if you would like me to write something i take requests just submit one!
in order from oldest to newest
*smut ~angst <3 fluff
Matilda ~ <3
harry plays you a song he wants to put on his new album. he fails to mention it’s about you.
Drunken Mishap pt2 ~ <3
harry and you go to a frat party and he says something that could end your entire friendship.
Daydreaming <3 ~
harry wakes you up and you wonder how you were so lucky to get a boyfriend like him
Lets Hurt Tonight unofficial pt2 ~ <3
it’s harry’s birthday and y/n has something special planned for him but will he ever find it out?
Too Hot to Handle Series * ~ <3
Y/N finds herself on Too Hot to Handle, a dating show where she has to form meaningful connections with people without using sexual intimacy. The only problem in her way is Harry. Another single who is doing everything in his power to make her fail. Will she succeed in forming these connections and go home with someone or will she be sent home alone?
hey besties idk if anyone will see this but i’m a liar and a snake (bonus points if u get that reference)
i know i said i was gonna post blurbs for the thth series but i never had time to write them and i don’t see myself having time to write them. maybe if i get time i will but i’m gonna be so real i have so many other commitments in my life now that it probably will not happen.
i’m sorry to those that have been waiting for them and those who enjoy my writing but it seems that this page might be coming to an end. i want to thank everyone who has read anything i put out it means the world to me.
maybe if i have time/inspiration i will post but i have somewhat lost my love of writing due to a lot of outlying factors.
thank you again from the bottom of my heart to everyone who has interacted with my blog. i will still keep it up in case any of y’all wanna read my stuff but for now this is goodbye.
i actually am not but i wish i was. i’m from the US but this is literally the biggest compliment i’ve ever gotten. i just have surrounded myself with Uk culture since i was a kid and was/am obsessed with a lot of stuff from the Uk so maybe that’s why i give off that vibe lmaoooo
hey! so the answer currently is no. i’ve never seen love island so i have no idea what is going on with that show but the time period i can see myself writing it would be over the summer so like june-august. i’d need to watch the show a couple of times but i would love to write something new and out of my comfort zone so i’ll try to watch it soon but now with netflix trying to inconvenience college students and my schedule idk how likely it’ll be lmao.
just realized i accidentally posted episode 9. idk how i did it or when but i’m too lazy to take it down until tomorrow so enjoy lmaoooo but anyways it’s been an amazing journey writing this series so thank you so much for that
it’s been a year since the retreat and a reunion is what is needed to see how everyone’s been doing since leaving.
warnings: none :)
word count: 1.4k
“Are you ready?” Harry walks up behind me kissing my forehead before sitting down in the chair next to me.
“As I’ll ever be.” I smile at him while I click the zoom link joining the call. Our faces pop up and I see almost everyone is on the zoom call.
“Hey, guys!” Desiree says to us and I unmute the mic as Harry and I both say hi. When everyone is on the call Desiree gives us a countdown before starting
“Welcome to the show that does for Too Hot To Handle what Harry and Y/N do to a prize fund. Shamelessly suck it dry!” Desiree starts and I blush, leaning into Harry at the call out.
“Anyway without further ado, it's time to meet the show's effortlessly gorgeous stars. Give us a wave.” We all wave saying hi and soon another box pops up showing Lana.
“Lovely to see you all. I hope you are all continuing to be making deeper and more meaningful connections.” Lana says and then her screen is gone. Soon the group is split up and Harry and I are put in a separate room with just Desiree.
“Oh my god hey guys!” Desiree says excitedly and we respond with the same excitement.
“God you both look gorgeous even on a phone.” Desiree compliments us.
“You’re gorgeous as well.” He smiles at her and she waves air onto her face pretending to cool down.
“So Harry and Y/N, how has everything been since you left the retreat?” She asks and I look at Harry to see if he wants to answer first.
“Ladies first.” He mumbles and I let out a soft laugh.
“Honestly, everything has been amazing. I finished my last year of college and the long distance was a bit of a struggle but everything has been worth it.” I tell her and Harry nods agreeing with me.
“So what did you guys do after leaving the retreat?”
“Well Y/N still had a couple of weeks before her classes started so I went back with her to her hometown. I met her family, and saw the area she grew up in, her family is amazing, they welcomed me with open arms. And once her classes started up again I went back to LA and worked and then during her winter break she came to LA. So we were jumping back and forth for a while but recently we just got an apartment in LA and moved in together.” Harry tells Desiree wrapping his arm around my shoulder and her jaw drops before she smiles.
“Wow, that's truly amazing! How have you been liking LA Y/N?”
“It’s very different from my hometown. I was a little bit homesick when I moved all the way across the country but I couldn’t be happier. I have an amazing job, amazing friends, and an amazing boyfriend.” I smile at her and she nods.
“Have there been any struggles that you’re willing to share?” I look down nervously and Harry lets out a sigh before speaking.
“Yeah, there was a point where the long-distance became a little bit too much for both of us. It was when COVID first hit and I was stuck in England and I couldn’t fly back to the states, it was really difficult, especially with the time difference we just kept missing each other but as soon as I was able to fly back I was with Y/N.” He speaks and I just observe him as he speaks.
“I’m literally falling in love with your love story. Unfortunately, I do have to bring up some sticky things. So first Zayn. Y/N, do you have any regrets with Zayn?” Desiree asks and Harry tenses up slightly as I shake my head.
“Funny thing is that Zayn and us are really good friends. Most of the group we see or talk to from time to time but other than that the only thing I regret was using him to get back at Harry.” I explain to her and she nods asking Harry about Brooke.
“Yeah, my biggest regret was using Brooke to piss off Y/N, I really thought I had lost her.” Harry admits to Desiree and I squeeze his hand under the table reassuring him.
“Alright. so last question for you guys, what does your future look like? Do you guys have anything special planned?” Desiree asks and I look at Harry smiling.
“Uh well, there’s been a lot of serious conversations about marriage and kids, I don’t think that either are going to happen for another couple of years, but if it does I’m glad that it’s with Y/N.” Harry tells her and she freaks out.
“You guys are seriously considering getting married and having kids?” She gasps and I nod my head.
“Yeah. He’s it for me, I love him so much and I’ve never felt so alive and free with someone and I know that we were made for each other.” I smile as I look at Harry and he’s already been looking at me leaning down to kiss me softly on the lips. He pulls away and Desiree awws at us.
“I’m so glad you guys are happy and taking these steps in your relationship. I hope everything continues to blossom between you guys.” Desiree tells us and we thank her before we get sent back to the main meeting room.
We wait with everyone else while Desiree does her individual interviews with everyone and soon she comes back asking us questions for who's most likely to game.
For become president the consensus was Kate, become a police officer no one could agree on it, walk around the house naked, almost everyone voted for themselves except I voted for Harry because he does it all the time. Streak at the superbowl we all voted for Louis who was not happy about that, complete tinder we voted for Liam.
We are then brought into another room where all the boys are together and unfortunately I can’t participate. Desiree explains that she's doing a homage to the yoni puja workshop and having the boys paint their own bits. Harry grabs a piece of paper and starts drawing while I sit back watching the other guys draw.
Riley is looking over Niall’s shoulder and Ava is not paying attention to Zayn’s drawing. Liam seems to be hyper-focused on his while Louis keeps cracking jokes about his. As the boys all go through showing theirs we all laugh at the depictions of their bits.
When it’s Harry’s turn he shows his and I angle my body to see his. I smack his shoulder as he explains that it’s to scale and the reason it has hearts around it is because everyone falls in love with it. I roll my eyes at him as Desiree makes a face.
“You are so crude.” I mumble under my breath, making him laugh.
“Sorry, my love.” He mumbles back kissing my forehead and I roll my eyes at his fake apology. The meeting ends soon after the last task and when the call ends I look at Harry smiling.
“Well I wish we could’ve seen them in person but that was honestly so fun.” I tell him and he nods.
“Yeah, we can try to plan something with everyone as soon as it’s safe to do so.” He smiles and I nod.
When we were on the call we found out that Brooke is now dating a guy that she met at a party, Luke is still doing what he used to do before the show, Kate is still single but is actively looking to date someone, Louis and Sage broke up a couple of months after the show but are still good friends, Ava and Zayn are still going strong, Zayn moved to Ireland to be with Ava.
Michael is dating a girl from his hometown, Kenzie is still single and hasn’t been looking for anyone, and Liam is single as well but has been trying to find a significant other. We are still good friends with Niall and Riley and they live in LA about 20 minutes from us and they’re engaged.
“You know it’s crazy that we met on this show.” I say to Harry and he hums.
“I can never thank my friend enough for telling me to sign up for it.” I smile at him and he smiles back.
“Same here. You’re the love of my life. I couldn’t imagine doing any of this without you.” He smiles at me leaning in to kiss me and when our lips touch I feel the comfort that I had been searching for in all the nameless people.
I finally feel at home.
Well thats the last episode of the THTH series. Thank you to everyone for reading this series, I truly appreciate all the support and love I got on it. I will eventually post a blurb on their first time after the retreat and may post other blurbs for it every now and then, but please bear with me i am a full time college student and this semester i have a packed schedule so posting will be very slow, but other than that this is the end. I love you all. Thank you. <3
y/n and harry survive the ultimate challenge and the last day of the retreat sneaks up on everyone.
warnings: lil angsty :(
word count: 2.2k
I wake up to groans and I peek my head over the side of the bed seeing Harry holding his back.
“Are you okay?” I mumble and he lets out a pained groan.
“That floor was not comfortable.” He mumbles and I immediately feel bad.
“I’m sorry. I could’ve taken the floor, I’ve slept on worse.” I apologize to him and he shakes his head.
“No you always get the bed I’m just turning into an old man I guess.” He cracks a joke and I laugh. He sits up fully and I move back on the bed patting the free space. He makes his way up and I avoid touching him as he sighs in relief.
“Have I ever told you how hot you look wearing my clothes?” He asks me and I feel a blush creep up my cheeks as I shake my head no.
“No? Well, I need to start telling you that more.” He mumbles and I smile looking at the comforter.
“Thanks.” I mumble and he hums. We sit in comfortable silence before I start to get ready for the day, deciding on opting out of wearing a swimsuit, keeping Harry’s shirt on from last night with a pair of shorts. When Harry finally decides to crawl out of bed he notices my outfit groaning again.
“Jesus, you're trying to kill me.” He mumbles beginning to brush his teeth. Once we're both ready we head out to the cabana ready to meet everyone. They greet us and Harry and I sit in the daybed with pillows separating us and immediately we get bombarded with the big question.
“So did you guys make money or spend it?” Brooke asks and I look at Harry before looking back to the group.
“We think we did well but that’s up to Lana to decide.” I decided to tease the group and clearly it wasn’t the right move because now they look like they’re shitting bricks. Lana dings, raising the tension in the room and I sigh ready for the verdict.
“Last night Harry and Y/N spent the night in the private suite and they were forbidden from any form of physical contact. If they have been successful all of the money they have lost will be returned to the prize fund.” Lana pauses and everyone is looking at us like we just killed someone. I gulp now second guessing if we did touch last night.
“I can reveal that Harry and Y/N did not have any form of physical contact.” Lana finishes and everyone cheers for us. Harry jumps over hugging me now that we can finally touch and I hug him back. Ava jumps on top of us and soon Sage and Riley follow suit. We all laugh and hug happily.
“The prize fund now stands at $67,000.” Everyone claps as Lana announces the new prize fund and I’m beaming from ear to ear.
“Do you feel that you have formed a deeper emotional connection?” Lana asks us and I look at Harry smiling.
“Yeah 100%.” I answer and he nods saying the same thing as me. Lana turns off and I lay on Harry's chest as everyone continues to beam about how proud they are of us.
“Can I tell them about us?” Harry whispers in my ear and I look up nodding. Harry clears his throat to get everyone’s attention, sitting up slightly.
“I just thought that I’d let everyone know that yesterday before we found out about the test I asked Y/N to be my girlfriend.” Harry tells everyone and Ava jumps up screaming at us to shut up. She throws herself on us again and I laugh as she smacks me lightly for not telling her as soon as it happened. Harry squirms his way out from under Ava who is still holding me captive as Niall comes up clasping Harry on the back.
When Ava decides to let me go the other girls all hug me telling me how happy they are for us, as the boys all congratulate Harry. We all relax and hang out, Sage, Riley, and Ava staying with me as we talk about our boys.
Apparently, Riley asked Niall out after the whole Luke fiasco and that shocked us because they’ve been so good keeping it under wraps, while Sage and Ava say that they are going steady with their respective partners and hope that when the retreat is over they become official. We get told that a workshop is happening so I go to the dressing room and change into a bikini with Ava before we head down to the workshop area.
On the wooden platforms, there's a small table with cups of paint, and Harry and I stand on a platform looking curiously at the paint. Lana dings alerting us and she begins to explain what we are doing.
“Your partner should write on your skin the most hurtful words you have been called in the past.” I let out a sigh as I step forward grabbing the blue cup and Harry follows suit grabbing red.
“Do you want to go first?” I ask Harry and he nods.
“Wanker.” He says and I nod writing it on his left arm.
“Cocky.”
“Untrustworthy.”
“Unlovable.”
“Selfish.” Every word he says I write somewhere on his body and my heart clenches every time I write these words. When he’s done I take in a deep breath holding out my arms.
“Closed off.”
“Unworthy.”
“Ugly.”
“Whore.”
“Bitchy.” With each word, he pauses hesitating to write them on my skin but I just nod along assuring him to continue. When he finishes he wraps me in a hug and I reciprocate.
“Anyone who has said those words to you are dead wrong.” He mumbles against me and I let out a small chuckle pulling back.
“They don’t bother me anymore, maybe a while ago they did but not anymore.” I smile at him and he nods placing a kiss on my forehead.
“Congratulations you have completed your final workshop, now go to the ocean and wash away those labels for good.” We all clap and cheer and I grab Harry’s hand running to the water ready to clean myself. I jump in and we all are laughing and smiling as we form a circle splashing the water up into the air at each other.
Harry picks me up and walks deeper into the water before falling back, dropping us in the water. I cling on to him as we come up and I laugh at him as he holds me cleaning off the words on my skin. I do the same for him and once the words are nothing but a memory he places me down grabbing my hand. He walks up back to everyone and we all relish in the positive atmosphere.
When night finally hit, Sage suggested we all go to the campfire and spend the last night together and we all agreed. We all talk and ask each other questions, enjoying everyone’s company.
“Okay be honest, who caught your eye first?” Kenzie asks the group and Harry smiles speaking up.
“The second I walked in I saw Y/N and I was drawn to her.” He smiles as he speaks and I lay my head on his shoulder as everyone aws.
“What about you Y/N?” Kenzie follows up and I chuckle.
“Well actually, Niall was the first one to catch my eye but as soon as I saw Harry I knew it was game over.” I laugh and Harry brings his hand to his heart pretending like I just hurt him as Niall laughs.
“I knew you were flirting with me!” He yells and we all laugh as Niall and Harry bicker. Lana dings ruining the moment and immediately everyone becomes tense.
“In 24 hours I will be allocating the prize fund and announcing a winner.” Lana begins and we all let out small cheers.
“However, I have observed that not all of you have invested in the process equally. For that reason, the following people will now leave the retreat.” Lana drops the bombshell and we all hold our breath as we wait for her to tell us the people leaving.
“Luke.” Lana says and he just nods his head, not surprised.
“And.” Lana continues making me gasp as I look around.
Who else could possibly be leaving?
“Kenzie. Both of you now must leave.” I look at Kenzie who shrugs, getting up while Michael sits shocked. We all say goodbye to them and they head off as we collect our thoughts.
“Well I’m glad to see Luke go but I’m shocked about Kenzie.” Brooke speaks up and we all murmur in agreement. Michael excuses himself from the group and I feel bad for him. We all head in for the night excited for tomorrow to begin.
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Everyone wakes up happy. Cheers of it being the last day ring around the room as we all get ready. We all hang out talking about who we think is going to win. Some people think it’s going to be Harry and I, others think Riley and Niall.
I personally think Ava and Zayn are going to take the prize but I’m always the odd one out. Harry and I have a little bit of alone time and we talk about where we’re both going to be once the retreat is over.
Harry is going back to LA and I’m going across the country back to school. We come up with a compromise that we’ll see how we do with long distance and between breaks we can visit one another. Considering this is my last year of college, I can always look for work in LA if Harry and I can get through the long distance.
As it gets closer to the time of the meeting everyone is filled with nerves. We all get ready in silence for our last meeting in the cabana. Lana dings alerting us to make our way to the cabana and I finish smoothing out my dress walking with Harry to the cabana. We all sit down and everyone is nervous. I bounce my leg up and down, not ready for this. Lana dings, making us all perk up.
“It’s time to choose a winner and allocate the $67,000 prize.” I grab Harry’s hand for comfort and I mutter a fuck as I feel the anxiety wash over me.
“Will the following people please stand up.” I feel my heart racing and Harry rubs his thumb over my knuckles trying to soothe me.
“Y/N.” I slowly stand feeling weak in my knees and Harry places his hand on my hip trying to steady my shaking.
“And Harry.” he stands along with me wrapping his arm around my waist as I continue to shake. I look at everyone’s reactions seeing some aren’t too happy with us.
“Niall.” Lana says and Niall looks confused standing up as everyone gasps in shock.
“And Riley.”
“You four have shown great strength and growth by forming emotional connections.” She finishes and I look nervously at Ava who sends me a small smile.
It all comes down to us I guess.
“Louis.” Lana says shocking us all and we look around as she calls Sage, Ava and Zayn to all stand as well.
“You four have also shown growth by forming emotional connections with one another.” Shit, this just got a lot more intense. Brooke and Michael look at us and I can see Brooke slightly deflate until Lana calls her and Michael to stand.
“You are all winners.” Lana announces and we all cheer, jumping in excitement. My hands fly to my face covering it as I take it in. Ava throws her arms around me and we yell happily at each other. Harry pulls me out of Ava’s grip, hugging me so tightly that I almost can’t breathe. Lana continues to speak over our cheers.
“Each of you has embraced the process and helped one another form deeper connections. The $67,000 will be split between all of you.” We are still all celebrating and hugging each other and I look around when I find my way back in Harry’s arms seeing all my friends so happy. I’m so glad that I was tricked to come on this show because I got an amazing boyfriend and so many new friendships out of this.
“Your time at the retreat is now over, and the rules no longer apply.” Lana finishes, turning off for the last time and we all cheer.
Harry pulls me into his chest dipping his head down and I wrap my arms around his neck. Smiles line our faces as he leans and we finally kiss. One of his hands holds the back of my head keeping my lips on his as we kiss softly, tuning out all the commotion around us.
He pulls away with one last peck to my lips and he smiles softly at me. As I stare into his eyes and feel his arms around my waist I feel complete. Like a part of me that I didn’t know existed is finally free. I look back to the ocean where it all started watching the waves crash onto the shore.
secrets are revealed, questions are asked and redemption is on the line
warnings: slight panic attack
word count: 1.8k
The morning rolls around and I wake up with a smile on my face. I feel like Harry and I grew closer last night after he helped me fall asleep. I feel rested and content. We start our day like every other day hanging out and soaking up the sun.
If I’m going to be honest, the routine is starting to get repetitive and I’m just dying to go to a real party where I can get hammered with my friends. Around noon we get summoned to the cabana where Lana greets us.
“Hello. There have been some breaches of the rules.” She announces and we all sigh ready to hear the damage. I know Harry and I have been caught red-handed so I try to push down the anxiety radiating through my body.
“Brooke and Luke.” Brooke sighs sitting up straighter as Lana continues.
“As a result of your kiss $3000 has been deducted from the prize fund.”
“Sorry guys.” Brooke says and we all mumble forgiving her.
“Also, Michael and Kenzie. Last night’s breach of the rules has cost the prize fund $3000.” Lana doesn’t say anything else and I lean back into Harry. He places a kiss on my head as I wait for the other shoe to drop.
“Riley. You were tested by being asked on a date with Luke, but you demonstrated growth and restraint but not accepting the invitation, congratulations.” We all clap for Riley as Niall hugs her closer and I smile at the two who worked through the slight rough patch. I start feeling more at ease thinking maybe Lana’s not going to say anything and we all start to celebrate about our growth until Lana interrupts us.
“Finally, last night there was another breach of the rules.” Everyone voices their confusion and I know that we’re done.
“$4000 has been deducted from the prize fund.” I bring my knees to my chest drawing Ava’s attention to me and she drops her jaw pointing her finger at me.
“Y/N! What did you do?” She asks me and I drop my head knowing the other shoe has dropped.
“I couldn’t sleep and one thing led to another and uh, Harry helped me sleep.” I mumble a very poor excuse and everyone sighs shaking their heads.
“The prize fund now stands at $43,000.” Lana finishes and I just want the ground to swallow me whole. Ava pulls me away from the group to talk to me alone.
“Y/N what's going on? You guys were doing so well and we only have a couple of days left here.” She asks me about it and I shrug my shoulders.
“I don't know, I wasn't thinking. All that was on my mind was that I was horny and Harry just helped me. I know it sucks that we cost the group money but fuck, at this point I like him too much to not give in to him.” I rant to her and she sits down pulling me down next to her.
“I need you to answer this honestly.” Ava begins and I look up, connecting our eyes.
“Are you falling for him?” She asks me and I freeze. My mind runs rampant as I go through every interaction with him and realize I am.
I’m falling for Harry.
“No no, I can’t be. I barely know him.” I try to convince myself, shaking my head and Ava’s grip tightens on my hand as my breathing speeds up.
“Hey, hey, it’s okay, this is a good thing. I know it’s terrifying, but this is good for you.” She tries to reassure me and I try to even out my breath when I hear the commotion of everyone moving around.
“Fuck Ava. What should I do?” I ask her and she looks down solemnly.
“That’s for you to decide. But if it’s worth anything I think you and Harry have something amazing so let the fall happen.” She comforts me and I nod calming down.
Ava and I eventually leave, Harry catching up to me to make sure I’m okay. I nod telling him that we just had a heart-to-heart and Harry nods not pushing any further. The day continues and Harry steals me away from Riley and Sage taking me to the grass area by the beach. Harry and I lay down on the grass cuddling each other while soaking in the sunset.
“It’s amazing how far we’ve come.” Harry mumbles after a while of silence and I hum in agreement.
“I wanted to talk to you about something serious.” He says and I sit up to look at him. Worry washes over me as he sits up looking at me. His hands grab mine and I look down as his thumb runs over my knuckles.
“The retreat is ending and we haven’t really talked about what we’re doing once we leave.” He starts and I let out a shaky breath nodding.
“But I don’t want to lose you Y/N. I want to keep seeing you once this is done. I want to be with you.” He finishes and I look up at him, connecting with his eyes. He lets out a long breath before taking a sharp one in as he stares at me.
“Will you be my girlfriend Y/N?” He asks and at this moment, I let myself fall completely. I smile at him nodding my head as I throw myself into his arms.
“Yes! Of course.” I beam and he wraps his arms around me as I knock him over with the force from my body hitting his. He laughs, kissing my head and I soak in the moment. Everything has gone right. The mistakes and worries are gone and I feel happy. A flash of green along with a ding breaks us apart for a second and I rest my forehead on his as we soak in each other's smiles.
“My beautiful girlfriend. May I kiss you?” Harry asks and I respond by tilting my head to the side and enveloping his lips in mine. His hand comes up to my face grasping it as he takes control of the kiss and I smile into the kiss breaking it. He lets out a soft laugh pressing one more kiss to my lips before pulling away tilting his head back.
“I’m so happy I found you.” Harry whispers and I smile whispering back.
“Ditto.”
Later that night we’re all told to dress in white and we head out to the cabana with drinks in our hands. We party together as one and I soak up the smiles and laughs ringing out from everyone. We all dance and sing until Lana dings interrupting us. Harry pulls me into his side rocking us back and forth as Lana speaks.
“The process is almost over and tonight I would like to reward all of your hard work by giving you the chance to win back money.” We all cheer Louis starts jumping in the air and we are all absolutely shocked but smiles line our faces.
“However,” Lana continues and we all groan knowing there had to be a catch.
“The fate of the group lies in the hands of two people. Harry and Y/N. You two have broken the rules more than anybody else. Now you have the chance to make amends. Your challenge is to spend a night in the private suite with no physical contact at all.” Our jaws drop and everyone else shares the same reaction.
“We’re fucked aren’t we?” Sage jokes and I let out a sigh.
“If the test is passed all the money Harry and Y/N have lost will be returned to the prize fund.” Lana announces and I immediately feel all the pressure on my shoulders. Harry and I walk away to the private suite and I’m shaking with nerves. If we fuck up at all everyone will be pissed off. This is the ultimate test for us. I open the door and sit on the bed letting myself be consumed by my thoughts.
“Baby, stop freaking out, we'll be fine.” Harry tries to reassure me sitting in a chair by the bed.
“I know we can do it, I'm just scared. Like what if we accidentally touch or something and fuck everything up it’s just a lot of pressure.” I rant to Harry and he nods in agreement.
“I understand, we will be fine. I’ll take the floor tonight so we don’t even risk touching when we go to sleep. I promise everything will be okay.” Harry finishes and I nod my head, taking in a breath.
“We’re going to be fine. Everything is going to be okay.” I reassure myself and Harry smiles as I stand up.
“Okay, we can do this, let's just pretend it’s a normal night just stay like 6 feet away from me.” I smile at him and he nods standing up.
“Alright. So on this totally normal night, I’d be starting a bath for you so you can relax and release a bit of that anxiety.” Harry smiles at me heading into the bathroom and I follow him as he fills the tub. He puts bubbles in the bath and once it’s filled he moves away standing in the doorway. I begin to remove my dress and I’m left in just my bra and panties when I hear a groan come from Harry.
“What?” I chuckle at him and he moves into the bedroom.
“You’re just too beautiful that I will not be able to resist touching you if I keep watching you.” He yells out from the bedroom and I laugh taking off my bra and underwear. I walk to the doorway seeing him facedown on the bed and I smirk.
“You mean like this?” I question him and he perks his head up seeing me before flopping back down.
“Go away you minx.” He mumbles into the comforter and I laugh, turning away and getting into the bath. I let out a pleased sigh as the warm water engulfs my body and soon I hear the bed creak.
Harry appears in the doorway before sitting down and leaning against the wall. We make small conversation and when the water gets cold he throws a towel to me with his shirt and I change into it before climbing into bed.
“Are you sure you’re okay on the ground?” I ask him as I lean over the bed to see his face.
“Of course, love, don’t want to risk anything.” He smiles adjusting the pillow under his head and pulling up the extra blanket we found. I lie down staring at Harry and we continue to talk until I can barely form responses from how tired I am.
“Good night my love.” Harry whispers and that’s the last thing I hear before sleep takes over me.
relationships are tested, rules are broken, the girls bond and more secrets are made
warnings: like a dash of smut.
word count: 2.7k
As the morning comes around we all lay in bed talking about if we think Zayn and Ava broke the rules. I defend them thinking they were able to hold back but Harry thinks differently. The room is split between if they broke the rules or not and we can only wait til later to see who was right. We all break off outside while Kate stays inside and I can tell that something is not right. I tried to talk to her but she bruised me off and I got the message that this was something she needed to figure out on her own so I left her be telling her that if she needed to talk I’d be there for her. When afternoon rolls around the girls go into the dressing room to change. Ava eventually joins us and I jump up trapping her in a hug as she laughs.
“How was it?” I ask after I let her go sitting back down at my mirror as she goes to hers.
“It was amazing.” She smiles from ear to ear and everyone looks at her smiling. “We took a bath together and talked, we drank champagne and it was absolutely magical.” I smile as I remember my night back in the suite with Harry and a soft look is on her face. She looks truly happy.
“Did you guys break any rules?” Riley asks her and Ava bites her lip looking down at her hands.
“Uhm yeah, we just kissed but that was it.” She mumbles embarrassed and I walk over to her wrapping her in a hug.
“Hey, I’m glad you’re happy.” I mumble in her ear and she lets out a soft breath tightening her arms around me.
“Thank you.” She whispers and when she pulls away relief is across her face. We all gather at the cabana at Lana’s request and she fills us in.
“Hello everyone, Zayn and Ava, you have broken the rules.” She starts and everyone sits back ready for the damage.
“Your kiss has cost the group $3000. The prize fund now stands at $53,000.” She finishes and in a way, everyone is relieved that was the only rule break. No one is angry, maybe a little upset but not angry. Kate stands up, turning our attention to her.
“Hey guys, so I have done a lot of reflecting and I think it’s time for me to go.” She announces and some of us sit back in shock while others express their shock by saying no.
“It’s what’s best for me and it was really hard for me to come to this conclusion, but I’ve learned a lot here. I’ve made some amazing friendships here but I think in order for me to continue my progression I needed to make a romantic connection but that didn’t happen.” She sits back down before continuing.
“I genuinely enjoyed my time here and this was an amazing experience so thank you for everything.” She finishes her explanation and we all send a sad smile to her. We all hug her as we say goodbye, everyone solemn that she’s leaving.
Kate truly was an amazing part of this experience. She was a good friend, she wasn’t afraid to speak her mind but was also there for you when you needed her. As we watch her leave silence falls upon us as we take it in.
Once we all settle from the shock we disperse spending the rest of the day in careful thought. Everyone seems to be more aware of how serious this retreat is and how much we’ve grown in the past couple of weeks.
As the night comes to a close we all find our way back to the bedroom, the sleeping arrangements changing once again. Zayn and Ava, Louis and Sage, Harry and I, and Riley and Niall are the ones who stayed the same. But tonight, Brooke has climbed into Luke’s bed and Michael and Kenzie share.
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A new day has begun and luckily for us, no one broke the rules overnight. Harry and I stay back in bed bickering about how certain things are pronounced while everyone else has left ready to start the day. I take in our alone time here as we have only a little less than a week left here and I feel myself get a bit sad.
“What are you thinking about babe?” Harry asks me when he notices I’ve gone quiet.
“Just a bit sad that we’re leaving in a week. I mean this has been an eye-opening experience for me and it just feels surreal.” I explain to him and he hums, placing a kiss on my forehead.
“Yeah, but we’ll be alright love, I intend for us to continue once we leave, we’ll work through everything.” He reassures me and I nod, lifting my head to look at him. His eyes are puffy from sleep and his curls are flopping on his head. He looks absolutely breathtaking.
We eventually climb out of bed heading our separate ways and I walk in on Brooke talking about Luke. I smile as she tells us about her alone time with him last night and I can tell she’s genuinely forming a connection with him and I’m glad she’s starting to change. The day is uneventful, all of us lounging around as we don’t have anything planned for us to do. Riley, Niall, Louis, Sage, Harry, and I are all hanging out in the cabana when Lana dings. We all look confused until she starts speaking.
“Riley, as you know this retreat helps you make meaningful connections but it also tests those connections. Your company has been requested on a date.” She stops letting the anxiety sink into all of us. Harry readjusts and Niall sits up a bit more looking at her.
“By Luke.” Lana finishes and everyone’s jaws drop.
“What the fuck.” Niall huffs under his breath and I bring my knees up to my chest wrapping my arms around them in a protective manner. Harry moves his hand to comfort me as I look at Riley’s reaction. She sits her mouth open in shock and Niall curses.
“I don’t want to go on a date with him.” Riley says to Lana and she accepts the rejection. Riley and Niall get up leaving the group as the rest of us sit in shock.
“Jesus too much has happened these last couple of days.” Louis mumbles and I laugh agreeing.
“Someone should tell Brooke.” Sage brings up and I sigh standing up.
“I saw her in the dressing room earlier with Kenzie and Ava. I’ll go talk to her.” I look back at Harry as I grab my drink, sending him a small smile as I head to the dressing room. I push open the door seeing Brooke dressed in a tan dress with Kenzie sitting next to her as they talk and I send her a soft smile.
“Hey, hun.” I start as I close the door behind me feeling genuinely bad. Here she is ready to go on a date with the guy she likes and I have to tell her that he doesn’t want her.
“So I was in the cabana with Riley, Sage, Louis, and Harry, and Lana dings telling us that someone requested to go on date with Riley and it was Luke.” I break the news to her and I instantly see her deflate.
“That’s fine.” She speaks confidently but it doesn’t hide the tears forming in her eyes.
“Riley said no to the date if that's any consolation. I’m really sorry.” I tell her and she just nods, shaking her head.
“I just wish he would’ve told me straight up that we weren’t going anywhere instead of doing this.” She says and Kenzie and I comfort her.
As the night comes to a close there's now tension between Niall, Brooke, and Luke. Niall and Brooke are absolutely fuming still by the time we all go to bed and if looks could kill Luke would be 6 feet under. The anger is suffocating but I try my best to stay out of it enjoying the rest of the night with Harry instead.
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Groans are all I can hear as the lights invade the darkness we were in. I bring the covers over my head as I try to fall back asleep. It doesn’t work. Everyone reluctantly starts their day and the atmosphere is still off from last night. With people coming and going, and relationships being tested, everyone is drained.
Harry and I spend most of the day by the pool hanging out in the shade as we talk about everyone at the retreat. We both have no opinion on Michael and Kenzie as they have both been staying out of trouble, both of them keeping to themselves. We agree that Luke was shitty for doing that to Brooke and I feel bad for her even though it’s exactly what she did to me.
Zayn, Ava, Louis, Sage, Riley, and Niall join us for a little bit and everything is going well. I’m so genuinely happy that I’ve made friends with these people and I make a mental note to ask if we can all hang out before we go back home.
Eventually, all the girls get summoned to the workshop area and we all head there standing on the wooden platforms. The instructor is Nicole who was here for the shibari workshop and she tells us that we are doing Yoni Puja. We all stand confused as she explains what Yoni Puja is.
“Yoni is the Sanskrit word for vulva, vagina and puja means to worship. And that's what we are doing today. We are worshiping our divine femininity.” Some of us stand in shock while some laugh still slightly confused.
“Tell me some of the negative things you’ve heard about female genitalia before.” Nicole asks us and I look around not knowing what to say.
“Smells like fish.” Sage is the first to speak up and Nicole nods waiting for others to answer.
“Loose.” Kenzie says and I turn to face Nicole opening my mouth.
“Disgusting.” I answer and Nicole lets out a breath before speaking.
“I want everyone to let go of all of the things we’ve heard to have our sacred Yoni a certain way. I want you to look down on the ground.” We look down and that’s when we all notice a mirror at our feet.
“Oh fuck no.” I mumble under my breath and the feeling is somewhat mutual. Producers bring out boxes that cover our lower body and I let out a sigh not believing this is happening. Once everyone is covered Nicole tells us to drop our bottoms and I reluctantly do so.
“Now pick up your mirror and explore at your own will.” She tells us and everyone bends over picking up their mirror. I start doing what I’ve been instructed to but I’m honestly a bit weirded out. I never liked looking at it in the first place and I don’t particularly want to look now. Everyone is cracking jokes trying to ease the tension in the air.
After a bit, Nicole comes up to us asking how we felt exploring ourselves and everyone agrees that it was nice to realize that our bodies are normal the way they are and that not everyone looks the same way.
The next task involves us having a canvas in front of us and she instructs us to draw a representation of our yoni. I pick up the paintbrush and start drawing a heart. I paint it blue and I begin to write a couple of words. Once she calls time I finish the last letter and look at it smiling. We all go around showing our pictures and I’m the last to go. I flip my canvas around showing everyone my work.
“Uh, so I decided to draw a heart and write some words. I think my yoni is powerful, strong, independent, and worthy.” I speak and everyone smiles at the meaning behind it.
When the workshop is finished we all gather around and hug each other. The vibe between us has completely changed. We all feel connected once more and it’s nice that we have finally found a common ground.
At the end of the day, all the girls meet up at night by the campfire, and we all talk. Brooke tells us she set it straight with Luke that what he did was shitty but he couldn’t care less about what she had to say. Riley tried to apologize to her but Brooke told her that she wasn’t even upset at her, she was upset over the fact that Luke had lied to her and went behind her back and that she knew that Riley wasn’t going to do anything with him.
We all talk until Michael comes by stealing Kenzie away to go have a couple of drinks. We all leave them alone heading up to the cabana and spying on them. They talk and when they kiss we all express our shock not seeing that coming.
We all head to bed ready for the next day to kick off. Except I can’t fall back asleep. Everyone else is fast asleep and for some reason, I can’t slip away back into my dreams. I had a very vivid sex dream and I thought it was real but just as it was getting to the good part I was thrown out of my dream, left hot and bothered awake.
Harry holds me close to him, his chest rising and falling evenly. My brain is only focusing on how horny I am and Harry next to me isn’t helping at all. I try to slip out of his grip but he just pulls me tighter against him. I let out a long sigh, pulling his arm off of me and he wakes up slightly, seeing my state.
“What's wrong baby?” He asks, voice raspy from sleep.
“I’m so fucking horny” I mumble and he lets out a small smile rolling onto his back.
“Lay down.” He whispers, pulling the covers over us as I follow his instruction. His hand finds its way onto my lower stomach as he nuzzles his head into my neck placing a soft kiss there.
“Is this okay?” He asks me and I nod my head feeling the pressure building in my stomach. His hand makes its way down my body, dipping under my shorts and underwear and I let out a soft moan as his fingers make contact with my clit.
“What got you so worked up?” He wonders, continuing his movements on my clit and I shake my head trying to form words.
“I had a dream.” I answer him and he hums wanting me to continue. He puts more pressure on my clit, making me muffle a moan.
“We were about to have sex and then I woke up.” I whisper shakily as his fingers dip into me before going back to my clit.
“I’ve got you, baby.” He mumbles, placing a kiss on my jawline as he continues to please me. The pressure in my stomach is about ready to burst and I move my head down biting on the pillow to try and hold back my moans. His head follows mine and he whispers in my ear one sentence causing me to explode.
“Be a good girl and come for me.” My orgasm washes over me and his free hand comes up covering my mouth as his other works me through my high. Once I start coming down I’m hypersensitive and my hand flies to his wrist stopping his movements on my clit.
Once my breathing returned to normal Harry gets up holding his hand out for me to grab. We leave the bedroom and he brings me to the bathroom, hoisting me on the counter and telling me to stay there. He leaves me alone before coming back with another pair of panties in his hand and he removes my shorts and underwear before slipping the new pair on me.
I sigh, finally feeling the adrenaline crashing and I am ready to pass out. I wrap him in a hug and I sponge kisses on his neck as he wraps my legs around his waist picking me up. He walks us back to the bedroom dropping us into bed and sleep finally finds me.
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y/n and harry have been growing closer after their night in the suite. The boys have an emotional day, and new temptations arrive on the island.
warnings: none that i can think of
word count: 1.8k
The past couple of days have been great. Mostly everyone’s been on their best behavior and somewhat getting along. Harry and I are doing amazing, after the night in the suite we have been attached at the hip. Only leaving each other when we’re forced apart by the others.
Brooke refuses to interact with me but is now trying to get in between Louis and Sage and let’s just say Sage is not taking any of her shit. If I had to take a shot every time Sage and Brooke have almost gotten into a fistfight over Louis I’d have alcohol poisoning.
The bedroom is filled with unspoken tension as all the boys have left to attend a workshop. Small conversation is being made between the six of us as we eagerly wait for the boy's return. As Riley is telling a story about her worst hookup when she’s interrupted by loud screams. We all quiet as we listen to the deep yells before I laugh.
“What the hell are they doing?” I giggle as everyone else begins to laugh, the tension slowly dissolving. More facts are learned about each other, more yells can be heard from the boys, and we decide to leave the bedroom tired of being holed up in here all day.
The sun is starting to set as we make our way to one of the daybeds big enough to fit us that overlooks the ocean as we see the boys running into the water. I look confused as they all are covered in a brown substance and I lean over to Riley.
“What the fuck is all over them?” I ask her and she shrugs.
“Not a clue, maybe mud?” She answers and I nod, scanning my eyes over the group until they finally land on Harry. He looks so small from this distance his wet swim trunks clinging to his legs as he cleans his body with the water. The boys all eventually gather in a circle splashing each other before high-fiving and heading up to us. We all cheer for them as they break into a light jog heading toward us.
Harry finds his way to me picking me up from the couch as I wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his hips. One of his arms wraps around my waist while the other holds the back of my thigh for stability. My head lays on his shoulder as he walks away from everyone towards the bathroom. He sets me on the counter pulling back slightly before placing his forehead on mine.
“How was the workshop?” I ask him as I play with the wet curls on the back of his neck and he hums.
“It was good, it was nice.” He answers me and I smile as he leans in peppering kisses all over my face. My legs are still wrapped around his hips and I dig my heels into his back slightly to pull him closer.
“Let me shower and change and I’ll tell you more about the workshop.” He speaks up and I nod, dropping my legs and freeing him from my grasp. He places one more kiss on my cheek before finally pulling away and hopping in the shower.
I jump down from the counter and change from my swimsuit into more comfortable clothes heading out to the cabana and laying down on one of the daybeds. Harry eventually joins me and we cuddle together resting in comfortable silence. My head is laying on his shoulder as my leg is thrown over his hips, his arms caging me in.
“So what did you do at the workshop?” I ask him and he sighs.
“We basically had to let our guards down and connect with each other. I was partnered with Zayn and I wasn’t too happy at first and then it got really weird cause we had to rub mud all over each other.” He starts and I listen, adjusting myself to look at him.
“Then we had to write a couple of things that are holding us back and that's where Zayn and I really connected. We’re more similar than I ever would’ve thought, we all hugged and then we destroyed those papers and it felt really liberating.” He finishes explaining and I send him a soft smile.
“Can I ask what you wrote?” I whisper and he lets out a long breath.
“I wrote trust issues, pride, and fear.” He whispers and I sit up to fully give him my attention. He adjusts his body as well, grabbing my hands.
“I don’t want this to seem like I’m trying to make you feel guilty or feel anything for the mistakes I’ve made already, but I have a lot of trust issues and fear when it comes to relationships. I don’t know exactly where it stems from but I am trying my absolute hardest with us because I don’t want to lose what we have.” He explains to me and I nod my head reassuring him.
“I do too Harry, that’s why I was so hurt when all that shit happened with Brooke. I had let my guard down and started opening up but then all of a sudden Brooke popped in and I was terrified that I lost you.”
“And I’m so sorry for that Y/N, I let my pride get in the way of wanting to prove you wrong but I should’ve never let it even start. I can never make up for that but I will try my hardest.” Harry grabs my face between his hands as tears well up in my eyes with the emotional moment.
“You being with me is enough, that’s all I want.” I whisper to him and he rests his forehead on mine, his lips pressing a kiss to my nose.
“I really want to be with you if you’ll have me.” He says his thumb rubbing my cheek.
“Yes, Harry. I’m yours.” I answer him and he laughs pulling me into him. Our watches ding and I laugh as well as his lips crash into mine and we share a sweet kiss. When it ends a smile lines my face and I keep my eyes closed breathing him in.
“That couldn’t have been more perfect.” Harry whispers and I nod against him, opening my eyes. His are still closed but a smile lines his face, his dimple popping out.
We eventually get summoned to the cabana and everyone is confused as to why we’ve been called. No one has broken any rules in the past couple of days. Lana eventually perks up bringing us to silence.
“Liam, I have been evaluating your performance so far. You have not been showing any signs of personal growth or obeying the rules. Insufficient progress has been made. Liam, your time in the retreat is over.” We all gasp as she finishes and Liam stands up with a huff.
“Fucking finally I hated this place.” He says and I sit back as he walks toward the back leaving us. We sit in silence as we all come to terms with what just happened. The mood is off and everyone calls it an early night unsettled with the way things have been gone.
Harry pulls me close to him running his hand up and down my back to soothe me. As we lay together, my eyes eventually close and I slip away to sleep dreaming about the new chapter in my life that I’m about to embark on.
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There’s an awkward tension in the air. Anxiety radiates off of everyone. As I sit with the girls in the dressing room getting ready for the day we all wonder who is going to be the next to leave. Ava has brought up the point that anything can happen now and it doesn’t settle anyone. The boys have been outside waiting for us and once we're all ready we head down to the beach soaking in the sun or shade.
As we relax Riley points out a boat heading toward us and we can see three figures on it. We all start walking towards the middle of the beach and that's when I notice two guys and a girl heading towards us. Harry stays close to me as each of the new arrivals wraps us in hugs as they introduce themselves.
The first guy is Luke, he’s 22, from Australia and is an engineer, Michael is 23, also from Australia, and he is an influencer and lastly, Kenzie she’s 25 from Ireland and she's a model. After everyone is introduced we sit down on the benches in front of Lana as she dings. We cheer for her as she speaks.
“Welcome Luke, Michael, and Kenzie. I trust you will all make the residents feel at home.” She speaks and we all confirm her answer as Harry wraps his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to him.
“The new arrivals are here to begin their own journey towards making deeper connections. I hope you will be able to show them how far you’ve all come.” We all laugh at her phrasing before Brooke starts to quiz the newcomers on their types. We all separate for the day, some people taking interest in the newcomers. And by some people, Brooke is all over Luke like it’s nobody's business.
Personally, I’m happy cause she’s finally off Sage and mine’s back meaning she won’t be trying to get with our guys. But with the newcomers tension rises between some couples. Kenzie tried to pull some moves with Zayn while he was alone and let’s just say Ava did not appreciate that one bit.
Once dominance and boundaries were silently established we got ready for tonight's party. We all hang out at the beach dancing and laughing together as the alcohol runs through our veins.
Eventually, we all separate, some going to talk alone and some mingling in the cabana. Harry and I are settled into the cabana with Zayn, Ava, and Michael. We are all talking to Michael about how he liked his first day when Lana dings.
“Hello Zayn and Ava, I have noticed neither of you have been tempted by the new arrivals. This shows strength in your deepening connection. You have taken your relationship to the next level, this has unlocked a night in the private suite.” I gasp as she finishes about to jump out of my seat for them, the only thing keeping me grounded is Harry holding onto my waist. Lana explains the purpose of the suite to them before wishing them luck. They stand ready to leave and I trap Ava in a hug.
“Have a great night sweetie.” I smile at her and she thanks me before grabbing Zayn's hand and leaving with him to the private suite. Michael is left with us and we continue to talk until we decide to call it a night.
I leave Harry alone in bed while I shower and when I join him he’s fast asleep. I crawl under the covers and he pulls me into his chest still asleep, I smile as I let the feeling of security and comfort wash over me as I lay in his arms.
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y/n and harry get to spend a night in the private suite, the ultimate test of chastity. Can they resist the sexual temptations or will they indulge in a night of pure bliss.
warnings: theres gonna be a couple. teasing, oral sex (fem receiving), handjob, fingering, slight choking (lol).
word count: 3.9k
I lay on top of Harry and we stare at each other as I tease him moving my hips around in a circle. He drops his head back smacking my ass lightly in an effort to get me to stop.
“Baby if you don’t stop I will fuck you right now.” He groans and I laugh stopping my movements. I lean down kissing his chest before moving my way up to his neck.
“I’m so very sorry.” I murmur between open-mouthed kisses making him groan. I continue teasing him until I’m flipped over and find myself underneath Harry. He spreads my legs so he can fit between them and connects our crotches thrusting once making me gasp.
One hand holds my right thigh keeping me open and the other comes up being placed on my throat and a fire ignites in me. He leans down slowly tightening his grip and tilting my head up.
“I told you to stop.” He rasps close enough to my lips that he could kiss me. He lets me go sitting up and I’m left catching my breath.
“Fuck.” I mumble under my breath and I hear him chuckle.
“If I had a dick I’d have the fattest boner right now.” I tell him and he laughs pointing to his crotch. I flick my eyes down seeing the bulge in his shorts and I drop my head.
“We just got here we have to at least try and connect before doing anything.” I say and Harry sits up against the bed frame before grabbing me by my underarms and pulling me to him. He turns me around so I can face him and settles me in between his legs and I can see how hard he is.
“Well then let’s talk.” He smiles at me his hands finding comfort on my waist.
“What do you want to talk about?” I ask him and he shrugs, thinking.
“When did you lose your v-card?” He asks me and I laugh.
“Wow way to break the ice.” He laughs with me as I compose myself to tell him the answer.
“Well I didn’t lose it until I was 19 and the guy I lost it to was a total dick. He kept sending me mixed signals and I kept overlooking them and then told me that if we wanted to date he needed a time commitment that I physically could not fulfill. All after he took my virginity, so I ended things with him a couple of weeks later and since then I’ve been single. What about you?” I explain and Harry gives me a sad smile.
“That guy is a total wanker, look at the amazing girl he lost.” He comforts me and I smile waving my hand.
“It’s fine I’m over it now.” I clarify and Harry clears his throat.
“I was 17 when I lost my virginity. I was with my girlfriend at the time and we were both absolutely plastered and it just happened. We broke up soon after 'cause she regretted it and the rest is history.” He tells me and I nod.
“Damn we have some sad v-card stories.” I laugh and he laughs along too.
“Do you want to play truth or dare?” I ask him and he smiles nodding his head.
“Okay, Harry, truth or dare?”
“Truth.” I bring my finger up to my chin tapping it lightly in faux thought.
“When was the last time you had sex?” I ask him and he leans his head back in thought.
“Maybe a couple of days before coming here.” He answers before asking me truth or dare.
“Hmmm, truth.” I answer and he immediately asks me a question.
“What’s your favorite sex position.” I laugh shaking my head as I think.
“Uh, maybe missionary? Or from the side? I don’t really know, I like being able to feel or see whoever I’m with.” I answer him and he nods his head lost in thought.
We play a couple more rounds of truth questions, Harry revealing that his favorite position is cowgirl, and the weirdest place he’s had sex was his mate's hallway at a party, while I revealed the craziest place I’ve had sex was in a bar’s booth, and I hated doggy style.
“Alright last round.” I smile at him as his hand rubs up and down my thigh.
“Truth or dare Harry?” I quirk my eyebrow up at him and his hand squeezes my thigh as he answers.
“Dare.”
“I dare you to guess one of my kinks by acting it out to me.” His hand freezes on my thigh before a sick smirk crawls up his face.
“Well, I already know you have a praise kink and a choking kink, your reactions to me have said that much.” He starts and I nod along confirming his answers.
“But.” He leans forward now grabbing my jaw and pulling me to him.
“I bet behind that innocent face you put on every day there's a dirty little whore hiding behind it.” My breathing picks up as he speaks slowly and I close my eyes thinking that it would help calm me down but if anything it just turns me on more. When he finishes his sentence I’m a malleable mess. He lets go of his grip on me sitting back and leaving me on my knees in front of him.
“I’m going to take that reaction as a point for me.” I can hear the smirk on his face and I nod my head as I try to form any coherent thoughts. I sit back down and his hand finds its home on my thigh again rubbing up and down for comfort. Once I can gather my thoughts I open my eyes, seeing his pupils blown out in lust and I’m sure mine are too.
“Poor baby, your pupils are nearly exploding.” He teases me and I shake my head holding up my middle finger to him.
“You win.” I groan out dropping my head but he tsks.
“No, it’s my turn to ask you.” He pushes and I wave him on.
“Truth or dare Y/N?”
“Dare.” I say feeling like this can’t get worse than what just happened to me.
“I dare you to try and not kiss me tonight.” I stare at him in shock.
“Can’t take it, baby?” He mocks me and I scoff at him.
“Oh no I can, just didn’t expect you to cockblock yourself.” I fight with him and he scoffs back.
“Oh no you’ve got it all wrong, we can do whatever we want tonight the only thing is we can’t kiss.” I shrug my shoulders moving his hand off my thigh and flopping down next to him.
“I can resist however, I don’t think you’ll be able to.” I tell him pretending to be uninterested but I’m secretly dying inside.
This motherfucker seriously had to ruin tonight with our egos.
He flips onto his side placing his hand on my stomach letting it rest there before starting to rub lightly.
“Oh, that’s where you’re wrong. By the time I’m done with you, you’ll be begging for me to kiss you, but guess what? I won’t.” He finishes his sentence by dipping his hand completely into my shorts and cupping my heat. I throw my head back as I gasp yelling a fuck. He teases me running his fingers up and down my slit never touching my clit or entrance.
“Harry I swear to god.” I breathe out and he pulls his hand out of my shorts as he climbs on top of me.
“Hmm what? You swear to god what?” He mocks me and I groan as he leans in his lips nearly brushing mine.
“Fucking do something.” I snap and he chuckles. His hand that’s not holding him up comes to the base of my throat to hold me in place as he teases me.
“What do you want hmm? My fingers, my tongue, my cock. I need you to tell me.” He emphasizes every word and I let out a whine, as the anticipation builds up in my stomach.
“God I don’t fucking care anymore! Anything please!” I beg desperate for any form of relief and he chuckles his grip tightening and making me moan.
“All you had to do was say please.” He finishes mocking me before sitting back on his knees and pulling me up. He tears the shirt over my head throwing it behind him before pushing my chest back down to the bed. He moves back with his hands on my waist and once he’s in a suitable position his fingers hook into the waistbands of my shorts and underwear pulling them off my legs.
Once he’s discarded the items he sits back admiring my body. How my chest rises and falls from my heavy breathing, the curve of my breasts, my flushed face. He observes it all. He leans down placing a kiss on my sternum before moving lower and lower murmuring out how beautiful I am between open-mouthed kisses. My hands find refuge in his hair as he spreads my legs apart hands resting on my thighs.
“Beautiful.” He mumbles leaning in and placing a kiss right above my clit making me gasp. My fingers tangle in his hair as he continues to tease me with kisses so close to my center but never giving me the relief I crave. I drop my head back letting the pleasure wash over me as I play with his hair.
He pulls away for a second and I lift my head to see what he's doing before he dives straight for my center. His tongue connects with me and I let out a huge moan my body jerking back as he grabs underneath my thighs pulling me to his mouth. He licks a stripe up my cunt and I moan gripping his hair tighter.
“Jesus barely even touched you and you're soaked.” He moans into my core and I drop my head back as he begins to suck on my clit. He alternates between sucking and licking me and the fire in my stomach continues to build.
“H, I need more.” I beg through breathless moans and he removes one of his hands from my thighs bringing it up to my entrance. He thrusts two fingers into me making me scream as he sets a brutal pace.
His fingers curve hooking my g-spot as his tongue rolls around on my clit. My fingers tighten in his hair as I feel the pressure in my stomach growing. My back begins to arch as my hips chase his fingers, meeting his thrusts and I clench around his fingers hard.
“Gonna cum huh?” Harry detaches his lips from me looking up at me as I nod my head furiously.
“Yeah.” I whimper and he moves his body up continuing the movement of his fingers.
“Bring your knees up.” He demands and I listen planting my feet on the bed, freeing his other hand. He leans over me his face so close to mine as his free hand wraps around my throat. My back arches again making him grip my throat harder to keep me in place.
“Just a fair warning, once you cum you’re not going to stop.” He whispers into my ear his grip loosening on my throat as my lips part in shock. He presses his forehead against mine as he moves his body closer ramming his fingers into me.
“Come on be a good girl and cum for me, baby.” He orders, lips barely skimming my own as my back arches. His hand follows my movements before his grasp around my throat leaves moving to my stomach and pressing down. A long moan escapes me as I connect my eyes to his and as soon as they connect I knew I was a goner.
The pressure in my stomach bursts and a wave of pleasure washes over me as I drop back down onto the bed. Moans escape me as his fingers continue working me through the high. As I start to come down my body screams at the overstimulation and I go to grab his hand to stop his movements but he grabs my wrist pinning my arm down onto the bed.
“I already told you, you’re not stopping.” He smirks at me as my mouth falls open again in pleasure as I try to catch my breath.
“Harry.” I breathe out as my stomach contracts making me moan. Not long after my first orgasm, my second one blindsides me making my free arm shoot up to Harry’s arm digging my nails in as my back lifts off the bed. I let out wild moans and he soaks them up leaning back to watch what he’s doing to me. I can hear the wetness every time he thrusts his fingers and I know he’s going to make me go for a third but I can’t my body is wrecked.
“Harry, please. I can’t.” I beg, in between gulps of air and he slows his thrusts listening to me. He finally pulls his fingers out, licking them clean before leaning close to me.
“You were right about one thing.” He whispers and I suck in a breath before replying.
“What?”
“I can’t resist you.” He finally says before pressing his mouth to mine. Our teeth clash as we both fight for control but he soon gains it slipping his tongue into my mouth. I moan into his mouth as his teeth nip at my bottom lip and I reach my hand out palming his cock. He moans into my mouth moving his hand to the back of my head to pull me closer to him.
I continue stroking and palming his cock over his shorts until he groans against my lips. I pull back breaking the kiss as I sit up making him fall back on his knees. I grab the waistband of his shorts and boxers pulling it down and releasing his cock. Harry helps me take his pants off completely before I turn him around putting him where I was. When he’s in place I begin to observe his cock, his tip is bright red and leaking pre-cum. I spit into my hand before reaching out to his cock and wrapping my hand around it.
Harry lets out a loud moan the moment I begin to stroke him dropping his head back in pleasure. I sit on my knees between his spread thighs as I swipe my thumb over his tip collecting the pre-cum. I continue stroking his cock and relishing in his moans before I decide I want to suck him off. I lean down to start but he wraps his hand in my hair stopping me.
“I can’t handle your mouth right now.” He moans out and I nod. I sit back on my knees looking up at him through my eyelashes as I continue my movements. He locks eyes with me as I look up at him and his eyes roll back into his head.
“Fuck. I’m going to cum.” He moans out dropping his head back slightly as I quicken my movements to pull him to the edge. I continue to stroke his cock and he lets out a loud moan before he starts cumming. His cum lands on my chest right above my breasts and he grabs my hand once the pleasure becomes too much. He drops back against the bed sucking in air and I sit back on my knees. Once he can finally be coherent again he sits up looking at me and groans.
“You look so fucking sexy with my cum on your chest.” His eyes roam my body as I scoop some of his cum onto my fingers before licking it off and his eyes nearly roll back into his head.
“Fuck off.” He groans dropping back onto his back leaving me to giggle as I climb off the bed. I turn on the bathtub in the room heating it to my desired temperature and letting it fill. Harry eventually finds his way to the bathroom wrapping his arms around me from behind as he kisses my neck. When the tub fills up I turn it off, getting into the water, and sighing as the hot water soothes my muscles. Harry dips his foot in yelping at the temperature making me laugh.
“Jesus how are you not burning!” He asks in shock and I shrug my shoulders. He eventually makes his way in slipping behind me, making me sit in his lap. His arms wrap around me as we sit in comfortable silence as he places kisses on my neck and shoulders.
“You know I could just slip my cock into you and no one would know.” He whispers in my ear making me laugh.
“Way to ruin the moment.” I giggle shaking my head. “I’m sorry but I think the cameras would capture the reactions on our faces and know something's up.” I reason with him and he groans dropping his forehead onto my shoulder.
“You’re right, but I hope you know the second these stupid rules don’t apply I’m fucking you out of this world.” He bites down on my neck making me yelp and I bring my hand up smacking his arm.
“Oh, you better.” When the water turns cold we climb out of the bath, drying ourselves off and Harry heads back into the bedroom to grab our clothes. He comes back wearing his boxers before handing me just my t-shirt. I slip it on covering myself back up before he grabs my hand leading me back into the bedroom. He grabs the covers lifting them and letting me get into the bed. Once I get myself comfortable he follows suit pulling me into his arms.
“I had a really good time.” I smile at him and he smiles back agreeing with me. My head rests on his chest and I let the beat of his heart lull me to sleep.
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The next day I woke up with a smile on my face. I woke up next to Harry and we spent the morning wrapped up in each other talking about anything and everything. I learned a lot about him and he learned a lot about me. We only get ready to leave the suite once the producers came and told us we had to go.
On our way back Harry decided to head back to the bedroom and I decided to head down to the beach where I could see all the girls. He kissed my cheek goodbye and I head down, when the girls see me they start cheering. I sit down in a free chair as Ava jumps up ready to ask me questions.
“I need all the details.” She looks at me with wide eyes and I chuckle taking a deep breath. All the girls are leaning toward me with interest, smiles lined across their faces except for Brooke. I tune her out as I begin.
“I mean it was amazing. The suite is beautiful, it has a full-sized bed and in the bathroom, there's a bathtub but I mean that room is literally made to tempt you.” I tell the girls and some of them start to squeal.
“We like talked a bit and played truth or dare to make it more interesting.” I smile as I remember what happened between us and Riley shoots up.
“Did he touch you?” she asks and I can’t hide the smile that forms on my face.
“Yeah, he did. And it was worth every cent.” I flush at the memory before Kate pipes in.
“Did you have sex?” I laugh a bit in shock at the question before shaking my head.
“No, we didn’t.” I confirm and Ava and Riley jump up coming to hug me.
“Girl! I’m so proud of you.” Ava nearly yells in my ear as she moves me side to side with her hug. Riley is the next one to praise me and Sage is the last one in line.
“Yeah it was really hard, but I knew that we couldn’t go that far and Harry definitely knew too so that made it better to not just fuck him right then and there.” I explain and Sage squeezes my shoulder smiling.
“Look at you growing.” Riley says seriously and I nod.
“I’m really proud of myself. Before this I wouldn’t have even thought twice before having sex with him but even though we did lose money I feel both of us have grown through it.” Everyone sends me smiles before we get up and head inside.
I run into the dressing room and get changed out of my clothes from last night before heading over to the cabana with everyone else. Harry and I sit next to each other seemingly having the same conversation with the boys as I did with the girls. His hand rests on my thigh as we wait for Lana to ding.
“Hello. Harry and Y/N have breached the rules.” Lana says to no one's surprise.
“Yeah, yeah just tell us how much we’ve lost.” Kate grumbles at Lana.
“The list of offenses includes kissing.” Lana pauses as almost everyone awws for us. “Oral sex, and two counts of manual sex.” Ava lightly slaps my arm as I didn’t tell her the last couple of parts and I giggle sinking back into the couch. Harry grabs my hand squeezing it as we wait for Lana to tell us the damage.
“Harry and Y/N’s actions have cost the group $17,000.” My mouth drops and I look at everyone's reactions.
“Oh my god, I didn’t know it would cost that much!” I exclaim as Sage jeers us saying that everything was hopefully worth the money deduction.
“But..” Lana speaks up over us and everyone goes silent. “Y/N and Harry were not the only ones who breached the rules last night.” Lana breaks the news to everyone and we all gasp.
“Ava and Zayn, Louis and Sage, your kisses last night have cost the group $6000. Your prize fund now stands at $56,000.” Lana announces and I look over at Ava smacking her lightly.
“Bitch you didn’t tell me!” I tease her and she rubs her arm with a pout on her face.
“I didn’t have time too.” She defends herself and I let out a fake huff of betrayal.
“Harry and Y/N. You failed the ultimate test of chastity. However, I do recognize that by not going all the way, you have demonstrated a level of growth that is encouraging, and you are forming a deeper connection.” Lana finishes turning off as everyone else begins to cheer.
Louis pats Harry on the back as Ava engulfs me in a hug. After the meeting is over everyone goes their separate ways but Harry, Riley, Niall, and I all stay back at the cabana.
We all talk and connect about being the only ones to have stayed together since the beginning and we also all plan to see each other once the retreat is over.
When night falls upon us we all head back to the bedroom only this time Harry and I once again share a bed.
y/n and harry are struggling to maintain the connection they’ve formed. after a long day of forming connections with others will they try to mend their fading bond or will they part ways for good?
warnings: none that I can think of. maybe invasion of personal space? slight angst but its made up with fluff.
word count: 2.9k
Waking up next to someone that isn’t Harry was weird. I’ve gotten so used to his arms around me that Zayn’s felt foreign.
For the past couple of days, Zayn and I have been getting to know each other and we are becoming good friends. Zayn has been amazing throughout this whole silent war between Harry and me.
I don’t know what went wrong between us.
Well, I do.
It’s a 5’7, 23-year-old influencer that goes by the name Brooke.
Today is going to be a good day, it has to be. I refuse to let this drama damper my experience here. I get up before everyone else, deciding to shower because I need one. I stop by the dressing room, grabbing the one piece I want to wear today and then head to the bathroom.
The villa is quiet as I strip down and hop in the shower adjusting the water to the temperature I want. I sigh as the hot water caresses my skin and I wash my body of all my worries. My thoughts are interrupted by the shower door opening and I whip my head covering my body seeing Harry step in.
“What the fuck get out!” I yell at him but he keeps his stare on me as he steps closer to me. He has swim trunks on but I have nothing covering me I feel vulnerable.
I back up until my back hits the wall and he’s standing right in front of me. His eyebrows are furrowed and the look in his eye is completely sinful. His chest is barely touching mine and he leans down to get in my face. This is the closest he’s been to me in days.
“You think you’re cute huh?” He asks me and I stand confused.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” My throat feels dry as he stands in front of me continuing to move his body closer to mine.
“Those stunts you’ve been pulling with Zayn? You don’t know anything about them?” He questions his voice dark. I shake my head not willing to give in to him and he lets out a chuckle. He leans in closer and my head presses so hard against the wall that it hurts.
“You’re mine and when you stop playing this little game, you won’t be able to walk when I’m done with you. That’s a promise.” He whispers, pulling back and leaving me breathless. He lets a smirk line his face before leaving me alone in the shower.
Oh fuck. I’m fucked.
I compose myself, finishing my shower, and head back to the bedroom to meet with everyone. Zayn and I talk for a bit while we wait for Lana to tell us what the plan is for today. When she eventually chirps up she tells us we have a workshop and to head down to the grassy area. Once everyone is ready we all head down and get placed on the platforms from before with our partners Lana designated for us. Lana has changed all the pairs from the last workshop.
She has put Zayn and me, Harry and Brooke, Louis and Sage, Riley and Niall, and Liam, Kate, and Ava together. We all stand with our respective partners waiting for Lana to talk to us again and the tension between everyone is thick. Ava and Louis had a falling out a couple of days ago causing a bunch of tension to form. She dings alerting everyone and we all stare at the cone directing us today.
“Today you are all doing a workshop called without words. The first stage you will be learning on picking up on your partner’s physical, nonverbal signals, which is key to successful communication. Ladies please embrace your partner and express the emotion you can see in front of you.” She announces and I look to read the word excitement.
I smile and lift my arms, wrapping them around Zayn’s neck letting out a laugh. He laughs in my ear hugging me back, swaying us side to side. When everyone has broken apart the guys grab a chalkboard writing what they think the emotion was and Zayn flips his showing excited. I smile jumping in the air happy he got it and Lana dings turning green at his response.
“Now we are going to do soul gazing. Just stare into your partner’s eyes.” Lana dings. Zayn and I stare at each other, never wavering eye contact and I feel my heart tug. It’s intense, staring into someone else’s eyes and tuning out the world around us.
The only problem is Harry keeps crossing my mind. I don’t know if it’s jealousy or what but I can only keep thinking about what if Zayn was Harry. I have no idea how long passes until Lana dings asking if we feel more connected. I nod my head as Zayn nods his and I smile at him.
“What were you thinking about?” Zayn asks me and I sigh.
“To be honest with you. Harry.” I tell him and he nods his head in understanding. Lana announces the workshop is over and I let out a sigh as Zayn comes over to me wrapping his arm around my shoulder. We all head inside to do whatever not having to meet at the cabana until a little later so we all lounge around in the bedroom talking.
When Lana eventually perks up for us to go to the cabana we all make our way there, sitting down and seeing a box on the table. Once we're all settled in Lana dings turning our attention to her.
“I have observed a collective growth and I have a gift for each of you to help you take the next step of your journey.” We all clap and cheer excited for whatever’s in the box.
“Louis, please open my box.” she says next and Louis gets up ready to open the box. Louis opens the box revealing watches before handing them out to each of us. We attach them to our wrists and wait for Lana to tell us what they are for.
“When the watches are neutral the retreat rules still apply.”
“So wait if the watches change then what?” Brooke asks and Sage fills in.
“Probably when it changes it’ll be to give us a second to connect with someone else.” And Lana confirms Sage’s answer.
This is an entire game-changer. It really solidifies if we are growing emotional connections with each other. Everyone’s watches turn green for a second and Ava and Riley jokingly kiss each other making us all laugh.
We continue with our day but now everyone is looking at their watches every second to see if it turns green. Ava and I are cleaning ourselves up in the dressing room talking about boy drama when Lana dings scaring us.
“Hi, Lana.” Ava says and I mumble a hi as I continue with my mascara.
“Y/N, I have set up a date for you with Harry.” Lana tells us and I stop what I’m doing.
“Oh um, okay thank you, Lana.” I say not knowing what to think.
“This could be good for you guys.” Ava tries to support me and I send her a small smile.
“Yeah maybe.” I mumble, continuing to get ready. I get told later that the date is by the hot tub so I change into a bikini and head down to the pool area seeing Harry already there. I sit down next to him and observe our surroundings.
There’s champagne and fruit set down next to us and I don’t say anything. I bring my knees up to my chest in a protective manner as I observe Harry. Neither of us speaks, Harry keeps his focus ahead of him as I keep mine on the water between us. After a while of nothing, I sigh tired of this and I get up to leave and for the first time, Harry looks at me.
“Where are you going?” He asks and I shake my head.
“It was a mistake for me to come here.” I mumble back, ready to pull myself out but Harry grabs my leg holding me.
“Wait. Just.” He fumbles to speak and I look at him waiting for him to say anything. When he doesn’t I shake my head moving away, before being stopped by his words.
“I’m sorry.” I finally connect my eyes to his, feeling my heart clench, seeing the emotion on his face.
“For what? You don’t have anything to be sorry for. Sometimes things don’t work.” I say lying through my teeth and he shakes his head letting out a small laugh.
“I have everything to be sorry for Y/N.” He says bringing his eyes up to mine finally.
“I got jealous, so I did the only thing that I knew how to do. I hurt you so I wouldn’t be hurt. But fuck, in trying to hurt you I just hurt myself more. It killed me to see you with Zayn. Sleeping in his bed with his arms wrapped around you, laughing at his jokes, smiling at him with pure happiness in your eyes, when it should’ve been me.” He admits and I sink back down next to him.
“How do you think it felt for me?” I ask him and he shakes his head in response.
“I went from interacting with one person for almost two weeks and forming a connection with them to not even sparing a glance, all because of a woman who was here for barely four hours.” I tell him my voice cracking as I speak trying to hold back tears.
“I really really like you Harry and seeing you blatantly ignore me for her and when I’m getting ready to join you in bed to see her in my spot just to prove a stupid fucking point killed me.” I breathe out the tears finally falling from my eyes and he moves closer to me placing his hand on my cheek to wipe the tears away. I shake my head trying to move his hand off of me but he maintains his grip whispering.
“No, no, I’m so fucking sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean to hurt you like this. I was just trying to get a rise out of you, I never meant for it to go as far as it did.” I sniffle shaking my head. I finally look up at him, seeing his panicked face. He keeps wiping the tears off of my face and when I begin to calm down he leans in pressing a kiss on my forehead.
“I really like you too Y/N. I was an idiot for doing this but I swear to you, I am going to do my best to make this right again, no matter what. I don’t want to lose you.” He whispers against my forehead and I nod my head pulling back to look him in the eyes.
“One more chance Harry, after this if you fuck up again it’s over.” I tell him and he nods his head accepting the ultimatum.
“God, I’m so sorry.” He apologizes again, leaning in and pulling me into his chest. I wrap my arms around his neck squeezing tightly and relishing in the moment. It’s been so long since his arms have been wrapped around me and I’ve missed it so much.
A ding breaks us out of our hug and we both look to see our watches have turned green. We both look at each other in shock before his hands cup my face as he leans in.
“Is this okay?” He asks and I nod my head. I close my eyes and he leans in finally pressing his lips to mine. It’s soft and slow, as his lips move in sync with mine.
God I’ve missed this feeling.
Our emotions pour out through the kiss, showing just how much we missed each other. When he finally pulls away so we can breathe we're left gasping messes.
His forehead rests on mine and my eyes flutter open to see his still closed. His eyelashes frame his face and his lips are turned up in a small smile. My eyes flash to his bracelet seeing the green light is off again and I feel myself deflate a bit.
“I don’t care how much money we lose I’m kissing you every day.” He whispers and I laugh.
“I don’t think everyone would be too happy with us.” I tease him bringing my hands up to play with the hair at the bottom of his neck and he shakes his head.
“Fuck everyone else it’s only about you and me now.” He tells me and I smile. We get out of the hot tub and head inside holding hands. I finally feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest and I can tell that my smile is from ear to ear.
We head into the dressing room to get ready for bed and I tell Harry I’m going to pop into the shower to clean the chlorine off my body and he nods saying he’s going to do the same. We shower next to each other in silence before I hear his shower turn off and I assume he’s done. That’s until I hear my door open and I look to see him stepping in.
Naked.
“Well, this is a different look from this morning.” I tease him and he groans wrapping his arms around my waist.
“I’m still going to make good on my promise I hope you know.” He whispers in my ear and I feel shivers run down my body.
“I can’t wait for the day when I get to fuck that tight pussy of yours.” He whispers biting on my ear lobe making me let out a whimper. His grip on me tightens as he pushes his hips into my butt and I can feel how hard he is. I feel his head move away from mine and I look up to see him looking at the camera.
He lowers his head back down dropping his voice even lower than before to make sure the microphone can’t hear his next sentence.
“You were so tight around my fingers I bet you’re going to suffocate my cock baby.” I let out a long breath as my knees slightly buckle but he keeps me held up. My mind is a mess as I fight with myself to not just fuck him right here and now.
“Stop teasing.” I breathe out and he chuckles turning me around in his hold.
“No teasing baby, just say the word and I’ll fuck you right now.” He tells me seriously and I shake my head.
“We can’t.” I mumble and he nods.
“I know but all I want to do is make you feel good.” He mumbles his hands rubbing my hips and I sigh.
“I really want you to, I do but we can’t.” I explain and he nods his head squeezing my hips once more in understanding. We get out of the shower, get changed, and head outside to the cabana to see Riley, Niall, Ava, and Zayn talking.
They greet us and we greet them sitting down next to each other and Ava starts asking us how it went. I look at Harry and he looks at me as I bite my lip to suppress a smile.
“Uh, it was really good we kissed.” I explain and Harry chips in saying it was a make-up kiss. You can see a mixture of happiness and disappointment mixed on their faces. Happy that we mended our relationship but disappointed we lost money, so I decide to clarify.
“We got the green light from Lana.” I say and Riley and Ava immediately jump up.
“You got the green light?” Riley yells as everyone else yells over each other. Ava and Riley jump on top of me knocking me back into the couch and nearly knocking Harry off. They congratulate me and Harry before going back to sit down and I lean my head on Harry’s shoulder. Lana dings and everyone perks up in excitement.
“Good evening everyone.” We all cheer at Lana until she continues.
“Harry and Y/N, by communicating openly and honestly you have taken your relationship to the next level. This has unlocked a night alone in the private suite.” We all cheer and I look at Harry with the biggest smile on my face. He grabs my hand holding it tightly.
“The suite is the biggest test of chastity so far. However, there will be no more green lights this evening, this time alone is a chance to get to know each other more deeply without any distractions.” Lana finishes and I’m buzzing. This is amazing for Harry and I to get back on track.
We stand up and I hug everyone before joining Harry to head to the private suite. A producer leads us to the room and Harry opens the door letting me in.
“Oh my god, this is amazing.” I say as I take in the room. There’s a full sized bed in the middle of the room and a connecting bathroom. Harry sits down on the edge of the bed reaching out toward me and pulling me onto his lap.
“This is going to be an amazing night.” He says and I nod my head agreeing.
Let’s just hope we don’t lose the group too much money.
