a peek at my journal

I like to write, so I'm spilling some of that onto this. **this is a side blog**

[fromthemindofgb-blog]

She'll hand you the last brick of the wall she's kept up for her life. Her once heavy shoulder will shake as her sobs fill up the room. She'll fall into you and you'll only want to hold her close and be her shelter. 'I'm sorry,' she'll say and your heart will sink for how can anyone be mad at her for baring herself? And you'll decide that goodnight is the only form of goodbye you ever want to say to her.

Coffeeshop Chronicles, Chapter Four

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'Just a friend' doesn't look at you with wonder beaming out of him, at how the universe, likely in a stroke of sheer luck, could have come up with you

your eyes can't lie to me anymore

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When I was little I would keep my eyes closed long enough to imagine the thing I was wishing for. I don't have to do that anymore. You're really the only thing I see when I close my eyes now.

you have me wishing on eyelashes

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I'm very good at being alone. I'm not the person who goes to bed craving someone's touch. But I did last night. Yours.

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I always thought if there was one person I could trust in my life, it was myself. Funny how you broke that too.

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You’re a memory that doesn’t feel real anymore, a memory I can’t remember living.

and now you’re gone so does it even matter

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I can forgive you for a lot of things. The lies, the manipulation, even the false promises. But if there’s something I’ll never get over, it’s my permanent memory of your hands on me and the way it makes my skin crawl. I will never forgive you for taking away my comfort in other people's affection.

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I really was doing just fine before you came into my life. But I'd be lying if I said I want to live in a world where I don't know you.

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I speak three languages and somehow I will never find the words to explain the way you made me believe my heart was real.

I hope you know I really did love you

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To love you the way you needed to be loved meant I would have to change who I was as a person and I’m really sorry because that wasn’t a sacrifice I was willing to make

it doesn't mean I didn't love you

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I want you in so many ways, and for life

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You don't have to fix me. I was never broken to begin with.

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I loved you because I saw you and I felt home. Now I know, you can't build a home in another person.

you're gone and I have nowhere to go

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You turned my love language into something I can no longer speak

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God knows what life has inflicted on you but you didn't give up on it. Life is worth living, and just as a phoenix returns from death, you gave yourself another chance.

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you wonder what the heavens could offer that compares to the way you feel in his arms

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You once told me that I love unconditionally. I don't know if you even remember. You said it so casually, like it was common knowledge. I think about this a lot, though. It never occurred to me until you pointed it out. But I don't know how to love any other way.