybe hit a little too close to home for his comfort. though, animals were right up his alley.

he’d found his way into the cat room, which he was sure his own two cats at home might not be the most appreciative of but they’d be fine. it was probably amusing to watch someone so big sitting with all the small cats surrounding him, maybe even climbing him, or being held. his attention had primarily been on a pretty calico for a few minutes until someone else was coming to sit down, catching the cat’s attention. “traitor,” he joked as the cat moved towards the new person. his joking tone continued as he looked up at the new person, “rude, me and the cat were bonding and you had to steal the attention.”

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yuanjun.

yuanjun wasn’t one to be detered by a sullen response to his boundless enthusiasm. it was something he had gotten very used to over the years, not just from aidynn but from most of charm, almost no one in the group matching his constant high energy level. so he had taught himself to not read too much into lukewarm responses, only letting himself get shooed away by explicit statements that his company wasn’t wanted. hanging out with aidynn was no different from that, the other didn’t seem to be briming with enthusiasm but that was okay, he had come out to hang out with yuanjun, that was the only indicator he needed.

“i used to come here a lot when i was a trainee.” yuanjun explained with a wide smile. “it’s one of the first places i got really familiar with when i came to korea so i like coming here, it always feels a bit like coming home.” he couldn’t go as frequently as he used to back in the day of course, charm was a busy, high-demand group but he liked stopping by whenever he could and he liked sharing that experience with his friends. “okay awesome! zombies it is!” he beamed triumphantly, leading aidynn the way with little effort, more than familiar with the layout of the arcade by now. when they got to the game machine, yuanjun slid a coin into the machine before picking up one of the guns. “i’m totally gonna kick your ass though i’m suuuuper good at this one.”

the type of energy and joy for life and activities that yuanjun had were never traits that aidynn had ever been in possession of even as a young child or teen. he really wasn’t sure how the kid did it really. though the younger had never really bothered him in any particular way, they just weren’t the closest out of the members, but it was nice to occasionally spend time with the youngest member. plus, he enjoyed video games, there were his main source of entertainment outside of work, and it’d been a long time since he step foot in an arcade of any kind so why not join in on the fun.

aidynn hummed to show that he was listening to yuanjun as he spoke, adding in a bit of a nod as well. “sounds fun,” he commented, “i’ve never been to this arcade. or one in a while, actually.” honestly he didn’t remember the last time he had been to one. it happened at some point he was sure of it. how sober he was for the experience was a toss up though. he followed along behind yuanjun as the younger b-lined for the desired zombie shooting game. he followed suit in collecting  gun to use and preparing for the game to start. “we’ll see about that kid.”

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date: free day in july location: yuansoo apartment @fmdaidynn

“i don’t know why the company has all of a sudden started focusing on my existence,” hyunsoo sighed. he had planted himself on his couch, salem curled up on his lap as hyunsoo sunk himself further back into the cushions. being cast in a musical probably shouldn’t have come as a surprise after the success of sweet home, but hyunsoo had hoped that bc would forget about him for a little bit. therefore, before everything got wild with rehearsals and runthroughs, he had called aidynn over for some well needed father and son bonding time. out of the elder charm members, hyunsoo had always been particularly close to aidynn - the elder was just far more chill and matched his energy so that he didn’t feel drained after hanging out with him. it did mean, however, that hyunsoo would get teased at every possible moment. “there’s so many of us, surely they could have given someone else a musical role?” he pouted slightly before turning to aidynn.  he was sure that aidynn really could care less about his suffering, but it wasn’t like there were many people in his life other than the charm members who truly understood his predicament - and even then, some people in charm actually liked being in the spotlight. “you’ll come and watch though, right hyung?” 

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the sentiment was something aidynn could vaguely understand. bc had let him put out his first full album on his own and then approved reload a few months later, but making music was something he enjoyed wholeheartedly and he doubted hyunsoo enjoyed musical theater from the sounds of it all. the older shrugged, “money, probably. that’s usually the reason,” he commented as he lounged in his seat. over the last few weeks alone he really had been spending lots of time with the other charm members, and hyunsoo was just another name added to the list along with the others. “oh yeah, what are they gonna do? put me on a theater stage?” he huffed out a bit of laughter. it wasn’t necessarily the spotlight that aidynn had ever been interested, is was the art and creation of music that initially fueled his love and want to perform (though he never planned to be an idol). “i’ll see if i can squeeze a show into my schedule,” aidynn answered, his way of saying yes.

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daisuke.

There was a stark difference between writing lyrics and producing music. While it wasn’t easy to write lyrics, it was much easier in the sense that it came from within. Daisuke wasn’t a big talker. He didn’t like to voice his feelings and thoughts too often, mainly because he didn’t feel comfortable with speaking about how he was feeling. It was not a very good quality of his, he knew that. He knew that it made him harder to get to know, and that it made him appear to be standoffish and reticent, like he was a mean person, but habits were hard to break. Especially when they were bad. However he had a much type putting his thoughts and feelings into lyrics. 

He knew that it’d be difficult trying to put his thoughts and feelings into beats. Especially when he had no idea how to work the equipment. But he did have melodies and sounds in his head that always accompanied the lyrics he wrote and he was almost desperate to learn how to bring what he heard in his head to life. He nodded once, watching as Aidynn motioned towards the function that would play the guitar sounds. He reached over and fiddled with the soundboard, the sound of a random guitar note feeling his ears after a few seconds of messing around. “I see,” he murmured under his breath. “How do you usually start your process?”

it’d been so long since aidynn has first attempted to write some shitty lyrics or create a melody, something along the lines of a decade. the memories were fuzzy now, his brain long fried from the drug problem he recalled to be starting around a similar time. the only thing he knew for sure was that once he started to try, he couldn’t remember a time where he had stopped and ceased all activity. even as a trainee under bc in his late teens he still had stacks of notebooks tucked away in drawers or under his mattress. for a long time it was the only thing he was good at, but now he had more means to share what he created with the world.

a friend had taught him originally all that time ago how to use some cheap soundboard and equipment, but that was a far cry from the up to date technology and things bc had in their recording rooms. now he leaned his elbows on his knees, observing as daisuke began to fiddle with the program they used for music. “since you have some idea in your head, i usually start messing around with that on like a guitar or piano until i find a key i like it in. on an actual instrument, it’s just easier than the computer at that point.”

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setting: an arcade, june 2021 with: @fmdaidynn

charm was a big group, making it hard to be close of every single one of the other members. of course, yuanjun was by far the closest with hyunsoo with the older boy having special boyfriend privileges that the rest of charm probably didn’t even want if offered but yuanjun did genuinely try to spend time and get along well with all of charm (…or well, almost all of charm but he wouldn’t speak on that). which was why he would often make an effort to hang out with some of the boys, not all of them were equally enthusiastic about that always, yuanjun could be a handful to deal with.

this time around, he had dragged aidynn out with him, something he managed to pull off mainly with a staggering amount of puppy eyes and pouting and promising that they could hang out at an arcade, both of them being avid gamers after all, doing something they both enjoyed sure aiding to their bonding time. so as they stepped into the neon-lit interior of the arcade, yuanjun turned to the taller with a triumphant smile. “see hyung! i told you this place was really cool!” he beamed. “what do you wanna try first? shoot some zombies? play some motorcross? i’m down for anything!”

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there had been a very long time where aidynn’s relationships to the members of charm had been limited outside of the friendship he’d formed with his roommate. eventually he had somewhat settled in, opening up to the chance of having better interaction with the other 11 members. that’s how he and daisuke had fully settled into becoming closer. the other charm members weren’t necessarily at the arm’s length he had once kept them at but aidynn didn’t spend much time with most of them outside of the activities they were scheduled to be together at. now, once again sober and trying to get and keep his shit together, spending more time with others and not locked up inside his apartment was a task his therapist had set out for him, almost like the homework assignments he blew off in school.

yuanjun wasn’t terrible or unpleasant by any means, just very different from himself. that didn’t make the group’s youngest member impossible to be around. plus, games were nice, he could do an arcade for a bit. it’d been a long time since he stepped foot into one honestly. “yeah it’s neat...” aidynn trailed, glancing around at the other occupants and offered games, hands stuffed in the front pockets of his jeans. “yeah, shooting zombies, that doesn’t sound bad.”

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hello hello, i’m just popping in to drop a plot call for threads now that the even is over! so if you’re down to plot something with aidynn, jaeyeol, maverick, or kyubok please feel free to hit me up or like this!

[fmdaidynnarchived]

hello hello, i’m just popping in to drop a plot call for threads now that the even is over! so if you’re down to plot something with aidynn, jaeyeol, maverick, or kyubok please feel free to hit me up or like this!

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guanting.

when he was denied a kiss yet again, he couldn’t help but frown and pout at him for the umpteenth time that night. it took him a moment to process the words that aidynn had said to him, and he thought about the offer for a moment. he had been at the pool party for quite some time. it wasn’t like the party had just started and he was at a risk of missing out on something that would happen in the next few hours. and he had already mingled and talked to more than a dozen or so other idols. there wasn’t really much of a reason for him to stay any longer, or at least not that he could see. it took him just a few moments to come to an answer. 

“hm, let’s go,” he mumbled, his hand sliding down the older male’s arm until it met his hand, and he locked their fingers together before tugging him in the direction of the exit. on some level, beneath his alcohol induced state, he felt a little bad about his behavior that evening. “sorry,” he murmured under his breath, still using aidynn’s larger form to help keep him elevated while they walked. “didn’t mean to force you to leave the party,” he added on after a second thought. “were you ready to leave?”

parties had lost their appeal a long time ago for aidynn. most of the reason he had continued to attend things like this originally had been to meet someone new to fill his bed with or find an old flame for the same purpose but now he seemed very much attached to a very needy younger boy. it was more than okay in his book if they headed out to somewhere more private than stay there with everyone else to witness whatever he and ting would get up to.

public affection of any kind wasn’t really up his alley, which was only aided by the idol thing, and hand-holding was included in that package but aidynn didn’t find himself pushing ting off immediately like he had with others in the past. he chalked it up to the fact that the other was using him to stay upright. he followed as ting guided them out, only taking over once it was time to direct the younger to his bungalow. “yeah, those parties are only interesting for so long. i’d rather leave.”