Okay, so last night (at like 4am, of course) I sat and I wrote down all of the things I would like for myself to have achieved by the end of this year.
Lose 56 pounds (weight in at 130 pounds - instead of 186 - and put me smack dab in the healthy range of BMIs at 21) I know it seems like a ton of weight to be dropping in like, what, 3 or 4 months? but still. I feel like it needs to happen, and if I don't write down that number, if I don't spell it out for myself, I'm afraid I won't work as hard as I need to to eventually get there. So there it is!
Run every single day (except for Sundays, because those are rest days and we all need those, right?!) I'm not much of a runner, per se, and I never really have been. I played sports in high school and I ran track, but I was a hurdler and a sprinter. So I'm trying to work up my endurance and stamina in order to be able to run about a half an hour a day.
Love yourself (while you're a work in progress, too!) This has always been a tricky category for me, so I've decided to work on that, too. It's been tough for me to accept who I am for what I am, and I'm tired of living that way. So I'm going to look in the mirror each day and love what I see, whether I've yet to reach my goal or not.
Spend time with God everyday (okay, so I know this may not be for everyone) I've felt myself drifting from my faith lately, and it's not something I enjoy. I feel disconnected from my church family and I find myself feeling hopeless a lot, so my goal is to do some Bible reading every night and pray every night and every morning. Just something to center myself and remind myself why I really want to do this.
Keep up your grades (at least, don't lose sight of them for all of this other stuff you're working on) I'm still a college student, by all means, and I can be easily distracted. So, PRIORITIES.
Stay organized (like, really organized, AND MEAN IT) Okay, so I have this terrible habit of making 800 schedules for every day and then I end up just sleeping anyway. In the end, I'm hoping that this won't be the case anymore because I'll have a r o u t i n e, even though I absolutely hate that word.
NO more pop (or soda.. or soda pop.. whatever you call it) I'm from Iowa, okay? And here, it's pop. You know, that bubbly, carbonated, 27 flavored, nectarine of the gods? Yeah, Dr. Pepper is my weakness. My kryptonite.
STAY AWAY FROM BLACK OLIVES (funny story about this here.) So recently I had these really random allergic reactions, where my lips swell up to massive sizes like you've never seen, and I've had to go to the ER and get a prescription for epipens.. the whole 9 yards, as they say. It turns out, I'm allergic to black olives - which is super horrible because I LOVE, LOOOOVEE, LOOOOOVVVEEEE, black freaking olives, and have eaten millions of them in various sittings throughout my lifetime. Can't do that anymore though! Unless, you know, I possibly want my throat to swell shut and then I could die and all that fun jazz.
Less cursing (haha, again) alright, I have a terrible little potty mouth, and I'm not too proud of it. I wanna be the good girl my momma expects me to be, okay?! So, I'm trying to clean up my act... or my tongue, I guess?
Don't give up on yourself (ever, ever, everrr) I have this terrible tendency to doubt myself at the first sign that I'm not doing everything 100% perfectly. I blame myself. For, well, pretty much, everything. And anything. And I need to stop. That's all there is to it.
Put your needs first, now is about you (not to sound narcissistic here) I have this other terrible tendency to forget what it is that I want, or even what I need and, again, it's something I need to quit. Drop it like a bad habit! I forget that other people can do things for themselves, and sometimes it's okay to let them. I can't fix everything, or everyone, and I need to be cool with that.
