โธย Summary: When the universityโs bad boy invited you to his house you were freaking out, since you thought he wanted to take you to his bedroom and you were not ready for that. Little did you know, youโd be building Lego all night.
ย โธ Word count: 649 (officially the shortest work and the first timestamp Iโve ever written but I plan to improve my record as Iโm diving deeper into the art of saying much without actually using many words)
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โYou wanted me to let you into my world, soโฆ This is my hobby,โ Seonghwa admitted bashfully, looking down at the ground, afraid that you were going to judge him.
Various Lego pieces were scattered all over his living room table, making it difficult for you to actually see the wood material of the table because of the colourful pieces which were covering it almost fully.
Now that Seonghwaโs bad boy faรงade was cracking, you were able to see the truly adorable guy underneath. You were so happy he trusted you to that extent and the fact itself made you realize he might actually have feelings for you and he was not just looking for a way to get you in his bed. You doubted he let the girls he hooked up with go to his home in order to see some of his not so cool hobbies; you thought you were the only one who was nerdy enough to accept and appreciate this side of him, the only one who could genuinely be impressed by it.
โI think itโs cute,โ you assured him, smiling softly and lifting his chin with your index finger, making him look at you. โYou always tease me for being shy, but look whoโs being the shy one nowโฆโ
At that moment he looked so innocent to you that it was difficult for you to imagine him in the situations he usually found himself in, for example, getting drunk at parties and having his way with girls. He just laughed awkwardly, cautiously removing your fingers from his chin and gently putting your hand next to your body.
โIf you tell anyone about this, Iโm not only going to think of it as you rejecting me and my feelings, but Iโd also be disappointed in the person I had a crush on,โ he said quietly, suddenly going into defense mode.
โDonโt worry, Seonghwa, your secret is safe with me,โ you used your index finger and your thumb to do a sign of you zipping your mouth, your eyes never leaving his, your playful smile still on your lips, making him smile back at you shyly.
You could see how nervous he was about letting you get to know the real him. Hearing your carefully thought out words, though, Seonghwa felt like he could really relax. He didnโt have to pretend to be someone he wasnโt just to gain other peopleโs approval; and this was unfortunately something he was used to doing way too often. His โfriendsโ werenโt there now to tell him how uncool he looked and call him a nerd or a loser for something as personal as his hobbies. But you were like no one he has ever met before โ you were the first person who seemed to be interested in him, the real him, not just his handsome face, hot body and his smug promises of an unforgettable night. Thatโs why he wanted to take things slow with you and convince you to give him a chance by showing you his true self and allow himself to be vulnerable. He felt you were one of the few real people he has ever encountered and he was not planning on letting you go. He was going all in with you: risking everything, especially his reputation which for some reason was so important to him.
โSo where should I put this piece?โ You asked with clear interest in your voice, as he helped you find the correct piece to connect this one to.
In that moment you realized you two were just like Lego yourselves: you were two pieces which belonged together. Aside from Lego, that night you were both building your relationship and your trust for each other too. And you were truly looking forward to seeing the final construction you built together, just the two of you.
Today, K-Vanity Magazine would like to reserve this section to highlight one of our members. Before we continue any further, weโd like to wish the ever so talented and amazing Stili @garlichoisan a very Happy Birthday!! May your day be filled with joy and positivity.
250218 THE BOYZ for Singles Magazine March 2025 Issue [Full Interview Translation]
"The Possible World Unveiled by THE BOYZ"
Last week, THE BOYZ met TheBs after a while through the THE B LAND fanmeeting. You started things off with your debut song, โBoyโ. Seems like it brought up some memories.
New: We thought a THE BOYZ - โBoyโ stage wearing uniforms was the most anticipated one, so we prepared it as our first performance. Itโs a really meaningful debut song both for the fans and for us.
Kevin: When we first rode in then walked over to our positions for the โBoyโ choreography, the stage direction there was actually a reenactment of us running on the first scene of the โBoyโ MV. The fans probably didnโt know that. (laughter)
Maybe because you were meeting the fans after a while since your world tour in July of last year, you looked even more excited. Itโs almost as if you were having fun and not just enjoying the stage.
Younghoon: Thatโs right. Starting from our mindset itself, the fanconcert was different from the world tour we did before. Iโm the type to always be worried about any stage, but surprisingly, I wasnโt worried about this concert. I mean that in a good way!
Differently from the types of stages where you have something to prove and show โthis is THE BOYZ!โ, it feels like a given that you will have different expectations for a fanconcert where all images you show will be well-received.
Younghoon: All the members had the same opinion of โletโs go crazy with TheBsโ. When preparing for a concert, thereโs always the pressure of not wanting to mess up choreography or feeling like we have to do well no matter what, but this time we let go of that pressure and just went into it wanting to have fun.
Haknyeon: We went there to communicate more closely with fans.
Kevin: To me it was the opposite, I felt more pressure. Because of the princess costumesโฆ (laughter)
You felt pressured to look pretty?
Kevin: I kept wondering โis this right?โ
Sunwoo: Everyone turned into princesses but Kevin dressed up as Tarzan all by himself. (laughter)
Ah, Kevin turned into Moana, right?
Jacob: More like โmwo hana?โ (T/N: What are you doing?)
Sunwoo, Haknyeon: Oh, that rhymes! (laughter)
From the emergency meeting for the 11 princesses to the first-seen โIglooโ, โWhiplashโ, โShanghai Romanceโ units. There were reactions calling you โnew concert expertsโ as well. If you were to choose something in particular you focused on while preparing for this concert?
New: We just wanted to show everything. It was a concert where we had a really big desire to show everything we could. We actually couldnโt hold a year-end concert like we do every year due to the agency change.
Haknyeon: Thatโs right. Instead of meeting at the end of the year, we met at the start of the new year, and as this was a fanconcert, we listed all the songs the fans love from 1 to 100 and carefully made the setlist like that.
Sunwoo: For this concert I focused my efforts specifically on looking pretty. (laughter)
In one interview, Sunwoo said โBig efforts are a must to truly cherish each and every performanceโ. I would imagine each member has different areas where they put in the most effort.
Sunwoo: Iโm constantly imagining things and coming up with scenarios. โIn this part I should do this expression, and in that part I should do that gestureโ, that kind of thing. I come up with movements and gestures by imagining them. I lie still and imagine a lot of scenarios.
Younghoon: So youโre always lying down? (laughter)
Sunwoo: When weโre learning a new choreography, I stand still behind the members and just watch. Only after Iโve observed all the details in the movements by the dance instructor can I move my body.
Haknyeon: In my case, Iโm a bit slower compared to the other members. My memorization speed, my adaptation speed, itโs all slower, so for 1 or 2 weeks before the concert, I donโt think about anything else at all, only the performances. That way, I can memorize the moves faster and familiarize myself a little more with that performance.
Jacob: I make an effort not to be satisfied. Because I believe that once youโre satisfied, you stop growing. I think I try to accept my strengths and weaknesses as they are while monitoring myself and put in the effort to develop even further.
THE BOYZ is now in their 8th year. How do each of you recall the time spent in these 8 years?
Sunwoo: All kinds of emotions. (T/N: Literally โjoy, anger, sorrow, and pleasureโ, meaning all range of human emotion.) Thatโs just life. As we live, we experience joyful things, angering things, sorrowful things, pleasing things, and itโs the same with THE BOYZ. Should I say THE BOYZ is like a person? Be it the results of the team or the things we do, it all brings about different kinds of emotions.
Younghoon: To me, I want to say it was TheBs themselves. No matter what, everything was only possible because TheB were there by our side for these 8 years.
We canโt leave out the chemistry between the members. All 11 of you have distinct personalities but you respect each other as you are.
Kevin: The team spirit is really horizontal. (T/N: No hierarchy.) All 11 are friends and family.
Haknyeon: Like what Sunwoo said, THE BOYZ is a team, a person, and life itself. If we donโt respect each other, who will respect us?
New, who wanted to sing so much that he became a singer, who is your musical inspiration/idol?
New: I donโt aspire to be like anyone else. My role models are my fans, of course. I liked singing so I had a vague dream to work as a singer, but now I know this singing isnโt just mine. I share this singing with the people who are listening to it, and for that Iโm always grateful towards our fans.
Weโve heard that Kevin has a lot on his mind. Itโs to the point where you canโt sleep. Is that still the case these days?
Kevin: These days, thereโs been a lot more of me not being able to sleep due to excitement and nervousness about our new beginning than because of worries. (laughter)
Between all of that, what are you most excited about?
Kevin: THE BOYZ evolving musically, and also THE BOYZโs potential thatโs about to blossom. Iโm always sort of expecting that the day will come when our potential will blossom beyond what we see right now.
Haknyeon is such a super E (extroverted) that he says he spends even his rest days out of the house. Did you leave the house after the concert ended this time as well?
Haknyeon: I really spent a lot of time outside back in the day. But maybe Iโve grown older. (laughter) These days I find it hard to go out. So I tend to stay inside. At home I spend my time mostly listening to music and practicting recording.
Weโve heard that you like singing so much that you even sing it on your daily life. We heard your sweet voice today during the shooting as well.
Haknyeon: I had vocal practice yesterday so it must be coming out of my lips naturally. I was practicing Yoon Dohyun sunbaenimโs โIt Must Have Been Love (์ฌ๋ํ๋๋ด)โ. I didnโt realize I was singing it today.
Sunwoo said he thinks โformโ is important. What kind of form is that?
Sunwoo: I say a lot that โimage/reputation is importantโ so I think thatโs why Iโm asked that, but honestly the kind of form I mean isnโt about pretending to be tough to look strong in front of the weak, or acting full of myself. Itโs the complete opposite, actually. I think the real form is having great skills but not showing off and just being strong inside. Of course that in order to not lose your form, your skills canโt lag behind, so you need to work harder. (laughter)
The class president Sangyeon is about to enlist. It seems like the responsibility lies heavy on the vice president Jacobโs shoulders.
Jacob: We all work while treating each other as friends so I donโt think Iโll necessarily need to step up and lead. We lead each other.
Haknyeon: Even so, I think it would be nice if Jacob hyung did our group greeting. We should discuss that among ourselves, but still. (laughter)
Younghoon is a member who gets a lot of attention for his handsome looks, right? Between โHeโs so handsome that looking at him every day never gets tiringโ and โHis voice is so nice that listening to him every day never gets tiringโ, which one do you like the most?
Younghoon: (After thinking long and hard) Both are great, but I like โso handsome that looking at him every day never gets tiringโ more. (laughter) But I think if the fans came to me and said that my voice is so nice they never get tired of listening to it every day, I would be really touched. Even so, so handsome that you never get tired is nicer. (laughter)
Is there anything that THE BOYZ wants to explore for the first time in the future?
Younghoon: If we talk to people, itโs not that they donโt know THE BOYZ. But there arenโt many people who know THE BOYZโs songs well. So with this new start, we want to make a hit song that once you mention THE BOYZ, people will say โoh, they have a really popular song, donโt they?โ.
Kevin: If I were to add to that, Iโd love it if we could strengthen the image of a โself-madeโ group. We have many members that are good at writing and composing songs. So since we have in-house producers and a CEO that support us musically, Iโm really looking forward to that.
Even if as a team there is one goal youโre running towards, each one probably has their individual goals. What is the moment that will make each of you feel like youโre satisfied?
Sunwoo: I donโt think Iโll be satisfied no matter what?
Haknyeon: Charting 1st place on Billboard.
Sunwoo: I think Iโll be satisfied then.
To move towards their goal, a team needs an engine, wheels, a steering wheel, and a gear to decide if they go, reverse, or stay on neutral. What role do you think each member assumes in that scenario?
Sunwoo: How should I say thisโฆ I donโt believe we need to think of THE BOYZ as one car. Of course, weโre all closely interconnected. But instead of assigning different roles in one car, I think weโre 11 different cars. Each person is responsible for steering its own wheel and has its own engine, right? And while we may be 11 different cars, I believe weโre all moving in the same direction. If someone falls behind, weโll all slow down, and if someone runs ahead, we all step on the accelerator together.
That is such a cool answer. So whatโs the genre of the story about the 11 cars lined up to form THE BOYZ?
Haknyeon: โLife is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot.โ Just like that saying, I think it depends on the perspective. From up close, it could be a documentary about 11 people, but from far away, it could be a romantic movie of THE BOYZ and TheBs.
Younghoon: All-genre. I think THE BOYZโs color is that we can do any genre well.
What kind of group do THE BOYZ want to be defined as?
New: In the future, in the present, and in the past, THE BOYZ are boys. Just like itโs always been, I would like for us to be defined as boys.
Youโre releasing a new album in March. Youโre starting a new journey, so is there anything you would like to say to TheBs?
Younghoon: Our TheBs mustโve been worried since the beginning about things like what company we would move to, what new beginning we would have. But after the fanconcert, I felt like both the members and the fans grew to trust the new company a lot.
Kevin: Thatโs right. Our new album has a completely different color and vibe compared to what THE BOYZ has shown so far, so Iโm really excited to see what will be TheBsโ reactions.
Haknyeon: I wonder if we need to express that itโs a new beginning at all. THE BOYZ is always THE BOYZ, regardless of what company we are in, we will continue to make our own path. Just like now.
New: Just like TheBs cherish THE BOYZ, we too will continue to love TheBs, so please believe in us and walk with us until the end, thatโs what I want to say. Thank you always!
You showed special stages at the fan concert last week.
Juyeon: It felt like I was dreaming. The performances were all planned as a way to repay the fansโ love even if just a little bit, so we were able to definitely perform more comfortably and just as ourselves. However, instead of the performances that we spent months putting our sweat and blood into, the princess costumes seem to have gotten an even better reactionโฆ (laughter)
Hyunjae: Nothing beat the princess costumes.
Q: What kind of performance will we do to top the impact of the princess costumesโฆ
Seems like the princess costumes left a big impression not only on fans but on the members as well.
Eric: We wore the costumes and rode the carts deep into the standing section, right? I donโt think Iโll ever forget the look on TheBsโ faces when I met their eyes then. They were shocked, and I hope it was a good type of shocked. I wonder what those expressions meant. Even as I lie down to sleep, I keep thinking of those expressions?
Sangyeon: I think it was shocked horrorโฆ
Eric: Right, it looked like they were scared. I want to say Iโm really sorry. But honestly, at first I was really mortified and embarrassed, but after doing it for 3 days I found that I was growing shameless, so in all honesty I had a bit of fun during the last day. Yes, I believe I can say it like that. (laughter)
THE BOYZ is a group where each member has his own personality, but each member also have its own associated color, right? Those representative colors aside, Iโm curious to hear which color do you think each one of you has. When looking at each other, what color comes to mind first?
Q: Sangyeon hyung is mint. He just exudes mint energy. Heโs just so minty. (laughter)ย
Eric: Juyeon hyung is either black or brown. Since heโs a bit of a romantic. Hyunjae hyung is sort of navy blue. Navy looks cold and itโs a cool (= chic) color, right? But if you befriend him, heโs a โsoftieโ.
Hyunjae: Once you befriend me Iโm pink, right?
Eric: No, no. Youโre sky blue. You fade from navy blue. Because youโre really like a friend and you make the person feel comfortable. And Q hyung is apricot.
Hyunjae: Oh, I totally agree heโs apricot!
Eric: Because yellow is too pure and sort of has that baby chick vibe, and while Q hyung does have that pure vibe, when heโs at work heโs a total โTโ (MBTI). So it feels like it should be the vibe of something close to yellow but a little colder and more chill?
Ah, because as a person he has more of a modern vibe? (T/N: Eric said mudeonhan, chill, but the question now is about modeonhan, modern; not sure if the interviewer misheard him or if theyโre inferring that from what he said.)
Hyunjae: To me, itโs because Q is very human. Heโs a really decent person!
Juyeon: To me, Q is gray. Because gray is the combination of black and white, right? If you look at Q, [his personality] is very clearly black and whiteโฆ (laughter)
So is there any skill or talent among the members that you admire so much you would want for yourself?
Q: To me itโs Sunwooโs wit. Itโs something really intrinsic to him. Heโs a really smart friend. So I kind of really want to have that wit myself too. No, actually, I want to take everything.ย
Sangyeon: To me itโs Ericโs energy?
Hyunjae: Oh, hyung looks like he has absolutely no energy right now.
Sangyeon: Yeah, I think I need it right now. This is the time I go to sleep, soโฆ (laughter) Ericโs energy is really overflowing with, how should I say it, like a battery that doesnโt run out.
An all-center boygroup that doesnโt lack in anything, from visuals to skills. I would say thatโs how THE BOYZ is recognized, but thereโs also something like โmetacognitionโ. Iโm curious to hear what the members think of THE BOYZ right now.
Sangyeon: Even from my own perspective, I think the members are such a good combination of people. Everyone is interesting and filled with talent. So schedules together like this one today feel much more reliable and trustworthy than solo schedules.
When you were rookies, how did you introduces yourselves when you got asked โWhat kind of group is THE BOYZ?โ?
Hyunjae: The one and only boys in everyoneโs hearts!
After 8 years, how has that changed?
Sangyeon: Weโre stillโฆ the boys who capture hearts?
Hyunjae: Pfft. Thatโs right. Weโre working on it.
Sangyeon: Even now, we found that there are many TheBs finding us and joining the fandom. So we still need to work as hard as ever, thatโs what I think.
You were really busy last year with your world tour and album promotions, right? On the day of release, you reached the top of the Japanese Oricon chart, and your 9th minialbum <Dohwaseon(ๅฐ็ซ็ท)> achieved half a million pre-sales. Do you have an even more ambitious record you want to achieve?
Q: Uhm, of course that achieving good records is great for everyone involved. However, instead of trying to achieve this record or that goal, I think whatโs more important is what you have in mind and how you spend your time while preparing an album.
Sangyeon: I find that trying to chase records doesnโt make you happy. I believe that if you work hard and happily on what you need to do, on what you want to do, records will follow.
Q (to Sangyeon): But Eric thinks records are important.
Eric: Thatโs right. I think theyโre important. Because of course that if the album does well, the members feel happy, but if it doesnโt, the members feel a little disappointed. Even then, right now Iโm also thinking that we shouldnโt focus too much on records. The biggest priority became to promote for a long time happily, healthily and without getting hurt as THE BOYZ.
Everyone having fun is the most important thing. Seems like you all share the same heart about this.
Sangyeon: We participated in many competitions. We went on two survival shows, we also had year-end performances where we were rivals against other groups. Maybe because we went through those moments of trying to prove ourselves fiercely, but now we donโt want to pay attention to others. I think the answer is just focusing on ourselves and having fun among the members.
Weโre talking about records and Juyeon-sshi went quiet.
Juyeon: Ah, the conversation turned serious so I tried to organize my thoughts. I would like it if we could enjoy promotions more comfortably, be it as the team THE BOYZ or as individual artists. Instead of thinking โwe need to have a huge success hereโ, just meeting fans closely and promoting our music like weโre doing now is great, I feel grateful for that and think thatโs more than enough now.ย
Q: Thatโs right, thatโs definitely whatโs important. To me, I think the best thing is expressing things healthily and with a good and sincere heart to TheBs. If you get caught up in the obsession of doing something, you can try really hard to pretend youโre happy. I think doing something well while enjoying yourself and being healthy is really important.
Where do you think is THE BOYZโs highest peak? I understand the members donโt chase records or success. But a peak could be enjoying a stage comfortably, or a huge happiness thatโs achievable as a team called THE BOYZ.
Hyunjae: Itโs right now!
Q: I think our highest peak worthy of celebration was our contract as a group. I feel really reassured and proud that this many people have the same heart. Weโre past that hurdle and every moment together from now on can be our highest peak, so I would say our contract as a group.
Eric: Later, when THE BOYZ comes together again as 11 people, wouldnโt that be our highest peak? Sangyeon hyung is about to enlist. After everyone fulfills their duty and we come together again as THE BOYZ, I think that will be our highest peak. But also, personally, I want us to try having a concert at Jamsil stadium? (laughter)
As expected of the goal-oriented Eric. (laughter)
Eric: Ah, but really, itโs not that. Itโs just that itโs an open air venue so if we performed there, we could have fireworks, and I think that if all the members got together to perform on that stage, it would be really romantic. Letโs just move on. (laughter) All right, next, would Juyeon-sshi like to answer?
Juyeon: Our highest peakโฆ Itโs the next album!
Hyunjae: Oh, I like that. (laughter)
Youโre releasing an album in March, right?
Hyunjae: Thatโs right. We canโt say much yet, but I think weโll be able to show music thatโs completely different from the music weโve done for the past 7 years, so Iโm looking forward to it.
We heard that after todayโs shooting, youโre going straight to recording. Everyone is always doing their best, but there are days when our condition isnโt great, of course. How do you push through that?
Hyunjae: Our performances are rather powerful, and there have been times when I was disappointed in my body for not delivering things the way I wanted. (laughter) Thinking about it now, the process of going through that while enduring those moments has made me grow. And there were many times when THE BOYZ faced difficulties and instead of feeling afraid, we instead turned those difficulties into opportunities.
You must have gone through a lot of things to get to the place where THE BOYZ is right now, like a sculpture that is completed by adding or removing things in the process. The time you spent so far, was it one where the members added something, or removed something?
Sangyeon: My MBTI changed from F to T. (T/N: From emotional to rational.) Back in the day, there were many times when I let anger or sadness overwhelm me. But as I did this job, I started to judge things more rationally and realistically. I canโt tell what exactly I added or extracted, but what I learned was between worrying about other people and my own ambition, I couldnโt lean too hard one way or the other, I had to find a balance there.
Q: Back then, I was receiving a lot of inspiration and through that worked on maturing myself. However, I realized I wasnโt internalizing necessarily good things. So I learned how to erase all of that and leave only myself. By erasing all of that I found again the good things that were already inside me since then.
โBy erasing all of that I found again the good things that were already inside me since thenโ is such a wonderful way to put it.
Eric: I also used to absorb everything I saw, but then came to learn that some of those things were poisonous. I still donโt know how to remove that, and Iโm still filling myself, but more wisely, with more discretion, โletโs ingest only nutritious things and not poisonous onesโ!
Hyunjae: Itโs similar to how I feel. The bowl isnโt always full of clean water. If you add just a little bit of muddy water, the whole thing turns muddy. So now I think I should just wait for the dirt to set and for the water to purify itself.
Juyeon: Until last year, we were only running nonstop like racehorses. We could look straight ahead. Of course weโre still running just as hard, but I think we changed our way of doing it. How can I say it, like riding a wave.
As if surfing?
Juyeon: As if surfing. We got a little bit more freedom, not physical freedom but in our hearts, so I think our field of vision expanded. Weโre not just looking straight ahead, and while weโre still moving forward in that direction, itโs a bit like surfing.
Where are you headed now? To THE BOYZโs highest peak, the new album?
Juyeon: Perhaps? Thatโs right now. (laughter)
Eric: All right, we have to go record now, right?
Sangyeon: Even as weโre recording, we think this album is something really new. And that means itโs just as hard too. I wonder if TheBs will think โhuh, so THE BOYZ did this kind of music this timeโ, I wonder if theyโll have fun, Iโm really looking forward to that. Please enjoy it a lot. (laughter)
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โธย Summary: When the universityโs bad boy invited you to his house you were freaking out, since you thought he wanted to take you to his bedroom and you were not ready for that. Little did you know, youโd be building Lego all night.
ย โธ Word count: 649 (officially the shortest work and the first timestamp Iโve ever written but I plan to improve my record as Iโm diving deeper into the art of saying much without actually using many words)
โธ Genre: pure fluffย โฅ
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โYou wanted me to let you into my world, soโฆ This is my hobby,โ Seonghwa admitted bashfully, looking down at the ground, afraid that you were going to judge him.
Various Lego pieces were scattered all over his living room table, making it difficult for you to actually see the wood material of the table because of the colourful pieces which were covering it almost fully.
Now that Seonghwaโs bad boy faรงade was cracking, you were able to see the truly adorable guy underneath. You were so happy he trusted you to that extent and the fact itself made you realize he might actually have feelings for you and he was not just looking for a way to get you in his bed. You doubted he let the girls he hooked up with go to his home in order to see some of his not so cool hobbies; you thought you were the only one who was nerdy enough to accept and appreciate this side of him, the only one who could genuinely be impressed by it.
โI think itโs cute,โ you assured him, smiling softly and lifting his chin with your index finger, making him look at you. โYou always tease me for being shy, but look whoโs being the shy one nowโฆโ
At that moment he looked so innocent to you that it was difficult for you to imagine him in the situations he usually found himself in, for example, getting drunk at parties and having his way with girls. He just laughed awkwardly, cautiously removing your fingers from his chin and gently putting your hand next to your body.
โIf you tell anyone about this, Iโm not only going to think of it as you rejecting me and my feelings, but Iโd also be disappointed in the person I had a crush on,โ he said quietly, suddenly going into defense mode.
โDonโt worry, Seonghwa, your secret is safe with me,โ you used your index finger and your thumb to do a sign of you zipping your mouth, your eyes never leaving his, your playful smile still on your lips, making him smile back at you shyly.
You could see how nervous he was about letting you get to know the real him. Hearing your carefully thought out words, though, Seonghwa felt like he could really relax. He didnโt have to pretend to be someone he wasnโt just to gain other peopleโs approval; and this was unfortunately something he was used to doing way too often. His โfriendsโ werenโt there now to tell him how uncool he looked and call him a nerd or a loser for something as personal as his hobbies. But you were like no one he has ever met before โ you were the first person who seemed to be interested in him, the real him, not just his handsome face, hot body and his smug promises of an unforgettable night. Thatโs why he wanted to take things slow with you and convince you to give him a chance by showing you his true self and allow himself to be vulnerable. He felt you were one of the few real people he has ever encountered and he was not planning on letting you go. He was going all in with you: risking everything, especially his reputation which for some reason was so important to him.
โSo where should I put this piece?โ You asked with clear interest in your voice, as he helped you find the correct piece to connect this one to.
In that moment you realized you two were just like Lego yourselves: you were two pieces which belonged together. Aside from Lego, that night you were both building your relationship and your trust for each other too. And you were truly looking forward to seeing the final construction you built together, just the two of you.
Your skills will not evaporate just because you haven't written in however many days, months, or even years. Your work will still be there when you have the time to return to it. Being a writer is a self-ascribed status, you will not lose that identity if your life becomes too chaotic to write.
Take care of yourself. Creative work can't be done if you don't have anything left to give to it. <3
