marginalized

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Delaying my death Bec I'm procrastinating the final boss .

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Living for me is a compulsion but also a desire. Compulsion bec of the life I couldn't get, and desire because of the life I could've get.

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Archie, I miss you 🫪

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I can't even kill myself bro I legit can't. I'm doomed ig that's my curse. To be a living dead. To experience only pain

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Man I just want to physically rip off my skin Bec the need for validation will kill me. I hate being discouraged

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I want to kill myself

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I feel bad for feeling good

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Life didn't end when I wanted it to end.

And it'll be someday which I'm damn sure would have to be my hungriest desire to live when grim knocks at my door and I'll grin on my death bed, not with solace not with unfilled desire not with content either , But with acceptance, by then I'd be wise enough to assure myself of why it all happened to me , and why it has always been me. Here goes with me so wherever It'll be I'll always be here .

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Is evil really is much more powerful than the good?

If so one should submit to the evil in order to stay alive but what's a life if it's not liberating? If it's a life made out of compulsion are you really obliged to live through it when the compulsion is that you have to live? And if you do live Bec that's your compulsion must not resent the one who gave you this? Man, it's frustrating to lose your muse and you're not even religious especially when you don't have an identity of your own.

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The half of me is one fourth of what I am (which is quite questionable to me)And the rest is just the desire to be loved and to love where my imagination and reality aligns .

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I like the silence here. i feel here. I feel real. I feel belonged.

Sike

I belong to nowhere.

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Life just doesn't hit the same way I used to hit myself. When I stopped hitting myself I unlocked a new door of self sabotage. At least I used to cry over hitting myself now I just feel it's cringe and won't fix anything. Have I grown up or have I grown numb?

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Man, sometimes I just wish I had a lot of ppl caring and rooting for me (and it should feel real too) Bec I read it somewhere that if one person insults / criticize you it is equal to 10 compliments being defeated. Idk to what extent that's true but healing does need to be greater than the pain . If one is not greater, no one would win nor anyone loses.

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Sometimes I watch a movie and I feel like I'm living a completely different life, it's like I'm doing nothing but with an intent . Like I have an identity now even if it's just there to do nothing!

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hiiii what’s ur favourite movie

Oh hiiieeee!

Every movie that completely breaks me.— Under the Hawthorne tree, drawing closer, better days , dps are some of my favs.

Ik ik you can call me basic for that but yeah I'm the truest and I like tragedy+ romance

Also I like when the lead is a loser in love oh how I love thattt! 😭❤️