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he him | black | tw active nov ‘24

[gazniet]

intro ☆

just to get this out the way, i am pro recovery and pro damage control. my posts are in no way encouraging this behavior and if i trigger you please don’t report, just block. i’m not in crisis and im not hurting anyone

my name is xavier, im 16yo, and i have bipolar 1 disorder. i’ve been dealing w my ed, substance abuse, sh, etc all my life. i’m in ed and sh recovery, but it’s not linear.

i like and follow from my main blog (@xavzii ). i also post regular things on my main blog like fandom shit and rambles so check me out over there

trigger warning: substance abuse, self harm, SA/r4pe mentions, hypersexuality, suicidal idealations, ed mentions, and others

[gazniet]

just posting to say i’m alive and happier in a new relationship

[gazniet]

attempt number 2764378 to break up with him: unsuccessful yet again

it would be easier to just kill myself at this point

[gazniet]

we have been broken up for a couple weeks now! hip hip hooray

[xxxtentacion]

im deadass about to hook you up with ass pics fr

I’ll be waiting

[xxxtentacion]

"why is some of your music so depressing?"

why is it so depressing?

because when the lights are off,

all the moneys gone,

and the club scene is no more,

I want you to be able to find comfort in me behind closed doors, when it all matters the most.

[xxxtentacion]

I stopped looking for love

[gazniet]

attempt number 2764378 to break up with him: unsuccessful yet again

it would be easier to just kill myself at this point

[gazniet]

i wish i was an ugly and irritable cat that had rabies so i could be put down

[attisthehallowboy]

[gazniet]

i lost my prescription

[gazniet]

i’m about to cut myself in front of these niggas

[soontobe-onlyamemory-deactivate]

When the sky gets dark so does my head…

[gazniet]

the pool of dread is wading inside me again, worse than i recollect

[okiimii]

people when people with mental disorders show symptoms of the mental disorder: >:(

[gazniet]

“old enough to understand” the littles are starting to grasp the concept of why they are here

[gettingsmallforhim]

what ☆ving did for me as a pre T transboy ^___^!!!

went from double d's to small a's

xs binders are too big

i can pass in a bra and baggy shirt or even normal shirt

everyone thinks im a cis femboy if im not binding!

thinner thighs = more masc build

LITTLE BOYS MINECRAFT BOXERS 😎

my face is less fat and i can see my jawline a bit more!

i pass easier and even tho i have long dyed hair and earrings!

i get more boys calling me cute and assuming im cis!

"dude you look malnourished?!"

its easy to wear old female trousers around my waist

i can dress fem and still pass!

my voice is high pitched but if i look tiny then its fine bc i must just be a small guy ^__^

i have abt 20+ lbs to lose still, but i lost 60+ lbs and went from a fat ugly girl to a boy who gets asked out way too many times and seen as moderatley attractive :p

[ot5txtstan]

i need thissss

[gazniet]

i had the worst day of my life yesterday but whoo hooo 14k steps guys !