forestfolke

[forestfolke]

You don’t have to answer this publically (or at all!!) but I just wanted to say it’s always nice to see you in my notifications or dash or whatever. Happy ur still around :)

Happy to see you around, too. ❤︎⁠ Apologetic that I'm not available to chat but still appreciate seeing you on my dash as well. Relate to a lot of things you post about life and art.

[forestfolke]

💖 When you get this, list your five favorite songs atm and send this ask to at least 10 people in your notifs! (If you want!)

I do not have 5 favorites at present because I have only been obsessively listening to one band. Recommending Jordan: The Comeback by Prefab Sprout to all onlookers.

Prefab Sprout - Jordan: The Comeback

[forestfolke]

YOU MADE THE MOON ANIMATIC? YOU MADE THE MOON ANIMATIC. THROWS UP VIOLENTLY ALL OVER THE FLOOR. THAT SHIT WAS MY LIFE

Ah, my floor...

Yes, that was me, too. It makes me happy to hear that you liked it that much. I am still content that I was able to make it.

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I’m here from the debatably chell Doug fic from 4 years ago on ao3. It’s extremely swag

Thanks. Smiling a bit at the resurgence of interest in this ship lately. I still love characters whose relationships are ambiguous, kind of distressing, and fail to be anything in particular.

I was writing another one recently.

[forestfolke]

grabs you. do you still draw chellmann. your art is so wonderful and warm and beautiful to me its unreal. he does need oversized sweaters actually

Thank you. I don't know. Kind of, sometimes. I had been drawing them a couple days before you sent this ask and I was hoping perhaps those drawings would turn out by now but haven't yet, so... Well, here's a redraw I did a while ago of the first picture I drew of them together.

[forestfolke]

it's nice to see you on the dash again. i hope you don't mind but i caught up on some of your diary and i want to say i felt the same way when i turned 18 and 20 and it felt like dying. i don't have much to say in the way of comfort because i've been thinking recently how i never let myself want things in earnest and my nicest day dreams feel like a kind story i tell myself to keep from going nuts. my life isn't even that bad i just feel stuck all the time i guess. whatever. what i mean is i understand and i wanted to say thank you for putting it into words and that i love you

I love you, too. Kindred spirits in feeling trapped in ways that are difficult to solve and require far more patience than one might have expected to need. Maybe that's a whiny sentiment. I don't know, It's so tiring. ^_^'

[forestfolke]

Everything gets better eventually if you live long enough to see it. I hope you get to see your better days soon

I pray I don't live long enough to see that, but I believe you. Thank you.

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Hi, just wanted to say I feel the same. I don't know if we'll ever get better, but I hope one day we'll at least be okay

🖇️ I don't think so, Anon. Thank you for being here.

[forestfolke]

i'd hate to think that message caused alarm or anything! if it helps it really was just a coincidence, not anything you've done/been doing lately, i just got to thinking about you and your blog for no particular reason and noticed your ask box was open. i thought it might've been open for a while and i just never noticed!

i'm really sorry to hear how things have been, it's deeply unfair that you're having to deal with this. i hope things change for the better!

despite that thing i said, please don't feel compelled to use this blog, or this site, if it doesn't make you happy! but don't be afraid to reach out to folks you trust either! i'm sure you don't need me to tell you any of this of course, but. i just would like to say something possibly helpful, even if obvious.

i wish you all the best for the future! (if you don't wanna post/reply to this for any reason that's totally fine)

Hi, it's alright. I'm sorry to have used you as a scapegoat. I'm so paranoid but at the same time I'd love to receive your kind messages in good faith, which makes things difficult. ^^' The clarification puts me at ease, though. Thank you. I really do appreciate you sending positive thoughts my way. It's so nice.

[forestfolke]

i love you and think of you often, friend. i wish you warmth and gentleness 💛

You, too. ♡

[forestfolke]

been a minute since you were around, hope things are well and that you return to this blog at some point!

Thanks for caring about me, Anon. I'm trying not to view your message as something frightening seeing as I turned asks back on the other day and I've been doing a poor job at not liking posts, thus I invited the attention, and should not be as scared of it as I am.

I don't think things have been going well. I don't particularly think they ever were.

I think about starting a new account often, because I don't want to use this one anymore, but I doubt I could make that go well either. I miss when I could tolerate it, because I miss being around people.

I'm really unwell and I'm not able to get help for it so I've been trying to isolate myself so that I don't infect others. I guess this also serves as an explanation to any of my friends who see this as to why I am so cagey when it comes to art or talking in general. Something horrible occurs during the process of Creation > Communication > Interpretation and it has become one of the most abhorrent and painful concepts in my life. This is an evil website where evil things are conveyed to me. You specifically probably aren't trying to do something bad to me but I don't know because this is the lens that I see everything through.

I kind of want to elaborate on why I think the way I do now but I don't want to invite bad things. 🧿 My useless emoji, lol.

I hope you're doing well, too.

I still post drawings and occasionally diary entries on my website if anyone wants to pay a visit. https://forestfolke.neocities.org/

[forestfolke]

(puts hand on glass of my enclosure) i have to whine on the internet about how eoe was in theaters today and i was not there... it was so beautiful and sunny though and i did yardwork and ate an omelet so i had a good day but it is still unfortunate. crestfallen on a sunday night

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sometimes i see a speck of pure white light like dew reflecting and when i look at it i feel as if i could pass through that pinprick into the ether if i really tried. all the tiny thousands of glittering wormholes on the surface of snow made it look like the world was falling apart this morning

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how do you feel about doug rattman/glados?(rattdos)

not really a fan, i'm not sure why it gives me the ick when chelldos doesn't. i can still laugh at hypotheticals though i do enjoy their canon dynamic, i love their lines in lab ratt and i've read a couple good fics where they're on hazardously amiable terms... ^_^

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