So This Is Therapy...

I have no idea what I'm doing...

[sothisistherapy]

Meal plans are the worst.

[hoeteria]

[thequotejournals]

And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via thequotejournals)

[sothisistherapy]

ED Logic

Me: Wow I feel really terrible and out of control, I should definitely go to inpatient again...as soon as I lose weight Also me:

[wordsnquotes]

Some friends don’t understand this. They don’t understand how desperate I am to have someone say, I love you and I support you just the way you are because you’re wonderful just the way you are. They don’t understand that I can’t remember anyone ever saying that to me. I am so demanding and difficult for my friends because I want to crumble and fall apart before them so that they will love me even though I am no fun, lying in bed, crying all the time, not moving. Depression is all about if you loved me you would.

Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation  (via wordsnquotes)

[byebyethinspo]

Destroy the idea that anorexia is the only serious eating disorder.

Do not glamorize underweight BMIs and restrictive eating.

Validate that all persons with all body types can have an eating disorder.

Understand that all eating disorders are life-threatening.

Recognize that no person is too damaged to recover.

Empower those who are healing.

[justedrecoverythings]

Journaling my feelings and ED thoughts when my depression is really bad like

[justedrecoverythings]

feeling this tonight

[sothisistherapy]

Real World: “You’re too fucked up to be a normal, productive human capable of participating in this world.”

Medical Community: “You’re not underweight or sick enough now to deserve treatment at any of our facilities.”

Me: “CHALLENGE ACCEPTED”

[satanhaus-deactivated20220217]

Growing up in an abusive household is a fucking trip dude……If you’ve never had someone angrily wash a dish at you or fold a sock in your direction then how are you gonna understand why I get nervous when you quietly do the laundry, or why I ask “are you mad at me?” when you set the bag of groceries down too hard? It’s a totally different way of living and it impacts you long after you’ve left the situation.

[sothisistherapy]

This is so important.

[fyp-philosophy]

Before you speak, ask yourself: is it kind, is it necessary, is it true, does it improve on the silence?

Sai Baba (via fyp-philosophy)

[wordsnquotes]

I wish I knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart…I do nothing all day, boredom settles in, I look at the sky so I get to feel even smaller than I already feel and my mind keeps poisoning itself uselessly.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath  (via wordsnquotes)

[sothisistherapy]

Trying to handle my ED when it starts getting hot outside

[sothisistherapy]

When family members have detailed discussions about their weights and diets in front of me

[sothisistherapy]

Being admitted to the hospital

Being released from the hospital

[sothisistherapy]

"Let's go around and do introductions now"

NOPE

[sothisistherapy]

When my sister says she doesn't think BPD is "a real thing"

[sothisistherapy]

Not wanting to admit you might be relapsing