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Somedays it’s tougher than others because with time it becomes more real. I feel like in the beginning you don’t fully understand what losing them means but then you miss them so much and you can’t see them so there’s all this impotence involved that just, breaks my heart.

- Grieving Young. (via grievingyoung)

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Things I haven't said out loud

Five days before my law school finals my mother called me at 8 a.m.

She told me my two younger cousins, my father’s nephews, my uncle’s two sons, the two younger kiddos always running after us the big kids, had been shot and killed in Ciudad Juarez. I spent that night sleeping in the library because I didn’t want to go home. I knew I would never come back if I did.

Three days before finals I walked into my carrels, had a panic attack, held on to my law school friend as I wept, and watched their funeral on Facebook. I wasn’t there.

That night I wrote my statutory interpretation law final through tears and gasps and guilt. I wasn’t there.

I took five finals. After the last one I went out to a very public basketball game because I needed an excuse to keep pushing the pain back and when I was finally home I wailed.

Why am I telling you?? Because I almost gave up. I almost said that this wasn’t as important. This year I made two A’s, a B+, and some B’s. But this year I didn’t care HOW I made it through…. I just wanted to MAKE it through.

Success looks different for everyone. Behind every cute picture and funny post there is a real life. But, I didn’t stop. I didn’t give up. I let it hurt and I stood up and kept walking and reading and typing because that’s what you do… you keep going. Sometimes you fall, either into someone’s arms or into empty space at 3 a.m in the library on top of a computer keyboard and a million practice tests, but what matters is if you get up, if you crawl your way out…

What matters is that you WANT to crawl out of pain and keep living. That’s why I’m telling you this, because I need you to WANT to crawl out of it. Thank you for being my support through this without knowing it. Thank you.

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I needed this

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Personal Records

By obsessively documenting my emotions, I wasn’t really feeling them.

By Alia Wilhelm. Illustration by Anna White.

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thepowerwithin

There will be moments when you are pushed to your absolute limits. It may get to the point when you feel like the world is collapsing in on you. This is important, for it is during these moments when you learn of your true capabilities and how far you can really go. You’re much stronger and resilient than you could have ever imagined.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin (via thepowerwithin)

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Be with someone who is good for your mental health

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This is SO important.

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reblog if you support boys expressing soft emotions

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*presses reblog button until death*

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have the courage to pursue what makes you feel alive :))

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by Joshua Cowan

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It’s okay be to be scared sometimes. Life can be daunting, risky, and unpredictable. But you know what else? Life is full of unexpected surprises, acts of kindness, and moments to cherish. It may be scary, but it’s all definitely worth it.

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin (via thepowerwithin)