Title: “† i ate my name †”
i clawed my way through mirrors just to feel real skin
found nothing but teeth behind my grin
every prayer came back to me tasting blood on its tongue
i wore your silence like a veil
begged the sky to split and fail
i am what was left behind
when the light gave up on everything in me
it tasted like rust and winter
left a corpse in the shape of love
you can bury it deep—i’m still not enough
my hands are altars, stitched with ruin
i make my scars into songs that I'm not sure that I want anyone to know...
and then carve what's leftover into my flesh and bone...
Can you see through me..?
Can you help me keep from undoing...
the shadows taught me how to scream soft—
taught me how to disappear...
To disappear without getting lost...
But there is always a cost...
[Bridge – whispered, overlapping vocals]
(i am the nothing beneath your voice)
(i am the ache you leave in the walls)
(i am the name you swallowed to forget me)
(i am still here. still here. still—)
[Breakdown – distorted screaming]
i wore your love like rope
tied it tight around my hope
[Final Chorus – half-sung, half-screamed]
i kissed the void and begged it to stay
but the smoke won't leave
there’s a version of me that still believes
(feedback collapse) I am never enough
jacobvanloon
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