My Digital Sketchbook (Minus The Sketches)

Kaleidoscope | They/them/theirs Not a bot, just blind on an only partly BVI accessible website That’s why the layout of the blog is so ass Fanfic/OC/Fandom sideblog — www.not-a-bot-just-blind.tumblr.com Many sideblogs are probably soon to follow. I’m an aspiring novelist, training to be a part time transcriptionist, a witch and somebody who has so many little guys running around in my head that it’s probably considered a mental illness in at least 17 countries/territories

[get-away-sticks]

Hey all, bit of an announcement / call for help

My partner and I are saving up money so we can eventually move in together. This would require me to pick up and leave my state in the southwestern US to move to eirs up in the Midwest by the Canadian border. This isn’t a post for me to beg for money, but I am here asking for attention. Making money is tricky for us both, as we’re both disabled. I receive SSI each month, but my partner hasn’t been able to get eirs yet, even though ey’ve been assured eir whole life that they wouldn’t have any problems getting it set up—beyond the problems that Social Security already has for everyone going through the process.

Because of this, I’m posting here to try opening up writing commissions. If you can’t buy anything or aren’t interested, it would mean a lot to me if you’d share this post around, especially if you think you know anyone who might want to purchase a story from me.

For examples of my writing, style and skill level both, please check out my AO3: Hunnie_Merrigolde. I only post fanfiction there, but I’m open to writing anything. Fic, original works, essays if I’m versed in the topic enough, etc.

My price for right now is based on word count. $2 for every 100 words with a minimum of 500 words and no maximum limit as of right now. Depending on if I’m writing smut or something particularly disturbing or mentally taxing, the price may increase, but that’d be decided on a case by case basis. I’ll take half of the payment up front and the other half upon completion. My current payment methods are Zell, ApplePay and CashApp, the details of which will be discussed privately with any future clients.

Thank you for your time and attention, it means a lot right now

[killjamxxx]

faustina fetamine autistically infodumps funki fox fujiko lore at you while cleaning the blood off of gutter asmr

[get-away-sticks]

As some of you may know, I’m blind. Fully blind, no light, no color, no nothing. I’ve always been visually impaired, but only went fully blind in the summer of 2020.

Before then, I was very into visual art mediums. Painting, pastels, but especially digital art. I can’t very well do that anymore, but I recently bought a product—the Sensational Blackboard—meant to help the blind draw on paper, and I’ll actually be meeting basically the official spokesman that first informed me of its existence later this year.

i decided a while ago that I want to document my progress of relearning how to draw using the board, so consider this basically day 1. I’m not going to be posting progress reports every day, but I will post whenever I complete a new drawing that isn’t just doodling individual things for practice. If anyone’s interested in seeing those pages, I can absolutely put them up. For now though, here’s the first finished piece:

I don’t completely like how it came out, but I’m expecting that. I felt the same way when I was first learning to draw. It’ll take time, as annoying as that is. I’m going to keep trying though.

for anyone who doesn’t know, the character is from my favorite audio drama, Killjam XXX. Originally, I was trying to draw one of the two main leads, Faustina. I wanted to give her glasses with an athletic strap and bangs that touched the topside of the frames. Partway through drawing the hair though, I realized that the shape felt more like her agent, Anna (who, incidentally, I didn’t know had a K in her surname until just now when checking the spelling XP). I didn’t draw her mouth because I knew I’d fuck it up, and the blackboard only works with tools that can’t be erased. Was going to give her a pearl necklace, but I like the choker more, though I’ll definitely be refining it as I practice more

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[get-away-sticks]

Killjam headcanon that’s been bouncing around my brain for a bit:

Faustina, in some very subtle, not automatically obvious way, has some similarity to Hot Pink that Bellamy is unconsciously aware of. Could be in appearance—maybe Hot Pink had the same kind of huge grin that Faustina has. Or it could be something more than skin deep, like them having the same favorite soda. Another possibility that I think is just subtle enough is how they sit in a chair. Both fold one leg under them or have their knee pulled up or maybe just sitting cross legged, stuff like that

[get-away-sticks]

Anybody know where I can find a compilation of Blue’s BHC voicelines? I’m obsessed with Mr Amazing’s portrayal and would love to just listen to it without having to watch a full playthrough or go back through the game myself. I can’t even do the latter anyway since I’d need to get my partner on a call with me—that’s how I experienced the game in the first place, played through it over Discord together on Monday

[jaiofalltrades]

i really enjoy that i’m experiencing dashcon 2 in the same way that my forefathers experienced the original dashcon: though sporadic bursts in chaotic photos. i have no damn clue what’s going on except the ball pit is tiny, strange aeons won the duel and ousted the muppet joker, there was a live in person kung pow penis, and someone cosplayed the children’s hospital

[strange-aeons]

Some other facts for the history books:

1. The muppet joker's panel was a puppet show re-enactment of his magnum opus (Kermit x joker bible)

2. Other tumblr memes I saw cosplays of: Gandalf big naturals, weed smoking gfs, Goncharov, Color of the sky

3. Three couples allegedly got engaged in the ball pit. Two stood up and identified themselves during closing ceremonies but the third is still a bit of a mystery

4. Robespierre objected to us having a ball pit monarch and tried to behead test her for rabies. It's okay I chased him off with my big scary blade

5. The crow exchange (where people trade little trinkets and shinies) was wildly popular. Excellent hauls were acquired

6. There was an insane heat wave in Toronto that weekend and everyone who had photoshoots in the courtyard is so brave and powerful holy shit

[get-away-sticks]

I am begging you, Dashcon gods, let there be a Dashcon 2 II. I desperately want it to be the first con my gf and I go to. We got our costumes figured out last night and everything. Ey’ll go as Tumblr and I’ll be AO3 and we’ll be engaged ToT

[get-away-sticks]

Picture this. Ink smokes weed. Don’t question the logistics of human drugs working on monsters—it’s a plant so it’s fine.

ink uses a bong. What does the bong look like? It can’t just be rainbow or gradient glass, there’s something better than that. Give a guy a hand? Do they put stickers on it? What shape is it? H e l p-

[get-away-sticks]

Normally when I write Kinktober stuff, I try to stay vaguely in the same canon I’ve been crafting with my current special interest. Then I started thinking of the OC I write as just another CC and it’s made it so much more fun. Why box myself in when the point of fanfiction is to have fun and explore different stories with the same characters?

all this to say that I found this one AMAZING Horror x Listener audio and it gave me some... very fun ideas...

off to my shame cubby to write skeleton porn!!!

[podcast-bookclub]

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[killjamxxx]

WE LOVE THE PODCAST BOOK CLUB!!! And the KILLJAM XXX Team is there!

It’s also the only place where you can attend the official weekly KILLJAM XXX listen parties, every Wednesday at 2 PM, EST!

Join up and say hi!!

[get-away-sticks]

Got the chance to go to that first Killjam listening party yesterday and it was amazing!!! Anyone who likes the show or even just the people involved should drop by—at the risk of sounding like a parasocial asskisser lmao-

[get-away-sticks]

Will Mr.Tumblr ban my account if I make fun of him for how inaccessible the app is?

And if so, could I sue him for ableism in response and potentially make millions from the lawsuit?

Asking for a friend...

[killjamxxx]

How do you guys come up with names for stuff? The thought just came to mind while I listened to the new episode. Like, I wondered before, but this one really made me focus on the universe specific words and names :0

Good question!! A lot of the time, we just go with what sounds right.

For character names, names that just sound like the vibe of the character (like Faustina Fetamine and Joe Dirge), for Jammer names, we love puns (Drill Bitch being a play on Drill Bit and Mother Hysteria being a play on Mother Superior), and for technology, we often have fun with contractions, like turning Medical Booth into MediBooth.

It varies from case to case, but we always just try to go with what sounds cool and fitting.

[myotherblogisinthewash]

Imo Killjam XXX does an *amazing* job of displaying the differential naming convention we see in society. As said by OP, it makes total sense for jammers to have names like wrestlers, they need a name that's fun and sticks in your head, wordplay is such a great way to do that!!! In addition, you have Medibooth! So many products are named or patented under such naming schemes of combination for easy interpretation of utility

It really speaks highly to the craftsmanship that goes into the show!!!

[get-away-sticks]

Hard agree. It makes me wonder about another question I have regarding names. Are the names Jammers use their actual legal names or just pseudonyms? Like, does Mother Hysteria’s birth certificate say Bullet Babe on it?

Because Faustina was canonically seventeen when she started her career, we know that Jammers aren’t always adults, like they didn’t just emerge from within a giant machine. It really makes me wonder about the histories everyone has. Is Mara Faustina’s de facto mother, or did she have an actual parental presence as a child? Did Drill Bitch ever hang crayon drawings on the fridge, or was her only childhood hobby training to kill other women? Hell, what about Jesse? How was their life before the transition?

In short, my questions are endless and they translate into endless fanfic potential :P

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[get-away-sticks]

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[j-nor-deactivated20251222]

Her pussy was like a cavern that echoed with the sonorous cries of the damned

[killjamxxx]

We can’t be the only team who imagines scenarios where our characters are hanging out with characters from other audio dramas, right? 😭

[killjamxxx]

I’m sorry to send another thing so quickly, but this is a genuine question

Is there anywhere I can go to get a general idea of what the characters look like? I’m completely blind, so I can’t see any promo stuff or fanart, and I’m not sure if there’s a detailed wiki up yet since the show’s only been live for two weeks

For both general imagination purposes and potential fanfic ones lmao-

That’s an excellent question!!

We have public official art of Faustina and Bellamy, which we’ll describe in a second, but even then, if people have an imagined version of Faustina and Bellamy that they prefer, we totally encourage them to go with that! We love letting audience members engage their imaginations, and we love hearing what comes to people’s minds when they listen to the show.

That aside, we’ll give you what we’ve got on Faustina and Bellamy, and while we don’t have fixed canon designs on the other characters, we can tell you what details about them are canon confirmed.

So, Faustina!

She’s a short, stocky woman with light blue skin and purple hair, tied into buns shaped like little hearts. She wears a neon sports bra and shorts with a pink jacket tied around her waist. She often gives big, manic smiles that show off her pointy teeth, and when she accessorizes, she favors a pink choker with a little golden heart pendant, and extra grip cloves. And she’s Thicc. That’s important too, because she takes pride in her thiccness. Gutter is a large, pink machete with a hooked end, perfect for tearing out guts!

Bellamy is the opposite - He’s a lanky string bean with messy red hair and sharp features. He wears clothes that you can tell are attempting to look cool and classy, but actually show how little he’s got in the way of resources: Patched up skinny jeans, an old waistcoat over his button-up shirt, and a little golden bow tie. Oh, and one of his arms has been amputated, replaced by a large, archaic cybernetic, painted camo colors and held together with duct tape.

As for the rest of the main cast, here are the only deets that are fixed:

Mara is Black, she mainly wears pantsuits these days, and all of her limbs are retro cybernetics.

Mr. Dirge is built like a brick shithouse, with one cybernetic hand and one cybernetic eye. Likes three piece suits.

Kasha is a humanoid, hairless sphinx cat - a bingus, if you will.

And the rest is all in the ears of the beholder. We hope this has helped, thanks so much for being an awesome fan of the show! 💙

[willgrahamscock]

why would you ever outsource fun to chatgpt? are you stupid? you can make mediocre shit by yourself too.

[willgrahamscock]

you're missing out on all the crazy euphoric moments where you execute an idea flawlessly, sending it to your friends and feeling the genuine happiness at their reactions to something you made authentically. you're robbing yourself of something beautiful.

and I get it, writers block, artists block, depression can really be terrible, but once you break out of it (and you will) it will feel like climbing Mount Everest.

[willgrahamscock]

peace and love on planet earth! you are saving the environment AND you’re cool!