Hey there! It’s been a long ass time since I’ve been on this blog, and to be honest, there’s good reason for that. I’ve been thinking for a really long time about this, about how I feel about my own writing and how I write not just Roark, but a lot of my characters. And after a lot of consideration, I’ve finally come to a decision about this:
I’m going to be giving Roark a hard reset.
In saying this, I mean that I’m going to basically strip him down to just the bare essentials of his canon and rebuild my portrayal of him entirely. It was odd to me when I no longer felt able to write Roark - he was a muse that always came to me so easily, so I couldn’t understand why I’d lost muse. Now though, I’ve realized why.
I originally wrote him as a coping oriented muse when I was in an incredibly dark, hopeless place, back before I moved here. I wasn’t around great people, and I was still around my family - I was at a part of my life where I had little to no hope for my future. Now though, that I’ve gotten away from that - now that I’m living in a healthy and safe environment and have surrounded myself with fantastic friends and found family that love me and treat me well - I’ve realized that the way I write him now... isn’t helping me anymore.
Honestly to me this is a big milestone in the improvement of my mental state - to me it means I’m getting somewhere, and I’m finally healing after everything I’ve been through. I’m so much happier, and I actually have hope for the future. It’s honestly fantastic - but of course, I don’t want to stop writing Roark entirely. So what am I going to do?
Well, I’m gonna slightly change how I write a few of my muses, though none of them are going to reset entirely but Roark. I’m just going to focus more on them actually overcoming their trauma, rather than simply stewing in it. The notable muses I’ve planned this for are Glory, Vivian, and maybe some slight alterations to Mallow and Marilene, but probably nothing too noticeable. Roark is a different story entirely, though. I’m planning to write him MUCH differently than I did before - the Roark I’ve planned out so far is such a stark contrast to the one I wrote before that they’re literally different people entirely. As such, if you follow me here and don’t wish to follow me on the rebooted blog, I completely understand. After all, you followed me for this Roark, not the new one - if the muses don’t vibe then they don’t vibe. This also means that all relationships the past Roark had are being reset as well, as those interactions no longer make sense for the new Roark.
Thank you though, to those who followed this blog - all my others too. So many people here have helped me shape not only my muses, but myself, into a better, more healthy and stable person. I’m at the highest point in my life now and I can’t thank all of you enough for being there for me when I needed it most. I’ll be reblogging the promo for the new blog when I’m done making it, but for now I think I’ve talked long enough. Thank you so much for reading to the end of this.
