Yet again, after a mere, simple—so to speak—conversation with her mother, the only one of the two that graced her with some sort of answer, Min-Seo weakly finds herself in a state of utter, boundless panic. She hates it when it’s like this. She really, really does; she despises feeling like being run over wouldn’t be so bad after hearing either one of her parents’ voices, just as much as she gets angry with herself for being so weak when it comes to confronting them in general. She’s shaking. And sweating and trembling and she barely can stand, but it’s not as if she can break down in the middle of the busy road, with people watching. Thousands, and thousands of people with eyes that could fall and witness her misery—
She’s an hopeless case, she knows. Which is why she doesn’t expect anyone to notice her, curled up and closed-off like a shy and terrified animal; everyone is busy, everyone has everything else to do. It’s reasonable and completely understandable, she muses to herself, as restraining her whines becomes more and more painful; I would do it too. A pathetic show like this isn’t worth anyone’s time. Breathing hurts, and she doesn’t understand why. (Or, rather, she knows, but she is too harsh on herself to let her admit it. After all, children shouldn’t feel so frustrated with their parents.)
Are you okay?
The sudden approach hits her like a truck. She thought that stiffening her shoulders and keeping her gaze down would be the perfect camouflage, but apparently she failed at being unnoticed. Before she can scold herself once more, though, other words follow. You’re breathing heavy. Her mind is confused, disturbed, as the pattern has been broken—even if just with a mere question—and her already panicked status begins to hit the dangerous peak that is terror. Oh no.
“Hhh—I… I—” though her expression is seemingly normal, her heavy breathing and her trembling hands do say otherwise. Every inch of her facial skin is pulled at its fullest; not letting any emotion flex through. Don’t make the situation worse. “I-I’m… ah… ahhh… I, I’m sorry—” these are all the words she can breathe out somewhat coherently. What is she supposed to say? “I’m fine?” That would just be more pitiable, wouldn’t it?
“I-I’m, r-really, really sorry, ah…” her breath hitches; her chest hurts.
This is horrible. You’re horrible.
overwhelming colours consumed her, they wrapped around her neck to stifle her incessant cries — squashed before they could come to fruition. she had warped into the visual representation of chaos, her words being outshone by her own feelings. his gaze narrowed as if that would help him see past the fog of despair. in the sea of her emotions, he is being overstimulated and he wondered if he would be devoured next. she is a reminder of his mother: her words, her colours, and her fears. this realization brings him back to the age of ten. his duty to save her is ingrained in him because of his mother.
from memory, his body moved and he recalled each action he had done for his mother that he would do for this stranger. would it help ? maybe not. but he simply goes through the motions. a hand gently seeking hers in retribution and kindness. gloved hands are offered palm upward almost in an offering, not to cage — to cradle if she allowed it. he does not want to be forward in his advances he simply wanted to help and this always helped his mother. he knows that her touch will burn him, it will bring forth a pain that is unlike any other. he is prepared and he hoped that even when he wore protection it would offer a minuscule of comfort.
images of HER are overlapping and that in itself is terrifying but he continued. there was no room for hesitance and he wanted to help. the role of caretaker stepped forward and for once his face wore kindness on every corner. no hard edges, only soft lines to relax her if she looked at him. he spoke softly — gently. no hint of anger or cruelty to startle her. those colours, he’d take them as his own and hopefully, she’d be doused in white instead. in safety, in protection.
‘ it’s okay. all is okay. just breath with me, yeah ? inhale, exhale. ’