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a Mercurian-Gemini and Ravenclaws | ig: @bluishreader | apparently an INFJ

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It's my 7 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

omg omg omg I'm a grown up now 😌

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Sorcery of Thorns by Margaret Rogerson My rating: 4 of 5 stars This book gave me a new life!!!! I thought my cynical brain has no longer interest in any fantasy book, especially YA-fantasy. But this one!!! it has everything I wanted and more!! It's not cringe, the naivety of the FMC is adorable and believable. THE CHILDREN OF LIBRARY??!! How perfect is that!! i want to be a child of library too…. View all my reviews

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#00

How do I get so bitter

Nothing ever happens in my life.

I let nothing happened in my life.

Nothing gets me, nothing hurts me

So why then, did I get to be so bitter about life? about love?

Why did I get to be so pessimistic over a feeling I have never experienced?

Why is the enemy of me is myself? Why did I deprived things from me, just so I can protect me?

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late night sad and can't sleep

Its weird to see the road is so dark yet the city is so bright

The weight of today, rest heavily on my shoulders and home is still far away

These soulless eyes

I'm afraid to see the mirror and saw it on my own

Its cause I remember I used to have something, some kind of a dream

Where did it go

Bright eyes full of hopes, careless smile and clumsy but excited

Never searching for happiness cause its always there, easily so

-commuting after work-

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I'm gonna use this scene and this scene only to ease my heart over Wai's idiotic behaviour wont turn worse and things are gonna be okay in the end of the day bc THEY WILL BE FRIENDS !!!

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I cant handle this anxiety and nervousness of the end of Bad Buddy Series Ep 8.....

I need answer, and someone to smack the hell out of Korn and Wai for being an awful friend. This is like Simon's friend from Love, Simon all over again.

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Can you hear it...?

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I live my life waiting for these scene to appear as an episode~

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See this different reaction from the kiss. Even tho both are craving each other, Pat is still reeling from the happiness, relieved and euphoria of FINALLY kissing someone he is craving so much.

While Pran is sad because he already knew from a long time that he is in love with Pat, already thinking for all the possibility that can comes for both of them and kissing him felt like being giving a taste of happiness he yearn so much, but also knowing that he has to let go eventually.

Fuck their parents y'all

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My life struggle is waiting for Friday to come around

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I'm sorry but.... am I just get one of the best kiss in bl history?

Anw, I am a lot more content with today ep, at least I wont be shooting my self to sleep from unbearable pain like ep 4.

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Not me... Crying on Wednesday over how far away Friday is....

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Not me... Crying on Wednesday over how far away Friday is....

[hungryfictions]

sandra cisneros, the house on mango street / tatyana nilovna yablonskaya - morning, 1954 / anatoly levitin- warm day, 1957 / harry sutton palmer - a cottage garden, 20th c. / phoebe bridgers, i know the end / sarah abraham - one fine morning, 2013 / theo gosselin - denver morning 5, 2015 / gaston bachelard, the poetics of space / federico zandomeneghi - in bed, 1878 / laura ingalls wilder /colley wisson- morning light kyneton australia, 21st c. / @gabi_wahl on instagram / lauren jolly roberts - cecile’s garden, 2006 / maya angelou, all god’s children need traveling shoes

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the dichotomy of pran and pat’s behaviour versus their level of understanding towards their feelings and their willingness to entertain those is so interesting.

pran knows and has acknowledged it to himself that he has feelings for pat. he likes pat. considering his friends reaction to a guy hitting on him (them being playful and encouraging), he is in an environment, at least in school, to be free to entertain those feelings for a guy. of course, his only issue is that it’s pat who he has feelings for who is his supposed enemy. so, while he has fully and readily accepted his feelings, his behaviour constantly denies or is at least hesitant of any of pat’s attempts interacting with him. he’s trying to keep his distance (despite obviously wanting that distance to be non existent) but pat just has a way of getting under his skin and forcing him to interact in which he ends up cherishing those moments anyways.

later on, i feel like his struggles will be with how he can show his feelings since he has always felt the need to close himself up and protect himself.

pat is an incredibly different story. he has absolutely no grasp of his feelings. it’s not even him denying it. he just doesn’t even know. and considering the kind of toxic environment he’s in with people (his dad) assuming things about him and promoting some “man up” type behaviours and other people (his shitty friends) who dismiss him and judge him if he acted any ‘different’, no wonder pat doesn’t deal with his feelings enough that he has naturally learned to just ignore it and go for the ‘normal’ things like chasing girls and picking fights. he doesn’t even know how to interpret his feelings. but his behaviour is the opposite of that. he constantly finds himself initiating interactions with pran, teasing him, goading him, making comments about how good he smells. and let’s be real, to us as the audience, it looks incredibly like flirting. he always tries to find more and more excuses to spend time with pran and i think he’s justifying it unconsciously as him wanting to develop a friendship with pran.

next week, when ink confronts him about how his confession sounds like it’s for someone else, i think pat will finally realise that his interactions with pran are so much more than just friendly.

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I seriously need some help, I cant keepnhaving this waves of sadness whenever I reminded of Pran's face, holding his tears in while keep listening to his long-time crush (very possible first love) goes on and on about how much he will be suitable for someone else. I am really dying, lurking over AO3 to find some people wrote a damn alternate ending where my heart wont hurt this much.

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Also, can Wai and Korn calm their asses for a second. People are trying to work here, and make things work (romance wise). I felt like they both would ends up getting drunk and kissing each other only to remember they hate one another the next morning

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I legit didnt expect Bad Buddy to be this hurtful. My feelings got hurt for Pran and its not even mild or anything. He really holding back those tears while listening to the never-ending accidental-hurtful word from Pat.