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In case you have not noticed how boring my life was. Here is the detailed version of my boring life!

[fryingpants]

Ok here’s the situation.

I’m currently having my attachment and BSP headquarters. My objective is to ask around the staffs and learn the things related to my course. 

I was ok for the first two weeks but I guess I’ve been around new people so much that I am starting to have a withdrawal symptoms for forcing myself to socialise. HAHAHAHHA weird I know.

The thing is I’m now assigned to a new team: structural team. I don’t know why I’m just too scared to approach them. I have to in order to complete my assignment but how am I going to overcome this fear? I am known not being able to handle new situations that well (except for in rare cases where I just automatically can) 

well I was overly positive during those times and I was extremely negative right now.............................

ffs. im just gonna get this over with.

[fryingpants]

let’s face my fears. wish me luck.

[fryingpants]

I couldn’t. I’m such an idiot. 

[fryingpants]

let’s face my fears. wish me luck.

[fryingpants]

Why do I have to experience the awkwardness

[fryingpants]

Aite 3 more days till the end of sem 1

[fryingpants]

I can't bottled up my feelings no more

A lot have been going on this year. I mean, a lot. Really. 2016 won't stop surprise me. I just want it to end. I would say it was a bittersweet year for me. I can't believe I'm finally a university student(coughs a bad one). I have not adjusted to this new lifestyle. Well, maybe I just don't bother to make efforts to do so. But I vowed to myself that I will try to do better for the next semester. I will be stronger than my strongest excuse 😂 Well, I've chosen Civil Engineering as my course at my university. I can tell it is actually not my forte. I know because I did badly on tests and assignments. I know my heart long for chemistry related courses. But I felt like it was too late. I was afraid to take leap. I was afraid to lose my scholarship which binds me to Civil Engineering. I was afraid I will regret it. I was afraid to put myself in a risky situation. I admire those who was brave enough to stood for themselves and follow their hearts. I'm afraid I'm not one of them. I can't share this with anyone because I don't think anyone would understand. I'm still unsure of myself. I feel like I don't know myself that well. It's funny how I haven't fully opened up to anyone even to myself. I just kinda stored the feelings to somewhere and lock it and forget about it? No one really asked me how I feel though. I feel more alone than everyone else. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere because I'm the odd puzzle piece?? Shit this is getting depressing. 😖 Anyway, one of other things happening this year was my mum have stage 4 breast cancer and currently undergoes chemotherapy. She's my anchor. I mean, she's one of the reason why I'm strong. She's one of the strongest people I know. She fight the side effects like a boss. She smiled and laughed with us. When she got back home, she immediately goes to work(cooking and taking care of her orchids). Said she missed it. Seriously mum, keep fighting! We'll be there for you. Always. 💕 One of the outcome from my mother's sickness is I got to rekindled my relationship with my sister. There has been a bad blood between us since I was born? To put it simply, she just don't like me. Hahahaha. It hurts. I mean even your own sister dislike you. She's the only sister I had and I used to wonder why our relationship is not like others? I was always alone before. I only had my mother. My siblings were far too old to play with me. I was the other one. It's sad really. But I'm glad things started to get better now. At least, I feel less alone. 😂 I've got some other problems still. But I don't think I should share it now. Well ciao Here's another update to my (boring) life! P.s 2016 sucks. I can't wait to kiss 2016 a goodbye

[fryingpants]

my wisdom teeth are coming out.

=_=

[thatadhdfeel]

when u zone out in class and ur all like

[madeupmonkeyshit]

when someone is physically attractive but boring as hell

[4a0000-deactivated20170115]

I need a photographer boyfriend to get my angles and make me look like art

[depression-and-movies]

[earthnation]

that thin ass chocolate bowl would never be able to withstand the pressure of my spoon trying to slice ice cream

[fryingpants]

Mau sambung liat doctor who 😢

[fryingpants]

Heh why should I feel sad during this 'victorious' day

[judgejudyofficial]

In French we don’t say “Marry me,” we say ted cruz est le tueur du zodiaque which roughly translates to “Let us never separate” and I think that’s truly beautiful

[yeoja]

nvm im ugly. selfie cancelled

[fryingpants]

Bro assessment isuk 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[fryingpants]

Halp

How do you impress the interviewers?