just want to feel (un)lost

Georgie Banks • 31 • Raconteur roleplay blog for edenstownrp

[georgiiebanks]

carter-crane‌:

Carter was quiet as she spoke, whatever joke he could make or sarcasm he could use dying on his lips when she handed him the paper. It all triggered something he hadn’t thought about in a really long time, something he had been forced to push to the back of his mind and never speak of. He had discovered that he had a sibling by accident, a party in the Crane household turned into him drunk and in his father’s office, flipping through boring papers with lots of numbers until he found something else. Letters upon letters, requests for money, responses from his father denying but results from a DNA test that proved it all to be true. When he presented it all to his father the following week, his father told him it was disrespectful for him to be snooping, that it was nothing, that he should forget, that he should never mention this to his mother. But holding this now, he knew there was no denying it, he just never guessed that of all people, his sister would be one of the best actors of their time, one of his heroes. “I..” he opened his mouth but stopped himself after a moment, taking a deep breath as he tried to find his words. “My dad…o-our dad, uh, his name is Keaton, and I hate to break it to you but he’s the biggest asshole in the world. I wish he wasn’t your dad, because I wouldn’t wish him on anyone, he’s self-absorbed and he’s never around.” He cleared his throat and sat up, finally looking at her, his expression softening for a moment. “I always wanted a sibling, an older sister kind of seems like winning the lottery but an older sister that’s you? That’s…” he set the paper down and ran his fingers back through his head. “I found out when I was 17 but he told me I was crazy and to forget what I saw. I figured it was best to let it go, I used to be a lot more afraid of him. He’s not..violent just..a real dick.” He took another breath, his smile widening slightly before he held out his hand for her, “Georgie Banks, it’s nice to meet you, I’m Carter Crane, your little brother.”

Georgie wasn’t sure what type of reaction she had expected, but the one she had gotten was... a pleasant surprise. She would have understood if Carter had been in disbelief over the revelation, if he would have wanted some other form of proof to show that she wasn’t pulling his leg and it wasn’t an elaborate prank that she and Thalia were pulling on him, but the story about how he had found out about having a sibling out there when he was younger must have made this moment feel more like vindication than anything. She let out a relieved sigh, a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding in, and a smile came to her face as she took his hand, giving it a shake. “It’s nice to meet you, little brother.” She laughed some as the words left her, feeling foreign but welcome. “Hearing that about him... That’s not necessarily a surprise. I don’t know what happened between him and my birth mother, but... I assume since I was adopted when I was born and I never even knew about him at any point, he didn’t want to be involved. That was partially why I was nervous about reaching out, too. But I’m guessing he’s not here if you said he’s never around, so I guess that doesn’t matter too much.”

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jennaxcooper‌:

“Oh come on little Gummy Bear Cooper-Hunter… you don’t think it’s cute? Pilot Inspektor… that’s… a real name?” she asked, almost in a state of shock by it. This had been exactly what she needed, someone just to talk to her like she was her normal self. “Oh please, you are gorgeous. But if the offer still stands when I am fit for action I will call you” and that much was a promise she did intend to keep. “I might need a little more time to plan that. Besides… I don’t know if I can say yes… this whole place is confusing what I know and what I don’t” and it made no sense to her why he would even want to marry her, she wasn’t special. “Has anything changed on that front? I mean, he must be crazy if he doesn’t see how amazing you are”.

“It’s cute, but it doesn’t seem quite appropriate. And yes, that’s a real name. When I heard about it, that’s when I knew Hollywood had gone a little too far. Pilot by itself isn’t terrible, but it’s still not great,” she replied with a laugh and a scrunch of her nose. “It will always stand, I promise. Just let me know and I’ll be there.” Reaching over, she took Jenna’s hand and gave it a light squeeze. “There’s no rush for anything like that, okay? You just went through one major life event, you don’t need to dive head first into another one unless you’re absolutely sure it’s something you want. If he does bring it up, just be honest with him about where you’re at.” With a light hum, Georgie looked down at her lap. “Not really... We kissed at the Christmas party Thalia and I threw and he told me the timing wasn’t great and then I relapsed later that night, so... I think that’s a sign that I need to let go. It’s not his fault I fell back into old habits, but if I’m tying my sobriety and happiness to the possibility of being with him, then it’s not a healthy attachment and it’s not fair to him. I’m trying to move forward from that, but I have no idea what that looks like.”

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eliclxrk‌:

           “HONESTLY?” Elliot asked, biting back a soft laugh, “Yeah, it’s been fuckin’ weird. I hadn’t really ever planned on coming back at all, you know? I didn’t… Think I had a life in this town anymore,” He continued, biting against the inside of his cheek. Edens Town had, for the longest time, held nothing but terrible memories for him, and being back had stirred up a lot that he hadn’t quite been prepared to deal with immediately, let alone the following pile up that had come from Caleb’s return. All in all, it really seemed like a fucking car crash, but he didn’t have any other option but to get through it. “Yeah… Feels like the takin’ it a day at a time thing was something they conveniently leave out of telling you how to be an adult, huh?” He added, shaking his head.

“Why did you come back? Just for Lily to have some stability?” Georgie asked, tilting her head to the side some as she appraised him. Callie had expressed concern to Georgie a little while ago about why Eli had suddenly come back to Edens, like he hadn’t been telling her the whole truth, and though she wasn’t sure if that was actually the case, she figured it couldn’t hurt to make sure there wasn’t anything more serious going on in his life that had required him to get away in the same way she had. “They leave out a lot of stuff about adulting, let’s be honest. I’m glad I can hire somebody to do my taxes because lord knows I wouldn’t know the first thing to do with that.”

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levi-mccoy‌:

“Well more power to you, honestly. It’s not easy and I don’t say that to be like all sunshine and rainbows and shit, but like to acknowledge something like that and then do something about it, it takes a lot of courage and just like..self love. I had a buddy of mine who I was in community college with, had to walk him to AA a few times, became like his accountability partner, yanno? And talking to him I guess, I never realized how hard it was for him to just like..exist and process shit, yanno? I mean being a human is hard enough. You should feel like super proud of yourself,” he told her with a soft smile. “No? Oh man then that’s definitely our final destination today. It’s my favorite place, yeah. I’ve been going since I was a kid.” He stood up a little straighter and cleared his throat, “My parents aren’t great people, kind of shipped my brother Chase and I off at a young age to my grandma’s, then my grandma passed and we were in and out of foster care but uh, Parkers was like my safe haven, yanno? A place I could go and just be in wonder and I mean quarters are easy to find so it’s like I walked in there and I was rich,” he added with a soft laugh. “And the owner, I kind of grew on him so he’d always let me stay a little later, get some free pizza or fries, always sent me home with a little something. And I mean I’ve been the reigning high score holder for Pacman since I was 15. So yeah, definitely my favorite place. Do you like arcade games? Or like..video games?”

“It’s definitely not easy at all, and I’m grateful that I found a good accountability partner of my own, too. He had no idea who I was when we first met, so I knew it was a good fit,” she replied with a laugh, thinking back to when she and Devon met at her first meeting. There was something so warm and welcoming about the man beside her, something that made her want to open herself up in a way that she normally wouldn’t with complete strangers. And it seemed like he felt the same way with her. It sounded like he had a difficult life from a very young age, but the fact he had an age appropriate outlet must have helped to keep him out of trouble. If only she had been so lucky. “Honestly? I’ve... never been to an arcade before or played many video games. I think the extent of what I played was occasional Nintendo 64 games when we were on set forever ago, but since then, I haven’t gone out of my way to look into any of them. Not that they aren’t fun, but I guess i was always so busy, I rarely had time. You’ll have to show me your favorites.”

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bwildxr‌:

“Food-wise I’m feeling…” He trailed off as he began to ponder the different options Georgie was offering. Of course, they were all pretty good. She wasn’t wrong when she said they couldn’t go wrong with more options. “I’m thinking sandwiches and maybe a pasta salad? Wraps require more brainpower than I really have,” he admitted with a laugh and made a motion towards the house. “Alright, let’s go up and get some food. Then we can grab some of the apples that I dropped on the ground and bring them for the ponies.”

"I am absolutely okay with sandwiches and pasta salad. Those are pretty simple to whip up anyway, so it shouldn’t take us too long. I should probably get washed up first...” Scrunching her nose, Georgie let out a small laugh as she followed Brooks back up to the house, washing her hands and up her arms a bit in the kitchen sink before she went about looking for ingredients to throw their meal together. “Does it ever get lonely out here? I mean, having the animals around is one thing, but I think I’d go a little crazy not having people to talk to super often, but I’m more of an extrovert.”

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jennaxcooper‌:

“Well we haven’t named her yet, that could be a serious option” she joked, knowing that she’d never get Nate to agree, but also knowing she was always going to use it as a nickname. “I’m going to have to change your name in my phone to that. And then join a gym, because I am vain and I need to be thin” which would start with losing the baby weight, however long that would take. “Not really… I don’t even know if he said it. How do I ask if I’m wrong, especially when I don’t want to pressure him into anything. I don’t even know what I’d say if he did ask me”. 

"Oh please don’t! That’s almost as bad as some of the baby names celebrities pick. Poor Pilot Inspektor... that kid’s going to get teased the rest of his life.” Scrunching up her nose, she shook her head. “Hey, if you need someone to workout with, you know I’m right there with you.” Leaning back against the upright hospital bed, she hummed softly as she thought over her words. “Yeah, that would be something awkward to bring up... Maybe you could leave hints around? Like a wedding magazine or something.” She laughed. “I don’t really know, I’m not great with this kind of thing. I’ve been pining after the same person for the last ten years.”

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levi-mccoy‌:

“No, no it sounds really human actually. I mean Hollywood or not everyone knows what it’s like to feel overworked and tired. Everyone needs a break. I mean I can’t believe anyone wouldn’t know who you are but I totally see the benefit of just being another citizen. I bet it can be a lot, huh? I always wondered how people could deal with that. Cameras in your face all the time, I mean one time I was in the supermarket and this tabloid was reporting on the fact that you bought a smoothie. I mean it looked delicious but I’m sure we could all go without knowing.” He laughed as he thought about it and shook his head, sure he was way too shy for that. “I hope it’s not overstepping but do you find that Edens is..an easier place to stay sober? I..I mean I drink but not like a lot but I don’t know, sometimes I feel like everyone kind of thrives off of social drinking. Everyone wants to meet at a bar but then again some would call me childish cause I often like to meet up at Parkers. You ever been? The arcade?”

"Well, you could probably guess how I ended up dealing with it,” Georgie replied with a faint laugh, though it didn’t hold much humor in it. She was still getting used to the idea of admitting she had a problem, admitting that her drinking had spiraled so out of control that she had to uproot her entire life to get the help she needed. “Um... I think it’s easier because there’s not as much access for me. I don’t have to go to all of the Hollywood social parties to stay relevant or rub elbows with people who will encourage me to drink to be social. It’s definitely a prevalent thing everywhere, but even more so in Hollywood. And at least there are only two bars here in town rather than one on every other block, so that helps.” She looked up at him and smiled, shaking her head. “That’s one place I haven’t been yet, no. Is that one of your favorite places?”

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carolineclcrk‌:

           “You don’t have to be this nice to me, I can admit when I’ve given terrible advice to someone, but also be this nice to me, because I’m not sure I could handle if you were mad at me,” Caroline smiled, it was a poor attempt at lightening the mood, but she had to try it, the last thing she wanted was to damp Georgie’s mood with what happened to her over the past couple of weeks. She didn’t know much about addiction, but she knew a lot about sadness and rejection and she could only imagine what Georgie felt like, thinking that it had to hit her pretty hard for her to have reacted the way she did. “Okay good, it’s a very good thing that it’s still cold out, because it means we can just snuggle on the sweet ass blankets you have and ignore the outside world completely, right?” Even if she was giving the offer, it sounded very tempting in her ears. As soon as Georgie mentioned Caleb her face fell. “Yeah— that has been a party… also… I might be fuckin’ my roommate. Not Ella.”

"Your advice wasn’t terrible and I’m definitely not mad at you for it. I’m glad I did, even if all of this happened because now I know I can... move on, I guess. Finally stop holding onto this fairy tale that everything will work out in the end. And we can definitely snuggle under blankets.” Grabbing some plates to put the food she’d prepared onto them for them both, though she dropped the spoon with the sauce onto the stove at Callie’s revelation. “You’re what?” It wasn’t that she knew which roommate she was talking about necessarily, but the fact that she was sleeping with someone after she’d said she wasn’t ready to move on from Christian was... surprising, to say the least. “That’s... wow. How did -- when did that come about?”

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carter-crane‌:

Carter didn’t frequent the house in Kings Park as often anymore but with it going on the market soon he was spending a considerable amount of time going through his things, deciding what he was going to put in storage, what he’d sell or give away or just simply leave behind. So when one of house staff members came upstairs to tell him that Georgie Banks was at the door he was surprised to say the least. He had a million questions but figured it had something to do with Thalia and the movie so he made sure to fix his hair before making his way downstairs, confusion clear on his face but he was definitely happy to see her. He had met her a few times already but it was never not surreal to have Thalia and Georgie so casual in his life, two actors he had admired for a long time. “Well this is a pleasant surprise, to what do I owe the honor? Wait, are you looking to buy my house cause it is for sale? Do you uh, want some water? Sparkling maybe? Diana can we get some sparkling water, please?” He called out into the other room before leading Georgie to the living room to sit, looking at her expectantly.

Georgie wasn’t sure if she was surprised by the comment about moving. After all, she could understand the desire to move out into a smaller space; it was a large place for a family of three to live and she knew how lonely it could be with her own experience of living in her own house in Kings Park. As she followed him further into the house, however, she noted how quiet it was, wondered if her father -- their father -- was anywhere inside. “No, I’ve got my own place, actually, but this is really nice. I’ll pass the word around to anybody who may be looking,” she said with a light laugh, taking a seat on the couch as she ran her fingers over the edges of the folder in her hands. “Um... I wanted to talk to you about something that I discovered recently. It’s a little tough to talk about and probably to hear, but...” Opening up the folder, she pulled out the DNA results from the test she’d taken, the one that had connected her family tree to that of the Crane family, that showed Carter Crane and her as having the same father. “I'm adopted and... I had some medical things happen recently and it made me realize I should maybe look for my birth parents so I could know my history better. When I took a DNA test, it connected my family tree to someone else’s... Yours. I had my results under a fake name because I didn’t want just anyone to know they were related to me in case they... y’know, tried to take advantage of our connection.”

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Text 📲 Georgie Banks 😍

Levi: Hahah I mean I don't need it but it never hurts. ;)

Levi: I mean it's not an easy thing to do but siblings are the best, I'm sure he'll be happy about it. If not now then in the long run.

Levi: There are a lot of ways for this to go but at least you're doing something about it. Deep breathes, you got this!!

Georgie: Then I'll keep it up 🥰

Georgie: That's the hope... But I can keep you updated on how it all goes when we grab dinner later

Georgie: May need lots of dessert, either for celebrating or for drowning my sorrows!

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Text 📲 Georgie Banks 😍

Levi: You're giving my self esteem a way big boost, yanno? I would love that, yeah. Being by the harbor is always super nice.

Levi: Definitely wild but at least you're telling him and not keeping him in the dark. I mean not to be an eternal optimist here but I think anyone who finds out you're their big sister would be pretty damn hyped. Just remember you never did anything wrong so he doesn't have anything to blame you for.

Georgie: I'm surprised you need it! I can't be the only person who thinks that way.

Georgie: To be fair, I've encountered him a few times already and hadn't said anything... I was just way too nervous to bring it up.

Georgie: Even if I didn't do anything wrong, he may not want anything to do with me. I could be a reminder of some family drama I don't know about 😔

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Text 📲 Georgie Banks 😍

Levi: Are you kidding? I'd love that. Especially if we can hang out afterwards though I'd love it if we could hang out when I'm not sweaty and gross, I promise I'm even more cute when I'm showered.

Levi: https://tenor.com/view/embarrassed-shy-blush-blushing-oh-stop-gif-3555006

Levi: Oh wow that's...big. How are you feeling? What's your approach?

Georgie: I don't doubt that at all 🥰 but we can definitely hang out after. Maybe we could grab dinner at that place in the harbor?

Georgie: I'm feeling nervous about it because I've been putting it off for so long already and my approach is to show up and tell him I'm his sister and hope for the best!!

Georgie: Only half kidding... I have the test results for the DNA test that proves we have the same dad in case he doesn't believe me, which why would he considering it's a pretty wild story for someone to tell you out of the blue 😔

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Text 📲 Georgie Banks 😍

Levi: Haha yeah and I've got practice tonight. For the rec team I play on though, not the one I coach

Levi: I most certainly will be, you might see me cruising around town today

Levi: Any big plans today?

Georgie: Oh yeah? Maaaybe I could swing by and watch you practice? If that's okay 🙈

Georgie: Bet you look great in that uniform!

Georgie: Sort of... I'm going to meet my half-brother for the first time?

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Location: The Crane Mansion With: @carter-crane​

Georgie had put it off for too long; she knew that as soon as Thalia had told her that Carter was going to be playing a major role in the movie she was in town to film and she still had yet to approach the younger boy -- her younger brother. Half-brother, but brother nonetheless. She’d been on set a few times and gotten the chance to watch him up close, to observe him and decide what may be the best way to deliver the news she had for him, but she was adept at finding excuses to avoid talking about something that was undoubtedly going to be a difficult conversation. Her hands were shaking as she made her way up to the front door of the mansion, and she tucked one away into her coat pocket as the other pressed the doorbell, putting a smile on her face as the door swung open. “Hi, is Carter home by any chance?” she asked, assuming the person who had answered was a member of the house staff. “My name’s Georgie Banks, if that helps.”

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carolineclcrk‌:

          Callie’s eyebrows knitted together as her slow brain tried badly to understand what Georgie had told her. First, there was a kiss with Bull and then she relapsed? Caroline felt her stomach sink as she pulled Georgie in for another hug. She wanted to tell her she was sorry for encouraging Georgie to take that step, a step that had led her all the way there. She wanted to tell her that Bull was a stupid man, but what good would it really be if he had lied to her and pretended he was ready just to appease her. In the end, she thought that from now on keeping to herself and staying out of other people’s business should do the trick. “I’m sorry Georgie,” she said as soon she released the brunette and took in her tired appearance. Never having an addiction, she certainly couldn’t relate, but she could sympathize and be there for her. “I’m glad to see that you’re gettin’ yourself back together, I really missed you these past few weeks,” she smiled softly, “we could eat and put some movies in and make it a girl’s night in? What do you think? If you don’t want the company you can just kick me out, I promise I won’t be sad.”

Georgie was surprised by the embrace, but she returned it wholeheartedly, giving the other a woman a squeeze as she melted into the touch. In spite of the relative isolation she’d subjected herself to over the last few weeks, she still craved the affection of someone to help her through it. Thalia had provided as much of it as she could for her, but she also was working on a movie that had a deadline and she certainly couldn’t fault her for needing to juggle priorities. “It’s not your fault. Like I said, timing’s just never been our strong suit,” she reiterated, shrugging some once she’d pulled away and offering a smile. “I missed you too, so if you think I’m going to send you away, then I’ll have to question how smart you really are with all that academic knowledge rattling around in your brain.” She let out a laugh. “I’d like that a lot. And you can catch me up on new things happening in your life. Hopefully good things. I met with Eli and he’s... sort of caught me up on some of the crazier things, like your brother coming back.”

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levi-mccoy‌:

“No, no I just need to uh change my shirt and we’re good. It’s only right you get a real tour. I mean I was at your Christmas party and the houses you and Thalia have are probably the size of town,” he joked, still holding his phone in his hands before he started to move. “Just give me like..two minutes, okay?” He jogged back to the gym, his heart racing a bit as he put all the balls away and quickly changed into his extra shirt, using his phone to check himself over before he took a breath. “Play it cool man, play it cool, you got this. She sent a kissy face emoji, no big deal, totally no big deal.” He came back out of the gym a few minutes later, his bag slung over his chest and a basketball tucked under his arm. “You ready? Just gonna drop these in my trunk, weather is nice enough to walk and it’s only right we start with one of my favorite parks.” He stopped by his truck to drop everything in the back before grabbing his hoodie, pulling it on as they started off down the block. “How are you liking it here so far? I mean I imagine it’s pretty different than LA or Beverly Hills.”

Georgie couldn’t help the smile that came to her face as she watched Levi hurry off to get ready, finding a bench out in the hall that she could sit on as she waited for him to avoid the chill of the night air outside. Standing when he returned, she nodded enthusiastically and followed out of the building, her hands tucked away inside of her coat pockets as she walked leisurely beside him. “It is pretty different, but that’s what I like about it,” Georgie said with a shrug and a smile, turning her attention up towards him. “I grew up out there and that’s... been my life. I’ve never really known small town comforts, so having such a tight-knit community accept me so openly and becoming a regular at a place where someone doesn’t even necessarily know who you are outside of there? It’s... really nice. I’ve needed it, that anonymity of sorts. It’s helping to ground me, keep me center. God, that sounded really Hollywood, didn’t it? I just mean it’s been difficult to get myself to a place where I need to be when I’ve been stuck in the grind of work and Hollywood parties for so long. I just needed to get out for a while.”

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eliclxrk‌:

                 ELLIOT smiled in response, chuckling lightly, “Hey, if there’s one thing I think I’m good at, it’s listening. Honestly, though, you need anything, I got good shoulders for leaning on, too,” He added, a teasing tone making its way back into his voice. He run a hand through his hair, “Stability is always a good thing. God knows I’ve always had a lack of that in this town,” He continued, sighing shortly. His relationship with his parents had been non existent for years - and although that wasn’t a topic he wanted to get into, he was hoping that with Caleb being back, at least the Clark siblings would be able to put some part of their lives back together. “I can imagine, though. How are you holdin’ up with that?”

"Has it been weird being back here? Especially with everything that’s happened since you got back?” Though she didn’t know all of the details about what happened within the Clark family, Georgie had known that the children’s relationship with the parents was strained when she had never really met them. One would figure that if they had been in a relationship for a year or so, regardless of how fake it was, that the parents would have been interested in meeting her, but that hasn’t seemed to be the case. “I think, all things considered, it’s probably one of the least stressful things on my plate right now,” she admitted with a light laugh. “Just trying to take it one day at a time, y’know? That’s all you can do sometimes.”