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scalpelgod‌  »  daniel han.

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            ‘  –  yang  ??  ’  they’re  in  the  cafeteria  ;  all  the  interns  seemed  to  huddle  together  like  roaches  and  as  much  as  daniel  liked  to  consider  himself  different  from  the  others  ,  he  was  no  exception  .  ‘  that’s  an  unfortunate  name  .  i  mean  –  i  have  han  ,  but  it’s  spelled  differently  and  nobody  remembers  her .  ’

          apple  halfway  to  her  mouth,  sora  paused  ;  instead  leaning  in  c l o s e r  to  her  fellow  intern  ,  brow  raised  in  ever  -  so  -  peaked  curiosity  .  ‘  ---  and  what’s  so  unfortunate  about  it  ,  do  you  find  ?  i  mean  ,  i  associate  my  name  with  nothing  but  greatness  ,  but  i  guess  i  can’t  really  say  the  same  for  yours  .  ’  who  was  this  guy  ,  anyway  ?  ‘  do  you  make  a  habit  of  bothering  people  about  their  names  ?  is  it  a  longwinded  attempt  to  get  someone’s  attention  or  are  you  just  a  little  gnat  ?  ’

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drevilspawned‌  »  alex karev.

“Wow, a Robbins ban? I’d only heard about those,” he replied, taking a second look now at this intern rather than his ‘I know you’re a person, but I don’t care’ glance he occasionally gave people who offered him nothing. “What the hell did you do? Call a kid ugly to his face then throw his puppy out the window?”

          at his disbelief,  sora could only sigh.  ‘  trust me.  they’re real,  and they’re  brutal..  and yet,  i can’t say that i don’t completely deserve what i’ve gotten.  ’  as much as it  pains  her to do so.  ‘  but not quite.  let’s just say that..  i woke up on the wrong side of the bed  ---  which isn’t  that  far off from the truth,  i suppose  ---  and basically lost my mind by taking it all out on robbins. so now it feels like i’ve been exiled from  the promised land..  this promised land being  surgeries.  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

& just like that, the room, previously thick with tension, slowly transformed into a more friendly atmosphere & there was suddenly enough air for both of them to breathe. being angry at sora had unwittingly given arizona a lot of stress over the past few days. who knew it took so much work to be mad ? “ & my being on my service isn’t a death sentence, you know. peds is probably the most hardcore specialty out there, ” her tone is very matter-of-fact now, a playful smirk playing across her lips where a dangerous frown previously made its unfamiliar home. “ you’re cute when you smile. shame you don’t do it more often. ”

          ‘  don’t think i ever called it  that,  you know,  ’  it’s then that a soft laugh slips past sora’s lips without her permission,  fingers absentmindedly twirling a piece of her hair around her finger as she continues,  ‘  i  respect  peds,  i respect what you do  ---  it’s just that  neuro  has always been the holder of my affections.  ’  a funny way to put it,  maybe,  but she’s feeling a little more playful now that she’s finally  r e l a x e d  and just wants to keep the good mood going  ;  even when arizona seems hellbent on  embarrassing  her.  ‘  who’s smiling  ?  ’  sora grumbles,  all traces of a smile briefly  erasing  from her features so she can give the other woman her best  scowl  before she’s smiling down at her lap again.  ‘  ---  you know what would make me  s m i l e  ?  scrubbing in on a surgery.  ’  and while there  is  some truth to the statement,  of course,  she’s only joking and hopes her  teasing  tone clues arizona in enough.

[jieunnie]

the sweetest smile ♡

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

it’s almost like arizona can physically see sora revert back into herself, her usual self-assured aura d i m i n i s h i n g before her eyes. & she had completely intended to stay mad at the intern, but she’s finding it increasingly difficult the more sora speaks. if her career was judged based on every wrong word she’d said, she wouldn’t have a career at all — still, she’s s i c k of being looked at as the soft attending. it only furthers the stigma that peds is a soft specialty. sighing audibly, arizona takes a seat on the couch, no longer prepared for a long, arduous fight. “ okay. i believe you, ” her voice is much more gentle now. “ but i’m serious when i say you can not speak to me like that at work. it’s unprofessional & disrespectful & i don’t deserve it & if it ever happens again, i promise to make your next few years at grey sloan a living hell. ”

          and then it’s like she can finally  b r e a t h e,  days of feeling like she’s had to walk on  eggshells  now behind her  ---  now,  she doesn’t have to worry about another fight at work,  the added stress.  however,  sora knows that she isn’t  entirely  out of the woods  ;  that she isn’t going to suddenly be able to participate in surgeries and be off of arizona’s service because of this one conversation.  but it’s a  fresh start,  of sorts,  and that’s more than what she could’ve originally asked for.  small hints of a smile tugging on her lips,  sora nods.  ‘  thank you..  and i know.  i can’t and i won’t.  since i’m on your service,  i want us to..  get along.  be  civil.  i don’t want anything to get in the way of that and what you can  teach  me,  even if i’m doing  scut  work.  i’ll make the best of it and won’t complain.  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

“ you should come inside, ” arizona said, stepping aside to allow the other girl in. she didn’t trust their current situation & she really didn’t want to have to explain to her neighbors why she’d been y e l l i n g in the halls at this time of night. once sora had obliged, arizona closed the door & resumed her previous defensive stance. “ i don’t know what to believe, because a few days ago, i never thought you would have pulled what you did. i guess you’re just full of surprises. ”

          once sora’s inside,  she feels..  so small,  which is a rarity in itself  ---  even more so when it’s because of someone else  ;  someone outside of her  family.  ‘  i get it,  ’  she starts,  hoping her voice doesn’t sound  monotonous  in her apologetic state.  she really isn’t looking to keep fighting with arizona.  ‘  i  know  this is a  bullshit  excuse,  but i wasn’t myself that day.  and i know we  a l l  have those days,  and we have to  not  let them get the best of us  (  especially when we’re at work  )  but i couldn’t help it.  but  i respect you  and i genuinely would never even think of questioning my place or where we stand in the workplace.  please  believe me.  i don’t want this to be a problem because of my momentary stupidity.  ’

[izsource]

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

arizona said nothing in response to sora’s question, instead crossing her arms over her chest. “ & i’m supposed to believe you have no ulterior motives ? you haven’t said a word to me in days & now, after missing out on dozens of surgeries, you come to my house to apologize ? ”

          withholding the urge to  r o l l  her eyes in response,  sora goes to mimic arizona’s stance  ---  not to  mock,  but for her own comfort.  ‘  is it really so hard to believe  ?  yes,  i was out of line the other day,  but that does  not  mean i’m the kind of person to try and pull a fast one on you for my own benefit.  besides,  i’m  already  on your service,  so what good would any of that do for me  ?  really.  ’

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drevilspawned‌  »  alex karev.

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“Hey, intern — finish up this mountain of paperwork for me and I’ll get you scrubbed in on my next surgery. But don’t let Robbins or Montgomery see you; they’ll think I’m lazy and you’re sneaky.”

          pained,  sora sighs.  ‘  unfortunately,  doctor robbins has  banned  me from scrubbing in on any surgeries for the time being..  but i can get this done,  no problem.  perhaps you can  t e l l  me all about your next surgery instead  ?  so i can live vicariously.  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

“ look — if you’re going to try & talk your way out of scut, it’s not happening. ”

          ‘  you think that little of me  ?  ’  sora laughs,  humorless  and quiet.  ‘  no.  i came over to talk about what happened and  apologize  for how i acted.  it was out of line and i’m aware of it.  that’s all.  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

( .｡. :*☆ sora. )

“ what are you doing here ? ”

          ‘  ---  well.  thanks for letting me come over.  i thought we should talk.  ’

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cirquedec‌  »  aiden callaghan.

Aiden inhaled deeply as he glanced into the emergency room. He was exhausted to the bone, and he knew he was spreading himself too thin. He rubbed his face, trying to wake himself up. He still had three hours left, and possibly more if it gets extended. “I think if the exhaustion doesn’t kill me, the amount of gummies that I’ve eaten today will.” He said, offering the other a gummy from his bag of them.

          ‘  and to think we’ve  barely  gotten a taste of what real exhaustion is,  ’  sora deadpans,  staring straight ahead.  at this point,  sora’s feels like her bones are  anchors  ;  the desire to do nothing but  sit here  for as long as she possibly can all too inviting.  ‘  but i’ll pass on that.  not to  doctor  you or anything,  but you should probably be investing in a  granola bar  or something to keep your energy up instead  ---  not some corn syrup and gelatin,  you know.  ’

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rcscmvry‌  »  rosemary sterling.

she stops abruptly, turning to face the other. “excuse me?” she couldn’t really believe her ears – her words certainly hadn’t been an invitation to criticize her or her habits. “first of all, it was a joke. i would never actually bribe anyone to advance my career.” now she feels stupid for even saying it aloud, but it had been simply a joke. “secondly, i am trying to prove myself every goddamn second i’m here. it gets kind of disheartening when it doesn’t lead to anything.” the other’s assumptions irritate her – she would not have chosen grey sloan memorial if she wasn’t going to work hard, which is exactly what she is doing. it just doesn’t seem to work well enough. 

          oops.  ‘  look,  joke or not,  i didn’t mean for that to come off as me  insinuating  that you would.  was just saying that the very  i d e a  of it is cheap,  and whoever actually does  ---  which i’m extremely confident in my belief that there are people who  do  here  ---  are ridiculous and should be embarrassed for going that route.  ’  sora explains,  expression neutral as she looks rosemary over.  she’s  apologetic  for seemingly getting under the girl’s skin with her candor,  mentally chastising herself for the way she chooses to word things.  forgets that not everyone understands her way of speaking  ;  that she isn’t always trying to be  mean.  ‘  do you feel like others are  deliberately  chosen over you,  or do they just seem like they want it more when it’s important  ?  do you speak up  ?  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

& even though arizona can actually physically feel her blood b o i l i n g — a rarity for her in & of itself — she still manages to let out a humorless laugh at the intern’s defiance. if she honestly thinks arizona doesn’t hold that kind of power, not only is she insubordinate, but she may also be braindead. “ you’re used to getting a different side of me. you’re used to the nice, cheery arizona that lets you scrub in & takes you into the on call room after a long surgery. but i p r o m i s e you, the arizona that you’re bringing out right now — you aren’t going to like, ” her voice has lowered to a harsh whisper, eerily calm as she takes another step towards sora — only i n c h e s apart now. “ congratulations, doctor yang. you’ve just earned yourself an intern year full of nothing but scut. you’ll be on my service until further notice — & believe me when i say the c l o s e s t you’ll be getting to a scalpel are the plastic knives in the cafeteria. ”

          so  ---  maybe this  isn’t  so funny anymore,  and sora holds some regrets.  it’s like she simply can’t help herself sometimes,  can’t hold her tongue despite the little voice in the back of her head telling her to  shut up,  that she’s gone far enough and needs to reel it in before she teeters over the edge.  her eyes are focused down,  unable to meet arizona’s gaze.  sheer  embarrassment  coupled with undeniable  a n g e r  burn her cheeks red,  swallowing thick.  she knows there’s no getting out of this one  ---  she’s dug her grave,  and now she has to lay in it.  you have no one to blame but yourself  is what sora hears in her head,  hands balling into fists at her side before they relax soon after.  she can’t afford to jeopardize her position here any further  ;  knows her family wouldn’t be able to survive it otherwise.  her mother.  no longer looking to  fight  arizona about this more than she already has,  she nods,  voice quiet and steady as she accepts her fate.  ‘  okay, doctor robbins.  ’

[greelin]

*feels nothing* mmm, don’t like that *feels something but like, too much* mmm not a fan of that either

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rcscmvry‌  »  rosemary sterling.

“at this rate i’ll have to bribe someone just to get to scrub in again.” she sighed. it was a joke… mostly. not that she would ever bribe anyone, but she was definitely getting a bit antsy. rosie hadn’t been inside the or for a while and she could feel the desperation rising. the other interns were much louder than her and clearly more willing to get dirty in order to get to the top. that wasn’t exactly her style.

          ‘  do you really lack  that  much confidence in yourself and your skills  ?  ’  sora interjects,  having stopped in front of her fellow intern on her way back from prepping a patient,  eyebrow raised in question.  ‘  i’m sorry,  couldn’t help but  overhear  ---  anyway,  that’s not something i would go around saying so loosely.  and  out loud,  for that matter.  instead of psyching yourself out,  you should be busting your ass and showing your capabilities  ;  prove that you  belong  in the o.r.  you know  ?  that’s how you get to scrub in.  anyone who partakes in bribes is cheap.  ’

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clndcstine‌  »  arizona robbins.

in all honesty, arizona isn’t used to anyone talking back to her — especially not an intern. she’s an esteemed pediatric surgeon, people fly countries away to be treated by her. despite the fact, she’s retained her humility & likes to think she’s garnered enough respect around the hospital & that’s why she doesn’t have to resort to intimidation tactics in order to keep her inferiors in line — but right now, she’s heavily considering channeling her inner miranda bailey. stepping away from the door, she instead moves closer to sora, staring her down haughtily. “ i don’t care what’s happened between us. i don’t care what you feel i’ve done or said wrong to you. in this hospital, i am an attending & you are an intern. the next time you forget that, not only will you be on scut for a month, but i will personally see to it that you don’t see the inside of an o.r. for the rest of your intern year. ”

          it seems as though arizona’s  threatening  words are enough to render sora speechless for the time being,  which is a rarity in itself  ---  even more so coming from someone so  gentle,  in her own eyes.  it’s no secret that the intern puts her foot in her mouth more often than not  ;  thoughts  unfiltered  and unable to be kept to herself no matter the trouble they could get her in,  depending on the situation  ---  and now she’s made a real mess for herself.  however,  she won’t cower  (  if anything,  she’ll dig herself even  d e e p e r  and then get herself back out of it later  ).  ‘  do you  really  think you have that kind of control over me  ?  you know,  doctor robbins,  i haven’t forgotten anything  ---  there wouldn’t have even been a  problem  here if you would’ve just  let me leave.  ’