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I believe souls recognize each other.

I think karma has a funny way of showing up in our lives I think the universe has a even funnier way of showing you the darker parts of yourself without exactly showing you how to navigate through them just synchronies and hope you figure out your way I think pain can be both debilitating and humbling I think love can be both beautiful and terrifying i think sometimes we fight ourselves to make decisions and I think sometimes my brain gets the best of me I think you hurt me so deep that maybe if I speak in metaphors I’ll feel less weak I think I used to believe that you loved me now I think i just imagined it all I think if I blink the stove will blow up and I think I might die if I lose an eye but maybe in the end I think if I just try maybe I think I won’t go crazy I think maybe in the end if I just try maybe you’ll love me maybe I’ll be enough I think maybe I wouldn’t hate myself so much and maybe I wouldn’t want to run to the edges of the universe and maybe I think the world will spin correctly again and I think maybe just maybe I might be able to breathe again and maybe you will see that in the end it should’ve been me and maybe then I won’t weep I think maybe I will allow the pain to seep into my bones so you’ll forever have a home in me I think maybe it just wasn’t meant to be or maybe I think it was but we just got it wrong and I think it’ll hurt more if I know what was behind those lies so maybe I’ll think a little less and I guess I’ll just pretend that my heart doesn’t ache when it looks your way I think maybe I’ll just say I love you I guess that’s better than maybe we should take a break and if you’re reading this I guess maybe you felt the pain and maybe you found a way I think one day you well even if it’s not for me or maybe you won’t I guess it’s just my mistake for thinking it would be okay in the first place I think I lost it but maybe you’ll guess I just ran of of things to say maybe you’ll think about the days when we didn’t have I guesses and maybes we just had yes and I love yous and I would never do you this way I hope when you think of us you also think of the pain because maybe I guess it won’t matter at then

aidashakur

Losing your spark & having to find yourself all over again is so hard

confession, since my first child I learned how to love myself again and be confident in the body that grew said child but, there’s something that really dims that down for me being cheated on while pregnant of my second child. & trying to heal from that while pregnant and then into post partum is exhausting. also no one told me how having BPD and going through PP is way harder than just having PPD. I am defeated and exhausted and lonely and sometimes it feels like the world is against me. I don’t know man like even right now the house is quiet and I’m awake and alone talking to myself because my newborn finally fell asleep and again I’m met with just my thoughts. alone.

I am emotionally exhausted and I’m over it it’s like everytime I think I’m exiting from this cycle of bullshit I’m pulled right back into it one way or another, and it’s just like damn dawg can’t a bitch catch a break?

i get why people were criminals back in the day. if i was running from the cops in the thirties and i turned around and saw three horses and a model t id probably slow down to a light jog