Gabriel/22 @gabriieelll - Tumblr Blog

I have never wanted to kill myself more than I have this very moment

She truly doesn’t care about me

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My brain: Maybe it’s time we just stop caring for those who really don’t care for us

Me in response: HAHAH....

Wait you’re serious?

I just want to hold her and tell her everything is going to turn out ok

To sleep or not to sleep

That is the question!

I wish I could talk to more people

Make my presence known to others

But instead I’m scared so I lay on my bed and watch videos :D

Sometimes they are the only living beings keeping me alive

Honestly I’m so happy she doesn’t have my tumblr

Ironically enough I only made one because she has one

I would be too embarrassed if she saw my dumb rants about caring for her too much

Why can’t we watch something together?

Or just hang out in a call?

Are you really scared of falling again or is it just me?

I wish we could spend our day together without her running away

It’s not that I’m doing anything to make her run

She’s just scared of the affection and love I bring with me. And she’s even more scared to accept it.

I’ve never have felt this alone in my entire life

No one is there for me

And that’s my fault

She says she gets distracted easy

But what if she’s just ignoring me for hours at a time to save me from the saddenness that’ll ensue?

How do I break the stereotype she’s already placed upon me?

I want to be different for her, I want to make her KNOW I’m different.

Or maybe I’m just overthinking as usual.

Making her feel better is an impossible challenge.

But why do I feel so defeated whenever I try my hardest and it doesn’t even put a dent in?

Gabriel/22