hi, i’m not dead, tumblr is
on the off chance that anyone has thought about me and wondered how i’ve been - really fucking great. haven’t self-harmed in over 5 years, recovered from my ED, did some more therapy; turns out i don’t have borderline but it was anxiety and coping mechanisms i got from being brought up in a dysfunctional home. i’ll be working on reparenting myself for the rest of my life probably. i graduated with two bachelor’s degrees in 2017, have worked 2 shitty jobs since, decided things needed to change, got into a great master’s that i’ll be graduating from in a few weeks, and then i’ll just be open to whatever comes next. i have an amazing support system of friends who i love and can rely on to be there for me, i’m still together with my partner of over 6 years now (although i must admit, it hasn’t always been easy), i have tools to cope with the difficult stuff that comes up, i have dreams and goals... i’m just glad that some part of me always felt like i deserved to get better, even if it was only the tiniest voice in the back of my mind in the beginning. i put a lot of time and energy into getting better and when i look back, i feel so much compassion for younger me, to see how much i was hurting and just hoping it would get easier. and now life is good. all is well.
