an angel in the biblically accurate way ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
🥩 roxie/rex/felix 🥩
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊any pronouns┊20 yrs old ┊aroace + genderfluid
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊this is a jiraiblr/vent account!
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊ cw for religious trauma, sh, depression, and derealization/depersonalization. plz block if any of that makes you uncomfortable, and i'll try to tag accordingly
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊feel free to send me asks! plz do. i love anons! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝
more about me under the cut!
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊they've never been to a therapist...
... but i def have chronic derealization/depersonalization. and ofc. u know. the depression and social anxiety and general anxiety and all that. i also heavily suspect autism
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊ if you don't fw self-diagnosing then u may want to block me.
or send me money so i can see a therapist thank you
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊dni:
bigots. that's it. i block freely so if i don't like ur vibe... i'll just do that. minors are free to interact + follow, although i might not follow u back sorry TwT
some fun or not facts (yay!)
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊i'm currently a uni student... although i may drop out after this semester.
the lore is that i'm at a religious college... i'm too agnostic for ts...
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊i work as a social media manager so that's fun :) i get paid to post things and be stupid online!
speaking of religion, that's a sore spot for me. anyone who's too religious will get blocked, soz
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊ i love music sm !!!! plz talk to me about it !! my taste is all over the place but i love goth, industrial, nu metal, shoegaze, hyperpop and more !! my favorite band is ghost (˶>⩊<˶)
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊i also love visual novels, anime and western cartoons, books (when i have motivation to read them), photography and drawing !!!
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊im a big fan of weirdcore, dreamcore, meatcore, gorecore, morute, webcore, glitchcore, cutegore, etc. love me some horror shit :3
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊tag list time! will add as i go
asks: . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ the creature makes contact ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.
dp/dr related: ᯤ ࣪ ˖ ◌ ⟳ 𖦹 uh oh! your network's disconnected 𖦹 ⟳ ◌ ˖ ࣪ ᯤ
religion related: ˚₊‧꒰ა wheels of fire and eyes without number ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
irl pics: ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ the creature escaped its cage! ⋆｡˚✴︎⋆
reblogs: ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ the creature brings an offering ･:*࿔.ೃ.⋆
normal stuff: ⊹₊˚‧︵‿₊୨ the creature emerges through the pixels ୧₊‿︵‧˚₊⊹
sh related: ᝰ.ᐟ owie! i'm made flesh and meat! ᝰ.ᐟ
spirals: ⋆˚꩜｡ can we skip to the part where the maggots consume me? ｡꩜˚⋆
the song that inspired my username btw (well... the image its based off of too)
feeling very not real today buttttt that's okay because i'm also not feeling bad!! i have energy! which is good bc i have like two big midterms tomorrow lolz
i actually have a little system for describing my depersonalization/derealization and you're all going to get to learn about it!
Asleep: things don't feel real, but i don't realize it until i'm at "normal" or until i "wake up." everything feels distant and fuzzy and i'm running purely on autopilot.
Lucid: same as asleep, except i am aware that i'm dissociated.
Normal: this is just like. normal ig. if it comes after i've been "asleep" or "lucid," i'll feel like everything that came before it was a dream and my memory might be patchy/foggy/feel far away.
Awake: this is when things feel like too much and i feel like everything hurts. i'm painfully aware that things don't feel real. usually i have to get my bearing before adjusting to that state. usually this is when i start to believe that things aren't real, as if i've woken up from a simulation.
okay i dont mean this in a su1cidal way exactly, but does anyone else feel like they weren't supposed to be alive this long? like genuinely. i'm kinda convinced i was supposed to die at some point, and i didn't, and so now my body and mind are just... waiting. suspended in limbo. i'm not supposed to be here right now. soemthing went wrong. i'm not supposed to be alive.
