Who let the queer kid online?

Someone made the mistake of letting the pansexual FtM go to art school and get a tumblr.

[emrycrmy]

hey, so I had top surgery

[theserustedparts]

1 month post op vs. 6.5 months post op. I’m really happy with my results, and I can’t be more lucky to have the opportunity to have top surgery. My dysphoria has decreased significantly after surgery. While it put me $3,500 in debt, and depressed for the first month… I’m finally at a point where I feel comfortable with my body, and can’t wait to see what the future holds.

[marrciray]

ETERNAL SCREAMING INTO THE ENDLESS VOID

THE BEAUTIFUL AND STUNNINGLY TALENTED @jxsstxmczxk PUT IN THE TIME AND THE EFFORT TO DRAW ME. 

(THIS IS BY FAR THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I’VE EVER SEEN AND IM CONSIDERING GETTING IT FRAMED FOR MY COLLEGE DORM ROOM.)

[marrciray]

Happy trans day of visibility!

This year has been a crazy one for me. I’m almost 10 months on T. My name is legally changed, and all my legal ids have been switched to male.

For a long time I though I had to fit some perfect mold of masculinity so people would take me seriously as a “real boy.” But I’ve come to realize I don’t need any of that. I know who I am. I’m a guy that likes heels and likes being pretty and doesn’t need to be ashamed of that.

I’m proud to be who I am.

[marrciray]

So I got to perform my poem “Generosity” at Coffee House tonight. Since I had a recording I thought I’d put it up. Hope you like it! 

(The Read more has a transcript of the poem)

Keep reading

[marrciray]

Isn’t the “het” negated?

hey, i’ve tried to find posts on tumblr that address this bit i can’t seem to find any. plus i dont want to force ace people to rehash by asking someone directly. so i hope this post chill.

can someone pls explain the whole “cishet ace” thing to me, (specifically ppl who identify as cishet ace). i just feel like there’s something wrong with labeling ace/aro people with a group that isn’t in the lgbt community? 

Doesn’t being aro/ace negate the whole het thing? People could be heteroromantic and asexual or aromantic and heterosexual, but isn’t that still inherently different from being “het”? Because being cishet has always been very clearly shown as people who 1. identify as the gender they were assigned at birth and 2. feel attraction for people who identify as the gender opposite the binary. 

I’ve just never met an ace/aro person whose experience with attraction ever fit into the “het” narrative. I don’t want to say those people don’t exist! I’ve just never had an experience with someone like that. 

I’m not sure what i’m trying to get @ with this post. I’m honestly just really confused and don’t want to take any strong stance when I haven’t engaged with the whole situation. 

Bottom line. Ace/aro people are totally lgbt. (I mean honeslty why is that up for debate. Have we not spend literally years trying to make people understand the A in lgbtqia+ stands for ace/aro/agender and not ally. Like when did the whole tide of hatred turn on our own community) I just don’t quite understand how lgbt peole fit into a “cishet” narrative.

[marrciray]

What name should I use?

I know this is kinda personal but I’m kinda stumped so I took to the land of answers. My highschool makes a special sweatshirt for students who have been there since freshman year. 

The design has a list of every 4-four year’s name and idk which one to put on there…

Everyone at school knows me as Ray and I’ve been getting called Ray since I was 14. But it’s not the name I’m going to be legally changing to. It’s a nickname.

My legal name is going to Marcus, that’s the name I will apply to jobs with and spend the rest of my life with. Some people at school call me Marcus and people who know me know that’s my name. But a majority of campus only knows me as Ray.

So the question becomes, should the sweatshirt say my name or the name people know me to have?

[lopmon]

[rincewitch]

rest in fucking pieces

[ftmmagazine]

Exciting news,@datmalayboi and @ryudiculous Of FTM Model Projects are starting a new project and we’re looking for #transmenall over the world to model for a 2017 calendar!

How to enter: 1) Pick your best picture, whether its from a studio photoshoot or from your smart phone. No selfies please, we’re looking for full/half body or headshots.

2) Any pose is fine - nothing religious or degratory or offensive please. Just be yourself, confidence is key! Topless is fine, just not full nudity.

3) We’re looking for diversity so it doesn’t matter if you’re #preT or #preop or feminine or masculine. All races, nationalities or unicorns accepted. We want to be able to showcase our whole community. Group shots are accepted, but everyone in the picture must identify as #transmale and are aware that they’re being submitted for this project.

4) Image MUST be high resolution (2000px and up; or 300dpi). This is meant to go to print, so we can’t have pixelated images.

5) Send them to [email protected]. Do include your name, instagram username, and your country.

6) Selected models will receive gifts from us as a token of appreciation!

DEADLINE: 31st AUGUST 2016

Looking forward to seeing your submissions!

[marrciray]

My heart goes out to the families that were affected by the shooting in Orlando this morning. Violence and blood has stained this year’s pride month. Orlando is the closest large city to me and it has always been my beacon of pride. A place for people like me, queer people, could be together and have some sense of saftey. This mornings events have shattered that. I stand with the LGBT+ community here in Florida and all over the world. This violence is unacceptable. Please, keep Orlando in your thoughts. #pride #transgenderpride #pansexualpride #gaypride #lgbt #ftm #orlando (at The Villages, Florida)

[bitter-trans-lesbian]

Pre-HRT

3 Years HRT

[rocketmermaid]

ONLY TOOK ME A YEAR AND A HALF

[coelasquid]

flawless.

[naamahdarling]

This is my new favorite post.

[pearlrebs-deactivated20170202]

(1) Sorry to bother you but I read what you said about being closeted. The thing is I'm dating a girl and she always says she doesn't like girls, only me. I don't really know if she's in the closet or... if it's true. It sort of scares me.

(2)It makes me doubt and feel insecure about our relationship. She hasn’t told HER friends that we’re together, even though all of our classmates know. Her family is homophobic. But it makes me feel like she’s embarassed or doesn’t really want me

It sounds like you’re dealing with a lot of things at once. I know there are other people like me who thought they were straight and changed their mind later, but there are also people who do just experiment and everyone gets to decide their own label. From what you’ve said it sounds like /she’s/ dealing with a tough situation at home which probably makes things difficult for her having feelings for you. I do think you should about your feelings but I also don’t think you can judge how how much she cares about you by whether or not she comes out of the closet. That’s something everyone gets to decide at their own pace and if her family is homophobic she may not want word getting back to them about it. It can be difficult and scary having to face coming out even without homophobic parents. I imagine it’s a really hard situation on both sides of the relationship. My best advice is to try to be honest with each other about how you’re feeling and do your best to respect the other person’s boundaries. 

If anyone with more experience on that side of the relationship has advice send it my way and I’ll post it so this person can hear more than just my opinion.

[girloscarism]

Anakin Skywalker + being the most dramatic shit in the space

[hoespice-deactivated20180619]

“i expected better from you” well that was your fault lmao I got nothing to do with that

[marrciray]

2015 has been a rollercoaster and I’m about to head to a wedding to ring in the new year. So here are my 6 selfies of 2015! 

As far as hair color goes, I suppose I’ve gone in  a circle from red to brown, then blonde, back to brown, blonde one more time, and finally red again.

Have fun with my same small smile and my snake’s guest appearance in July. 

(He/Him/His)

[marrciray]

Best day ever! I don’t know if any college can compare to everything I’ve seen at MIT! 

I had to take some pics with my MIT swag 

(He/Him/His)

[marrciray]

When your boi gets a little to aggressive

(He/HimHis)