hannah

18 | wlw everything i’ve loved, i’ve loved it straight to death

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hii my name is hannah this is my new account because i was bored of my other LOL

i plan to post mostly photography perhaps other stuff if i’m not lazy!

oki that’s all, mutual me upppp

link to all my posts + some photos :3

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hey guys i forgot to post this on here but here’s my ethel cain tattoo!!!

“everything i’ve loved, i’ve loved it straight to death.” - a knock at the door.

i actually got this back in january i think? so completely healed and such but im absolutely in love with it YAY

@tankhall

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hello lovelies sorry for the disappearance, happy new year!

hope to post more often hopefully!!

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crush my bones into fingerless dust

particles spiral around as the wind migrates through the air

feel the deadness in my spirit plummeting into your nerves

the sprouts of unmistakable agony flow through you so effortlessly you wonder what you did to deserve it

was it the vulnerability that struck your innocent soul

the perfect vessel to feel the wrath of what you were destined to feel

perhaps destined to be.

maybe the long grueling path of spite and rage fulfilled your long years ahead of you.

i was just there to stop it.

stop you from becoming your worst nightmare,

a brooding devilish fiend who sits on the wet pavement wondering what life would be like if you hadn’t done what you done

wishing by the might of god that he would save you from this treacherous world.

the will of mother nature you wonder,

was this always coming?

was last days of willful wonder always meant to die?

maybe you would have been a person you couldn’t look in the mirror, so frightened by the horrors that awaited down the line.

i saved you. i saved you from yourself.

talk about luck huh?

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i thought i saw a face in the fog

his eyes so dark and bulging

he greets me with a smile

asks if we’ve met before

somehow i knew this would happen

the fog grew thicker and felt so heavy

my body slowly shutting down with a punch

knees buckle as i watched you crumble

i saw myself consuming you

how wonderful it is to share the joy

now we all watch you

in search of your new friend,

breaking through the fog

something we all had done

we have met before,

you just hadn’t noticed.

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please stay

i have nothing left

i’m a broken record

all i need is your love

the tape to fix me up

please just stay

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gotta leave you alone

sometimes the world mushes my feelings

makes me remember our small moments

but you didn’t want that

you never wanted that

sometimes i think it’ll be different

that you’ll come running back

one day you’ll realize that we click

click better with you then any girl you’ll meet

our futures may align

down the path of life

but for right now,

i gotta leave you alone.

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break away from the cold swollen world

let your arms float and fly

by the time they notice, you’ll be in the sky.

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he said “god will swallow you whole and renew you into into something beautiful.”

he grabbed my shoulder in hesitation

as if i were going to release the devilish ways into him

the night ended with knees on the dusty wood floors

there so long i could feel the bruises forming

rosary in hand

i prayed to god and hoped these feelings would pass

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glows so bright in the morning air

i almost forgot you’re gone

perhaps you watch from beyond

laughing at the fact i still can’t get over you

over the way you stare in my eyes

over the fact you could tell anyone everything about me

but that’s just a memory now

just like you.

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the road seems long and dead

blanks of the world faulted at our feet

the world feels colder now

just for a moment the silence is cut

cut by the wind passing by warm cheeks

dead plants sprawled across the ground

then the train passes

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master list if you will

aka all of my posts!!

the cemetery

nebraska plains

found god

wilderness breach

rail road

haunt (the narrative)

gods pleas

beyond

leave you alone

stay

foggy presence

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the hollow names of those before sprawled out in the dead grass, laying flatly.

the wind whisks its way as if the dead were moving with it

i hear a lot of ghosts you know?

the ones that talk in deep voices, edging on the fact that they just miss the mortal world.

maybe one day i’ll be there too

soaking in the warm summer sun or imagining the frigid snow between my translucent fingers.

the dead call to me and sometimes, just sometimes, i think to call back.

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plains speak whispers to me

the cows stare back as if they had said something

towers hang so low i think i could grasp

hold my hand now

as we seep into the grass

as if it was was swallowing us whole.

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“there i found me in a long, long wood

astray, midway of mortal life

witness to such agony,

but there, before the grace of god i go

i want to know love

i want to know what it feels like.”

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“you’re not scared of no knock on the door,

but maybe you are.”