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Stranger Things 2 - Created by Joseph Shelton

Available for sale at his Etsy Shop.

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Truthfully

I really wish I could talk about the thing we are going through. Keeping it all bottled up is hard, adds more stress.

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[fuwaprince]

for my fellow trauma survivors, 

you aren’t faking

I believe you

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The Wonder Years | Cardinals.

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Diary of a Battered Child - Dystopia

Trigger Warnings: Physical Abuse (***GRAPHIC***), Child Abuse (***GRAPHIC***), Abused Child POV, Parental Abuse, Emotional Abuse

Genre: Punk

Lyrics:

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3005 || childish gambino

photos: justgabs

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“I will find the will within myself to avoid self-harm.”

[therealityofbpd-blog]

To my boyfriend - the partner of BPD

So I set this account up a few weeks ago hoping it would help me with coming to terms with my BPD. Unfortunately during this time I have become really depressed due to several factors, physically & mentally, but all connected to my BPD.

As my first post, rather than just write about my symptoms & troubles in life, I’ve decided to write a post to my boyfriend & say everything I really feel. He knows about BPD & is also trying to deal with not just the fact that I have this illness, but that he is the one having to live with it right along side me.

To my boyfriend,

The first thing I want to say to you is thank you. Literally, thank you for everything you do for me.  I bet when we met over 3 years ago you had no idea what you were going to be dealing with in the future, nor did I. You have never looked at me differently, or given up on either me or our relationship. This has been the one stability I have had since I was 19 & has been the one thing keeping me going since day one.

None of us had ever heard of BPD until I was diagnosed, but you have dealt with this way better than I have. I don’t know how you can put up with the mood swings, or the emotional instability, but you do this all while trying to bring me back to where I should be.

There are times in the past where I have thought I was crazy, or that noone wanted to help me, but you’ve always been there to show me that I am not alone & that I am not crazy. You have shown me that someone loves me no matter what, and that not everyone I care about will walk away or treat me badly. You are my partner in crime & as well as doing everything together, you have gone through this illness with me.

You make me get out of bed, take care of myself & get out of the house. If I have no clothes, you will find me clothes & dress me if needs be. If there is a day I wont eat, you will be there making my favorite food & making sure I eat. If I wont drink, you will make me drink. If I have no cigarettes you will make me some. If I wont brush my hair, you start to brush it knowing that it will hurt & I will take the brush to do it myself. 

It’s not just the physical support you give me, it’s the mental that really makes a difference. You understand I am terrified of abandonment, so you constantly reassure me you wont leave. You know that I may go from happy to upset within 2 seconds and you comfort me when this happens. You know I have no filter, so you make sure I check what I want to say so you can give me advice on how to put it before I get frustrated. When I am unable to look after the dog, you do it without questioning me. When I need to take time off work to get better, you tell me to take that time because my health is more important than money. You make me laugh at least once a day, and notice that when I am up this is a good time & we can do anything together. We’ve laughed together, cried, argued, built a life together. Everything that I have done since I was 19 was with you & I can’t imagine my life without you.

You are the calm & I am the storm, so you balance me out without even knowing it. Don’t think all these things go unnoticed, because I appreciate every single thing you do.

I am sorry for all the times that I have let you down, lashed out at you, embarrassed or upset you. I know that this must be hard for you, but you never let that show.

I am so glad I spoke to you that night 3 years ago, because you have changed my life. You know me better than anyone and I trust & care about you more than anyone in the world. 

I don’t know where we will be in the future, or what we will be doing. One thing I do know is that it will be us together, and this is the thing that makes me happy in life.

Love you always,

TROBPD.

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The loss of your dog is exactly the kind of thing your dog would’ve helped you through.

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I have lost so many people in my life due to BPD. We may not feel we are masters of much, however it is clear we are the masters of cutting people off. These ‘cut them out of your life’ moments can be because of many things:

1. We feel you have upset us or have gone against us for whatever reason. 2. Some will leave without the push, as they feel they cannot cope with our behaviour. 3. Others may feel we are 'sensitive’ or 'attention seeking’ which also either leads to them leaving or us cutting them off. These ones, in my opinion, deserve to be cut off. You don’t need people in your life like that when you are trying to recover.

Cutting ties with people is quite common for us, but of course this does not help with our sense of abandonment, as it convinces us we are correct in our thinking pattern. One of the things I am learning going through therapy is that you have to build bridges & move on. This is not for anyone else, but for yourself to heal & remember those no longer in your life for the happiness they would have once brought you.

If you have stayed with me through my hectic journey, then thank you for caring about me. You mean more to me than you think. If you have left, through your own choice or mine, then thank you for playing a part in my life. I am no longer mad or upset with you & I wish you all the happiness in the world.

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STOP TELLING PEOPLE WITH BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER THEY ARE MANIPULATIVE WHEN THEY AREN’T

STOP TELLING PEOPLE WITH ABANDONMENT ISSUES TO JUST TRUST YOU

STOP TELLING PEOPLE WITH POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER TO JUST LET GO OF THE PAST

STOP TELLING PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES THAT THEY “DON’T LOOK DISABLED” BECAUSE THEY’RE SEEMINGLY PHYSICALLY OKAY

STOP TREATING ANXIETY AS IF IT IS SIMPLY NERVOUSNESS/SHYNESS

STOP DEMONIZING PEOPLE WITH PSYCHOSIS

STOP VICTIM BLAMING PEOPLE TRAUMATIZED BY ABUSE THEY COULDN’T ESCAPE OR CONTROL

STOP TELLING PEOPLE WHO ARE ISOLATING THEMSELVES AS HEALTHY A COPING MECHANISM (WHO WOULD OTHERWISE END UP HURTING THEMSELVES OR OTHERS OR BREAKING DOWN IN PUBLIC) THAT THEIR COPING MECHANISM ISN’T HELPFUL

THE LACK OF RESPECT THAT ILL PEOPLE RECEIVE ON TOP OF ALL THE SHIT THAT COMES WITH HAVING AN ILLNESS IS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS

RESPECT PEOPLE WHO ARE ILL

LEARN TO SUPPORT THEM

BE A GOOD FRIEND AND STOP BELITTLING THEIR STRUGGLES

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👌 #truth

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This user has bpd because of the abuse they went through.

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T.S