based on what we learned from Lane's own account, I wrote my own takeaway from it ! I would love if you could read it when you so desire ! I apologize profusely if I misinterpreted anything.
now's a good time to mention, I am very passionate about psychology ๐ค
laneโs defiance is a result of his motherโs domineering behavior, along with wanting to conform to the gender patriarchy. we do not know the full extent of his relationship with his mom, but with some tidbits we can already gather an idea on the difficult childhood he had.ย
trigger warning / tw for mentions of emotional abuse
surrounding his mother:
as described by Lane, his mom constantly framed herself as a victim. while it is true Lane had done a lot of things which would indirectly hurt her, her response to his rebelliousness only made it worse. she was overly critical of him, making him feel cornered and grow resentment as she nitpicked every thing he did. this affected his self image greatly, making him believe he never could be perfect or good-enough. It would lead to his future relationships to have conflict, constantly hypercritical of others or himself.
many things point to her attempting to guilt trip Lane, mostly in the form of tears. she cried in the kitchen as she told him she has made many sacrifices for her children. she called him selfish for not wanting to hug her. she cried when Lane got his face pierced. in short, she used her parental sacrifice as a manipulation tactic. when you have a child, it is your responsibility to take care of and fulfill basic needs. Its an obligation of a parent, not to be used as a favor to demand things of them.
his mom was emotionally abusive to him, is my takeaway from the information we learned. It can be seen as conflicting as he was giving his mother a hard time, but at the end of the day she was responsible for constructing the correct response to his behavior. she failed to correct it, only worsening his attitude, a part of the reason why he is the way he is now.
toxic masculinity :
Laneโs friends and society itself was also a contributor to Laneโs misogynistic perception. toxic masculinity is an issue prevalent in society, as young men are vulnerable to be influenced by these social norms. the desire to comply with social expectations, causes them to be more likely to exhibit prejudicial practices. along with that, because of the message toxic-masculinity sends, avoiding engaging in any behavior that makes them โless of a man.โ when we learn more about his life at school, it humanizes his character. as he becomes seen as an individual shaped by those around them.
men thrive off of offensive humor, those actions are promoted when it garners a positive reaction. they crave validation, so they seek it. Lane relies on sexist, bigoted humor to validate his masculinity. it showcases his unconscious belief that validating his manhood requires constant degradation of others. if a man believes he is not fulfilling the traditional roles of masculinity, theyโll participate on damaging self serving actions to restore their senses of self and avoid being questioned.
When MC bites back, he commonly resorts to throwing back a comment that is meant to be degrading of her female identity. men are conditioned to be stoic and avoid negotiation, to obtain control and dominance over the situation. he resorts to discriminatory remarks to assert superiority over her, in an attempt to regain his authority.
bad habits
Lane has a copious amount of bad habits which can be a result of depression along with trauma ( the two making is significantly more likely.) it can cause emotional numbness, which makes people seek out an escape.
when your body is constantly on high alert, it uses an extensive amount of energy. making what seems like small tasks hard to maintain. trauma alters the brains ability to function normally, impairing your ability to control your actions and make logical decisions. which explains why he acts on impulse.
even if he attempts to deny it, he is suffering from depression and the affects of living in an abusive household. its caused him to adopt habits that are self-destructive, as a way to cope. he is stuck in a place which he does not know how to get out of, and to some extent he is aware of this. but starting is easier than stopping.
ft: lane (big bad dogs)
reader: fem
wc: 2307
cw: SMUT 18+ & probably ooc! lane mb everypony & not beta read
i wrote this in one day aaaaaaaaaaaahashjkdlasdalsd and yes i believe in loverboy lane after he gets into a committed relationship what abt it
no i couldnt come up w a title
woah aark actually finished a fic how revolutionary
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"I feel like I'm being used." Lane sits unimpressed at the opposite end of his couch, glaring at you from the corner of his eye while you settle yourself back into the worn cushions.
"You are," you grin cheekily, taking a swig from your half-finished Bud Light, and sighing as you stretch your legs across his lap, "but you love me."
"I guessโow! What the fuck?!"
The pillow you threw at him falls to the ground with a dull thud, and you stick your tongue out, softly blowing a raspberry as he tugs your legs in retaliation. He narrows his eyes in amusement and smirks as you shriek, murmuring under his breath something half-hearted about women you don't care enough to dignify. Instead, you turn your sights to Lane's small flatscreen, where the PS3's startup screen begins to play.
"Devil May Cry 4? Seriously?" He stares boredly at the screen, one arm propped on your calf to hold up his chin, while the other traces absent shapes on the skin of your thigh. He can't help but stare at the rim of your shorts, catching the smallest glimpse of your underwear before you shift your legs.
Damn.
He sighs through his nose, leaning over your legs to finish the rest of your beer in a single dramatic chug just because he can.
Silence falls over the two of you, broken only by the sounds of Nero's grunts and the quiet clack of buttons as you aggressively handle his controller.
It doesn't take long at all until his hands start to wander. It's innocent enough at first, just a few lingering touches ghosting across your exposed skin. But then he's skirting around the hem of your shorts, the tips of his fingers brushing beneath the lifted fabric, just barely low enough to be considered decent, but high enough to make his intentions clear.
"Lane."
He shudders at the tone of your voiceโthe exasperation entwined closely with affection, and how it drips from your lips like sin itself.
God, the way you say his name should be considered a crime with how much he's willing to do to get you to say it again.
He grins at your suspicion with a shrug of his shoulders, the edges of his smile holding the familiar traces of what you've come to pinpoint as desire.
Your eyes narrow when they clash with clouded blue, the undeniable heat behind them sending a shiver down your spine. Trying to close your legs proves fruitless as he slots himself between them like he belongs there, tossing your legs over his broad shoulders.
"What are you doing?"
Fuck, you look so good beneath him with your shirtโhis shirt, the possessive part of his brain preensโriding up to expose your stomach, your lips parted as your breaths get heavier, and your eyes beginning to glaze with a hunger only he has the power to satiate. He licks his lips, chuckling lowly when you imitate the action.
His palm travels over the newly revealed skin, resting just where your shorts meet your navel, while the corners of his grin sharpen into the cocky smirk you've grown to look forward to every shift. He leans down to kiss you, deceptively soft, but it's quick to devolve into a desperate clash of tongue and teeth, leaving you breathless when he pulls away suddenly, your lips connected by a thin string of spit that glimmers beneath his TV's blue light. You blink blearily as his other thumb swipes across your lips, eye twitching at his cocksure smile with an almost dejected scoff.
"I'm not doing anything, baby, just keep playing." The way he kisses the bend of your knee doesn't exactly feel like nothing, and the metal of his piercings is cold against your flushed skin, sending cold chills throughout the rest of your body. But still, you turn back to the TV, doing your best to focus as his thumb dips beneath the elastic of your shorts. He pulls experimentally, letting the band snap against your waist whilst he caresses your stomach.
His lips leave wet bruises along your inner thighs. "Tell me to stop, and I will," his voice an uncharacteristically soft murmur against the most recent of his love bites.
You don't look away from the screen once. "If you stop Lane, I'll smother you with a fucking pillow."
He snorts loudly, biting hard enough to draw a yelp from you. "Always violence with you women," he tuts, licking gently at the bruise in an attempt to soothe. You roll your eyes, trying to focus on your input commands while Lane works you out of your shorts and underwear in one smooth movement, tossing the garments haphazardly over his shoulder with little regard to whether you'd find them later.
Your legs try to close, more so out of instinct than insecurity, but Lane's hands pry them apart gently, exposing your glistening cunt to his greedy gaze.
He nearly groans at the sight, using his thumbs to part your folds. "Look at youโฆSo wet, and I haven't even touched you yet. Need me that bad, princess?"
"Fuck you." You hate how pitched your voice comes out, all breathless and needy, just the way he loves it. The controller in your hands nearly cracks in two when he laughs, the heat of his breath telling of just how close he's gotten.
He shifts slightly, settling against the couch when you spare him a heady glance. "Go on," he goads with that godforsaken smirk of his while he rests his cheek on your trembling thigh, "just keep playing. You suck ass, though."
You open your mouth to retort, but the only thing that comes out is a soft gasp of surprise when he licks a slow stripe up your pussy, his lips closing around your clit as he begins to suckle relentlessly. His hands hold you open, arms wound tightly around your thighs with a rare show of strength, leaving you at his mercy as you squirm in his grasp.
Still, you do your best to fight through the hordes of enemies, trying with little avail to ignore the wet squelches of Lane's tongue disappearing inside you. It only gets worse when he pushes his middle finger in, lapping at your swollen clit like a man depraved. The pace he sets is punishing, each flick of his wrist a silent promise of what's to come.
Blindly reaching down, you grab at his hair with a shaking hand, whether it's to pull him closer or push him away, neither of you cares.
"ShitโฆHow are you still so tight? Can barely fit two fingers in you, baby." He groans against you as he pushes in his ring finger right next to the middle one, a snug fit, but the burn hurts so good. You keen at the feeling, dropping the controller completely in favor of tangling your hands in his hair.
"Laneโฆ" The sound of your voice calling out to him so sweetly has him almost rutting pathetically into the couch cushions.
"That's right," he growls between obscene slurps, "say my name." He curls his fingers, deliberately hitting that soft little spot he's had mapped out since your first time sleeping together.
Your whines taper off into drawn-out moans with a vague similarity to his name, the warmth in your stomach spreading to the tips of your toes as your legs begin to close around his head.
"You're close, aren't you?" You can feel the smugness of his grin through the haze of pleasure, making the mistake of meeting eyes from between your legs. His face is flushed red, clear blue eyes crinkled at the edges with his trademark lazy arrogance, whilst you fall apart above him bit by bit. "Then cum."
The snap of pleasure inside of you has your back arching off the couch and away from him, Lane's shirt clinging to your sweat-soaked body like a second skin.
"L-Lane!" You pant, weakly grasping at his wrist, but barely slowing his movements as he cleans up the remnants of your orgasm with slow yet calculated strokes of his tongue. Only when you stop trembling does he pull his fingers out, whistling at the sheen of slick that coats his fingers as he slowly spreads them in front of you. His face fares no betterโcoated in cum that drips from his jaw onto his graphic tee.
The bastard doesn't even bother wiping his face, cleaning what he can with his tongue before capturing your lips in a disorienting kiss that you can't help but melt into. You feel the heat of him through his sweats as he grinds against you, the weight of his cock alone reigniting the need inside you once more.
He makes quick work of your shirt, shoving down the cups of your bra to palm at your tits. His fingers tweak at the perked nipples, tugging and twisting them in a way that has you arching into the touch, your head thrown back against the couch's armrest.
"You-you're so annoying, you know that?" Your eyes narrow at him, but your lip is caught between your teeth as you bite back another whimper.
"Yeah, yeah, tell me something I don't know, princess. Plus, you're the one who came over to my place," he rolls his eyes, tossing his shirt in the same forgotten pile as the rest of your other clothes, "condom or no condom."
"No condomโฆ"
"Sorry, what was that? You're gonna have to speak up, pretty girl."
You're going to kill him. Right now.
If only you knew how attractive Lane found you right now, maybe then you'd curb your judgment.
"Kidding, now turn around for me, yeah?" He kisses the crease between your brows, not giving you much of a choice as he manhandles you onto your knees, your forearms propped over the armrest. You hear the rustle of fabric behind you, followed swiftly by a familiar nudge against your clit. Lane's hand holds you steady by the hip as you jolt, slowly sliding through your folds before finally pushing in.
"Breathe, pretty." He presses kisses along your back, ghosting his hands up your sides, and down your arms to ground both you and himself. He's trying, really, he is, to let you adjust, but holy shit, you're tight, debilitatingly so. He can feel the control slipping with every passing moment.
An eternity had to have passed before you're calling out his name like a siren's call. Don't you know what that does to guys like him?
"You can move."
And like the love-blinded sailor he is, he answers, first with a shallow grind that makes you push against him, pleading for moreโfor harder, then he's pulling out and thrusting back into the hilt, tearing a scream from your throat loud enough to have the neighbors looking for new listings.
You feel your knees buckle as your feet kick up, brushing against his thighs as he pummels into you from behind. His hands hold you up, their grip nearly bruising to keep you from collapsing.
He watches you shudder with every thrust with an expression that can only be described as self-satisfactory.
Nobody on this planet could make you feel the way he did.
Especially not that punk ass biker who always acted like he had some sort of weird claim on you. Last he checked, it was his name that you moaned out, and his cock that turned your brain into a fucked-out mess.
"Shitโkeep clenching like that," he pants out, head hanging low as his pace becomes more erratic.
His name falls from your lips like it's the only word you've ever learned, woven between a slew of moans and whimpers that's making it substantially for Lane not to bust every second.
You feel the cold press of his nipple piercings against your back when his breath fans your ear, one of his hands falling from your hip to rub deep circles on your clit, which twitches from overstimulation.
"I'm gonna cum inside, alright?" He bites the lobe of your ear softly, pinning you to the couch with his weight. It creaks with every heavy thrust, clearly not built for someone of yours and Lane's libido.
You only nod frantically in response, your breath hitching at your own impending peak. "Lane, I'm closeโ!"
"I know, baby, I know. Let go for me, I've got you."
What could have only been described as pure ecstasy explodes beneath your skin, setting each one of your nerves alight as you orgasm with a strangled cry of Lane's name. It's not long until tears of overstimulation well in your eyes and blur your vision at the corners as he chases his own high, his face buried in the crook of your neck, and breathing in the smell of you.
The hand that had been rubbing your clit finds one of your hands, intertwining your fingers together tightly when his peak finally crests, filling you with enough cum to leak onto the couch when he pulls out.
He lies back with you on his chest for a moment, allowing his nerves to settle before stalking off with a yawn. He returns with a soft towel and a glass of water, wiping you down with enough thoughtfulness for you to think someone replaced your boyfriend while he was out.
He does not appreciate that comment and deliberately gives a rough wipe to your oversensitive cunt with a blank stare.
You kick him in the chest lightly, and he staggers back like he's been shot. With a fond roll of your eyes, you bend down to pick up the fallen controller as "Abandon All Hope" flashes periodically on the screen. "You're actually the worst, you know that?"
"Yeah, but you love me."
"Unfortunately."
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Author's note: We diving straight into it. 69. NO MINORS! Also, please excuse any spelling or grammatical errors.
Word count: 538
Imagine your chilling in his apartment on his couch and suddenly Lane pulls you on top of him, more specifically his face and even more specifically your crotch in his face. You blush and try to get off, however his hold on your ankles arr too strong. He mumbles, "you smell so good. Let me have a taste, woman." You whimper and meekly say," you're such a perv." Lane smirks, his warm breath getting too close, "so is that a yes? I swear to go you women can never make up your minds." You nod, "mhm." Immediately Lane pulls off the pajama shorts your wearing and sticks out his tongue to lick at your clit. You let out a small mewl, and then a loud moan when he suddenly sucks on it instead. He starts to finger you at the same time, his cold long fingers sending a shiver down your spine. U lay your head down on his crotch, but suddenly feel his raging boner against your cheek. So u start to suck on it through his boxers. "Fuck, babe, don't be a tease," he mumbles as he continues to eat you out. He pulls out his wet, sticky fingers that were inside you just seconds ago and smears it against one of your ass cheeks, then proceeds to slap it. Leaving a big burning red hand mark. Meanwhile, you had pulled out his hard thick 8 inch cock that's already leaking shiny precum, which was dripping down to his piercing. You give small kisses and licks at his tip, making his dick slightly twitch and leak even more. "Fuck, I said stop being a damn tease you evil woman," Lane thrusts his hips up, pushing his cock into your mouth. "Mmmph!" you gag a bit on his cock, but continue to suck on it anyway; his cold dick piercing going up and down your tongue, while one of your hands fondles his balls. Lane sticks his tongue inside your dripping hole, both of you moaning over each other's pleasure. Until finally, your walls tighten around his tongue, and your moans vibrate around his cock. Lane's thrusts fasten, his cock bruising the roof and back of your mouth. You can feel his balls tighten and twitch in hands. With one final thrust of his hips and tongue, you guys both cum at the same time. You taste his thick cum explode in your mouth, forcing urself to swallow it all and at the same time you squirt all over Lane's tongue and face. Exhausted, Lane pulls you off him and lifts you up in his arms to the bathroom. Lane breaths out, "Fuck, that was so hot." He starts the shower, and you guys end up washing each other. Only for Lane's horny ass to get hard again, pushing you up against the shower walls. You feel his raging boner press against your ass, "Lane, I'm sore, I can't." Lane lets out a whimper and pouts, "But its a woman's duty to pleasure and serve their man." He slides his dick between your folds, and feels how wet your becoming again. You can help but let out another whimper and succumb to his horny antics once again.
Pairings: Lane x F!Reader.
Tags: Flirting, Teasing, Shotgun Kiss, established relationship,ย
Note: Sorry for being late for his birthday. I was so busy that I even forgot I had this sitting in my drafts since last year ayayaya. Sorry my baby birthday boy.
I included it with that fic I wrote for Lane - ๐๐๐ฐ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐จ๐ง ๐๐๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ฌ, because, well, you can treat it as a sneak peek, but itโs more of a standalone one-shot. I just wanted to write him something for his birthday at the time.
It has a shotgun kiss in it btw ๐
๐๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ
Lane is, by every known metric and definition, an absolute menace of a boyfriend. But he is still your boyfriend, so youโre stuck with him.
To be fair, he has been surprisingly well behaved ever since he managed to bag you. He actually toned down a lot of his usual antics because he knows you arenโt exactly thrilled to hear him rattle off twenty dumb jokes a minute.ย
You let a few things slide, but youโre still strict as hell with him. You are the definitive โtakes absolutely no bullshitโ type, and honestly? Sometimes you scare him. It is a terrifying, highly effective vibe that somehow turns him on and keeps him in line all at the same time.
So you sneer at him more. Wreck his entire existence if you want to. He is exactly where he wants to be, completely down bad and loving every second of it.
But right now? God damnit, you feel like actual trash because you are failing miserably at the whole girlfriend gig. You almost completely forgot his birthday. The only reason you even realized it was happening was because of a neon sticky note RJ slapped onto the schedule sheet in the storage room.ย
Working consecutive night shifts had completely fried your brain, turning your memory into a total amnesia mess. And since it was already late and you were stuck on the clock, it wasnโt exactly the ideal time to orchestrate a mind blowing birthday bash.
Knowing Lane, you totally expected him to throw a massive tantrum, sulk, or pout. His girlfriend forgetting his big day?ย
THAT IS UNACCEPTABLE.
Instead, the guy genuinely does not seem to care. He has zero shifts to give. He is being way more chill than usual and hasnโt even dropped a single passive-aggressive hint about it.ย
You canโt help but wonder if this is some twisted, high level psychological tactic to make you drown in your own guilt.ย
How is he not pressing you on this? This is the very first birthday he gets to celebrate with you, and you completely dropped the ball.ย
Is he secretly furious? You have no idea, but you know you need to fix this disaster immediately.ย
But you better come up with something to fix this mess ASAP because there is no way you are letting his birthday go by this pathetically.
And it does go by a little pathetically. Well, more boringly than pathetically
The two of you end up parked outside a random, dimly lit gas station, sharing cheap snacks and a couple of cans of lukewarm beer and soda. You bought them from RJโs store, and yes, you actually paid for them. The poor guyโs business is already declining so fast you didnโt feel like speedruning his bankruptcy by shoplifting.
Since you arenโt drinking tonight, the beer is strictly for Lane. You volunteered to play driver so he could enjoy himself, a gesture that earned you that signature, incredibly dumb smirk the second you suggested it.ย
Celebrate his birthday at this ungodly hour? The two of you should just be grateful there are still functioning streetlights on this block.
โSo this is your grand concept of celebrating a birthday.โ
He drops the snarky comment with a lazy grin. You want nothing more than to sigh heavily and shove his face away, but you actively restrain yourself. You are the one who forgot, so you are trying your absolute best not to be mean to him tonight.
โBear with me. Iโll make sure we have a much nicer date tomorrow,โ you answer quietly.
The smirk on his face only grows wider. It is so infuriating.ย
Why does he always look so incredibly punchable and highly kissable at the exact same time?ย
Like dude, pick a struggle.
Even before you dated him, you still thought he was obnoxious and lame. But unfortunately for your sanity, his face is 100% exactly your type, so you learned to mentally tune out everything coming out of his mouth and just pretend he is saying blah blah blah whatever while working together.
โIโm not complaining, though,โ he chuckles softly.ย
He cracks open a can of soda and holds it out to you. You take it from his hand, watching as he immediately grabs another can for himself.ย
When you raise your eyebrows at him, Lane just looks back at you before taking a small sip.
โWhat?โ he asks.
โYou said you hated that flavor.โ
You remember his weird, hyper-specific taste ratings for junk food very well. He has an incredibly critical scale for terrible gas station snacks.
โI like it fine,โ he deflects weakly while you smirk.
You smirk, leaning in to remind him of his own words. โYou literally told me last week that it tastes like medicine for a disease you donโt even have.โ
He groans, rolling his eyes. โOkay, fine, it tastes like cough syrup. So what?โ he argues in that dumb little annoying tone again.
โIโd rather stay sober so I can hear you sing me a birthday song loud and clear.โ
You watch the curve of his lips slowly pull into a wider grin, and immediately you know he has another stupid idea brewing in his head. Every time that smirk appears, it is basically a warning sign.
He starts humming a terrible rendition of the tune, leaning way too close to your personal space. Frustrated, you plant a hand on his face and shove him away.ย
He just laughs, a loud, genuine sound that echoes into the cold, dark emptiness of the night as he looks out into the distance.
You reach into your pocket and pull out your cigarette pack, only to find a single, lonely cigarette left inside. Your lucky one.ย
You slide it out of the empty cardboard.
โLane,โ you call out.
His attention snaps right back to you. If you are being completely honest, Laneโs attention never actually drifts away from you, even when he pretends it does. He is always listening. He is honestly way more sensitive and observant than anyone else youโve ever met.ย
One minute he is a goofy, hyperactive idiot, and the next he can spiral into a total brooding mess.ย
He is a difficult person to handle, but who is not?You arenโt exactly a walk in the park either. You two are just perfectly imperfect for each other.
โMake a wish.โย
You continue when he raises his eyebrows in confusion.
โIs this some kind of inside joke Iโm missing?โ he asks skeptically in that permanently irritated tone of his while you roll your eyes.
โThere are no bakeries open at midnight, so I canโt get you a cake. Consider this your birthday candle.โ
You explain while holding up the cigarette.
Lane lets out a mocking, irritated huff of a laugh.ย
โShouldโve figured. Especially after you aggressively slapped my hand away at the cashier earlier.โย
He suddenly shifts his voice into a high pitched, incredibly obnoxious mockery of yours. โItโs your birthday, asshole, you said.โย
He cracks up at his own impression, thoroughly amused with himself.ย
โWow. Do I feel loved.โ
You sigh again, the guilt creeping back in. He is being so casual about this whole disaster, which almost makes you feel worse, but you can tell he genuinely doesnโt think this is a bad night.ย
You remember him mentioning once that he never really cared about his birthdays anyway.
And honestly, you kind of get it.
Your family was never really the celebrating type either. Most of your birthdays passed exactly like any other normal day. Just another Thursday.
Still, you have a brother, and you always made sure there was at least some kind of celebration for him even if it was nothing fancy.
Cheap junk food. Ice cream. Bags of chips. Cans of cheap beer the two of you secretly stole from the convenience store near your house.
Not exactly a heartwarming Hallmark birthday special, but at least it was something.
โWell, it is my lucky cigarette. So yes, you are indeed loved by me,โ you say, cocking an eyebrow.
The unlit cigarette rests between your fingers. Laneโs eyes flick from your face down to the tobacco, a slow, amused smile spreading across his lips.
โFor the record,โ he says casually, โthis is the worst birthday party I have ever had.โ
You know he does not mean it. Lane just has that stupid way of joking around, and it barely affects you anymore when you already know half the things coming out of his mouth directly contradict whatever is actually happening inside his head.
And you can see that faint pink tint creeping across his face the second you say you love him.
He is a terrible liar, and you can see right through him, but if you call him out on it, he might just dissolve into some embarrassed, flustered puddle, so you keep quiet about it instead.
Besides, you have plenty of time to bully him about it later. He cannot cover it up with alcohol or some shit either, because he has not touched a single drop.
As for Lane, he is staring because he knows that one small habit of yours. You never really hide it, but to him it feels like something that has been with you for a very long time now.ย
Every time you get down to the last cigarette in a packet, you always make a wish before lighting it up.
At first, he did not really care. Then, slowly, it turned into curiosity, wondering why you did that.ย
And then weirdly jealous because where the hell and from whom did you even learn a habit like that?
His brain came up with every possible scenario. Some ex. Some charismatic asshole you used to date. Somebody memorable enough that their habits still stuck to you years later even when you claimed it had been forever since your last relationship.
Back then he was just your annoying dumbass coworker, so he had zero right to ask about it.ย
But later, when he found out it actually came from your father, he felt weirdly relieved.
You told him your dad was not exactly a great father figure, but sometimes the man had this strange, dark sense of humor that still lingered in your life even after you left home the second you hit adulthood.
โYouโve had worse.โ
You commented softly, your voice cutting through the quiet night and dragging Lane back from whatever distant land his mind was wandering off to.
Your words anchored him, pulling his attention right back to the present as his gaze locked onto yours again. He looked at you for a brief, heavy second.
He looks at you for a moment, only a brief second. โYeah,โ he spoke up, his voice dropping a fraction. โI had.โ
The atmosphere shifted, brushing against a topic a little too sensitive for a birthday, and you immediately wanted to distract him from whatever bad memories were trying to creep in.
โSo this is what you get, Lane.โ
You urge him as You lean closer while speaking, trying to pull him away from whatever ugly memory started creeping up his head. Somehow, Lane instinctively follows your movement, mirroring you and leaning closer too.
โBirthday boy gets to blow the candle,โ you say with a smile, emphasizing every word.
โYou want me to blow on a cigarette.โ
Oh, he felt so incredibly coy correcting you, didnโt he?
You couldnโt help it, you reached out and pinched his cheek. It was just hard enough to make him let out a sharp yelp.
โI want you to shut up, close your eyes, and make a wish like a normal person,โ you repeat while staring at him.
His cold blue eyes settle onto you again.
They seem to seep into every corner of you whenever he looks at you like that. Even when he stays quiet, his eyes always seem to hold a thousand stories inside them.
He just keeps looking at you, much longer than usual. The kind of look that makes your stomach flip because Lane was never really a looker. Well, that is not entirely true. You always feel his eyes on you because subtlety has never once existed inside this manโs body.
But when it comes to staring contests, he has never been able to win against you. He always drops his gaze far too quickly. He is a floor-staring, wall-gazing kind of man, someone who keeps himself carefully hidden behind stupid jokes and cocky smirks.
But you know Lane. He is such a dishonest bastard sometimes. He bottles everything up until the pressure explodes so violently you barely get time to prepare for it.
So when he lets himself do this, holding your gaze longer than he usually can. It means he is giving in a little.
You notice his lashes flutter slightly before he finally closes his eyes.
Those bright blue eyes disappear behind his eyelids while he shifts closer, and your smile grows softer at the sight.
Despite laughing at you earlier, he is taking this way more seriously than you expected.
And when he finally opens his eyes again, meeting yours with that deep ocean stare, you cannot help smiling wider.
โHappy birthday, Lane. Hope all your wishes come true, dumbass.โ
You speak softly, and his lips curve into a deeper smile.
He looks so stupid, so ridiculous, and somehow so stupidly charming all at once.
That rough, boyish edge to his smile mixed with the slightly disheveled state of his hair from sitting out beneath the night wind. The way his laughter spills softly into the cold air.
It is such a rare sight, seeing Lane without his usual cocky, irritated smirk, so you let him be. Let him laugh quietly to himself until his attention slowly anchors back onto you once more.
โYouโre nicer than usual, sis.โ
He teases you again with that nickname.ย
You almost want to punch him for real this time because he really has a talent for killing emotional moments the second he gets embarrassed.
And judging by the slight redness tinting the tips of his ears, yeah, he is definitely embarrassed.
But instead of saying anything, you pull the lighter from your hoodie pocket and flick it open.
The warm orange glow spills softly across the space between the two of you, lighting every feature on his face more clearly. The flame dances in the blue of his eyes, cold ocean shades mixed with warm amber light, creating a contrast so beautiful it almost feels like the fire could melt straight through his endless blue sky.
The light paints his features so delicately that it almost feels like the world itself loves him, kissing every detail of his face. For a second you feel irrationally jealous of literally everything around him.
Because seriously, when Lane shuts the hell up, he is unfairly pretty.
You place the cigarette between your fingers against his lips.
For a brief moment, he hesitates, but slowly leans forward and takes it. The soft friction of his lips brushes against your fingers. The night air is cold but still heavy with humidity, and somehow his breath and that featherlight touch are enough to make you feel like you are burning.
And he lingers there, not pulling away even after you move your hand back to shield the flame from the wind. You press the lighter gently against the tip of the cigarette, burning it into a soft reddish glow that flickers quietly in the dark.
The old porch lamp above you buzzes and flickers like it might die any second. The light from the cigarette feels so small, like a cherry resting on top of a cheap whipped cream cake. Somehow, though, it is enough to illuminate the entire space between the two of you.
And throughout the entire process, Laneโs eyes never once leave you.
His eyes stay fixed on you. Every tiny movement.
The way your fingers shift.
The subtle movement of your body leaning closer.
The wind brushing loose strands of your hair across your face.
Even the way your breathing lingers near him.
Like he is trying to memorize every single part of you all at once.
โโชโนโโกโ
And that tangy scent fills his lungs so familiarly.
You changed the brand you smoke because your favorite got discontinued. And even when Lane only smokes occasionally, he somehow misses that scent just as much as you do.
It feels strangely wrong not having that sour sweet cherry scent lingering around while he works, or when he steals a few drags from you.ย
Because he never actually finishes a cigarette himself. He always takes one or two drags before handing it back to you, telling you to finish it, when clearly he is the one borrowing from you.
What a sneaky, shameless thief he is.
And he misses that signature scent on you. It used to carve so deeply into every part of you.ย
Your hair, your collar, the sleeves of your shirt.ย
Somehow it always ended up clinging on to him too.
Do you know there were nights when he did not want to change his shirt because the lingering scent reminded him too much of you?
You think there is a reason he always hangs around whenever you smoke even when he never asks for one?
You have no idea how many times he fantasized about you long before you even noticed his awkward, messy attempts at flirting.
He is pathetic. A desperate loser. He knows that already.ย
Hell, he still does not know how he actually managed to bag you.
Sometimes he genuinely feels like the luckiest man alive.
You told him to make a wish, but he did not make one because he never believed in any of that bullshit.ย
He made plenty of birthday wishes when he was younger, and none of them ever came true.ย
But with you, it feels like he does not need to wish for anything anymore because somehow it always finds its way to him anyway.
You make him see and feel things he never even knew he wanted.
And weirdly enough, he does not hate it at all.
After taking one or two drags and exhaling that soft bergamot scent into the cold air, he realizes you really do like sour flavors in your cigarettes. Somehow, this scent feels much heavier and tangier than your old signature one.
But for some reason, he thinks it suits you even more.
Those Hellspits feel like frayed old memories you still try to hold close. Nostalgia, maybe. But it does not really suit you anymore, does it?
He actually likes the taste of Cindervein much better.ย
At first, it took him a while to adjust and get used to it.
Somehow you changing brands feels like you are finally leaving those old memories behind instead of crumbling yourself apart trying to piece them back together again. Like you finally let go of things that used to hurt you.
And for some reason, that gives him more relief than it even gives you.
Because in your past, there was never any sign of him.
But in your present, he is everywhere, and he intends to make sure he stays in your future too.
Jesus Christ!!
That sounds so fucking corny and cheesy.ย
No way he would ever admit something like that out loud to you.
But maybe you are sharp enough to notice that already.
Oh, Lane. You can never hide anything with a face that expressive. Dumb boy.
โWhat are you thinking?โ
You take a sip from your soda before placing the cigarette against your lips again, dragging in that heavy scent as you enjoy the feeling.
Of the smoke drifts slowly through your lungs, warm and comforting, making your shoulders relax slightly.
Do you even realize the effect you have on him?
His eyes lock intensely onto the cigarette between your fingers. He is still lingering on that brief brush of his lips against your fingertips earlier.
And now you are placing your mouth right where he justโฆ
Ughhhhhhh!!!!!
Why is he acting like a fucking virgin right now when he absolutely is not?
The two of you have done far more intimate things than this, and somehow one tiny movement from you is still enough to make him feel like he is sitting right on the edge of losing his mind.
Heat creeps from the back of his neck up to his face and ears. He can feel it clearly, and he knows you can see it too. Your lips slowly curl into such a knowing smile while the veil of gray smoke softens your gaze between the two of you, like a thin curtain hovering quietly in the space separating you.
โI just think itโd be funny if you sang me a birthday song right now.โ
You nearly choke on your smoke as you sit up straight, coughing slightly while he gives you that mischievous, devious look.
โI didnโt agree to that.โ
You quickly lower the cigarette over the soda can because there is absolutely no way you are embarrassing yourself further tonight.
He has way too many ridiculous ideas in his head sometimes. Half the time you cannot even keep up with them.
โItโs my birthday. You owe me that much.โ
He leans back slightly, resting his hands behind him against the stone surface.
โIโm not gonna sing in a gas station parking lot, Lane.โ
You emphasize every word while his eyebrows pull together into a slight frown, his lips turning downward too.
โWow. Thatโs a lot coming from someone who claims to love me.โ
Oh, he is absolutely doing this on purpose.ย
Speaking so casually, but you can hear the sulking hidden underneath every word.
โForgot my birthday and now refusing to sing me a birthday song.โ
He teases while his gaze settles back onto your face again. You kick lightly at his leg, but he quickly pulls away before you can reach him properly.
โFine!โ
You sigh heavily while glaring at him.
And the asshole looks way too satisfied with himself.
He crosses his arms over his chest and leans back against the seat with the most devious grin imaginable, like he is fully prepared to sit there and watch you publicly humiliate yourself for his entertainment.
โโชโนโโกโ
Did you sing him a birthday song?
Yes.
Did you enjoy it?ย
Absolutely not.
Did Lane enjoy it?ย
Oh, absolutely. The asshole even recorded you!!
That was so fucking terrible because not only did he record it, he also started criticizing your singing technique afterward like he was suddenly some version of Michael Jackson.
โThat was terrible. Youโre fired as my birthday bard.โ
He manages to get the words out between his laughter because he is literally clutching his stomach, trying not to fall off the bench.
Meanwhile, you are one second away from grabbing him by the shoulders and shaking him violently.
โShut up. And you canโt fire me either.โย
You snap back, slightly offended, while he finally manages to calm himself down enough to breathe properly again.
Though his laughter still echoes through the empty parking lot, you can almost see tears gathering in the corners of his eyes. Yeah, right. At least those still count as happy tears.ย
You do not say anything else after that. Instead, you pick up the half-finished cigarette from earlier and take another slow drag from it.
Lane tilts his head while watching you, resting his knuckles beneath his chin before making another comment.
โYouโre gonna burn a hole in your lungs someday.โ
โDidnโt know you were a doctor now, Lane.โ
You assume it is just another one of his usual dumb jokes, so you casually throw the sarcasm back at him, but this time he seems a little too serious.
โIโm just a concerned boyfriend.โ
And you have no idea how to answer that.
Most of your exes never gave a single fuck whether you smoked or not. They barely cared when you were drinking yourself into oblivion half the time.
But seeing Lane worried about you feels strangely unfamiliar.
Though, to be fair, he has always shown affection in unusual ways.
โAre you worried about me?โ
You ask teasingly while he rubs the back of his head awkwardly, shifting his gaze away from you.
โAm I not being clear enough?โ he mutters quietly.
You look at him for a moment.
From this angle, you can only see part of his side profile, the reddened tip of his ear, and the messy dark curls falling over his forehead.
God, you really want to laugh.
Or maybe aggressively hug him.
Mostly because he is being so painfully obvious right now, and Lane absolutely hates when you point out his emotions directly.
โLane.โ
You call his name softly, and he turns slightly to look at you again.
โIโll quit.โ
His eyes widen immediately into the most ridiculous expression.
โBoth the store job and the smoking,โ you clarify again as his eyes slowly narrow at you suspiciously.
The job part is not exactly news.
He already knows you are leaving the store job soon. You have always talked openly about it. Truthfully, Lane feels the same way, he has similar plans himself. He has already found someone to replace him once he quits too.
That new girl can handle herself pretty well now, and having another reliable worker around would make things easier for her. Neither of you has hidden those plans from each other. It has been decided for quite a while already.
You both knew this was coming.
โThatโs a lot of bullshit coming from you.โ
Still, Lane sounds deeply skeptical about the smoking part.
You just laugh quietly and lean a little closer toward him.
โI used to be in rehab. Cigarettes are nothing compared to that.โ
You rest your hand gently against the back of his neck, and the moment your cold fingers touch his skin, he flinches slightly.
You can feel goosebumps rising beneath your fingertip.
Cute
You softly laugh under your breath.
Why is he still so nervous around you after all this time?
Or maybe your hands are just freezing enough to startle him.
At first, he says nothing.
The silence stretches quietly between the two of you while his eyes wander across your face. From your eyes, to the cigarette between your fingers, and then finallyโฆ Settle on your lips.
โHave faith in your girlfriend, Lane.โ
You slip your hand away, planning to put the cigarette out inside your soda can, but his large hand reached out and caught your wrist.
Your brows lift slightly in confusion.
Did he not just say he was worried about your health?
You watched as his long, pale fingers smoothly slid the cigarette out of your grip and into his own. It fits so naturally between his pale fingers that it almost feels like it belongs there.
You look up at him while he slowly brings it to his lips.
The cigarette presses softly against his mouth, and his icy blue gaze never leaves yours for even a second.ย
They stay locked onto yours like he is planning something.
There is something unreadable sitting under his expression.
He takes one deep inhale, smoke filling his lungs slowly while you remain still, waiting to see whatever ridiculous thing he is about to do.
And before you can even process it properly, his hand slides to the side of your face, cradling the back of your head. In one fluid motion, he pulled you in while leaning closer himself.
He pressed his soft lips right over yours, catching you entirely off guard as he opened his mouth slightly to claim yours.
The heat of his lip hit you instantly, a sharp and intoxicating contrast to the freezing night air.
The smoke lingers between both your breaths, that gray veil that always seemed to drift between the two of you now tangling around your bodies instead, wrapping you together beneath the flickering gas station light.
He let the smoke escape from his lips right into yours, a shared, breathless exhale that tasted entirely of him, blending the sharp, familiar bitterness of tobacco with the sudden, sugary rush of that artificial soda.
You felt the warmth of his face so close to yours. His eyes closed slowly, though that lingering, intense blue gaze felt like it was still burned into the back of your mind even as his long eyelashes brushed against your skin.
Your vision blurred out completely.ย
It wasnโt just from the rising smoke or the tangy, sour scent of the tobacco, but from the crushing intimacy of how he was holding you. Laneโs lips were soft, parting further as his tongue slid forward to seek yours out.ย
He didnโt just kiss you, he consumed you, his tongue tracing the smooth line of your teeth before intertwining with yours in a slow, rhythmic dance that made your chest ache with fierce heat.
Why is it so gentle and so lingering tonight?ย
Like he wants to savor every second of this.
He kissed you with a sudden, deep hunger, but it was anchored by a tenderness you had never really felt from him before.ย
His large hand remained anchored on the side of your face, his thumb stroking your cheekbone while the cigarette still burned between his fingers.ย
The sharp and smoky aroma seeped vividly into the air around you, tying you two together in the quiet night.ย
His long fingers gently pressed against your jaw, his grip remained firm but careful as he angled your face up slightly so he could get better access to your lips and your tongue, so he could draw you into a deeper, wetter rhythm
He sucked softly on your lower lip, tugging it between his teeth with a gentle, agonizing friction that made a quiet gasp hitch in your throat, allowing him to deepen the kiss even further. His warm breath and radiating body temperature completely enveloped you.
You just let him kiss you like that, melting into a sense of profound longing. It felt as if he believed that after tonight, he might never get to taste you again.
Did telling him you were quitting smoking really affect him that much?
Why?
You never thought of smoking as something deeply sentimental, signature aspect of your life. You had already planned on quitting eventually anyway.ย
It was just a habit you picked up from the people around you growing up. From old friends. Old versions of yourself. From pieces of your childhood stitched together into something messy and unhealthy.
But maybe Lane sees it differently.
Maybe to him, it feels like you are leaving behind another piece of yourself.
To abandon something that had been with you for so long, present in so many chapters of your life, it was a sacred ritual. It needed a proper mourning. And maybe this is his weird, emotional little way of saying goodbye to it.
The kiss grew deeper with each passing second, becoming heavy and desperate as his tongue stroked against yours, tasting the dark, bittersweet hint and the sour aroma that somehow tasted way better when tangled in his mouth.ย
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his hoodie as you pull him closer, feeling his other hand finally settle carefully against your waist.
Your arms moved to wrap around his neck smoothly, a motion so natural it felt like you had done it a hundred times before. Lane dropped the cigarette to the ground, entirely abandoning it to free his hands so he could hold you properly.
He pulled you flush against his chest, wrapping his arms around you as if he wanted to cradle you right there in the dark, as if he wanted to press his body so tightly against yours that you would carve directly into his heart and let you sink deeply into him forever. Where nothing else can ever take you away.ย
Suddenly the kiss feels less like desire and more like desperation.
When he finally pulled away, a thin, silver string of saliva lingered between your lips in the dim light.ย
His breathing is uneven now and so is yours.
And before you can even recover properly, Lane stuck his tongue out and licked your lower lip softly, catching the stray moisture, as if he still wasnโt satisfied, as if that devastating taste wasnโt enough to appease the impatient, needy man he truly was beneath all his bravado. That restless part of him he always tries to hide.
One taste still is not enough for him.
He is still greedy for more.
He presses his forehead against yours afterward, messy strands of his dark hair brushing against your skin lightly.
Your hand drifts to the back of his neck again. You lightly scratch against his skin just to tease him.
You know exactly how sensitive he is there.
You feel the quiet shiver run through him while he exhales a low laugh against your face.
And honestly, you enjoy tormenting him with it.
Testing his patience while pressing soft kisses against the side of his face.
โWas that your wish?โ you asked quietly, your breath still slightly off-rhythm.
A deep chuckle rumbles from his chest.
You are not entirely sure if he is laughing at himself or at how stupidly sentimental the moment sounds.
โNo,โ he answers softly before nuzzling his face against yours again.
Your fingers slide gently into his curls, brushing through his hair while he practically melts against you.
He feels like some oversized clingy dog desperate for affection.
And the second you pet him gently, a low satisfied sound rumbles from his chest.
He laughs softly under his breath while your fingers continue moving through his hair.
โYou said youโd quit smoking.โ
He mentioned again, lifting his head slightly so his eyes could lock onto yours.
โThen do it as my birthday gift next year.โ
His voice comes out so clear and sincere that it catches you completely off guard. And every word sinks deep into your chest.
You freeze for a second and suddenly you understand this is not really about cigarettes.
It is about him wanting you here next year. And the year after that. And every year after that too.
The silence stretches too long, and slowly you see something fragile creep into his expression.
The teasing confidence disappears completely, leaving behind somethingโฆ melancholy.
He looked exactly like a pathetic puppy drenched under the rain.
Your chest aches immediately at his expression.ย
โFine,โ you whisper softly when you see that look on his face. โI promise.โ
His eyes flicker slightly.
โIโll celebrate your next birthday too,โ you continue quietly while cupping his face between your hands. โAnd the next one. And the next one after that too.โ
You press small kisses all over his face between your words, laughing softly when you feel the faint dampness against his skin.
Normally, Lane would complain about how cheesy and gross you are before hiding his face somewhere out of embarrassment.
But tonight he does not pull away.
Tonight he just stays there quietly, letting you hold him, letting you kiss him, while his soft laughter echoes through the empty parking lot beneath the dim flickering lights.
And somehow, in that moment, you realize something.
Maybe whatever wish Lane made tonight already came true after all.
Summary: As if you'd ever fall for Lane, yet you have. The realization dawns on you and with how Lane's acting he might also want more than just a fuck. Is it meant to be?
TW: Slightly suggestive, Lane being himself (a little sexist and an asshole), mainly fluff (?)
There's something wrong with you, you're sure of it. There's no way the thoughts you're having would be there to begin with if you were fine. After all, Lane is the last person who you would've thought would occupy your mind.
He's lazy, dumb, sexist, a fucking dick - he's Lane. He's not a knight in shining armor and he's certainly not one for romance. He'd rather lick the bathroom floor at Mad Dog than express his feelings. And despite all that, he's all you can think of. Day, night, evening, fuck it - even when you're sleeping. You've even begun checking your phone for messages from him, no matter how stupid.
It's worse when you're at shifts.
His inky black hair tousled as he downs yet another redbull, not even sparing you a glance as he swears at the Snake game he's playing. The way his smoky yet icy blue eyes narrow at the game as if it's rigged before catching your stare. You can't help but blush at how you've been caught, again, staring at him mid-shift. Fuck. He's a cunt, really, grinning from ear to ear with the sleaziest smirk you've ever seen. His eyes darken with amusement as he holds your gaze and you find yourself unable to look away. Not to mention, unable to say anything other than incoherent mumbles.
"No girl words left?"
He's cocky, a fucking asshole. He doesn't deserve half the thoughts you spend on him, yet you can't do anything. And he's right, you don't have any "girl words" left to say. You grumble before rolling your eyes, trying to save your dignity as you swipe the mop from next to him before heading out of the stockroom.
"What? Not gonna say anything?"
You hear his voice trailing after you and then footsteps, followed by shuffling. You only make it to the rusty old door, about to open it - only for him to grab your arm and twirl you around. It's almost romantic, like one of those cheesy rom-coms or dramas. Almost. And then you realize it's Lane, all arrogant and childish at the same fucking time. Needless to say any dreams of a perfect princess romance leave your body in an instant.
"Lane, unlike you I have work to do. Someone's gotta pull their weight here otherwise RJ's gonna eat us alive-"
"The shift can wait. There's no customers, it's another fucking storm outside."
You raise your brow at his words, shifting and pulling your arm from his grip - he's stronger than he lets on. Your mop lies on the floor long forgotten, and all you hear is the whirring of machines and the drip-drop of rain.
You wanna say something, tell him to fuck off - that he's lazy and doesn't deserve to waste your time. That even BB is better than him. But you can't, you don't. He shifts closer and you notice how much taller he is than you, then his breath and finally how he's caged you against the old door.
And suddenly everything feels hot.
"I bet biker boy doesn't make you blush like this. He can't."
The jealousy in his voice is evident, followed by a "Tch". It's as if he's saying "I'm better, I actually care". He eyes you up and down and you wanna brush him off, saying he's a pervert and that staring at a girls tits isn't cute or swoon-worthy. But he's not staring at your boobs. He's staring at you, your eyes.
"You're pretty, y'know? Really pretty."
He says while simultaneously leaning closer, hot breath fanning your ear. One hand falls on your face, caressing the line of your jaw.
"Lane, stop being a creep-"
"You'e not pulling away though.."
He's right, you're not. Shamelessly you're leaning into his touch. His lips curve into one of his lazy smiles, eyes sharp. His lips lazily graze your nape, as if he's peppering it with kisses.
"The store can wait. We can have another date, pretty. Just you and me and our stockroom. We've got everything we need."
It's only when he inches even closer, a little more and he'd be kissing you, that you tilt your head to the side despite how your heart tells you not to.
"Lane...stop being stupid."
"I'm not, but if you want me to stop.."
There's silence between the two of you, neither want the moment to end - one's too shy while the other's too shameless. Neither knows if the feelings are real. One's scared of being played and the other's scared of being tossed aside. But both of them want it, the moment to last longer.
He moves away from you, his fingers brushing your cheek a moment longer than necessary. You miss the heat immediately, but you're relieved. You're not sure what the both of you are. You're not sure what he wants. You don't want just a fling, you don't want it to mean nothing so you shy away - he says he loves you randomly, you're not sure how much you trust it. You're not sure how much you trust yourself.
You stay in the same spot for a beat before bending down to pick up the mop and go along on your merry way.
He whistles. Actually fucking wolf whistles.
"Nice ass."
And here you were overthinking weather he actually cared. You laugh at yourself for the silly thought before walking out of the room without engaging with him.
Lane watches the door close behind you, the sound of your softer footsteps slowly fading. He settles back down on a carton of who knows what, opening up the game he was playing. Yet, he can't focus.
Somedays you're the only thing that he knows, the only thing that's warm. He can't look away from you, not when you call him dumb and not when you're flustered. He knows he's not the "perfect man", he doesn't wanna be all that. No one's worth all that effort, not after his ex fucked him over.
But then there's you. He wants to try for you. He wants to be dependable, he wants to be more than your dumb co-worker with unfunny jokes. He wants you under him. He wants you beside him, listening to all that he has to say and all that he won't admit. He wants you on him, cupping his face. He wants to melt into you.
He wants to give it a chance and then keep you forever. He wants to feel the bite of your words when you scold him, if only to make him feel alive. He wants you to comfort him like a toddler, if only to feel like someone cares. He wants it all but he's scared - scared of getting attached and you leaving, scared of hurting you in the process of his own dilemma, scared that you won't speak to him again.
And he knows what's going on. The word itches the back of his throat, refusing to come out - "love".
He hates this fluffy feeling because he knows exactly what it is. He knows how vulnerable it can make him. It's one thing to fuck you, not that he has, and another to want it to mean something. It's one thing to say he loves you and another to actually follow suit - because he is. He's drowning in his own cowardice, drowning in the fact that you shy away.
His hands brush through his hair, the space in the stockroom feeling cramped, his leg tapping the floor again and again.
It's not long before he too walks out, his eyes settling on you mopping the floor. He can't help but smile then look away, only to look back at you. He wants to make a crude comment, maybe to push you away so you don't even think about falling for him. He can't afford to lose something he wants so badly, so it's better to not try at all.
But his mouth betrays him and he starts a conversation anyway.
"Whoa there Cinderella, you're gonna make me feel mean for not doing shit."
He says from behind the counter, catching your attention as you slowly turn around. The store is bare, not a single soul other than you and him. With how shit the weather is outside you doubt any customer will drop by.
"Yeah? Well you can try to help. Yapping isn't gonna clean the floors."
Your tone starts off irritated before you let out a sigh, knowing he won't do shit. And he proves you wrong once more because all of a sudden he's next to you, grabbing the mop from your hand.
"Yeah? You sure?"
You're silent, a frown on your lips - you don't even want him to do anything because you know he's doing it to be closer to you. You're not sure why and you don't wanna know. The fear of being pushed aside gnaws at you. What if it's not meant to be?
"Lane, mopping the already-mopped-floors isn't gonna do shit."
You words ring through the empty store as you reach for the mop, only for him to pull it further back. It's then that you notice how you're losing balance and hitting his chest. Maybe you're living in a rom-com, that's the only explanation. That, or the small puddle of soapy water underneath you. Maybe mopping a bit more would help.
"Thought I told you not to fall for me? Guess it's that hard when I'm in front of you."
He says, his hand grabbing your waist and stabilizing you. He looks in your eyes, his own expression as empty as usual before his eyes land on your lips.
"Still not gonna kiss me? You prefer that biker bitch, is that it?"
He's so rude but you can't help but laugh a little at his pettiness. You're not sure what comes over you when the next words leave your lips.
"you sure you could handle just kissing me? Once you do, there's no going back."
Now it's your turn to watch how a rosy blush blooms on his face, baby blue eyes widening when you hand slides down his hard chest in slow circles.
Maybe you're just two fools in love. As fate calls its, so it willbe. There's only so much flirting left till you end up in his bed and arms. It's guaranteed that when you do, he's not letting go.
You'll be his Cinderella then and he your..not prince charming for sure. Just Lane. He'll stay the same old Lane. That's just how he is, but now with a second piece. His own version of a soulmate, a lover.
Just lane and his girl.
Note: Lane is NOT my character but one from the AMAZING GAME "Big Bad Dogs" by @where-spar0w-barks. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING THIS GAME, I AM OBSESSED!!!
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summary: in which, you take care of draco when he gets drunk.
tags/warning: fluff, aged up characters, mentions of alcohol, domestic fluff, marriage, established relationship, indication of semi nudity, grammar.
a/n: my first draco fic! havenโt been online much, iโve been feeling unwell recently... anyways this is definitely better in my head :โ) enjoy xoxo bella
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โcan i come witโ you?โ draco murmured with his face buried in the crook of your neck. his words came muffled against your skin and sent a tingle down your spine.
by the time the both of you stumbled through the front door, one of his shoes was already missing. he probably lost it somewhere between the cobblestone streets where heโd insisted on stopping to kiss you under a flickering streetlamp.
โyes, dray, you can come with me. weโre already here,โ you said breathlessly, trying to shove the door shut with your hip whilst holding most of dracoโs weight in your arms.
โmhmm, youโre warmโ he made a pleased little sound against your skin and dropped his forehead heavily onto your shoulder.ย
now, it didnโt help that draco malfoy got extra clingy around you whenever he was drunk. and to be completely honest, you were enjoying it more than anything. there was always something about being able to hold him close and taking care of him in a way he would never fully allow when he was fully in control.
you liked how he leaned into you without hesitation and trusting you enough to let his guard drop so that you could see the vulnerable side he kept hidden from everyone else.
he always found his way back to you. every. single. time.
his cold fingers somehow managed to find their way beneath the hem of your shirt to settle at your waist, holding on as though you might vanish if he let go. wrapped around you, the blend of his expensive cologne and firewhisky made everything felt pleasantly lightheaded.
draco made no effort to hold himself up and instead, started rambling incoherently about mattheo owing him money before losing track of his own sentence. he kept on leaning shamelessly against you as you guided him down the hallway with both hands still braced at his waist.ย
โyโsleepinโ with me tโnight?โ he slurred as you guided him into your shared bedroom and eased him down onto the bed.
โi am, dray,โ you said as you brushed the blond strands away from his forehead. his cheeks were still flushed pink, and his grey eyes had gone visibly heavy with sleep, blinking slower by the second.ย
he let out a quiet hum at you, shoulders loosening into the mattress. his hand lifted sluggishly and searched blindly for you until his fingers found yours and curled them in his bigger one lazily.ย
โgood,โ he mumbled. โhate wakinโ up without you,โ
your chest tightened. even in the state of half asleep and drunk, draco could still say things that made your heart start beating rapidly.
โthe things you would do,โ you muttered, letting go of his fingers and finally tugging off his remaining shoe, setting them aside. โdrinking yourself senseless over some ridiculous bet with mattheo,โ
draco cracked one eye open, โstill won,โ he informed as the corner of his lips raised softly.ย
you shook your head, trying not to smile as you reached to unbutton his linen white shirt. your fingers worked them open one by one while draco watched through half-lidded eyes, not wanting to miss the way the moonlight caught softly along the soft curve of your face.
the white shirt slid off his arms easily, leaving him shivering as the lingering cold clung to his bare pale skin. draco made no move to help and only tipped his head back further against the pillows and let you fuss over his belt and trousers before carefully taking them off.
โcomfortable there?โ you murmured dryly as you stood.ย
โmmm,โ draco hummed softly as he watched you make your way to the walk-in wardrobe.ย
after a moment, you came back with a fresh set of comfortable clothes for him.
he gave you the faintest smile as he noticed you had changed into a baby pink pyjama shorts and his white t-shirt that looked way too large for you. still, draco always adored you whenever you wore his clothesโyou made them look better, he said.
โcโmere,โ you climbed onto the bed next to him and tugged him upright gently. he let you pull him closer until he was finally sitting properly. surprisingly enough, he complied without protest tonight.ย
you guided him to lift both of his arms and pull the clean shirt down over his head.ย for a moment, he disappeared beneath it, then re-emerged with pale hair even messier than before. you smoothed the shirt down his chest as he watched your hands the entire time until they settled on his lap.
โup,โ you said low enough for him to hear and gave his thigh a light tap.
a crooked smile found its way onto dracoโs face at your command, but he still did it anyway. draco wouldnโt admit it loud, but he found it extremely hot when you took charge like that.ย
he lifted his hips just enough to make it easier for you to slide the new pants into place, and shivered faintly when your fingers brushed against the side of his shin.
โthere, feel better now?โ you said quietly once his pants were on properly and adjusted the waistband into place while his eyes stayed on you with a steady focus.ย
โdโyou know youโve got the prettiest face ever?โ he murmured, completely ignoring your question.
a soft laugh slipped out of you before you could stop it. โwell, itโs a good thing you tell me that every day,โ
โi do?โ he asked, catching your wrist, before you could even answer and tugged you down to his side on the mattress. draco didnโt waste a second when he finally had you close. though, in truth, he hadnโt left your side just a few hours ago at the reunion party with your friends from hogwartsโnot even once.ย
he loved how easily your face always seemed to settle against his neck like a missing piece finding its place.
you reached to cradle his face in one hand while your other one laced with his. leaning in, you pressed a quick kiss on his lips.
โmm, you promised me that in your vows, baby,โ you giggled, peppering more kisses along his jaw.
despite the alcohol, a moment of realization finally struck draco. his gaze dropped to your intertwined fingers; and thatโs when he noticed the delicate diamond ring sitting proudly on your fourth finger. the very same one he had chosen with his dear mother a few years ago.
he observed the way the band encircled your finger quietly, reminding him the truth that he had chosen, again and again; that you were his wife. a promise he had made and never once let go of, and never would.
his hand stilled for a moment before his thumb began to move and fiddled with the ring, turning it ever so slightly. draco toyed with it gently. the band shifted slightly beneath his touch until his thumb caught on something carved into the inside of the ring.
Eternally Yours.
his breath hitched softly as he pulled you closer. before you could even settle, draco shifted with ease. he rolled you gently beneath him until your back was pressed against the surface of the warm sheets and hovered over you instead.
merlin, his stormy grey eyes looked even more beautiful from this sight.
draco looked at you for a moment before leaning in and pressing his lips to yours. it was slow and deep. your fingers immediately found their place around his neck, brushing against the platinum curls at his nape.
when he finally pulled back, his forehead pressed on yours and his lips brushed against your mouth.
โmeans iโve been doing it right, yeah?โ he whispered, kissing your forehead. โbut darling, above all things, i want you to know thisโeven without any promise between us, iโd still look at you and let you know how beautiful you truly are. thatโs simply the truth, baby,โ
his hand reached up and brushed a couple strands of hair out of your face. what draco said was true. even when he was intoxicated with firewhisky, he always meant it. hell, he wouldโve told the entire world how much he loved you and that you were the prettiest thing to be alive.
you smiled softly, before pulling him back in and kissed him again with more passion this time.
So you mean to tell me that just by reblogging this Iโm ruining an organizations plan, wasting them money, and uncovering some shitbag humans awful behaviour?
