Freaky Crier

Sh and 3D don’t interact if u don’t understand 18+ MDNI

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Currently doing under 800 cals

SW: 235

CW: 221.6 lbs

GW1: 200

GW2: 175

GW3: 140

GW4: 115

UGW:100

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500 cals only today?? Oh we’re so locked in

Breakfast:

Cottage cheese with apples, raspberry jam and chocolate protein powered - 220 cals

(This genuinely was so good and filling)

Lunch:

Bagel breakfast sandwhich with thin keto bagel, vegan sausage, cheese and egg whites -225 cals

(Also bomb I would love to give yall the recipe)

Dinner: blackberries and a ginger shot -50 cals

I’ve never felt so accomplished

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I ate 950 cals today I think I genuinely hate myself 🤪

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Gained 2 lbs is this the prt where I kill myself 🥹

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Did not do good the last two days BUT I only ate 550 cals today so I’m proud of myself for that

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Any angels that have cheat days?? Like I try to eat under 600 cals everyday but on fridays I eat whatever I want without counting cals (obviously not crazy, always in moderation and I never eat more than three meals) plz tell me someone else does this I feel like I’m not sick enough because of this

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WIEIAD

Did alright today, I should’ve ate a salad instead of the French fries tho

Breakfast:

Egg whites with 2 keto bread - 200 cals

Lunch:

French fries - it said 350 but imma round it up to 400, I’d rather overestimate than underestimate

Ketchup - 100 cals

Dinner:

Sugar free redbull - 10 cals

Total: 710 cals

Total after the gym: ~ 410

My stomach starts to growl from ⭐️ving and I work in an office so it’s really quite and it gets embarrassing so potatoes really help with not having the hunger growls. I tend to eat most of my cals at work so I’m not embarrassed and then I go home and starve

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Imma be honest, idk how yall get so happy when u loose weight. For some reason when I see the weight drop I get mad that it’s not more and it makes me more motivated to eat less calories, I genuinely do not get happy when I see the weight drop. Maybe once I see a big big dip then I’ll be ecstatic

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Saw a cousin I hate today and was reminded how fucking fat I am, I will be throwing up my food today

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Just ate a double chili cheeseburger going to starve myself for the rest of the day and spend two hours at the gym cuz ain’t no way

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A month and a half and I still have not lost ANY weight 😃no yeah I’m definitely going to cut myself tonight

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I be making such delicious and full meals for under 300/250 cals I lowkey wanna make the recipes on here

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I’m genuinely tweaking rn, it’s been 3 weeks and my scale is showing me that I haven’t lost any weight and instead it changes everyday. Ik it’s probs cuz my scale is broken but even though ik this fact he’s making me wanna fucking kill myself

Does anyone have any scale recs that are accurate so that I don’t send myself into a mental breakdown?? What do yall use??

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I ate a bit from the office potluck and now I really want to cut myself, I feel like such a fatass.

Bo make matters worse, I have a coworker who’s really skinny and literally told me she couldn’t eat all the stuff cuz of how many cals was in it and ended up just eating the carrots. She made me feel like such a pig, I wish I had her strength

I tried throwing up what I could but I stopped because I think they could hear me

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I can never have an accomplishment without it being about my trauma. It will always define me and be who I am. I genuinely fucking hate it

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WIEIAD

Another one lol

Breakfast : Greek yogurt with raspberries = 100 cals

Snack: skinny pop and cucumbers = 45 cals

Lunch: tuna salad and pickles = 195 cals (the tuna was so good🤭)

Last snack: half a bag of pretzels = 50 cals

Dinner: vegan ham sandwhich with vegs and another skinny pop serving = 340

Last snack: bread with artichoke dip =350 cals

Total: 1080

I am not proud of myself at all like I’m embarrassed I ate like such a big back today

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Quick question for the ones who have ed and do not have a period anymore, a big reason y I have an ⭐️ving is because I don’t want my period anymore I ABSOLUTELY hate it and it gives me so much dysphoria. How long did it take for your period to stop once you started ⭐️ving