there is so much more to a book than just the read

24 years old, avid reader, belly laugher, Indian food enthusiast, ferret owner, awkward dancer, shower singer, book hoarder, fog lover, coffee drinker, bad pun appreciator, unashamed air guitarist, lip biter, collar bone fetishist, wide-eyed observer...

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*eyes widen in slight surprise as he looks at Freddy and smiles, somewhat embarrassed?* Me? I don’t think so. I mean… how often is it that kids with… shit parents are anything better than shit parents? I think I’d… I don’t know *chews on his lower lip and stares at the floor*

-shrugs again- There is s-something to be s-said in that... Children of a-addicts have an increased ch-chance of becoming a-addicts themselves... same of child abuse s-survivors but... -taps his fingers against Ollie’s knee- there’s also the kids who know what it’s like... to have parents... who weren’t really parents... that appreciate their children all the more... -speaks quicker and with conviction- they know what makes a good parent... because they didn’t have that... so they are all the better for it... I think... that could be... that is you.

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*nods slightly, eyes glassy and focused on nothing in particular* Yeah, I guess so. Some people… They just aren’t cut out to be parents.

N-no... I suppose n-not... b-but... I think... if y-you ever w-wanted to... y-you could be... -smiles slightly and shrugs-

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

I love my mom. I really do. After she had me she stopped working and we spent every day together. And everything was so perfect until Dad got home. I think he always kind of resented my mom for leaving work but We didn’t have the money for day care and my dad was doing alright enough for rent and food so we just… made do. As I got older, my dad grew angrier and I could tell my mom was scared of him. She probably always had been. He never hurt her. And he never really… I mean he didn’t hit me. But he didn’t have to to hurt me. And my mom just kind of let it happen and she didn’t do anything about it… And I miss her… I do but, I don’t think she loved me as much as I loved her. I think she would have protected me if she had. *chews on his lower lip thoughtfully* I haven’t seen either of them in a long time.

-hums quietly and leans over so that the line of his body is pressed along Ollie’s side- I am s-sure that she l-loved you in h-her own way... M-more than y-you realize because... -smiles slightly and nudges his nose against Ollie’s cheek- How c-can’t she...? -sighs softly as he thinks about himself and Ollie and their more than tragic childhoods- It m-must be h-hard to be a p-parent right? I mean... why else w-would these things h-happen...?

[emorockphangirl-deactivated2018]

This is ridiculously cute

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

My mom… *sighs* Where do I start? *smiles slightly*

-shrugs and squeezes Ollie’s hand- When ever y-you’d like?

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

Mm you know you’re really the only person who has really given me that. You and my mom for awhile… But that’s- I mean that’s family. That’s different.

-nods- Family is good to have... so your mom... umm... -nudges Ollie with his nose against his cheek- your mom?

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*kisses his neck, nuzzling him with his nose* What would I do if I’d never met you?

-shrugs- Hopefully still comfortable and warm... with lots of soup and sandwiches and cupcakes... with someone who will tell you how you could be a mermaid or a fairy or any other amazing creature... because... y-you deserve that. -nods as he kisses the top of Ollie’s head-

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*wraps his arms around Freddy a little more securely, his nose in the crook of his neck* You’re sweet.

-snuggles closely to Ollie, or as close as he could get with Ollie already in his lap, his arms more secure around his waist as he sighs happily and repeats- Only for you

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*blushes, ducking his head against Freddy’s shoulder* You make my stomach do backflips when you say stuff like that. Butterflies.

-licks his lips and blushes- I feel that way too... every time... I look at you... -bites his lip nervously-

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*laughs* With my pale skin? *shakes his hair out and blows his bangs out of his face* Maybe I’ll try it.

Not pale? Pretty skin? It’s just... -brushes his thumb against Ollie’s cheek- Your skin’s like alabaster... like marble... like soft down of doves... -shrugs and looks at Ollie fixedly- Pale is a bad word for all that?

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

Do mermaids have swampy green hair? I always imagined them in all pastel colors. *runs the pads of his thumbs along Freddy’s neck, his hands loosely looping around his neck* I’ve been think a deep blue color. Like a blue black maybe.

I’d imagine so... some cultures have mermaids with fish heads so who knows? And mermaids should be just as different as people right? So they don’t have to be all pretty... maybe there will be some swampy green hair beauties or weird stuttering, small carp mermaids too... -nods and squints his eyes at Ollie- I think it would look good with your pale skin?

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*blushes, shaking his head slightly, smiling* I don’t know about that… I mean, I could dye my hair a swampy green. Would I be beautiful even then?

-shrugs and kisses Ollie- I like mermaids

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*grins widely* You’re really observant. SO then, which was your favorite?

-swallows thickly- Red... but you look beautiful n-no matter what

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

I don’t know yet. I wanna try something new. Something I haven’t done yet. Any ideas?

-taps his fingers against Ollie’s thighs- You’ve done a lot of colors though... you had blonde, black, red, deeper red... -stops talking and mumbles- N-not that I h-have been k-keeping track or a-anything.

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*smiles against his lips, ducking his head when Freddy pulls away* I know… I guess I’m just used to it… hiding behind my hair I mean. I’m thinking about dying it again.

-holds Ollie in his lap and asks curiously- What color this t-time?

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*shakes his head somewhat playfully, tossing his hair as he does it, it falling in messy strands around his eyes* Not that I can think of. This one would be pretty hard to beat. Because you’re here *smiles softly at him, peeking through his messy hair*

Y-you’re sweet... -brushes Ollie’s hair behind his ear- Y-you do that a lot... h-hide behind your h-hair... the c-colors... the l-length in front of your pretty f-face... -kisses Ollie again- D-don’t have to hide from m-me... 

[oliveranthonystone]

*leaves work with a cupcake in hand*

[frederickthomasbelleville-blog]

*smiles warmly and pulls him close, arms around his shoulders as their foreheads press together* I know I said this before but really… best birthday ever.

Silly Ollie... -kisses him softly- B-better birthdays have to exist, r-right? Better than c-cupcakes and you know... m-me pouncing y-you... -blushes slightly but continues to stare intently into Ollie’s eyes-