Hello, welcome to my blog! You may call me by any shiftname.. though Blight is a nice catch-all :3c I identify as an Otherchain / Otherfix and experience Flickers fairly often due to how I process hyperfixations with ADHD and my traumas. My identity is constantly fluid, and my profile will likely change fairly often!!
If you want to be mutuals, please ask!! I wont bite u 2 hard >:) If you don't ask I wont know you want to, lol. I like being social though do forgive me that dms are not my strong suit, and prefer talking in reblogs or comments!! Sorry i'm really bad at keeping up a conversation with people i'm not attatched at the hip with lols
pronouns || kinlist
Boundaries + DNI & more under the break!
General tag: #I'm doing the talking!
Kin Memories: #oh dear.. remembering
Rant/Vents: #i must SCREAM!!
Ask Responses: #replying to YOU!
Reblogs: #this is something i'd like to keep :)
Before You Follow:
> I can be MEAN! I'm very open when I don't fw you.
> I dont take shit from people! I block fast :)
> This is not a roleplay account.
> I say slurs I can reclaim!
> I enjoy toxic dynamics and relationships in fiction as means to cope with my own traumas!
General DNI / Boundaries:
> Lolisho, Incest, Zoophilia. Drawn or real!
> Racism, Homo/Transphobia
> Harassment towards Fictkin/Irl/Systems
> Do not flirt or share sexual sentiments about me.
> Do not try to "Therapy" me.
> I'm a pretty private guy. Do not ask me about my socials, or who im following/liking etc. I will not tell you, and you will likely be blocked lol
I haven't played cotl in like almost a year (I get hyperfixated on it like once or twice a year and then it fades, last time was like earlier this year)
should I play it again
this would be my third save now because whenever I pick up a game after not playing it for a while I just completely restart heh
so far though I seem to get a surprisingly extreme amount better at the game each time for some reason because my first save only got to around just before the Leshy fight (my mouse died for the first time on that save...during combat), but then my second save almost finished Silk Cradle (that or my obsession just lasts longer each time)
omg yes yes u should!! i recently started a new save with the sleep and hunger system active, its a pretty fun challenge!!
i also love making my followers with silly names or i make characters from my fixations (like some if the characters from the dnd campaign im in!!)
Doing it scared and doing it badly is one thing, but no one seems to talk about doing it alone. When you feel so isolated from your friends and your family but you have shit to do and you have to get it done no matter what. When your support system really is only you. For any myriad of reasons. We do not talk enough about doing it alone.
I'm 45 years old. I have lived through school in the 80's and 90's. When playgrounds were made of splintered logs and burning metal. At a time when telling a teacher about your bully would make it worse and was an act of cowardice. When being called Gay by one kid could Kill your reputation faster than a cold or lice could spread through a school.
I have seen telephones evolve from house lines with rotary dials all the way to smartphones that barely get used to speak on. Through Internet that started up like a Loony Toons short and dropped the connection because Mom needed to ask Grandma for a recipe to instant access to Amy information you need.
I have watched the world evolve from close friends being in your town to being in another country. I've watched the rise and fall of acceptance. I've witnessed sexuality grow from Straight/Gay-Lesbian/Bi to the grand rainbow of interesting flavors it is. And I have seen the evolution and growth of the gender identity from the mainstream and accepted Male and Female to include Trans, Non-Binary, Gender Fluid, and whatever other gender someone identifies as.
During this all, I have come to some conclusions. What I'm about to say may be controversial.
1: You are You. You can only Be You. Anyone that says They know You Better than You do is looking to control You. There are only 2 things that will stop you from being your true self. The first is weapon used to end you. The second is You allowing them to stifle you. Don't give them that power.
2: Anyone saying they know the secret to happiness is selling something or wants to control you. Religion and Self Help Merchants are Bad for this.
3: It doesn't matter how old you are, it is never too late to become who you truly are. Take that as gospel from a 45 year old Trans Woman who is Polyamorous and Finsexual (Feminine in Nature) who was once a Cis Bi Religious Male.
4: Follow your instincts. They are there to guide you and protect you. If you think you have no instincts, think about the last time you had a feeling something is wrong or dangerous and did it anyway because of Social Pressure. Instinct has led me to the mother of my child, my husband, and my family. All of whom I would defend fiercely.
5: Everything in moderation. Too much of anything is bad for you, even things that are supposed to be good for you.
These are the words of wisdom from Mama Marrs, a Trans Kitsune Woman who has the attitude toward others of "If you don't like what I saw, how I look, or how I act, Stop Looking." Have a wonderful day everyone.
