NOW IM THE VILLAIN IN YOUR HISTORY

[fowlis]

ANN FOWLEY‌: ( conspiracydamaged )

“And you’re sure that I can leave the two of you alone by yourself without going at each other’s throat?” Ann was still a bit skeptical. “Dad’s been telling me some good stuff that would speak against it.” 

       ❝ it was A LONG TIME AGO, sweetheart, and she had...every right to be angry with me. ❞ it’s a part of her life she’s not proud of, but when she looks at mulder and scully, sees them both alive and ( relatively ) well, she can’t help but think she’d do it all over again. ❝ as far as i’m concerned, it’s all IN THE PAST. ❞

[fowlis]

You're one of the rare few who can make The Fowl One bearable and everything sympathetic. Keep up with the great portrayal!

;; omg thank you nonnie ! this means a lot tbh. i just wanted to make her the multi-faceted woman who captured fox mulder’s heart that the male writers refused to make her. i’m glad someone else can tell! thank you!

[fowlis]

       diana hasn’t DARED to approach her yet. she’s been biding her time, waiting, listening. she knows nothing about this monica reyes except that they have somewhat similar backgrounds. she has a theory, a theory that gives her HOPE for the first time in a very long time, but she hasn’t survived this long without being skeptical. so even now, she’s cautious. luckily, either spender is getting slow in his old age or he TRULY doesn’t believe her capable of betraying him. either way, he’s afforded her a bit of freedom.

       she waves the guards off as SOSN as she enters the room. she watches them go. then she turns to monica with a certain kind of urgency. ❝ agent reyes...i know we haven’t met before, and i know it’s hard to TRUST anyone around here, but i know...you and scully were close, weren’t you ? i want to help you help them. her and fox. ❞

@dahliafemmes

[fowlis]

FOX‌: ( foxbelieve )

Every day it was just a chore to get out of bed, the world seeming so big and overwhelming. He tried every day to focus on something, falling down the rabbit hole of his work. He barely noticed that he was almost always alone in the house, barely registering that Scully had left excluding the hole that felt like was lodged in his chest. He hadn’t noticed that Ann had left, and who she brought back. 

He glanced back, very little emotion in his eyes as he turned back to his work. “I have to stop the end of the world, Diana.” His words were soft, exhaustion seeping into his voice, but he knew he wouldn’t be able to sleep. He hadn’t gotten a full night’s sleep in a very long time. 

       it was all she could do to refrain from rolling her eyes. she knew it wouldn’t help. he was consistent, she’d give him that. ❝ NO, FOX. you need to get some rest. ❞ truth be told, it broke her heart to see him like this. despite their differences, diana had known there was something special between him and scully. she kept him balanced, and now that she was gone, his compass was COMPLETELY out of whack. diana was no scully, not even close, but she would do all she could to help him, for ann.

       she placed her hands firmly on his shoulders and spun him back towards her. ❝ the world isn’t going to END in the next hour or two is it ? then you are going to go lay down and nap. and when you get up, you’re going to take a SHOWER. i’ll order some takeout and you’ll eat it. and you’ll stop scaring our daughter half to death, got it ? ❞

[twosidseofthesamecoin]

How many times can one woman murder my poor little heart? 😩

📸 Anthon Unger

[fowlis]

       under NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES, she wouldn’t be here. it’s dangerous for her to be anywhere near him. and if anyone but ann had come to her, she would have left well enough alone. his misery isn’t her business anymore. but it is when it affects their daughter. she probably SHOULDN’T let herself in, but she does. and she can immediately see why ann’s concerned.

       her daughter has OBVIOUSLY kept the place clean as best she can, but there’s still far too much clutter for her liking. it isn’t hard for her to find him. she knows he’ll be hiding in the back room somewhere. she gently pushes open the door and sighs when she sees him. ❝ JESUS, fox, ❞ she sighs, ❝ what the hell have you gotten yourself into ? ❞

@foxbelieve

[fowlis]

Tell us more about how Diana got her scars pls. Your bio for her is intriguing.

;; oh my gosh nonnie thank you so much for the question ! i love fleshing out diana more. 

so in my bio i wrote: scars.    glass cuts on her left hand, some serious burns on her right arm

the first is an injury from childhood. she was at an aunt’s house when she was little and said aunt, who had very little experience with children, had a glass coffee table. diana, who was about eight at the time, was trying to reach a toy for her little sister on a high shelf above said coffee table. her sister reached for her and she slipped and fell, crashing through the coffee table. the hand she reached out to catch herself with got the worst of it and there remain scars from the worst cuts to this day.

the burns, however, came later in life, and with much more emotional trauma. in 1995, while she was working in europe as part of the fbi’s new efforts to support counter-terrorism efforts abroad, she was caught in an ied explosion in france. there were many complications from this, including frequent headaches, occasional vertigo, and severe burns on her arm. though treated well, there are patches of skin that are still discolored. it’s unknown whether or not this incident had anything to do with her work with the syndicate, only that she still freaks sometimes at loud noises and bright lights.

[fowlis]

"If there's a god, one day your daughter will have to go through exactly what I'm going through right now." Samanatha

       not much could rattle or upset diana, not anymore. but oh, if those words don’t send a fire BLAZING through her. ❝ don’t you dare mention my daughter to me. you want to hate me ? FINE, i get it. but she is innocent in this. she’s just a child. ❞

@justicescreaming

[fowlis]

ANN‌: ( minimclistxkidz )

“Kind of both…” gods she felt like she was betraying her own father at this very moment, though Ann needed someone she could talk to since Scully wasn’t an option. “Dana’s recently split up with him because he was, as she called it, ‘dangerously spiraling’ again.”

       she knew that all too well, had watched him do it a time or two herself. fox mulder was a difficult man to love. not that it was DIFFICULT to love him, no, that was all too easy. more that it was difficult to love him and watch what he did to himself. diana couldn’t help but feel a pang of sympathy for scully. ❝ and he’s NOT TAKING IT WELL. ❞ a sigh. ❝ baby, that’s not your fault. your dad....he’s always been like that. and as much as it hurts...only he can decide to get better. you’re his daughter, sweetheart. it’s HIS JOB to take care of you, not the other way around. ❞

[fowlis]

ANN‌: ( minimclistxkidz )

cont.’d | @fowlis

“I’m not so sure about how long it can be. I just… need some time to re-charge my batteries. Dad’s not doing so well.”

       ❝ what do you mean ? ❞ despite the way things had ended between them, diana would ALWAYS care about mulder. part of her wished she could reach out, even though she knew she couldn’t. it was too dangerous and fraught for everyone. BUT SHE STILL CARED. she didn’t know how to not. ❝ physically or...mentally ? ❞

[fowlis]

‘could i rest here for awhile?’ (your loving daughter)

       ❝ OF COURSE YOU CAN, ❞ diana breathed, smoothing a hand over ann’s forehead. she leaned in, lips pressing tenderly to her forehead. ❝ you can stay here AS LONG AS YOU NEED. ❞

@minimclistxkidz

[fowlis]

FOX‌: ( foxbelieve )

“Good, but know that we’re both going to be keeping an eye on you, Diana. Neither of us trust you, and I know we can’t trust you not to turn against us.” He knew that it would hurt to hear, but it was the truth. Mulder couldn’t trust Diana after how she betrayed them before. If there was even a sign of that there, he would kick her out on the street in a moment’s notice.

       and that’s more along the lines of what she’s expecting. she winces. it does hurt to hear, but she knows she MORE THAN DESERVES his suspicion. if only he understood why she did the things she did...but now isn’t the time for that conversation. ❝ of course. i would expect nothing less. THANK YOU AGAIN, fox. i’m...this is more than i deserve. ❞

[fowlis]

ANN‌: ( minimclistx )

“Or it’s that part that is looking so sad because it’s still hoping for a comeback.” Ann retorted and gave her mother a soft squeeze. “No matter how you guys decide, I’m not going to love any of you less.”

       ❝ I KNOW. i’m pretty sure you don’t have it in you to love anyone or anything less than with your whole heart. ❞ though things are complicated right now, her daughter is the constant good in diana’s life. ❝ what can i do to HELP you ? ❞

[fowlis]

ANN‌: ( minimclistx )

“I don’t know why I’m still wondering. I should be used to it by now.”

       ❝ it’s your father in you. ❞ diana smiled sadly, pressing a kiss to the top of her daughter’s head. ❝ THAT STUBBORN HEART just refuses to give up. ❞

[fowlis]

       ❝ fox... ❞

       diana’s voice is BREATHY as she takes him in. it’s been how many years now ? the better part of two decades. last she’d seen of him, she hadn’t known if he was going to survive the night. ever since, she’s just been hoping that scully found a way. apparently, she did. and though she’s not happy about the circumstances that have BROUGHT HER HERE, she’s glad to see him, if only just to know he’s alive.

       ❝ before you go REACHING FOR YOUR GUN, i need to talk to you. it’s important. please...i know you have no reason to trust me, but just...try for a moment, okay ? your father...HE ISN’T DEAD. ❞

@believemulder

[fowlis]

FOX‌: ( foxbelieve )

“Diana, you have nowhere to go, and I’m not going to let you just sit around and hope nobody finds you when you have nowhere to go.” He could only think about when his life was like that. When he was on the run for a good amount of time, stuck without Scully or anyone, moving place to place, until he had gotten arrested. It almost seemed like a lifetime ago now. “I’m willing to give you one last chance to not try and kill us or get us caught by those who want to stop me from finding the truth. But I will make sure Scully won’t hurt me for doing this.” 

       though she knows it’s well within his character, diana’s not sure how to respond to this. it’s so kind. so forgiving. she doesn’t feel like she DESERVES it. but...perhaps sometimes life isn’t about what you deserve. perhaps sometimes life gives you a second chance. she nods shifting her bag on her shoulder. ❝ i’m not exactly in a position to turn you down more than once. i’m...THANK YOU. i promise both you and scully i’ll do my best to keep to myself and stay out of your way. ❞

[scandinaviancinema]

The One and Only (1999, Den eneste ene) dir. Susanne Bier