sober up

"won't you help me sober up? growing up, it made me numb and I want to feel something again." || gemma spiers, 23.

[gemmmmmmahq]

acaciarivcra‌:

❛  to be completely correct, gemma, you left me.  ❜   she cleared up before she glanced towards the other again.      ❛  you went back to school and we weren’t serious. what was i supposed to do? we fucked. that’s it.  ❜   she knew their situation really meant nothing to her. sure, in the time it was nice to have someone there whenever she needed it, but the emotional attachment had never been there. 

gemma rolled her eyes, huffing a short laugh past her lips. “the thing is--you knew i was leaving and that i would come back.” she hopped off the bar stool, somehow completely forgetting about the stupid argument she was in with the random drunk idiot. “i didn’t drop out of nowhere with no warning. but you’re right. we weren’t serious, so fuck it. i’m out of here.”

[gemmmmmmahq]

doramaguire‌:

❝ i am all puns all the time, but baking puns have a soft spot in my heart.❞ she smiles. “but i just can’t wrap my head around why calling your boyfriend daddy of all things gets girls like that all hot and bothered. why can’t we just call significant others normal cute terms of endearment again. the real world really does ruin everything huh?”

the corner of gem’s mouth curled with a smile upon hearing dora’s statement. “puns can be challenging to find funny, i imagine baking puns go in for all or muffin.” she said casually, hoping the other would catch on. “i honestly don’t understand it, either. sad that it used to be a normal saying to address our fathers but now the word just feels dirty. i hate it.”

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elenahq‌:

honestly she was a little taken by surprise when gemma pushed her back against the couch, so far it seemed like she’d been the one making the first moves and all (( except for whatever that was at the locker room but that didn’t really count now did it? )), either way, this was nice. for a handful of reasons but mostly it at least made her feel like she wasn’t the only one pushing it or anything in the like. her hands almost immediately found their way to rest up against gemma’s thighs, and as the other leans in closer to her she absentmindedly takes in a deep breath. it’s hard to hide the grin on her lips after hearing the girl’s words. she’s probably thought about some variations of this scenario before, and the fact it’s actually happening now definitely makes her cheeks feel all warm and tingly. “ well you sure took your time. ”

was it bad that gemma hoped this move would throw elena off a little bit? the feeling of the other’s hands against her thighs sent a chill down her spine. it was a simple touch and yet gemma was ready to melt right there. this move may have been bold on her part, but she wanted to take the opportunity while she could. elena seemed to do that a lot. not with gemma (though things seemed like they were heading in that direction), but with other girls she has hooked up with before. she was no stranger to that knowledge. gem had seen elena around other girls and she even admitted it herself through casual conversations. perhaps gem did this in order to be a lingering thought in elena’s mind hours after they would part. after all, elena occupied her thoughts more than she’d like to admit. when she spoke, a soft snort left gemma. “well. . .” she sighed, looking elena in the eye and idly brushing the length of her fingers up the back of her head and into the long dark locks. “maybe i like to take my time.” she barely shrugged, leaning in closer to elena’s face once again. their noses brushing, gem tipped her head to the side and hovered her lips over the other girl’s. “besides--don’t you like a little anticipation?”

[gemmmmmmahq]

imessage--- everyone

reece: hey

reece: are there any hip hopping parties tonight

reece: i just really want to go to a party rn

gemma: hip hopping? let me ask the rabbits in my yard

gemma: jk i have no idea...sorry babe

[gemmmmmmahq]

vclentinax‌:

“i heard. halston news was all over that but who’s bright idea was it to invite the whole town to the woods? sounds fun on paper but in reality…” she responded, a finger scratching her cheek.  “why wouldn’t they? i’m a bitch.”

“ya know what? honestly couldn’t tell you. literally. have no idea who organized the whole thing, i just showed up with my shit and had a good time.” gemma shrugged, snorting when the other called herself a name. “oh--now it all makes sense.”

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therealkaylinprince‌:

“yeah, that sounds about right.” kay replied, it wasn’t the full story, but it was part of it. “so like do you want it or should i try somewhere else?”

“i mean--” gemma stared at the woman, wide-eyed. “shit. if you don’t want it i will gladly accept it.”

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therealkaylinprince‌:

“yeah, i was.” kaylin replied, she didn’t even notice that the other hadn’t really been listening to her. she just really wanted to give away all her phones since she didn’t need them anymore. “i don’t think i really need it anymore since i’m done promoing.”

gem’s eyebrows tugged together, feeling confused. “let me make sure i’m getting this right here. you were promoting the new iphone and now that you’re finished you have them to just. . . give away?”

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reginarcher‌:

“fuck, you might be right. not fair, florida always gets the cool stuff.” she let out a sigh, but her mood was quickly brought back up. “it’s such a national treasure, legend says that one time when someone made one, it atromatically resembled nick cage!”

“hey now, i mean. . . florida is already at a huge advantage because there are four parks and california only has two BUT. . .” gemma still wasn’t finished, “i think disneyland has a certain charm to it. say what now?” she laughed hearing the actor’s name. “he’s such a meme.”

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elenahq‌:

she let out a scoff at her question, as if truly offended by it. while she wouldn’t call herself a diva, she wasn’t too far off…maybe something a little less than a diva. like a couple of steps below. “ if you mean she’s cute and i’m cute then yes she’s exactly like me. ” obviously that wasn’t her initial question, but they both knew the answer to it anyway. her hand that was placed against the girl’s cheek eventually moved to rest against the back of her neck, slightly bringing her closer to her at the same time. their first kiss while on trip sure was pretty nice, and she didn’t have any complaints whatsoever but now that it was actually just the two of them it was a little nicer. she’d been thinking about it all week, and about gemma too and just kissing her again. “ shut up, i did not use her okay. ” her eyebrows knit together as she picks up the cat again and holds her close. it was true, it wasn’t her intention to use dia or anything. quite honestly she probably would’ve ended kissing her one way or another. seconds later she places the cat back on the floor, and it trotted off to sit by the window. “ i didn’t even need an excuse to make a move actually. ”

“hm, yeah let’s go with that as what i meant.” gemma smirked, unable to hide the teasing tone in her voice so she was simply letting it be. once their lips parted, she exhaled somewhat of a shaky breath. before the kiss even happened, she wondered if they were ever going to do such a thing again or if it was going to be a one time thing. a laugh emitted from gemma’s lips when elena responded about dia. she knew that the other girl wasn’t really using her cat, it was just another reason to fuck around with her just because that was gemma’s personality. her gaze momentarily settled on the kitten, she was smiling so much that her cheeks started to ache. she probably looked like a big goof. her attention turned back to elena after she set dia free again. “oh, word? good.” gem replied, hesitating for a moment before sitting up to place her hands against elena’s shoulders and moving her back further against the couch. once that was finished, she swung her leg over elena’s thighs and settled onto her lap. smiling at the other, her hands slipped around the girl’s neck as she leaned near elena’s ear. “i don’t need one, either.”

[gemmmmmmahq]

clayatwell‌:

“well getting plastered is pretty fun so anything similar to that.”

gemma snorted at his response before nodding her head. “plastered, alright. there are a couple cool bars in the downtown area.”

[gemmmmmmahq]

angelobianchi‌:

finally taking his eyes from the computer screen, angelo lets out a small, exaggerated groan, “jesus, why did i even take summer classes,” he says to no one in particular, “i could’ve just enjoyed my summer, but no, i had to take boring, time consuming classes.”

“hey, that’s exactly what i’ve been doing! the whole enjoying summer thing. i just graduated, though.” gemma shrugged. she deserved to have the entire summer off and was loving every bit of it. “how much longer you have left?”

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elenahq‌:

“ hmm, yes. she’s still a baby but already a little diva. ” this was the first time she ever owned a cat —in fact, this was her first pet ever. asides from a little turtle once that lived for three whole months— so she wasn’t really sure if it was just a generic cat trait or if her little dia in specific turned out to be a handful. she glanced down at the cat, then back up at gemma as she played with her, and all she could really think about was what happened between them while camping. elena wanted to do it again, this time without worrying about annoying teens and nosy parents lounging around, but she also had a feeling that maybe it was something they should talk about which el definitely didn’t want to do. not right away, at least. she’d never really been that type of person before, there’s never been no need to. she’s always kind of just had unspoken agreements of keeping things light and fun and not getting too involved. so why should this be any different? she reaches out, placing her hand against gemma’s cheek before gently turning her head towards her as she leans in closer. her gaze is focused on the girl’s lips for a second, hesitant for a few moments until she decides to close the small gap between them by pressing her lips against hers.

“so she’s exactly like you?” gemma asked with a teasing tone, biting back a laugh. gem remembered having a family pet when she was very young. three or four years old. except one day her parents explained the old dog ran away to live on a farm. little did she know that they were lying and the dog had to be put to sleep because of major health reasons. nevertheless, gemma always wanted another pet. maybe she could adopt one in the future, once she has her own place and all. elena and gem hadn’t spoken the last minute or so, it wasn’t something that she cared about. though it would be a lie to say that she didn’t want to know what was on elena’s mind. as her lips parted to speak, she felt a soft hand resting against her cheek. gem’s attention was taken away from dia and all on elena once again. when she leans in closer, gemma is pretty sure of what was going to happen next. besides, elena’s eyes seemed to be focused a little below her own. not even a few seconds later their lips were pressed against one another’s once again. this time it was different. they weren’t in any cramped space, no one else was around. her lips felt just as nice as the first time. gem’s hand slid onto elena’s thigh, simply resting it there and nothing more. she waited for the kiss to really sink in, savoring every moment before pulling away and opening her eyes. “wow, elena. using your kitten to help make a move i see.”

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reginarcher‌:

“i’ve been itching to ever since they put that new toy story extension of the park up! really? psh, so lame.” she joked back, a chuckle leaving her lips. she was so bored in halston lately considering she couldn’t party anymore - which took up a whole lot of her time. “it would be worth it for just a dole whip.” 

“wait i thought that extension was put in only disney world? i could be mistaking, though.” gemma shrugged, either way. disney was disney and she wouldn’t turn down the opportunity for a visit. “i forgot all about the dole whip. that stuff is a national treasure. . . it’s been too long since i’ve had that treat.”

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elenahq‌:

that was…pretty fair. she’d barely met anyone at all, actually. asides from the vet, of course. so she really had no idea how it’d turn out. most likely fine, though. a wide grin took place on her lips after seeing gemma’s reaction to the small cat, she was more or less the exact same when she saw it for the first time herself. and it was no brainer that she just had to get her. “ this is dia. ” el replies, reaching down for it and setting her down in gem’s lap. “ her name is literally day and there’s really no reason for that. other than it’s short and supposedly easier for her to understand or whatever. plus it sounds cuter in spanish. ” she shrugs before running a hand through her hair out of habit. 

gem’s eyebrows rose when she heard the kitten’s name. it wasn’t what she expected, though she didn’t know what to exactly expect in the first place. the name was cute and short. even though the little fur baby was beyond adorable, gem still found herself staring at elena as she spoke. “definitely sounds cuter in spanish, she’s a precious princess.” scooting closer to the other, her hands reached out to rub along dia’s neck and around her sweet face. “aren’t you?” she asked the kitten, internally melting at how soft her fur was. 

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elenahq·:

“ well, considering she only likes me then good luck with that. ” elena joked, actually not sure how the kitty would react to new people. it couldn’t really go that bad anyway, right? she couldn’t but to kinda scrunch up her nose at that sentence. a little bit too dorky for her taste but also, she didn’t care all that much when it came to gemma. she’d probably laugh at anything she said right now. she closed the door behind her after stepping in, dropping her bag right next to the door. her sister usually hated it when she left it there, but it was the least of her worries at the moment. it was pretty much one big open space that consisted of a living room, kitchen and dining area. then, down the hall two bedrooms and a bathroom. it was kinda small, but rather cozy and just enough for them two. walking further into the living room, she takes gemma’s arm once again and guides her to sit down on the couch with her, “ i told you it was quiet. ”  as soon as she takes a seat, coming from down the hall was the sound of a small rattle announcing the cat’s arrival to the room. “ there she is. ”

“that’s because she hasn’t met me yet.” gem responded, her tone playful as well. she didn’t quite know what to do after stepping into the apartment. she simply stood there, watching elena set her bag down before being pulled by her once again. the apartment was obviously way smaller than gem’s parents house, but this was nice. she always admired open spaces because it made the area less suffocating. even though her parents house was huge, it still felt suffocating and crowded. gem sits next to elena, she nodded her head in agreement. “quiet and very nice. i like it a lot.” gemma admitted, biting against her bottom lip to prevent a full-blown nerdy grin. it was needless to say that her heart melted into a puddle when elena’s kitten made a grand entrance. jaw dropped, gem looked at elena and then back at the little creature in front of them. “hello, new best friend. what’s your name?”

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elenahq·:

with a simple nod, she stepped aside to let the other go and do what she had to do. in the meantime, she went to grab her own stuff before waiting for her outside. a little nervous and excited at the same time, but she tried her best to pay no mind to those feelings.

it was a short drive back to her place–which was her favorite thing about the gym – but it was still fun with gemma by her side. the building was pretty medium, really. not bad but definitely not the best one around or anything in the like. while she was no stranger to bringing girls home, this time she was a little bit more preoccupied with what the other might think. with one swift elevator ride, they were at the fourth and top floor. as one hand was gripping her gym bag, she lightly tugged at gem’s arm with the free one before guiding her towards the apartment. “ i have a tiny cat by the way, like just so you know. ” elena said as she unlocked the door and opened it, maybe that was something she should’ve said before coming. “ after you. ” she says with a little smile and steps to the side.

with the two of them hanging out together all summer, gemma was rather surprised realizing that this is the first time she is visiting elena’s place. they would always spend their time at other places like the gym or random locations in the town. the ride back to her place took little time, which was nice. thanks to the shower gemma was definitely feeling more relaxed. she sat with her legs pulled up to her chest in elena’s car. awkward to do with a seatbelt on but not impossible. she also found herself looking at elena way too often, unable to stop herself. part of her wanted to bring up what happened during the camping trip, but she didn’t want to blurt it out of nowhere or make things weird. instead she simply followed elena’s lead, finding the apartment building charming. gemma was aware that elena’s family situation was drastically different compared to hers, complete opposites. a small laugh emitted from gem’s lips when she felt the tug on her arm, eyes widening when being informed of the kitten. “well that’s fucking adorable, don’t blame me if i spend more time with the cat than you.” of course she was joking, but gem was quite excited to meet this critter. “why thank you, fair lady.” god. could she have been anymore cringe? she stepped inside the apartment, looking at the atmosphere around her. 

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Hayley photographed by Laura Spencer.