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leonku-blog

ANONYMOUSLY MAKE ME BLUSH

dnotive

Go ahead. Do your worst.

allured-aesthetic-deactivated20

Do you ever wonder what about you isn’t good enough for people to stay and fight for?

introvertunites

Follow us @introvertunites

liquidlightandrunningtrees

“I feel profoundly alone, cut off, unattractive…I feel unloveable. But I respect that unloveable solider—struggling to survive, struggling to be honest, just, honourable. I respect myself.”

— Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh

Every night I fall asleep dying inside thinking about where my life is going if it's going anywhere. Yet every morning I have to rally my strength and find the will to face the day. When does it end? When do I just get to be happy?

picsthatmakeyougohmm

hmmm

tagfer

these are the illegal lego building techniques

thefingerfuckingfemalefury

We are all going to jail for reblogging this Forbidden Illegal Lego

deansurvived

At 17, I was a depressed teenager who self harmed and wondered about just how painful it could possibly be to end my life.

Right now, I’m laying on the couch, and I can hear my husband reading our four year old a bedtime story using silly voices.

Life gets better. Make sure you’re there to see it.

wxstfull

I just started crying.

this is very important

glanzlichter-deactivated2018110

This post saved me so many times tbh

carry-on-my-wayward-shadowhunter

Always reblog.

cannabiscomrade

Gay kids do not exist to teach homophobic parents the errors of their ways

Stop wishing gay kids on homophobes! 9 times outta 10 it will end in literal child abuse

deejay

Relog if you need this energy

source

theryanproject

slimdaddymbaku

Just one of these checks could change my life ,

stupidnoobofficial

PSA

theres a new product by verzion called “hum” that allows your parents to track your car and places you go, if your parents are controlling like mine please check under your steering wheel to make sure that they havent installed this

selfcarereminders

here is what it looks like installed:

you can read more about it here, and here- this excerpt sums up what information Hum will send:

“a car’s owner will be able to get notified on their phone when the vehicle leaves a pre-determined area or drives faster than a set speed… [Hum] will enable location tracking and a driving log, which measures travel times, engine idle times, and average speeds.”

misangremellama

People in abusive relationships, please check your cars.

misangremellama

DO NOT TRY TO UNPLUG IT BY YOURSELF!

tassiekitty

To add to this nightmare, I’ve just heard of a thing called ForceField where people get to monitor and block internet sites that you’re going on if they don’t approve.

It tells the user what sites/apps you’re going on, for how long you’re on them, and WHERE YOU ARE ON AN UPDATING MAP.

So you know if you’re in an abusive household and use sites like tumblr to escape and talk to friends, you could be cut off from that.

They say “it’s not spyware” but it sure sounds controlling and creepy to me.

lazygeckoknightintraining

signalboost

harpuiaa

God. Fuck. That’s scary.

everywitchway-deactivated201905

Life 360 is another tracker. My parents have used it on me, not allowing me to delete it from my phone, and sometimes even demanding selfies to prove I was where the map said. (As if I’d go anywhere without my phone)

beerune

SpectorPro is another one. Afaik it can’t track location, but it takes screenshots roughly every 20sec to allow the installer to watch a video of your computer activity. It also tracks all keystrokes, so passwords aren’t safe, and records any website you visit + the duration. It’s incredibly creepy and a huge violation of privacy, and was one of the cornerstones of my abuse as a kid.

sugarseros-deactivated20221026

even if you’re not in an abusive relationship/family, please spread this because you might have just saved someone’s life

beautifulandscary

I wanna know what people assume about me because of my tumblr.

telvi1

Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested. You can go anon if you want.

lilboreddev-blog

REBLOG IF YOU WANT ANONS

aphrodeiti

Do you ever become desensitized to your own trauma?? Like you’ve been dealing with it for so long that when you accidentally let it slip out in conversation and the persons like “um oh my god?” You’re like wow I forgot my life has been one unspeakable horror after another #noted

Growing up in an abusive household is a fucking trip dude……If you’ve never had someone angrily wash a dish at you or fold a sock in your direction then how are you gonna understand why I get nervous when you quietly do the laundry, or why I ask “are you mad at me?” when you set the bag of groceries down too hard? It’s a totally different way of living and it impacts you long after you’ve left the situation.

sothisistherapy

This is so important.

notsafevorework

Abused kids speak a language you can’t learn

newhologram

My heart races when I hear someone sigh and then the adrenaline takes forever to wear off. I hate having these reactions even when I know I am safe.

tatu-lu

It really is the tiniest things that trigger me and ppl seem to think I’m exaggerating.

forever-five-years-old

It's crazy but even years later the sound of heels clicking on the floor, mostly hardwood, terrifies me. It always reminds me of my mom walking down the hallway to my room. I go from 21 years old and a proud badass to a cowering 14 year old in an instant.