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traumagenic median system blog –– see pinned post [ main blog: stephaniedola ] [ pronouns.page: @stephaniedola ]

[foggyremnant]

We've Staged a Coup

this used to just be tony's blog but we needed a space to sort system thoughts out in a way that helps system members feel less dissociated. or something. so we overthrew him lol

current lineup. this can and will change

cain (she/he): host

izaya (he/they): protector (durarara fictive. reformed...ish)

peter (he/they): caretaker/trauma holder (OC fictive)

celie (she/it/fae): age sliding trauma holder (OC fictive, inner child, age 12-19)

house (he/him): persecutor/addiction holder/[REDACTED] (its fuckin house MD)

tony (he/him): trauma holder (OC fictive)

i consider my system traumagenic but if you're any flavor of "endogenics DNI" i dont even know what to say to you. wtf does that even mean like come on.

why are we having lunatic in-fights? thats exactly what the normiebrains want us to do. get real and go outside

anyway thanks ✌️

[kimthemangoguy]

guess whose turn it is with the long front

[foggyremnant]

as much as i love my system its never exactly a GOOD sign when everyone becomes a lot more active

[foggyremnant]

celie: ug what happened :(

me: wym

celie: idk i jus used 2 be beautiful

me: what? you are beautiful!

celie: yea but like.... i used 2 be rich and have hair stylers n pretty dresses n jewels n stuf

me: ok but u were miserable when u were rich

celie: yea but.... i was rich tho :/

[foggyremnant]

i should get paid overtime for this. oh wait, i dont get paid at all

[foggyremnant]

i hate when house is right 😩

[foggyremnant]

honestly nowadays the only real beef i have with izaya is that he only ever wants fatty tuna and i like lean tuna

[foggyremnant]

how house be lookin down on me from his 3rd person pov

[foggyremnant]

except mines a piece of shit and the information he shares is like "do drugs" and "kill yourself" and "i'll always have power over you"

[foggyremnant]

how house be lookin down on me from his 3rd person pov

[foggyremnant]

i hate when i am dissociating hard as fuck in the middle of the day and no one wants to step up and be productive

[polish-art-tournament]

paintings round 2 poll 24

which piece do you like better?

Meat by Wiesław Szamborski, 1980

An illustration by Waldemar Świerzy

Voting ended onOct 10, 2024

[no propaganda has been submitted]

[rainyydoves]

anti endos fuck off btw <- had to block someone i followed over this today

[rainyydoves]

you do not get to decide that something happening in a person's head isn't real and honestly half of it is people just echoing the same reasoning terfs use without even realizing it. its so gross

[foggyremnant]

for some reason i always end up sharing headspace with the kid. i don't mind, really–– i feel compelled to protect her–– but it definitely can be a bit odd. i'm relatively masc but she's, well... not. so thats how i ended up wearing a dress and pigtails today

[foggyremnant]

it us!! :D

[foggyremnant]

for some reason i always end up sharing headspace with the kid. i don't mind, really–– i feel compelled to protect her–– but it definitely can be a bit odd. i'm relatively masc but she's, well... not. so thats how i ended up wearing a dress and pigtails today

[t4timekeeper]

“do you feel safe in the system community” hell no brother!!!!!

[t4timekeeper]

i have no particular stance on pro/anti endo or whatever but i do think people are so obsessed w fakeclaiming as long as they can fakeclaim the “right” people. i also think the fixation on insisting that Real CDD Systems Are Always Miserable All The Time + refusing to understand that recovery looks different for everyone is super weird.

[t4timekeeper]

i’m also genuinely concerned because there are a whole lot of kids in these communities who are potentially internalizing all this and that can’t be good for them

[nekrotiize]

Not to mention how generally unhelpful the community is about basically anything. When I was fresh into realizing my own plurality, I literally couldn’t find any resources for coming to terms with such a heavy realization or how to manage symptoms because nearly every space for systems is either purely syscourse or is mostly validity politics that absolutely no explanation for any of its terminology, much less how to cope.

It’s astounding how little of the community is actually based in being welcoming or helpful to people who have the mental disorder it’s based around - the only reason I was able to learn anything is because I had a friend who had been entrenched in all this already who was willing to actually answer my questions in ways searching within and outside of the community simply was not willing to, full stop.

I think that when a community for a marginalized identity becomes solely about fighting people online, and who is and isn’t allowed in the “cool kids club”, so to speak, it’s failed as a community. Doubly so when it’s mental health related. The whole scene is just sad. I’m about as well versed in a disorder that I literally have as a person who doesn’t have it and just happens to have a few systems exist in their proximity.

The state of things is just pathetic, really.

[foggyremnant]

lean tuna is good for building protein so i've been eating a lot of tuna sushi bc we've been working out lately but izaya is just like 😖 because he likes fatty tuna

[foggyremnant]

this system in a nutshell

cain: :)

celie: :3

izaya: >:3

peter: :|

house: :/

tony: -_-