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jaywalking is evil / 21 / he/any / #tboyswag / #justgirlythings / minors, homo/transphobes dni

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Riveting conversations in the gc today

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Pov: people who use tone tags accidentally typing /meg

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I wanna nap in the iron lung blood ocean

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I need a promise by laufey type song where is sad and melodic in the first half and then the second half is the same female singer singing in a death empress by synestia & disembodied tyrant type song

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Ever since emre came out, i kept thinking he reminded me of someone

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The bottom conversation is just a circle

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Me: this is more intimate than sex

My friend: can we go back to scissoring?

(We were making a secret handshake)

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#always be ovulating

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[prodomius]

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Can we pull up to the China Buffet on valentines as a poly lesbian throuple?

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Which is lile a physical oxymoron cuz wdym i was having sex while winning league of legends games?

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Lifes too short not to be cringe

Make your frankie do the absolute cinema pose

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When youre trying to crack the transmasc femboy but they are watching

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Zach Hadels voice could come out of a paddlefish’s mouth and I would not be surprised

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I had such a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I am a guy because the experience that most american men have is not one that I align with. Not just the idea that all men go to the gym and love football or whatever but also, like they're so condescending and they center themselves and other men and never really think about anything else. I'm talking about straight men, gay men, queer men, rich men, poor men, sporty men, nerdy man, emo or alternative men, all men. This includes some trans men too. Men are obsessed with themselves. Although I am obsessed with myself(#personality disorder), I am not the only think I think of. I used to be. I was sitting on the edge of the alt right pipeline calvin gerrah rabbit hole and dipping my feet in to see if it was warm and im so glad I got out before I did because omg I do NOT want to be a man.

But I also had a tough time, realizing I was non binary because the culture around it turns it into a third gender. Not male or female but a third thing. I think gender is so ingrained into society that non queer people saw non binary as a third gender(and not the absence of) and that's what they made it but i'm not some secret third gender. I am a guy but im not a man. I am transitioning because I am dysphoric about my sex, not about my gender. My gender itself is ever changing, and my presentation of it is even more fluid but my sex is static. I will do anything to make my body of that of a cis man, im just gonna wear makeup and dresses while doing it.

I like using the words transexual genderfluid man because that is what most accurately describes my identity.

If you use non binary as a third gender, woo hoo look at you go! Yay! Be yourself! We use the same word to describe ourselves and our presentations but we just have a different definition and thatz okay :)

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Sometimes, when I am proud of myself for how far i've come to my transition and into my adulthood, I like to think back when I worked at a starbucks within a hyvee. The job itself was absolute shit, I hated working there but there was this one manager over at the customer service desk that just always made my day when I talked to her. I couldn't tell you her name or where she is in life right now, but she was like my trans mom. We would always talk about being trans and queer in Iowa and we always found it funny that she was exactly double my age even to the date. I know many people that worked with us thought she was weird, but she's kinda exactly who I want to be in life. I use her as a model for how I want to live. Be kind be considerate but also, put yourself first and not care what others think. When she heard that I was leaving the job, she got me a little coffee mug with he/him on the front. It was the first ever pride merch I ever got that actually symbolized who I was. My actual mom would get me those tacky pride hoodies with human written with different pride flags for each letter and I appreciate my mom for trying , but she never really understood. My trans mom at hyvee showed more care and put in more effort to see me as her son than my own mother would.

I haven't seen my trans mom since early high school and i miss her. She called me son while my actual mom still struggles to say he. Its been almost 6 years since I came out at transgender to my parents. My trans mom only knew me for 5 months.

If you cannot receive the love you need from your family, found family can be just the thing you need.