🍉We Stay Silly🍉

🍁trans//Writer//D.I.D//Gamer🍁mostly reblogs//sometimes 18+🍁:TAGS:🍁ramblings=stuff that's my thoughts🍁simh="spiders in my head" post series🍁

[alwek]

"It was only when all else had failed, when all channels of peaceful protest had been barred to us, that the decision was made to embark on violent forms of political struggle."

-Nelson Mandela

[alwek]

Hanny eaten in 4 days now, lets see how long it takes before my body feels anything about it

[alwek]

Spiders In My Head: Why Should I Give A Fuck

I find myself feeling a lot like I did back in 2017 when I last tried to seriously kill myself, and as my dumb fucking ass is like to do, I want to yap about it to nobody on the internet.

I turned 27, recently. It's made me reminisce on my life, and all the shitty things I've been through. The rapes, the beatings, the being raised not as a person but as a tool, one that was considered broken at that. The constant forced moving of home, the inability to make friends because of it, the loneliness that lead me into making porn of my child body for monster on the internet. The rejection of everything I am from my parents, the rejection of my identity by the world.

It's all so much to live with. My roommate told me he finds me selfish and narcissistic recently, and it's killing me unside knowing he's right, because it's everything my parents are that I never wanted to be. It makes me wonder, what's the point?

Why do I keep trying? Why do I keep eating? Why do I keep going for walks? Why do I keep playing my games, watching my shows, talking with my one and only friend, taking my HRT? Why do I still bother with any of this when I spend every day praying that it's the one to end me?

What is even the fucking point? I'm miserable every day. I'm alone, and not for lack of trying. I'm unemployed, and not for lack of trying. I have nothing but apathy left. Too lazy to even kill myself. Just rotting away. It's pathetic.

All I want is to go home, but it's occupied by strangers. All I want is to talk to my grama again, but shes dead. So what's the point.

I don't want to be.

[alwek]

Gods, how many times have you sent me that anon now, obsessed much?

Don't you have anything better to do with your life than stalk a faggot on the internet? Like, what has been, 3, almost 4 years now? You'd know better than me, clearly. Go like, hang out with your friends or something. Get into crochet, baking, or weed or something, fuck

[my-dailydreams]

[lazyvirow]

Sorry, I'm just a little too lazy to write anything in posts

[crimsonrain-spirits]

lady ethereal my beloved,,,

[chinelada]

i like their vibes :3

[everythingfox]

Pocket size

[miscellaneous-marios]

[bloop-doop-woople-deactivated20]

Repairing with gold, kintsugi

[beefyrog]

I think it’s a good look.

[were--ralph]

they slayed

[crappycheese]

[rabbitkinglune777]

HEHE playing dolls with her, kitty girl

[rabbitkinglune777]

she prefers a more "tomboyish" style to her wardrobe and it actually makes her feel pretty good and confident in herself as a trans woman who prefers to express herself however she wants. It's rly just an excuse to draw Hitomi FSGSDHGSGH

[rabbitkinglune777]

giving him a cool jacket

[pankendev]

they got pussy on this app?

[furryparadises]

Gold in the comments

[lobrac]

Gotta be my favourite spot in all of Prague. Stromovka in its entirety is beautiful, but near Letná, that beauty just shows even more. Isn't this just such a lovely and peaceful grove? Yet it's in the middle of a bustling city.

[animentality]