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(ﾉ^ω^)ﾉﾟ ah, that surprised me! { white noise }

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

I…I-I really….i cant….

[gasmasksong]

... [slumps over a bit]

i.... o-okay....

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

I really… I have to, Clear. [stands up]

You’ll be more all right without me for the time being. If i can figure out how to fix this on my own, ill find you. I promise.

[gasmasksong]

b-but.... aoba-san....

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

What?

[Sits up]

i dunno. I mean, being hurt is normal, yeah, but i don’t want you hurt at all. And…i cant be the one who hurts you. I need to go.

[gasmasksong]

no!!!!

[jolts upright]

please don’t go!!! something happened, but that doesn’t mean it will happen again! and... and i...... i just..... don’t want you to go. please, aoba-san.

don’t go. it’ll be alright.

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

Not like this though!

[gasmasksong]

then... like what?

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

No! God, no. …i just never want to see you hurt again…

[gasmasksong]

but... isn’t getting hurt a thing that happens?

in life? at least i thought it was..........?

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

…ugH

[Flops off clear and onto the ground, then lays there on his front]

Youre too good for this world…..

[gasmasksong]

?????

too good???????????? a-am i supposed to disappear?! 

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

Why doesnt this upset you????

[gasmasksong]

i don’t....... know????? 

but i’m not upset with you, that’s all i do know...

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

But you SHOULD be

I am…

[gasmasksong]

b...but i’m not! 

and i can’t make myself be mad...

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

How can you even say that? I fucked up so hideously….

[gasmasksong]

what do you mean, “how can i say that”??

am i not supposed to believe??? 

i’m not mad at you or anything..........

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

I…i-i dunno if belief is gonna help us here…

[gasmasksong]

it can! if we believe enough we can figure something out, and if we figure something out then things will be okay!!

right?

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

How can you even ensure something like that?! Cuz all i can think of is having me away from you and everyone else…

[gasmasksong]

i don’t know! but i believe that we can find a way!

really, really believe! 

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

[Doesnt even bother to fight his grip. There are just more tears]

But i dont want to hurt you again…

[gasmasksong]

we can make sure it doesn’t happen again! if it helps.....

b-but i don’t want you to go! please........... we can stay together.

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

I-Im so sorry……i..i cant be around anyone like this…

[gasmasksong]

but!!

[holds onto the tightly]

you can be around me!! i'm not upset with you, and i don't want you to go.......

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

[His sobbing slowly subsides, and he’s left just hiccuping out small sobs every few seconds]

Y-Yes…

[Latches onto the fabric of clears shirt]

[gasmasksong]

so it's alright, then. everything will be alright. i promise!

[gently rubs his back]

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

You were—

[Pulls away from the kiss, trying super hard to speak coherently through sobs]

Y-You were gone! I couldnt hear your heart beat! I-I didnt know what i-i was g-gonna do….

[gasmasksong]

[gently puts his hand on the back of aoba's head and pulls him down, so he's resting against his chest]

please... it's alright. i am here now, everything will be fine, i promise.

my heartbeat is here again now, right?

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

i-i don’t know what happened, but…i came to, and you were dead. oh god, clear, you were dead. i don’t know what i did to you, but i’m so sorry. i’m so so SO sorry!

[gasmasksong]

aoba-san, please, calm down! it's alright.

i am not upset with you, or anything like that! please. 

[softly kisses the]

[screwed-the-pooch-blog]

h-h-holy shit, clear!

[essentially flops on top of him and holds him super duper tight]

i-i-i’m s-so sorry!

[gasmasksong]

.....?? aoba...san?

[wraps his arms around him and tilts his head a little. he's still kinda dazed.]

sorry? for what?