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Elliot Fact One:
Having a guy with long hair can have its upsides...He's always got an extra ponytail-holder....
Now that I don't have anyone everyone else does...
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This is just gonna be short.
I hate Beast, no not really, I just hate the way he sucks me in. Every. Damn. Time. When he kisses me, it consumes me and all of a sudden me and my will no longer exist.
So now you kinda know what's up, but it's just the tip of the iceberg...
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Oh Man, I've got some explaining to do...
Broken Hearts and Bruised Egos
In my last post I was just fuming because Beast did not respond to any of my texts. Why was I so upset that I did not hear anything from him if we are just friends with benefits anyway? The reason was because I realized that I liked him more than just a friend. On Thursday I decided that I had to tell him about how I felt. Somehow I felt that he might feel the same way but I was not sure. I had to find out instead of over-analyzing everything in my head and I knew that if I waited until after I got back from Chicago that it would only be worse. Thursday night I was so nervous that I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat or function properly. On Friday night he came to pick me up and we drove to his house. He immediately sensed that I had something on my mind. There was only one choice, I had to tell him how I felt. However, I thought about sleeping with him first and then telling him, just in case he didn't feel the same way. Unfortunately, I could barely hold it in long enough to finish eating the KFC we just picked up. Once I had said my two cents, he grabbed my hand and told me that he unfortunately didn't feel the same. He explained that he had just stopped seeing someone when we met and this other person broke his heart. So as a result he is not ready to open up and try again. Well, to me that was not much of an excuse because if I was the right person for him it wouldn't matter what just happened. I told him when he was ready to date someone he should give me a call, however, I couldn't promise him that I would still be available. His response was, "Really? That fast?" I responded, "I'm not a bad catch, I don't stay on the market for very long." I decided that we shouldn't see each other anymore and left it at that. The good part is, I get to keep the game.
Saturday night and I really, really did not want to stay at home alone. There was a party at Pantheon so I went. Beast was in Stuttgart so there was no chance of running into him. So I seized the opportunity to enjoy myself. At the bar of the club, I met a nice guy and we carried on a rather interesting conversation about Ironman. I was laughing and having a good time, when I saw Beast out of the corner of my eye. Whatever, I just ignored the shock that I was in. At some point I couldn't avoid Beast because he was standing right by the bathrooms. I greeted him nicely and we chatted for a minute. At some point he says, "I saw you before but you were "busy". Well, I hope you have a good flight and a good trip even if you do or do not meet someone." My first thought was, 'What?!?' Unenthusiastically I replied, "Okay, thanks." and kept on walking. Umm, excuse me? My world is not going to fall apart because he doesn't want me, which is a mistake on his part anyway. The most disturbing part was that he was acting like my world was crumbling around me. With such a big ego, I was surprised that he was able to get in the door.
Houdini
Beast just disappeared like...well...Houdini! It went from texting me everyday to I can't even get an answer to my texts. What does that mean to you? He's clearly not interested. My natural reaction was: Step One: Delete our conversation on What's App Step Two: Delete his phone number Step Three: Delete him on Facebook I'm still friends with all of my exes on Facebook, even B. So someone must really, really piss me off in order to make me delete you off of my friends list on Facebook. I have a vague idea of what could've happened but still not having the balls to tell me or even text me is kind of bogus. So as restitution I'm keeping your Grand Theft Auto V. Now, how do you like them apples? Ain't nobody got time fo' dat. He should've thought about disappearing before he "loaned" me his video game. Now I own it, bitch! I bet he feels real stupid right about now. If not, I hope he does. Yeah, I'm disappointed. Yeah, I'm a little upset, I'm not going to lie. To be quite honest, I haven't completely given up hope. There's still some hope that he lost his phone or dropped it in the toilet or something and that's why he can't text me back. I really, really liked Beast but I'm not ready for a relationship anyway. So I just got a $75 game for free. See ya later, suckaaaaaa!!!!!
Beauty and the Beast: Part two
NOT!!!!!! I was shuffling across the street, struggling to keep up with Beast. Hand in hand we ran across the street trying to catch the next taxi. First stop: McDonald's. I was absolutely starving and could think of nothing else besides a burger and sex, in that order. I inhaled my burger, forgetting all of my manners, but I really couldn't have given a crap less. I was hungry and that was one really good burger. After eating, we talked about where he was from and what he does for a living, before deciding that we should continue the conversation at his place. It was just a short walk to his downtown apartment. His apartment was really nice, it even had a balcony, which is kinda rare in the downtown area. The only drawback was that it was freezing cold in his apartment. I shivered as he slid off my coat. "Should I get you a sweater?" He offered, "I even have knit socks if you want some." "Yes, please." I said, shivering again. We settled ourselves on his couch and turned on the TV. I could not believe the luck that I was having, one of my favorite movie was on, "The Little Princess". I explained to Beast that it was one of my favorite movies (ever) and what the movie was about. I realized a few minutes that I was rambling, "Oh geez, sorry, I just kind of got excited because I love this movie." I apologized, "and I know it's a kid's movie and we don't have to watch it." "It's okay, now I kind of want to see what all the excitement is about." He said. "Yeah, well now I've blabbered through half of the movie. I'm sor..." Right then he kisses me and it was perfect. I'm pretty sure you can figure out what happened after that. Since then we've stayed in contact and met up a few more times. I'm not sure what this is and I think that's the best part.
Beauty and the Beast
It is Saturday night and not a thing to wear Cannot entertain the thought of what to do with my hair It's getting late and my hair is still not straight Putting on eyelashes, oh, I really hate But they distract the boys from looking at my hair And the fact that I have nothing to wear Run out the house to catch a cab Freshen up my lipgloss, just a dab In front of the club, I finally arrive Open my wallet, no money, I realize So how'd you like my poem? First poem I've written since about the sixth grade. Now, to the good bit. On Saturday, I went to Beastin' one of the best and only hip-hop music events that's worth going to. My friends and I had reserved a table with bottle service so that we could really get our drink on. I had a really hard week and only had one goal: to get totally loaded. While waiting on a fresh bottle of rum, I looked around, looking for something to look at. Then I saw him. He towered over pretty much everyone at 6'6 and had a smile that lit up the club, despite the dim lighting. He was already looking at me. He raised his glass to me and I realized that I didn't have a glass to raise back. "I don't have a glass." I motioned with my hands. Just at that moment, someone shoved a glass of rum and coke into my hand. "Hey, I have one now." I motioned again. I had to laugh at myself for trying to communicate in drunken sign language. When he smiled at me, I felt this warm feeling. It was like someone hugging me without even touching me. My heart started to race and I felt a little light-headed. I knew it couldn't have been the alcohol because I had only had half of rum and coke and that compared to my normal standards was nothing. I was still fully capable of operating heavy machinery. Later I was chatting with the girls, when I felt someone hit their glass against mine. I looked up to see the guy from before. He seemed much taller than before, despite me having on the highest heels that I own. I felt small compared to him, but I think that's when my primal instinct kicked in. They always say that women like men that are bigger/ taller than they are because they feel as though the man could protect them. Considering that I couldn't wear heels around B because of his height, this feeling was very new to me. I liked it. "Now, I did it right." He said, taking a sip of his drink. Just like that, he was gone. 'Awww darn it!' I thought slightly balling my fist. A while later, I was on my way outside to get a breath of fresh air. Struggling to get through the crowded club, I felt someone close behind me (as if that was anything new, considering this particular event is ALWAYS crowded). I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around. "Hey, may I accompany you outside?" He asked in a gentlemanly manner. A little stunned that he was so polite, "Yeah...uhh...yes." I stuttered. He followed me out onto the terrace, where we sat close together on a bench. He stretched out a very (I mean VERY, folks) muscular arm with an equally gigantic hand attached to it (that would make my own hand look like those of Thumbelina). "I'm Beast." He said. I took his hand and it swallowed mine in a handshake. An electric shock shot through my arm as soon as we touched. 'Well, I used to have a hand there.' I amusingly thought to myself. "Nice to meet you." I said, happy to see that my hand was returned in one piece. We chatted outside for a while before I decided to go back inside to go check on my friends. I didn't really want to leave but I couldn't just desert my friends for the half of the night. "I'm sure we'll see each other later." I promised as I disappeared into the crowd. Sometime later I found my friends, drinking by the bar. "Hey, Beast was looking for you." Said one of my friends. "Really?" I said, looking a bit surprised and kind of flattered. I stayed with my friends until they had scattered themselves around the club, then I figured I might as well do a few laps too. Outside on the club's terrace, I sat on the bench, a little tired from walking around in my too-high-heels. A guy, who was sitting on the other side of the bench, slid closer to me. "Hi. How are you?" He said, slurring his words together. I was instantly put off. "Hi." I said unenthusiastically. He blabbered on about something for a few minutes, before I realized that Beast was standing but a couple feet away with his friends. He was watching me with his ice-blue eyes. I smiled at him 'Rescue me!' I thought. As if he could read my thoughts, he walked over to where I was sitting and sat down next to me. The other drunk guy apparently got the message and left. "Here you are." He said. "I asked one of your friends if you might have already left." He confessed. It was getting late and the music inside had already been turned off, so I knew I had to make a decision soon. To go home alone or not to go home alone, that was the question...
Count Vronsky-Part Three: Crossing the Blurred Line
It had been about a week since I saw Vronsky at Touch Club. We had texted a few times and even though I didnât see him, I had the feeling that he was acting kind of strange. I began to wonder what was wrong with him. âDid I do something? What could I have done?â I thought. His texts all seemed disinterested and cold. Who was this? Certainly not the Vronsky that I was used to. So I just let it go. We stopped texting and talking. It was weird because I didnât know what was going on with him. Whatever, if he was going to be a douche, then so be it. No one needs a douchebag as a friend. As much as I tried to let it go, about a week later I found myself on his Facebook page. âLookie, looking what I found here.â I thought angrily. Vronskyâs relationship status was no longer âsingleâ but âin a relationshipâ. I was shocked and pissed simultaneously. âWTF? Since when?â I thought. Most importantly, why didnât he just tell me that? Being the stalker that I am, I clicked on her profile. My stomach dropped out of my butt, as I saw who it was. It was the same girl from the club. Sure, you were at Touch with just âsome peopleâ and your love life is âNothing specialâ. Liar, liar pants not just on fire but ABLAZE! I was so disappointed in Vronsky. âIâm supposed to be your friend and you donât even tell me that you have a girlfriend. What kind of friends are we supposed to be?â I fumed. I was sooo done with him, or so I thought. Last Saturday Pepper and I were outside of Touch waiting to get in and guess who was standing in front of me? Vronsky. I just stood there as if I didnât know him. Later in the club I saw him with a friend. âHey! How are you?â He asked. When he smiled at me felt myself growing weaker, despite being mad as hell. âFine, thanks.â I mustered. But then I couldnât hold it in anymore, I started to feel a very bad case of verbal vomiting coming on. âCan I talk to you for a sec?â I said as calmly as possible. We went outside the club, because it was much too loud in there to carry on a decent conversation and I wanted to make sure he heard every word of what I had to say. âSo whatâs up with you these days?â I inquired, really trying not to just blurt everything out. âNothing much.â He replies. I felt the blood rush to my face in anger. âWhy wonât you just spit it out already?â I thought. âSo whatâs this business about you having a girlfriend?â I asked, trying to sound casual even though I was super-pissed. Vronsky gives me a guilty look and smirks, âYeeaahhh⊠I do.â he confesses. âWhy didnât you tell me? Thatâs great! Good for you!â I lied, now my pants (or much rather my dress) was on fire. âWeâre friends you couldâve told me.â I continued. âI didnât tell you becauseâŠâ He started. Widening my eyes in suspense, âYes?â I probed. âI didnât tell you because I⊠Still have feelings for you.â âI KNEW IT!â I thought. I just wanted to hear him say it. I knew it all along, I knew it a year ago at the party, I knew it every time he looked at me and I knew it last Thursday. However, I somehow knew that him saying it wasnât enough. Later as the club was closing, Pepper and I were saying our good-byes and by the time she was gone, Vronsky came up behind me. âWell I guess Iâm going to get going too. Iâll see you laterâ I said. We gave each other a hug. While still in his arms (because it was the longest hug in platonic friendship history) I looked up into his emerald eyes. I could feel how his hand brushed away a strand of my hair. His fingers ran slowly along my jawline and stopped under my chin. He lifted up my face to meet his. His lips were soft and warm in the cold night breeze. His arms pulled me closer. The fur collar of his jacket brushed up gently across my cheek and for just a moment I was breathless. So folks at this point in the story Iâm going to have to plead the FifthâŠstay tuned for part four.
Count Vronsky-Part Two: Blurred Lines
It was Thursday night and I was once again at Touch Club. Pepper and I decided to go out on account of not having class the next day. Once at the bar Pepper and I took advantage of the free welcome drinks they were giving out to all the girls at the club. Whilst sipping my cocktail and scanning the club for eye candy, I spotted Vronsky sitting but feet away from me with a familiar group of people. He waved and I waved back and turned back around. I didnât want to go up to him because I thought that would make me look maybe kind of desperate or something. As it turned out I didnât need to, less than a minute later Vronsky tapped me on the shoulder. âHey!â He said enthusiastically. We chatted for a few minutes. At some point he asks how I am really doing since Iâve been single. I tell him that Iâve been doing great and that Iâm happy. He smiles, touches me gently on the shoulder and tells me that I look really happy. âSo howâs your love life going?â I ask. âYeah, itâs whatever. Nothing specialâ he replies. Changing the subject, I ask him âSo who are you here with?â I knew a few of the people he was sitting with but what I really wanted to know was if any of the girls that were also with his group were a potential âSomething Specialâ. âJust some people over there.â He replies nonchalantly. âPhew, no one special.â I thought to myself. We hold each otherâs gaze for a moment before Pepper pulls me on to the dance floor. âWeâll talk more later.â I said as I disappeared into the crowd. Lost in the artificial fog of the dance floor, I see Vronsky with one of the girls from before. She was slung around his neck in a somewhat intoxicated manner and was kissing him in a way that just made me shake my head. âOh well,â I thought, âit looks like she got to him first.â For the rest of the night I had to watch how he comforted her when she was too drunk to keep dancing or too drunk too stand up or too drunk to function properly. It was sickening really, I knew we were just friends but I have to admit that I was kinda jealous. Later I left the club a bit disappointed that Vronsky and I didnât even get a chance to continue our little chat and that he spent most of the time with his drunken conquest. At times I kinda even felt like he was avoiding me, but I was sure it had nothing to do with this girlâŠor did it?
Count Vronsky
Maybe writing down a few of my current thoughts will help me understand whatâs going on here. I met (Count) Vronsky two years ago. We both study the same major and like the same music as well as both having little tolerance for bullshit. We became fast friends. We always tried to plan to do things including our significant others but it, strangely, never came to fruition. Until one day I find out that Vronsky and his girlfriend had broken up. At a party a while later Vronsky and I had had a few drinks and found ourselves deserted by our other friends and completely alone, on a bench a bit isolated from the rest of the party. Despite still being in a relationship with B at that time, I could still sense a kind of tension between Vronsky and I. But whatever Vronsky and I were just friends, right? At some point during our conversation I realized that Vronskyâs arm had wandered around my shoulders and the warmth of it in the cold night air had given me a comforting feeling. Because the music inside was turned up to a deafening volume, we both were half deaf and talking to each other with our faces just inches apart. Then for just a moment it was silent and all you could hear was the rustling of the autumn leaves in the breeze. I could see Vronskyâs face getting closer and my heart started to race. A thousand thoughts raced through my head, despite the alcohol fog. âI think we should go find everyone and Iâm starting to get cold.â I said as I suddenly jumped up from the bench and out of that sticky mess I had almost gotten myself into. At that moment my friend, letâs just call her Pepper (short for Dr.Pepper on account of her Dr. Pepper colored hair) shows up. âIâve been looking all over for you! Where have you been?â she says, making my argument look totally legit. I couldnât look Vronsky in the face, let alone my own face for the rest of the night. Ugh, gotta go back to class. To be continuedâŠ
Accepting My Inner Booman
Booman: German Origin.The person who is to blame for the shittiness of your day or really anything that goes wrong.
Three weeks ago, I was getting ready to go to Beastin' (a party with the best in hip-hop music that this corner of Germany can offer) when Smoothie called with some rather interesting news. B had called Smoothie and said that they had plans for that night. Smoothie and I had been planning to go to the party for the last couple of weeks AND we were on the guest list. I thought she was about to tell me that she can't go or even worse, that I can't go because B is coming. No, she basically told him too bad and that if he wanted to go he better get over the fact that I'm coming. I really didn't expect that because then he apparently said, "But I'm your brother!" and Smoothie says, "And I have plans." IN YOUR FACE B!!!! So is everyone just supposed to drop their plans and ditch me because you decided that you wanted to come 3 hours before the party starts? I don't think so. I can't believe that B gave Smoothie an ultimatum like that. Since Smoothie and I are still friends I've been trying to not put her in crappy situations like that. Shame on you B.
Later in front of the club, I was the first person to get there. Of course I call Smoothie to ask her where she and the gang were. They were on their way and that B was with them. 'Oh great. I might as well try and make the best out of the situtation.' I thought to myself. I politely greeted him and gave him a hug. Note: It was the lamest hug ever. It was super awkward. It was like hugging a telephone pole and then realizing that the telephone pole had no arms to hug you back and didn't really want to even if it had arms. I didn't really know what else to do. Was I supposed to shake his hand or something?
After a drink or two and about an hour of B avoiding me at all costs, I saw him. I saw my OTHER ex, Model, on the dance floor. He immediately saw me standing on the edge of the dance floor. I figured I'd go over there and say hi. Forty-five minutes later Model and I were still talking about God and the universe. It occurred to me that I hadn't seen my friends and that I should go in and at least see if they're alive. At that moment Smoothie and B cross my path. Smoothie looking rather annoyed, says that she'll be right back because B wants to talk to her in private. I didn't see her for the rest of the night. Model was in my face for the rest of the night. I thought that it was so funny that one of my exes was treating me as if I had the plague and the other was chasing me like my weave was made of gold.
Once home I called my Mommy to let her know that I made it home (not that she can do much from 6000 miles away, but I don't want her to worry). I expressed how frustrated and upset I was when I tried to make things less awkward at the party and B just pretty much ignored me. She told me that I am the Booman because I broke up with B. She said that I need to accept my inner Booman and stop trying to make things less awkward because that's just the way things are and B will eventually get over it (even though it's looking pretty hopeless right now).
I'm not afraid of the Booman because I AM the Booman.
You know itâs love when forever is not long enough
Olitz's love is immortal...there will be nothin like it again at least in Tv History.
Looking back I have this to regret that too often when I loved I did not say so
OMG best quote ever. Maybe I'm just a bit bias because sometimes wish that I was Zelda...
Problems...
...if you havin' girl problems I feel bad for you, son. I got 99 Problems but a douche ain't one. Being single is the sh*t!!!! To be continued...
Smoothie to the Rescue
I saw B as he left the building with two bottles of coca-cola which can only mean one thing, heâs going out drinking and to have a good time. Meanwhile back at the ranch, I am sitting in my apartment patiently awaiting ladies night on my favorite TV-channel. Not wanting for him to be having a good time while I am stuck at home alone, watching re-runs of Sex and the City, I start to drive myself crazy. I ask myself âWhere is he going? With who? Why am I just sitting here?â After three episodes of Sex and the City and one episode of Secret Diary of a Call-Girl, I picked up the phone and called Smoothie. Smoothie is always a dependable source to help me out of a party-funk despite her being Bâs sister. I know what youâre thinking but Smoothie and I are total BFFs. Anyway, Smoothie told me that the party is at Touch (one of my fave clubs) So thatâs where I am writing you live from the Touch handicap bathroom stall. Let's see where this night goes.