Boon/Aub

fangirl at heart, she/her, xxii. film kid. Too many interests, but always Newsies.!!!!

[dolores-slay]

I know Pluribus is going to enter the annals of television because it's a rare current example of trusting your audience and not treating them with 'kid gloves' with metaphors boiled down to a mush for easy consumption. It's about colonialism it's about generative ai and addiction to convenience, it's about cults it's about queerness and assimilation, it's about consumerism it's about communication, the many barriers that exist to it and the irreplacable joy of connection between individuals, precious for its flaws and existing despite everything stacked against it.

Like I think no matter where the show goes from here, I'll probably be in a situation where I'm among annoying people or having a shit miscommunication time with them, and I'll remember this show and feel a smidge of gratefulness for the fact that I get to live in this frictioned imperfect world of assholes where anything can happen.

[hgedits]

If you're still one of us, this message is for you.

[fortysecondboon]

THIS SHOW IS SO FUCKING GOOD

[loveridden1999]

look at the saviours of my planet dog i am soo fuckedd

[fortysecondboon]

Gonna word vomit on the word vomit website because i have been hunched over google docs for two weeks thinking about a stupid fucking fanficiotn idea that is so bloated and complicated that after spending three hours thinking about it, my heads hurts and i put it down only for it to come back to me a couple hours later, its a vicious cycle thats pissing me the fuck off because i have two long running fanfics on ao3 right now that have not been updated in like a year and a half and its driving me crazy and the longer i go not touching them the harder itll be to get back started but also, i feel like ive gotten so romance fanfic brainpilled thats its hindering my ability to do other things like enjoy video games and watch tv and organize my room and UGHHHGHGHDFUSFFUSUgefguvyyhgyfegfsg

I really like writing, even though i think that words are not as powerful as music or an image or live preformance n stuff, i really enjoy being able to just express myself and then getting reached out by people who you dont know at all but they liked what you made and even feel seen by it. its an amazing feeling. makes me feel not alone, not insane, not a pathetic fangirl who still prefers the same type of fanfic she was reading when she was 11. i want to put it down for a bit, but im in a transitional period of my life. and whenever things like that happen, going on vacation, staying at a hotel, moved somewhere new, i always go for fanfiction because it brings me comfort and familiarity. but im reaching that point in adulthood where i need to be making/creating/curating my own comfort. i see fanfics that havent been made yet, stories not written, and i get so fixated on it because its not being made and i know there are people out there that are like me and want this to, they want that story premise that hasn't been written or finished yet and its just hard to let go of because deep inside me there is still a young girl who is seeking out fanfic stories to make being alone at night while everyones asleep or gone a little more tolerable. but im not a little kid anymore. im an adult, who just moved into a house and just graduated college and i make my money sitting a puppy. very much at a "wtf am i doing with my life" phase for the past month. Why can't i just write? why is that as soon as i start it sometimes i just wanna walk away and run from it. its frustrating, also because i worry ill never wanna write anything original, not fanfic. this is where all the problems start with interests anyways, when you let them become bigger than what they are, you get so in your head you forgot the reason you even enjoyed them in the first place, and then youre left wondering why you even keep it up. because its familiar? because its comfortable? its because its my escape. but im getting too old to keep running to that. i need a balance. i need to be adult more. i need to learn to feed myself, hydrate, exercise, clean up and organize my surroundings and godsakes explore other interests. i hope someday i can keep doing it. i know i will. my biggest fear is dying before i get to the ending of my stories. i have all hear in my head.

I just dont understand why trying to translate the things in your head have to be so herculean.

[ryebreadgf]

[kushblazer666]

i don’t like gangnam style, i LOVE it!

[wearingcrazyclothes]

[taiwanesekid05]

[insecuregodcomplex]

[dailycatsblog]

[senatortedcruz]

I am in fucking tears

[ozempicofficial]

[my-dailydreams]

[escuerzoresucitado]

[my-dailydreams]

[cinnalityy]

When you have the perfect fic in ur head but can’t write for shit..

[killue]

you have a headache because you have powers