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19 FTM/Nonbinary. Any Pronouns. Taken, not looking for a partner. DMs are fucked, I can see some of them but can't seem to reply. This Is A Kink Blog, Not Real Life.

[ftmfemboyslut]

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I am 19, AFAB and nonbinary, though I also identify myself as FTM. This blog contains a lot of gender fuckery through kink, including detransitioning and misgendering. All posts are intended to be read as fantasy.

I will make posts both In and Out of character. In character posts discuss detransitioning as reality. If this content bothers you, please block the tag #detrans kink.

Posts that don't specifically read as detrans but include elements are tagged as #gender fuckery. This includes posts using terms referring to the reader as a girl or other feminine terms, or that reference gender in some way.

This blog is lacking in trans positivity posts, but I intend to post more. Tags for posts that aren't related to gender fuckery kinks may include #t4t, and #trans-positive.

Out of character post tags will include '#aftercare' for gender-affirming and calming posts, '#weather?' for check-ins, and just '#ooc' for general posts.

#weather? posts may also include the following tags

#sun is shining

#skies are cloudy

#a storm's rolling in

take this the same way as a traffic light system. '#sun is shining' is good, '#a storm's rolling in' means it is time to stop.

The block button is my favorite thing on this hellsite, so if I decide I don't want to interact kindly with someone that is often my go to solution. I encourage others to do the same.

Hard Limits:

While I do not have- nor do I care to make- a typical DNI, I will not answer asks or interact with posts related to:

Incest

Pedophilia

Disordered Eating (This includes things like weight kinks and force feeding.)

Self Harm (consensual knifeplay, wax play, etc are all fine. It's the self-inflicted stuff I avoid.)

This list may be added onto over time.

[forcefem]

I wish I had an FTM girl beg me to use a condom when I fucked her, just so I could see the combination of betrayal and pure bliss when she realized I'd taken it off and cum in her raw.

[iluvsadists]

in need of non sexual domination so bad rn bro 😭 buy and pick out my outfits, hold my hand tight while you drag me around a store (just to make sure i don’t get lost), give me little chores to do around the house. just need to be a good housewife so bad rn

[x-honeycomb-x]

Get a misgendering box! Put 3 tops, 3 bottoms, 3 dresses, 3 sets of underwear, 3 sets of socks, 2 pairs of shoes, 1 bottle of perfume, 1 set of shampoo and body wash, 1 makeup bag, 1 bag, all feminine; and then decide on maybe 3 hours per week when you have to do something in girlmode. (Like watch a movie or have dinner or just stay in and watch a stream.) non-sexual misgendering stuff is just as fun and is part of the kink. it keeps me from feeling like a sex object, but makes me feel like a person with a kink

[detranslavendarbabe]

How to feel better when you’re “detransitioning”

(Or experimenting with your birth gender)

After all, I’ve masturbated to the idea of detransitioning for years and years. I am “detransitioning” for a week/month(s), it’s hard to not feel my sex addiction triggered

These are things I find helpful

Get out of the house, look up parks, museums, cafes, interesting neighborhoods around you, and just go out for walks. Go to board game nights or go to the cinema

Get genuinely cute and affirming accessories or clothes, not just kinky and hypersexual stuff. Let yourself feel the innocence of your birth gender

Sign up for a membership with your birth name, with positive experiences that you had, maybe you went out for a walk at the museum, and you sign up for their membership card with your birth name

Use guided meditation. Arousal means your body is very tense, and meditation not helps you to relax, but also find love and truth within you, and many of these meditations are genderless

Enjoy art as your birth gender. Listen to music, read books, read comics, paint, watch movies, go to exhibitions, see how you look at the world in a different perspective.

Be open to introduce your inner child to yourself as your birth gender, you would notice that you’ll be kinder on yourself and put yourself on a good path

Have positive experiences as your birth gender or birth name! Keep this side of you fresh, reclaimed, positive, energetic.

Know that you can always go back to your previous gender. Nothing is black and white, you can be a bit of everything. But if your birth gender longs to be seen and nourished, give them some love and attention.

Tell a friend. You can tell them you’re experimenting with gender. (Or you can even tell them you have a detrans/misgender kink and you wanna explore yourself more outside of it.) You can tell them you wanna try xx pronouns and xx name, to see how you feel about it. I have queer friends who’s excited for me, which made me feel calmer and more normal.

Know that you are not your trauma. Maybe there’s a lot of trauma tied to your birth gender, but those trauma isn’t the totality of them. They will have new life experiences, you will be surprised by how much life they have in them, and they will be so grateful to have a second chance in life.

I surprised myself by how much love I have found in this “detransition” process. Being he/they has taught me how to be strong and gentle, and I’m letting my she/her self be loved in ways that she couldn’t in the past.

Have a gentle “detransition”/experiment with your birth gender.

Please feel free to message me your thoughts or fears. Or inbox me your birth name with pronouns you wanna experiment with. I would reply to them with gentleness and care. You don’t have to commit to anything, I just want to give a space for our birth genders to breathe, to be and be seen. 🤍

Possible Q&A:

Q: Isn’t this detransition? I thought you are a detransition KINK blog.

A: There’s a lot of sexless aspects of kinks!

For an example, pups might like to get fucked with collars on and their asses up, but they might still like to be softly petted, and drink water out of the bowl to refresh themselves as a pup.

The same can go for gender. It might be good to be called a “good girl/boy” when playing with your junks, but there’s also a lot of things outside of the bedroom to try. And as someone interested in mental health, I find this process therapeutic. I don’t know who I will be in 2 months, but right now I feel gentle and loving. And also naughty and kinky. And that’s good enough for me.

[x-honeycomb-x]

Why you should detransition into a girl/femboy

You will put effort into wearing beautiful clothes, and you would feel good about your appearance

You will put on nighties, and even light a candle and drink floral tea before bed, which reminds your body to wind down and sleep on time

You will put on makeup, which would make you wash your face every morning and night

You will exist just for the purpose of being a girl, so you are just in for the ride, and it takes away the daily pressure of expectations and goals

Or you can write down your goals, that “I wanna be a female xxx (guitarist, manager, lawyer, sister)”, so you can stay focused on your life goals <3

You will decorate your room with girly things, so you live in a prettier room

Buying girly clothes are expensive, which makes curating a capsule closet important, and you would have less choice paralysis

You will develop girly hobbies, which would make your life more interesting

You will workout in sexy yoga pants and sport bras, in private or public, which makes your body stronger

You will need to go out with an accepting friend weekly, which makes you go out of the house, and make a friend that’s liberal about gender

You will watch movies and read books as a girl, which encourages you to be an active consumer, and even encourage you to be a feminist

You will listen to music as a girl, which makes you more connected to wider ranges of emotions

You will dress up and wear makeup to formal occasions, such as the theater, museums, parties, dates, fancy dinners, which forces you to do more interesting things

You might need to do a lot of the above things alone, which forces you to appreciate solitude time more

You will listen to meditation videos (not hypno audios) to be more in love with your true self (gendered or genderless), which makes you more emotionally healthy, grateful and present

You will have a lot of thoughts, whether you post on Tumblr or mind dump on a notebook, these journaling practices would help you articulate your thoughts

Every gender-bending/detransitioning things you do takes courage, you are becoming more emotionally strong and open the further you go into the kink

You will take photos to document your detransition, which gives you the chance to improve your photography skills

When you take pictures of yourself (in femme or masc modes), you will see yourself better and get a better sense of self

When you realize you’re just another girl, you would look at women and feel like one of them, and make you develop common love (for women especially!)

Detransition today to make your life better <3 Don’t be shy and message me your progress 👀💓🌸

[huerkhnfvkvh-deactivated2024072]

I am just a fakeboy who wants to milk her tits

a few days ago, i post about getting a breast pump. you know, this suck-y thing-y real women use to milk their breasts. and now it finally arrived! this is how my first "lactating" session went...

i chose nice clothes to enhance the experience. i wore black lace panties, a nursing bra and a low-cut shirt. nursing bras aren't exactly a sexy accessory, but they bring me closest to what it's like to breastfeed. what it's like to have my breasts serve their purpose. I'm here to produce milk, to pump milk, to breastfeed, to be pregnant.

i settled into a comfortable chair and pulled off my shirt.

i decided to massage my breasts to stimulate milk production. i need to have enough for anyone who asks for it. i ran my fingers over my breasts, circular motions, massaging… It was all very pleasurable.

but it's not just supposed to be pleasurable. breastfeeding isn't about pleasure. breastfeeding is about using my body's abilities to the fullest. i need my breasts to be big and full of milk. I need that to be a real mother.

and so it came down to it - I put cream on my breasts and put on a breast pump so that both of my nipples were centered in there. a nursing bra helped to keep the breast pump in the right place. well.

and then I turned on the pump.

my nipples were sucked in and released. Sucked and released. Sucked and released.

and it was so great. that thing sucked on my breasts and was determined to milk all the milk out of them.

I felt like a cow. like a cow hooked up to a milking machine that sucks all the milk out of her. like that was my only destiny. to kneel down and have my milk sucked out until my breasts are sore and I start begging you to turn the pump off. I'll beg you, but you'll see that the milk is still flowing. and my cunt is the wettest. so why would you turn it off now?

the only thing missing from perfection was milk.

I played with the modes and the suction force. different lengths of suction, different intensities. my nipples were swollen and my thighs wet with my woman juices. it turned me on so much. it turned me on so much to be a woman and celebrate all the beauty and gifts of the female body.

i put a vibrator on my clit. i need to cum. i was in incredible ecstasy. the condition? the strongest mode of suction. i can't reward myself with an orgasm if I don't torture my nipples enough. gradually, as I increased the suction, it became a little painful. but I also increased the strength of the vibrations. being a woman is not only about pleasure, but also about pain. how can I bring a baby into the world if I can't stand a little discomfort when pumping milk? I have to get through it.

when I press the button to reach the highest level and increase the vibration I cum. my body shuddered with a very pleasurable sensation and I had a huge orgasm. i didn't turn the pump off until after five minutes of weak sucking.

Being a woman is great.

Want to see before and after pics of sucking? Or maybe the breastfeeding process? You can message me for PayPal and we will see what I can do to satisfy you.

[flyingpurplepeopleprogrammer]

Let's talk about thoughtlessness and brainlessness:

It's a broad topic, so I want to be clear that I'm not lumping the blissfully mindless in with mushin or the wannabe brainless bimbos, but there is a common thread.

See, so many of y'all aim for those spaces and then - like the dog that caught the car - have no idea what to do when you get there. You get that fleeting moment of peaceful, free, empty, or dumb and then... Whoops. Where'd that thought come from? It's a tragedy.

Now don't get me wrong, you can play with that: degradation for not even being able to not think or fractionation in the form of rapidly switching between here and nowhere - there's no shortage of options.

But think about what you're actually doing for a moment. Your brain is a finely tuned noise generator, a veritable idea generating machine that's evolved and sophisticated over a bazillion years and you're trying to make it not do, like, it's Thing. It's not trivial. Is it distracting thinking about how terribly affected you'd have be to be able to just stop thinking like that?

If you really want to be mindless and stay that way, then you've got to look at things a little differently.

People who are mindless don't just have their brains turn off. They're just doing a different kind of thing - experiencing a different kind of focus. Some folks get it through exercise or meditation. Others chase spirals. If you want to float in mindlessness then you need to give that lovely and clever brain of yours another way to be.

And since the intelligence play crowd will feel left out otherwise - I should say that that's how you get to be a silly little puddle, too, but to address that I need to put on my wholesome educator hat for a second:

People our society calls stupid or dumb are very, very seldom so. They've got the same kind of clever brains as everyone else! Most of the time - and that's the "most" of a person who habitually never says always - they're just caught up in what we decide are the wrong kind of thoughts. Maybe they missed some vital prerequisites. Maybe they really, really confidently believe that this or that line if reasoning is off limits to them. (Looking at you, shitty sexist math teachers.) Whatever the reason, even the most vapid creature is going to show you that they're quite clever and quite able to learn if you put them in an appropriate environment, and if you listen to "stupid" long enough to understand then you'll usually find they make perfect logical sense. It's just that their logic might be missing some vital pieces of information.

But how did that help you, dear reader, be a silly, giggly object? I'll tell you: you want to learn from them. Silly enlightenment isn't not having a brain; it's letting your brain wander over to play with things that don't matter. The version of that you dream up well be your own, of course: you might picture your ideal silly self replacing serious smartness with lustful daydreams and 47 palettes of makeup. Or you might see yourself fixated on what's really, truly, blissfully important to you - less valley girl, more devoted thrall. Or, well- the options are endless, as are the ways to keep yourself wherever you want to end up.

Some folks don't really have a problem with any of that, mind. They just slip into whatever headspace they wanted and their clever brains keep entertained in the background - possibly even by delighting in watching themselves tumble face first into decadence.

For the rest of us, though, what's important is that you don't despair if your first brushes with an empty head are fleeting. There's a set of skills to be learned, and if you spend a little time exploring where you want to end up and what it looks like to stay there then it can be a lot easier.

[mtfdomme]

Transmasc werewolf x transfemme centaur, y'all already know what they're doing ;)))

beating up JKR

[mtfdomme]

Hacking into NASA to find a way to fling Musk and Bezos into the sun

[mtfdomme]

Running for, and winning, the US presidential election, obliterating the military budget and funnelling the money directly into national healthcare initiatives, with a focus on supporting BIPOC and queer communities

[correctingcuntboys]

Going through my followers to see who you are is a funny thing to do.

So many fakeboys following me from their main blogs where they pretend so hard that they would never think about getting of to this. Yet I can bet your pink pussies get wet when between all the normal posts on your feed you get one like that, calling you out, making you dream about someone taking advantage of what's between your legs.

And so many girls that know exactly who they are. You pretend you still believe you're a boy, but babygirl, you made a full blog about being a silly little cuntboy where you share your dreams of a stranger groping your cunt in a bus, a boyfriend forcing you to get a boobjob, someone forcibly shaving your bodyhair and throwing away your binder and boxers... I think we both know which side of you is just play-pretend.

[edgedfox-deactivated20240929]

Also shoutout to Doms with disabilities.

you deserve aftercare. you deserve to have your boundaries respected.

Doms who need to be reminded to take care of themselves, and doms who need to be reminded to take their meds. Doms who need to be drawn a bath or a shower and be helped gently.

Doms who can’t play rough f/or long, and need to take breaks. Doms who need reassurance that the scenes you do are okay, that they aren’t a bad person. Doms who need to use their own safe words because they’re in pain and or suddenly don’t feel well enough to continue.

All doms need aftercare, but some a little more than others. All doms are valid regardless of your physical and/or mental limits.

[i-want-to-be-a-bimbo-doll]

I don't just aspire to think LESS, what I truly aspire to is to not think AT ALL! The dumber I get,the happier I genuinely become....and I'm pretty dumb already!

All I've EVER aspired to be, or ever will, is exactly what I am now and always will be:

The only thing I was born to be, and what makes me happy!

[mielnah-deactivated20220722]

we need more men in STEM (Stockings, Tight pants, Eyeliner, Mesh tops)

[reorientation]

I'm going to buy you a heart-shaped vial that you can wear like a locket around your neck. And every time I convince you not to take your testosterone, you'll put it in there instead.

I'll make you wear it constantly. Your friends will watch you slowly refeminize as the vial around your neck gets heavier and heavier. Strangers will just see a girl with a pretty necklace.

And once it's full, I'll find you, and rape you full of my cum over and over until you conceive for me. It won't take long. You'll have prepared your body for me by giving me your heart.

[thejillzone]

rb if your hole is a safe space for trans women

[cnc-dom]

Reminder: If you use the safe word, a good dom will not

be disappointed or angry

push your boundaries

mumble out some bullshit about how they were “so close”

get exasperated

ignore you and keep going

If your partner does this they aren’t a dom; they’re a dick and you should run in the opposite direction.

[pan-perv-switch-deactivated2025]

100% this

[theprettynosferatu]

Okay. Enough. You've been too much or a person today already. You deserve a break.

You have my blessing to stop being a person for the rest of the day. No stress, no worries. Those are people things. You don't do people things. You edge and moan and rub and let porn wash over you until you are nothing but a mindless fucktoy in heat, needy and eager to do anything to get *real people* off.

[ftmfemboyslut]

Did you take your T as soon as thr box unlocked??

I did not, I got horny and forgot all about it. Then I got horny again and relocked the box, and this time it's set for far longer.