FreckledSugar

Sugaring the 757 to the DMV

[freckledsugar6]

I can count on 3 fingers the times I've heard a genuine compliment from my mom in my entire life.

I've never heard a genuine sentence period from my dad let alone a compliment. Fuck em tbh

[freckledsugar6]

🐣

So I saw someone I know just had a baby.Ive known many people who had kids...but, this is literally the first time I wish I had had mine 😖 something just hit me like a brick and that thought came over me randomly. Like....back then it seemed so difficult of a thought, to add another stressor onto my already catastrophic life, but now I see I could have probably done it. I could have been a mother now to a beautiful 2 year old with the man I loved so dearly (who shattered my heart), but I made the best choice for myself at that time and now my life is back on track. But fuck, that hurt. I imagine he was a boy.

[dreamameme]

[foreverbeautifulxxx]

[uppertidelands-deactivated20180]

[certifiedflygirl]

Neeeeed

[kxte]

how does one turn their emotions off

[jackasssed-deactivated20200128]

Okay so first go to settings

[jackasssed-deactivated20200128]

I’m a fucking idiot I thought that said emojis at first

[ssfith]

 no, im still willing to try this, go ahead, im at settings, what do next

[freckledsugar6]

So this is depressing af, I know. Everyday I literally end up asking God "why am I alive?" and I get no answer. Or "why am I in this situation, why did you fuck me?" and no response or change 😐 I cry on my long ass drive to work, to make barely any liveable wage, or to class. Ive become that depressing ass bitch. Lol smdh

[freckledsugar6]

In the Matrix

I’m so over everything. Stopped using Twitter and moved to Instagram more than a month ago and now I’m about done with Instagram. I honestly feel like I was a glitch lol because I am so unamused by the things people are amused by. Social Media is no longer entertaining to me, people bore me and are carbon copies of everyone else. I find no connection, or passion rather, in the ordinary person. Show me something intrinsically beautiful.

[coldheaux]

Yo so I'm not cute enough to be a sb. Can you let a fellow sistah hold a stack for school? Minimum wage ain't enough and registration coming too fast. Plus I'm just trying to make it. Worth a shot to ask #shootyourshot?🤷🏾‍♀️ #lemmeholdadollar #paypal

Bitch you better slap some makeup on and get out there and buss that pussy open like the rest of us bitch

[heart-flavored-sucker]

I am CRINE 😂😂😂

[yogi-sugarbaby]

Social media and the sugar bowl rant

I am getting so frustrated by the fact that sugaring is being plugged everywhere. I feel like I can’t go anywhere anymore without seeing sugar babies popping up as a topic for conversation or as an advertising ploy everywhere from Facebook to my local radio stations. Seriously this needs to stop. I have no problem or issue with newbie sugar babies whatsoever. I really hope they do well. The only problem is this new influx of babies and salt daddies is creating an epidemic of young girls being taken advantage of by predators. These news constant stories and articles on “Why to be a sugar baby” is making the lifestyle normalized, and like every girl and guy with an average income can and should do it. If that isn’t enough it is making it much harder for girls who have been in the game a bit longer who have more experience and aren’t located in cities or places with richer men to find actual sugar daddies. I’m sick of haggling with men on price points because they now believe 20 year olds should spend their time and energy with them for 50 dollars and dinner, or 100 dollars to sleep with their wrinkly arrogant asses

[freckledsugar6]

ughhhhh yes. I’m about to retire, finding a real SD these days in my city is harder & harder. Too many Splenda, Salt and girls accepting $300 a month for sex....like girl what is you doing?? fucking up the entire game. I miss the secrecy of it

[freckledsugar6]

TW: Writing Healing

Is it possible to be so angry,sad and depressed, for so long, that you’re numb and no longer sad or angry? It is a weird calm feeling..........I’ve dealt with these feelings from my family for so long that I get sad & angry briefly at a time then comes a weird “calmness.” Maybe it’s what happens when your body no longer has anything else to give, you’ve accepted that this is how it is. I guess that’s where I’m currently at. 

I’m always in a constant state of functional depression and have been since I was an overweight chubby preteen, it got worse throughout college as more family issues and relationship issues added on. I called the Suicide Hotline when I felt I had finally almost had an angry nervous meltdown...I just wanted to talk, I wasn’t sure I would even harm myself. I never had a healthy way of releasing my emotions (I use to punch walls & ended up breaking my hand/fingers) so that was one of the most rational releases in my mind. It helped, the person listened to me just cry on the phone and her voice was soothing. Maybe I never actually had anyone who just listened. That was almost 3 years ago now.

Today I contemplated calling the hotline again because actual thoughts of slitting my wrist flashed through my mind for at least 1 minute. I shot it down..now I’m just at the air of calmness that I had described. I am writing as my release. I no longer punch walls or bang my wrist against things or snap myself with a rubber band...I had forgotten I use to do all of those things.. progress.

I have been subconsciously unsympathetic of certain feelings for years, (I’m just now consciously realizing why), because I “survived” depression by myself and I pushed myself to believe and hope that the future would get better but not everyone can do that. I suppose it streams from my numbness that has become me. I was unable to see that just because I survived fairly unscathed and able to function that “why couldn't they?” and that’s wrong. Not everyone has thick skin and even MY thick skin broke. I think I felt angry/jealous, directed aimlessly at the world, that no one had loved me the way they should have, cared for me or helped me and that I cried myself to sleep as a kid for years all alone. Every night I use to pray to God, who wouldn’t answer me, that my life would be different and it never worked. People passed me off as “an asshole” or “cold”, “distant” but no one ever tries to understand why people are the way they are. I never had anyone, so naturally my body developed to be distant. 

I think I felt some shame that I was once (still am) depressed.....how backwards. 

[saturnaliaxcrescent]

What turns you on?

When guys ask “what turns you on?”

I say,: “good food, good wine, convo, with a good man that makes good money”

They respond: “I mean in sex”.

Me: “I know, thats the only way I would even want to have sex”

Its honestly the truth cant fake it***

[freckledsugar6]

Mini Rant

I cannot stand deadbeat men for the obvious reasons and because my damn dad is one. Honestly I wish they could be sterilized. My mother struggles to pay all the damn bills while this fucking idiot sits idly by yet wants to control everyone. God needs to come and take him. Here I am venturing to fuck old ass ugly men to pay for my damn classes and expenses lol smdh He receives checks but it takes a damn co-signer to even see a cent. My ex started reminding me of him so much, i’m so glad I got away

[freckledsugar6]

Been MIA for a while

Definitely think i’m on my way to a new SD maybe 2. Bassett Hound says “money is not an issue” he just wants me. He’s growing on me...he creeped me out a little with all his incessant stares at dinner (my tits might have been saying hi lol) and he talks a lot as if he is trying to be my father. But if the money is right.........Hey Daddy! haha

Then there’s a few other very promising prospective. tbd within the next 2 weeks once we keep chatting

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Anyway, I’m really into penis

[fiercetransgirls]