Musical Muse Inspiration: Channe’s Queendom
(Disclaimer: Brief references to various triggers below including types of abuse and suicide.)
Channe in her youth was not a kind, empathetic, or social person. She made many bad decisions, hurt people who did not deserve it, and lashed out at those who cared for her most. She was a pessimistic, cynical, reclusive, and often detached person who wanted nothing to do with humanity or any of the other races that populated the land where she was born or those she fled to. However, Channe’s behavior, while by no means excusable, was easily explained by what she had suffered first as a child and then a young adult.
She is a child abuse, domestic abuse, disfigurement, and sexual assault survivor. She lost her beloved twin sister to suicide at age sixteen. It was made clear to her as a child that she was neither loved nor wanted by her parents (who instead considered her sister to be the favorite and perfect daughter), and her first relationship as an adult was with an arrogant, manipulative, and violent person who not only abused her, but convinced her to do things she felt in her heart were wrong to further his own question for power. By the time Channe was in her twenties, the human equivalent of about fifteen or sixteen, she had survived more than most and been left severely damaged both physically and psychologically as a result.
One might think that out of all this pain suffered by one so young that Channe would either have disappeared into anonymity or become incredibly cruel herself, perpetuating in her own life what had been done to her. In truth, she began to go down that path, associating with people who would encourage such behavior in her. But somewhere along the line, Channe realized something. She was tired of being defined by what had happened to her and as a victim. Instead, she dreamed of a world in which everyone was accepted for who they were, where the quiet and victimized could have a voice, no child felt unwanted or was made to suffer, women could be empowered, men could show emotion without being called weak, and people could feel safe both in their own homes and out on the streets.
It was a lofty dream, and some told her it was too ideal to ever exist in reality. Undaunted, Channe pushed away those who doubted her and were responsible for encouraging her to continue the cycle of abuse and violence in her life. She began to surround herself with people who embodied the ideals she wanted in life and who would join her in protecting and lifting up the small, weak, young, old, sick, less fortunate, and damaged souls she saw all around her as she moved through the world.
Within a decade, she had begun her own tiny country named Eros’nan in unclaimed territory. In her native Ulaeri language, Eros’nan means “Land of Hope.” The leaders of other countries and races that surrounded her land laughed at her and refused to consider her country a real one. They underestimated her and wrote her country off as something that would die on its own, no threat to them whatsoever. These are the same countries and races who would, decades later, be either seeking alliance with her or allying with others against her. Within a century, Channe created a stable, self-sufficient, sustainable queendom, which became known over mountains, across oceans, and in faraway lands for being a safe haven for the downtrodden, the poor, the unwanted, and the persecuted.
She took her pain, anger, and fear and turned it into something constructive, teaching others to do the same. As a queen, her greatest desire was to value, protect, and empower those who felt as helpless and afraid as she had, and teach them to help themselves. It was both cathartic and therapeutic for her to go through this process, for even though the creation of Eros’nan was a large humanitarian undertaking, it also helped her to overcome her own trauma to find within herself the power to help others pull themselves up from injustice, prejudice, sexism, persecution, racism, and poverty.
Channe herself became a champion for women’s rights and the protection of children, and her country was known for having the most racial, ethnic, sexual, and gender diversity of any other destination. Receiving refugees from other war-torn and oppressed nations, Channe’s country grew in to both a powerful force and a safe haven. Her knights, priests, and officials were well-respected worldwide for their reputations and actions. The unwanted and unloved could go to them and receive the help and care they needed.
Nearly five centuries later, times have changed. Channe may not be a queen anymore, but she feels good about what she was able to do. And in these times where hatred, bigotry, violence, and discrimination are never fully gone, she knows there are others like her out there who will rise up like she did and fight back. She prays the disheartened will not lose hope, for as bitter as she began her life, she knows now that goodness and morality will prevail. It may just take time. Nothing ever lasts forever, but all the good she was able to accomplish centuries ago planted seeds that still live in the descendants of her queendom, and that is a comforting thought to her.
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