...For I am Apolla

"Nothing's ever the same. Be it a second later or a hundred years. it's always churning and roiling. And people change as much as oceans." - Neil Gaiman

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

I kept telling myself to stay alive for my dog. Now she's gone and it makes it super hard to think of reasons to hang in there.

[kaijuno]

[bobbs]

I couldnt tell if this was one of those "this is year is getting dramatically worse" memes or if something else actually happened so I looked it up.

Turns out Michigan is actually flooding.

[browntiger15-deactivated2020110]

Yep. Dam burst cause the jackass who owns them didn't pay to keep up maintenance, or so I've heard. It's as likely a story as any.

But I'm sure that this has nothing at all to do with the govt not keeping up on infrastructure and not imposing regulations.

[storiesofimagination]

[chiral-edges]

Billie Lourd as filming wraps on The Rise of Skywalker.

Bonus:

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

If my dad and dog wouldn't miss me, I would be ending things...

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

This is becoming desperate. I need to lose at least 10 lb by my birthday. If I can't things are going to be very desperate. I hate how I look and I hate to see pictures of myself and overall I hate my entire body

[daddylorianz]

when people are poe and rey while me, i low key ship connix and poe right after tlj like seriously she risked herself by following poe against holdo

[booasaur]

[nzw15]

Love how Lena wants to scold her but was truly impressed with Karen’s shot into the bin

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

I'm having a really hard time. I really miss my mom.

[pixalry]

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[croutoninaliquidbroth-deactivat]

You have no idea how much I want the green rider books to be made to film. To summerise what I have read so far:

Badass Eletians fucking stuff up

Captian mapstone being a woman warrior and telling the king to shut the hell up

Karigan - well, if you read the books you’d know that was incredible in itself

THE MOONSTONE and harp of voices extracted from people in a painful way

The beast of kalmorhan vane that like, is all poison then a metalic outer shell

Weird ass time travel

Ghosts going all travelly and WE WILL KILL THE GREEN RIDER RARGH

Bunch and Bayberry accidentally magicing their staff invisible

THIS GIRL IS THE EMMA SWAN OF SELIUM

FIGHTING THESE WEIRD HORRIBLE CREATURES CALLED GROUNDMITES

I AM NOT GIVING THESE BOOKS THE CREDIT THEY DESERVE

[fygreenrider]

King Zachary: Something brought you here, Karigan G'ladheon. Call it what you will – fate, destiny …

Karigan: A horse.

[marvel-pin-up-girl-deactivated2]

Rewatched “Sprit: Stallion of the Cimarron” for the hundredth time and, like, why don’t people talk about this movie more??? Like it came out only a year after Shrek and that movie has a shit ton of sequels and yet no one ever talks about Spirit??? Like, 

(1) It doesn’t glorify or romanticize colonialism. It is some real-ass shit.

(2) It has amazing art.

(3) The main human character is Native American.

(4) It doesn’t stereotype or generalize or dehumanize Native Americans.

(5) It’s about horses!!!!

If you haven’t seen or even heard of this movie, drop everything right the fuck now and go watch. NOW. GO. GO. GO. It’s just an all-around good movie that will give you so many feels. 

[naruhina-headcanon-deactivated2]

Not forgetting the top amazing songs all brought to live by the amaing BRYAN ADAMS. The OSTs are gorgeous. And the end of the story always get me teary.

[wizardmoon-deactivated20190222]

Some AMAZING animation by James Baxter in this movie. Seriously he is THE MAN

[youqubers]

:!!!!

[trainthief]

me, circa early 1800s, paying a stable boy a few coppers to ride overnight to deliver you an urgent letter with a thick wax seal that after you struggle to break it just says “bitch!” in tiny little writing 

[peristeronicsuperhero-deactivat]

no no no, you don’t understand the true level of spiteful here. The sender of a letter didn’t pay for the post in 1800. The receiver did. You just made your enemy pay for the privilege of being insulted.

[ladyshinga]

I’m starting to see why messengers were gettin’ shot

[van-dyne]

cinematic parallel

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

Giving up.

I am tired of hurting. Tired of no one caring.

I am physically cut up in six places, can't use the restroom properly, can't walk upright, can't sit up without help, can't make food, can't breathe laying down, can't keep food down.

I want to give up. No one would notice

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

So nervous, so scared.

Keep thinking people wont notice if I was gone. Almost no calls or messages. FB posts are nice but....

Is it my time to go?

Maybe so...

My "closest" friends don't seem to care. Would they miss me at all?

I am afraid of the answer.

Maybe I will go on the operating table. My brother, dad and dog would miss me (cat maybe). However, doesn't seem friends will...and that is heartache

[fordreamernightstheonlytimeofday]

A part of me hopes I don't make it through the operation next week. People have said some very mean and hurtful things.

I feel like a screw up and I feel super alone. I have friends to do things with but people who I thought I could count on prove that I can't.