FROM A WITH LOVE POETRY

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[fromawithlovex]

How do we rest?

Knowing the end draws near

The time is around the corner

And my mind draws unclear

Clouds and rain

In between my nose

Lightning around my neck,

A place of quiet just around the eyes -

To be drenched in a storm of wet

Heat waves up inside my throat,

Warm suns’ drip onto my tongue,

Humidity fogs the forecast

And I am

Undone,

Between the temples

Demons wrestle,

Pushing at me

A parasol in the wind

I catch on tight,

Bleed for air

All when we cannot know,

What we might

Is this the right thing God?

Am I acting as I should?

The waves of spitting shores

Blind me as I pray

I’m judged by every Pharisee

And I cannot see the way

I wrestle in the low tide

Calm shores are ahead

But the battleground

Hails down

And has no need for give

Peace is coming

A silence

I cannot speak

Let me wait for

Clear skies

Days of calm

And open ocean

Soft cloud springs

Lilllies on the lake

When I am settled

Within my heart

And

Have no need

To fight

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Falling

Wasting

A cascade

Of emotion

She walks

In trepidation

At the plans of God,

Before her

The oceans rise and fall;

The planets revolve

And her heart bleeds,

Continuously

An everflowing thunderstorm

Continuously

Growing

The pains of the earth

The tired dawn,

I sit in quietness

Always

Forlorn

And the weight of it all

Sits in her chest

A heaviness

Where she finds no rest

Petals disperse

And my heart

Concaves

At every angle

I am

Torn

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[fromawithlovex]

The stars that fall

Stars fall,

My head is weary,

A lost life

Gone;

So clearly,

I wait in faith

The vision of you,

Pushing me forward

In grace,

In truth,

But I FALL

A mighty stumble,

Everything around me

Cuts in,

I fumble

Reaching so hard,

For the stars

Which fall,

Always

The darkest cave

Shines the brightest moonlight,

The warmest sun

Holds the carcass

Of night

And inside of me

The soul churns,

Upholding the wisdom

Of every wrong turn,

False lies

Impaired judgement,

All a gift,

Left in the presence

Of the pain of loving someone,

Who never held your heart,

They crushed it between their fingers,

They made it an art,

I cry for the loss of her

Who I could become?

But the new woman is rising

Every day I come,

Another wash of thunder

Another dryness in the way

My bones seem to burn

As you call me

Away

The stars that fall

The hope in it all

I tremble in the wake of it

Every star

Every fall

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How I drown - A.A.

And I was drowning,

Absolutely drowning in my own guts,

Blood

And thoughts,

Paranoia was hitting me like a train wreck,

Smacking through the back of my spine,

I lurched forward

Attacked,

Once again

Believing in the dark characters my mind created,

Snivelling rats of humans picking at dead corpses,

Vultures swooping down

Into the innocent sweet mouse,

That was me

All the dead corpses were me

That poor dead rabbit

Was me,

And the rain just pelted on top of the drowning,

I whispered into the cold

My words turned to an ice cloud,

‘Fear’

A terrible sound,

My sweet blood began to trickle down my wrists,

It tasted like melon drops and lillies,

I thought of every single time I’d embarrassed myself,

Another strike to the soul

I fell more into the water,

Being crushed between gravity and the oceans pull of myself,

Lower and lower

Sinking like a toffee in the wind

Swaying and bobbing,

I laughed

Uncontrollable laughter

A terrifying scene,

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LILLIES

White lillies bloom

In this place now,

Where I could not dig,

With a shovel or trowel,

Where you buried my body

Deep in the ground -

Never to be uncovered

But now I am found,

And I want to scream it out loud

But no one will hear

If I whisper in your ear;

Even so sincere,

Nothing can erase the footprints in the soil,

The trampled weeds and the forgotten

‘Tomorrow’

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Fuck Boy,

Like a doctor with the silent treatment,

A smokey column of needles and lies,

Subconsciously saying

‘I don’t want you tonight’

I lie awake in torture

Tossing my hair,

My heart picked at

By a vulture,

The light dims

I cause a scene,

Stupidly saying

I - feel - things,

I’m capped and caressed,

No hope to digest,

The reality that in your mind,

Sometimes

I cease to exist,

Playing cool is your favourite kind of drug,

And mine ?

It was us,

And now I don’t know

Now there’s frozen snow;

On the place that used to grow,

I’m not tripping on feelings,

I’m a human I - feel - things,

When I tell you bout the times

I would make myself sick,

I want to be held,

Not ignored

Or made to feel like I should

Hurry up quick,

When I want to kiss you in front of others,

Not taken into covers,

Or laughed at when I wear something

That you have never discovered,

I don’t want the silent treatment no more Doc,

It’s killing me,

Supposed to be healing me?

And the pills that you’re feeding me,

Aren’t doing the trick baby,

Maybe I need my own kinda pills,

Be numb on Xans

Thick and fast,

While I can,

Or diazepam,

Maybe then your torture wouldn’t feel the same,

Maybe I would learn my lesson,

And finally break the insanity in my brain,

Cut me up I beg you,

Rather that then let you

Continue to drip feed me

Ready for slaughter

Rather happen now,

Hung drawn and quartered,

I’ll be the lamb,

Beautiful you?

In wolfs’ clothing.

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Eat my sex - A.A.

Flowers bloom -

In place of you,

Like broken marble;

A Rose,

Bursting through,

I faint -

Hold on tight,

As memories flood

Waters’ gate

I hold back -

In spite,

Once again,

A tattered novel

I become;

Tainted,

Ripped and tortured,

And I once again

Succumbed,

But no matter -

I win,

Chalice gleaming,

More wine,

A sensuous feeling?

Lips part,

Am I dreaming?

A dusty skull

I clasp,

Unreeling,

As the nails of fate

Scrape down my soul,

The hole,

Where I buried myself,

Is gone,

I wait

I smile,

Like a Phoenix I died,

My head held high,

Walking like a queen to the fiery inbetween,

Gasping

For things unseen.

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HEAVEN

Heaven is a theory

All the books?

A distant memory

Because when the pills kick in

And your mind -

Spins,

The lonely smoke follows you to bed,

Your eyes roll,

In the back of your head,

Heaven does not exist

In this dark place you persist,

Fire and blood crash around you

And hurt,

Spiral out of you and curse,

Who put you on this earth,

You wait for some nurse,

For health and power,

But you do not see

It is you who creates

The whirlwind

In the place of happiness.

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Alone

Alone

We conquer,

We fail

We fly

Alone

We capture;

Our spirits -

Alive,

Alone?

We trespass,

Compete,

Prevail,

Alone…

comparing

Sights,

Unknown

Alone,

Catastrophe

Promises,

Broken

Alone,

My heart

Keeps on

Hoping.

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Bruise

A tired soul;

Worn mattress,

Heavenly sheets

Hopeless,

Do you think about me?

I turn

Hair loose on the pillow

Where I used to yearn

For the soft kiss of your lips,

After a slap to the face

When my tears would sting,

As I would try to erase

The pain in my side

Where you kicked my ribs,

All because

I didn’t do what you said.

[fromawithlovex]

Catch

Kiss me quick before I go

Your tears,

Fall like snow

I’m fading away

Fading fast,

Your hand no longer has its grasp

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Smokey Mirror

Careful does it,

Nice and slow,

Don’t pull your hand away,

I know,

I know,

Step away from the poison

The deadly eyes;

They only want your looks,

That’s no surprise,

Take off those glasses

You tinted rose,

All is not as it seems

In the garden you chose,

Peel back the fruits of a rotting tree,

Bare knowledge to the fact

He does not care for thee,

The only quandary in question if so,

When the next drink shall be tasted

Too slow

He’s caught the net,

Your arms wide open

Falling,

Trapped -

A fly in the web you will not flee

A sweet little bird

In between lions teeth,

Lick you up and spit you out,

Run faster than you ever knew,

Get away from this cowardly fool,

Away into the night,

Away into the dark,

Away

Away far

Away from your heart,

For that place so precious,

So pure in fact,

So strong and robust,

No nails could scratch,

Find a glass box,

Put it there and keep it,

Guard yourself with an iron sword

And swipe it,

Repeated

Down into the chest of the bellowing evil,

The one who taunts

Who tricks

Believes you are stupid,

Manipulates the time

The way of thoughts imposed,

Finds funny and fickle

When the situation arose,

You tripped

You fell

He laughed,

Do not dwell

Strike down the power

Like glory to God,

Lift away the curse

That had you so lost,

Let the blood drain down

Deep into the dust,

Impervious to thee,

A kingdom now found,

You are the conquerer

And now

You are crowned.

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Call girl

I pool you,

Warm sense lingering,

The case unclosed,

A setting sun on a far horizon,

I melt,

Pillage what you can,

I shall deliver,

A godmother of hope,

The rope tied above the bed,

Feeble and timeless,

Make me home,

Serpents slither in the wake,

Deriving what little,

The penny drops,

Earth cracks,

Lipstick embalmed,

Drown me in the delight,

Un-choose my path I dare,

Rivers never run so deep,

Blooming in the dark,

A definite poison

Or an art.

[fromawithlovex]

Fight me

Do you remember the last time we kissed? Or the first time you branded me with your fists? The way you spat - Pushed me down All to feel Some kind of power, Do you remember the way you held my face? Or the day you came at me with a blade? Your arms bleeding from having too much fun Because in this game, You’ve already won Do you remember the way you turned me on? Or the amount of pills you shoved down my throat? 5 days I don’t remember a thing, Just because that’s the way You wanted it, Do you remember the way you held my hand? Or the time you laughed while I had a miscarriage? 

Do you remember how we used to be?

all that time before we were so sweet, 

It was all my fault of course Because I remember those days in black and white, The way you glared As I flinched in spite Of loving you Daring you Begging you To love me too.

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Dreams

Being cut from the inside out

An autopsy;

I watched myself

Where hands chased my naked flesh

Peeling and stitching

Clamping

Sewing

Creating a robot

I know not of

A blue heart and orange tongue

Perhaps a plastered smile

Fixed to please

Just in case

Thin arms and stick legs

Smooth out every wrinkle and crease

Spit into the lions mouth

How dare you breathe

Nothingness does not do justice

Hungry for air

I slide each day slower out of my hospital gown

I become the scenery

So which they cannot notice me

I fade pale

Ghost white

A sheet covers me

Shepards delight

I cry inside

But I fight

And claw from the ground

My bones they took

A heart limp

I stuff into my pocket

Behind an iron door I slither

Barely here

A voice of stern

Order

I pounce into a bleached corridor

Searching

Where is my soul?

Cautious

Dangerous

A scalpel still attached my brains

I pluck away and find

I am open

For war

Baking in the radiation

Another move

Lead me out into doorways

Names I know not of

Signs leading to heaven

A staircase I believe in

Dripping pools I cannot answer

A terrifying smell of death

I have to catch myself if I fall

Two times

I cannot breathe

A face of weary old meets me

Where are you going?

A heart transplant please

I’m led to another cage

Bound senseless

Slipping through hoops

Tearing at fabric

I am naked now

I run

Pounding linoleum

I reach concrete

An exit

I could jump

Flat

Fall

Dead

Arrows to corpses surround me either side like scare crows

Enticing

‘Be my friend’

'Follow me’

But you can’t

My soles undone

Corrupted from the bottom up

A wisened chariot

Nothing to hold on to

I creak

I break

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No Thing

Kill me softer

Rise inside my deep heart,

Creating waves

I cannot swim,

Make believe the chains

I cannot be free;

All is well in the Under world

Not between you and me,

Because you’re gone

I’m home

Life loves on,

I was alone

You smashed me into bits and trailed my body through the streets

Parading my blood

In golden goblets

A worthy opponent?

I am not so sure,

Heavens rain and hell is back again

To remind me

Peace comes from within

And all harmony can be lost

In an instant,

I will doubt myself a thousand times

And drop my being to the ground

Every time I make a mistake

May I never be wrong

Because it hurts too much

To cut my knife in deeper

When you are the one holding the blade,

To feel the wrath of sinners

To know -

I am ashamed

Where others plastic beauty is astounded

Applauded,

And mine a feeble thorn between two lillies

You have to search for me,

Behind the wade I crumble

I cannot fight in a war such as this

Where I know not the rules

Or any kind of bliss,

But silence

And cherishing moments of still

In your arms

I have free will,

Let the eagle glide me above the mountains so my spirit can live

The clouds will part

And I

Will be

No

Thing

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Am I crazy?

Am I crazy?

For wanting a love

So passionate,

So real,

We defy all ideas

All constructs,

Of what life is,

Am I crazy?

To yearn to be touched all over,

Have hands gracing my shoulder,

To be kissed on the neck

Ten times over,

Am I crazy?

To fall in love so hard

I forget where I came from

Where I’m going -

I’d lose it all,

Am I crazy?

To want champagne turning sparkles

Lights camera action,

The whole scene set

An art piece;

I will never forget

And am I crazy to have parts that still want you?

Want the character I had in my head

Before he turned blue,

Before drugs before love before us

Before hate filled your heart and you lost trust,

Before you were alone

With no one at home,

Before your eyes were pricked

With unimaginable things,

Before I ever met you

Before you smashed my head into a wall

Before I began to forget it all,

Before I ran away,

Before the hurt and the dying pain

Am I crazy?